My 'astral beings' — Now the scary bit: what I was really dealing with

 

Now the scary bit — What I was really dealing with

— Except that it's inspirational rather than scary, once you really understand…

Welcome to my 'Beware of the Philip' salutary narrative!

I've already referred to Gordon Hughes (henceforth abbreviated to GH), of Stoke Gabriel, Devon, who made the sacred geometry wands that I'd been using. He's figured quite a bit in my story, and is a very instructive example of how people who believe or at least claim that they're 'healers' and 'lightworkers', and who work with supposed higher beings and 'higher energies' are actually ALL working with the garbage and are NOT the sort of people to go to at all for genuine and safe healing, free from the risk of picking up 'entities', elementals or garbage connections, or indeed compounding one's own extant 'entity' / garbage-related problems.

Indeed, it isn't just a matter of inadvertently causing or compounding their clients' victims' problems, because in some cases, particularly for clients who are no-soul people with a 'sniff-it-out' configuration, there is an actual intent to destroy the person through psychic attack scenarios — reducing them to broken intractable psychiatric cases or indeed to carrion (i.e., yes, to murder them by any other name). My own case here illustrates that clearly, so let's remember that being forewarned is also being forearmed!

Let me bring together here a summary of the various problems GH brought me — and the increasingly strange and highly problematical ways he was behaving towards me (indeed, quite unprofessional as a healer, 'teacher' and 'lightworker', and indeed as a business person), which show that he had some very serious issue of his own relating to me, and this wasn't just a matter of some petty personality clash between the two of us.

Owing to the seriousness of my findings about him, I originally self-consciously attempted to hint at rather than openly state what my findings were, about his motivations and intent towards me. Much more recently I've become considerably bolder about that and have stated my findings openly here, because this is an account of a rational and objective piece of detective work, and by trying to censor my findings in order to avoid upset in or censure from certain quarters I was failing the people who this site is for. You will still no doubt notice how I was struggling with myself about how much to openly say when I was writing the body of this account, though I've rectified most of that now.

The sequence of events and observations

The main chronological sequence is in list form and clearly identified by the pale blue panel below. That is then followed by the various points of further discussion.

Note that GH had assured me at various times, right from the beginning, as I know he assures other prospective customers, even up to right now as I add this note in 2022, that all the programming he (purportedly) puts on his wands is from pure Light, and it ensures that nothing negative, 'dark' or harmful can 'take' on the wands, whatever anyone tries to do with them. He says or writes all that in an authoritative tone that sounds greatly convincing, even though he has no genuine means to know that that is the case, because it's presumably just what his non-physical 'guidance' had told him and he'd 'believed' (i.e., passed on) without question.

Indeed, as I heavily imply above, that was complete deception, especially as he has a hopelessly deluded idea of what this metaphysical 'Light' he speaks of actually is (i.e., just one of the illusory manifestations of the garbage), and, as we'll see, he himself put seriously harmful programming on at least some of the wands he supplied to me, and was misusing them in other seriously harmful ways in addition!

Those final two wands…

In January 2008, with much greater clarity and freedom from garbage interference, by means of inner inquiry I was at last able to clarify just what those final two wands actually would have been. As already remarked, they must have been old prototype wands of his, which he'd retrieved from somewhere to substitute for the ones I'd ordered, because he'd been determined that he'd never make those final two wands that I'd ordered, and so he'd never made them!

For some reason [actually an important reason, which I worked out in October 2008 — see the next section, Final accounting on this matter, a little further below] he'd nonetheless been happy to accept my money for the nonexistent wands initially (at which time he'd told me they were completed) and wasn't willing to refund my money subsequently. As I say, it must have been something about £400 for the two, though because I paid in cash and there was no receipt or other paperwork, and I had for extremely good reason (see below) summarily disposed of the wands that he did send, I've no workable grounds for a legal claim for a refund.

I'd point out, though, that in ethical terms a full refund is still due. Despite all his claims to have been working only for my highest good, he ended up behaving as a criminal towards me — indeed, it would appear, not just a common or garden scammer but a would-be actual assassin / murderer… (Yep, I really hadn't been expecting to have cause to say that about anyone! )

In fact those final two wands were indeed carrying extremely harmful programming (much more harmful and powerful than in the other sacred geometry wands I had, and it would have quite rapidly destroyed the user's health and had him dead within a year), and had been attuned to me, so I was clearly the target of that potentially lethal programming.

Thank goodness I'd summarily discarded those final two wands and so had suffered really minimal harm from them (and what harm I did sustain would have very soon been rapidly healed by the powerful self-actualization process that I began in earnest just the following month)!

So, let this be a warning about people who are seen as 'healers' and 'lightworkers'. They may believe they're working for 'the Light', but they don't realize that that 'Light' is itself of the garbage, for the whole polarity of light / dark (other than directly relating to physical light) is an illusory concept sourced from the garbage in order to lead us into illusory realities and away from the 'real' and fully healthy reality of our underlying true nature.

Such 'healers' / 'lightworkers' are almost universally oblivious of the serious garbage interference and control they're getting, which would cause them, awarely or unawarely, to try to do extremely harmful things to anyone who the garbage has cause to try to take over, wreck or outright eliminate.

Thankfully, despite my confusions I'd been fundamentally still sufficiently grounded and clear-minded to clear myself of the multitude of means by which the garbage had sought to 'get' me — GH having been the prime unwitting 'puppet' of the garbage for this purpose, though other 'healers' also unwittingly played lesser roles in the same broad attempt of the garbage to thoroughly 'nobble' and wreck me because the programming of the garbage was picking up such strong 'threat' stimuli from my own underlying life task, which included enabling the garbage's dissolution to happen.

Now do you see particularly the importance of the self-actualization methods given or pointed to on this site? They're all things you do to open yourself up in a healthy, grounded way, and, provided you have the motivation, you can easily heal and clear all your emotional issues and karmas and clear from yourself all 'entities' and garbage interferences, and rapidly move towards optimal self-actualization, with no need to involve yourself with so-called 'healers' and 'lightworkers', therapists and gurus and all the serious problems they bring with them (not least, their beliefs).

In that way you have no complications of depending upon people who most likely would be unawarely running garbage agendas that are not in the slightest for your true best interests.

You can be sure that I wasn't 'just unlucky' in coming across GH, and if it hadn't been GH, another 'healer' / 'lightworker' would have been 'guided' to take on an equivalent role for me at about that time. Indeed, Dalibor Zaviska's getting in touch with me to offer his services at the end of 2006 can be seen as exactly that sort of thing happening. As GH was shutting himself off from me, so another was guided to come along and unawarely start doing harmful things to me, in his case apparently believing he was helping me — but at least I got clear of his influence at a relatively early stage, and now can't be interfered with like that again because I'm completely self-sufficient at last in my self-actualization and 'entity' / garbage interference clearance process.

Final accounting on this matter

On a series of occasions in late October 2008, each time I had a strong connection temporarily made with GH's non-physical aspects via a photo of him, I took the liberty of using inner inquiry based on Helpfulness Testing to get a relatively direct 'reading' from his own deepest aspects as to what had really been going on. Some results I got from that were distorted by my still seeking to give him too much benefit of any doubt, and I've deleted them from here to improve clarity, but I did still pick up some useful pointers.

I must emphasize that by the very nature of using such inner inquiry methods, the results I got need to be regarded as being somewhat provisional, though it does have to be said that they do appear to convincingly 'tie up' many aspects of this whole unedifying saga. Thus the 'confirmations' that I got need to be seen as somewhat provisional ones (i.e.,'confirmation' in quotes), and the following observations and interpretations need thus similarly to be regarded as being likewise somewhat provisional, though their almost certain validity is pointed to by the way that they collectively tie up all the obvious loose ends that would otherwise have been left crying out for explanation.

With regard to the final, potentially lethal pair of wands, I do now have the picture, including the reason why GH held onto my money and eventually, under pressure from me, supplied something that was clearly not what I'd ordered, rather than simply refund my money. Helpfulness Testing apparently from his own deepest aspects revealed that even at the time of taking my money there was an intent to send me if necessary (i.e., if I wasn't already dead by then) a pair of wands that were not truly what I'd ordered and which would contain lethal programming to ensure my early demise.

GH would therefore hold onto my money and not supply the wands I'd ordered, to give him the opportunity to supply (if/when necessary) the pair of lethal wands later on without arousing my suspicion. So you see, it wasn't cricket at all, that I was in fact more than just suspicious, and promptly disposed of those wands! That really wasn't fair of me, was it — my not giving him a chance!

In early 2005 he made for me a special, custom, wand that I'd asked him to produce. Little did I know that at that point I myself had been 'guided' by the garbage actually to ask him for the means of his first direct attempt on my life by means of a wand — for that's what that wand represented!

This tied in with the mysterious April 2005 workshop already mentioned, which I now unequivocally understand to have been for the purpose of setting up then a very major attempt on my life by means of a particular psychic attack strategy, in which that custom wand was supposed to play a part. GH had asked me to bring that wand to the workshop, and under his direction I'd carried out procedures intended to connect that wand energetically with Stonehenge, the Avebury structures, Glastonbury Tor and all the crystals that I'd buried in those places.

The purpose of making all those connections, and indeed his supplying to me the six Great-Pyramid-connected quartz crystals, was to create powerful 'energy' connections to me that would then be used to destroy me. The very notion that such connections could have a beneficial grounding and healing effect for anyone, as GH had been claiming to me in 2005, is every bit as bizarre as claiming the sun to be a hippopotamus and the moon an alien spaceship!

It's thus pretty well impossible nowadays for me to imagine that GH didn't really know the real purpose of those connections. I'd reluctantly accepted his claims at that time only because I'd still been naively trusting him in my desperate situation then, and not fully heeding my clamouring inner warning signals.

However, that wasn't the end of that mischief, because I'd enthusiastically followed my 'guidance' and used that wand to share those 'Earth energy' connections with at least some of the moldavite that I was wearing. So, although I soon lost interest in the lethal wand, I'd passed on its apparently potentially lethal 'earth energy' connections to items that I was wearing most days — two pendants and a bracelet. Moldavite itself is quite harmful enough even when it's not being used as a channel for a major psychic attack!

Another strange anomaly that's now explained is a change I noticed in my Archangel Michael wand at about the time that the alleged connections with the two purportedly buried wands were made in 2005. Previously to that point I'd actually felt a very pleasant-seeming 'energy' from that wand, for apparently it did have some 'healing' function* in its programming, despite its overall harmfulness.

However, at the time the purported special connections were made with it, it seemed to go 'dead', and I couldn't feel any obvious 'energy' about it at all. That was most peculiar, because it was then supposed to be connected to two powerful angel wands and thus I should have been getting considerably stronger energy from it. So, as I no longer felt anything from it I lost interest in using it.

The reason for that change was apparently that its programming had either vanished or had become modified so that it was ineffective and had no further healing function for me, and was then just a vehicle for destructive energies to be channelled to me.

According to GH's own deepest aspects, as indicated by my Helpfulness Testing, he believed that if all the measures recounted above had gone to plan I'd have been dead by the end of 2005*, which was what his 'guidance' was predicting to him. However, I proved much more resistant than expected to the attempts to disrupt my non-physical aspects in that way — not least because I always felt great unease about the custom 'Personal Wand'** because of what I now understand to have been very strong warning signals that my own deepest aspects were giving me about it — so I never used that wand much, and lost interest in it pretty soon.

Similarly, as indicated above, I lost interest in the Archangel Michael wand once it felt 'dead' to me. However, more fundamentally, I was too detached from the whole belief system (illusory reality) that GH had passed to me, in which the supposed 'Earth energies' could be used in such a way, for me to be all that vulnerable to the ongoing attempts to destroy me through those 'energy' connections.

However, those destruction attempts were still a very major weakening factor for me*, helping to explain the continuing severity of the attacks that I was getting, and the difficulty and slowness of my getting clear of all that. My real clearance process didn't even begin till I bought my first Energy Egg in July 2006 — though my having taken up The Work earlier that year had been laying something of a foundation by significantly weakening various illusory realities in my mindspace that the garbage had been able to exploit in its interferences and attacks.

Now, about GH's Live simply! mantra repeated at me, and his recommendation of my decamping to the Findhorn community. It appears that he was indeed seeking to get me out of the way.

Suffice it to say that, within the illusory reality in which all those supposed Earth energy connections to me had been made, the Findhorn area is widely believed to be very strong in its 'Earth energies', with a number of what get called 'power points' there, which people visit a lot because they extremely misguidedly believe them to be 'spiritually enhancing'. GH was well aware of that fact.

As far as I can ascertain from my own inner inquiry based on Helpfulness Testing, if those supposed energy connections to me that GH had had me make at the April 2005 workshop had been actually effective upon me, at Findhorn the attack through those connections would have been amplified by the strong 'Earth energies' there, and, over a short period my health would have been destroyed and, if I'd stayed there for more than a few weeks I'd have died.

Fortunately for me, my lack of attachment to the whole 'Earth energy' belief meant that even when I was at Findhorn those destructive effects, which indeed were actually happening for me there, though at an almost negligible level, were outweighed by the healing effects of the real, non-illusory 'energies' or resonances of that area — especially because of the continuing groundedness of most of my awareness (despite the poor grounding then of the rest of it).

Such real healing effects of the land in that whole region are actually nothing specific to Findhorn but are actually experienced quite widely in the whole of the northern part of Scotland, including the whole of the Highlands. Hence so many people being drawn there despite all its weather and midge tribulations. That's NOT a 'spiritual' thing, but simply a positive and life-enhancing 'resonance', and owes nothing to the 'Earth energies' so believed-in by 'healers', psychics and New Age, mystical and paganistic traditions.

Those harmful (albeit illusory) Earth energy connections started very gradually dissolving once I'd bought my first Energy Egg in July 2006, and that dissolution accelerated the following year as I took up the beginnings of my current self-actualization methodology. This was actually an important part of the clearance / healing process that enabled my right knee to recover from the outbreak of arthritis in it, which had followed my September 2006 attack crisis.

Actually I'd been getting warnings all along!

Having got so far in writing this account, I can now reveal that, right from the very first time GH came to my flat to deliver some of the wands, I'd guiltily felt a seemingly fanciful little niggling at the back of my mind, that there was something about him that suggested that he could be up to no good with me, and could even be seeking to kill me (a faint mental image of him knifing me in the back as we hug)!

I always felt a faint sort of sly menace in his manner and 'vibes' — as though he were just a little too quietly and peacefully spoken (reminded me slightly of the odd repellent murderous gangsters I'd seen on TV when I'd had the latter inflicted on me when visiting 'friends'), even though otherwise I took him to be 'squeaky clean' as a 'lightworker', and I kept brushing aside this preposterous little fantasy-notion that kept coming up, and, yes, I was feeling slightly guilty at entertaining such a notion. Even the photo of him on his website (which he changed since, actually for one in which he looked to me more overtly menacing*) seemed very ambiguous, implying a hidden threat in his apparently very peaceful and horrendously ungrounded appearance.

Let me emphasize here that I was NOT at all disposed to have such misgivings about 'healers' and 'lightworkers' then. Indeed I quite mistakenly regarded them generally as people of impeccable character — at least, aside from the matter of various obviously unsuitable people who got themselves certificated as so-called Reiki Masters.

My understanding now is that what I was picking up was pretty well constant red warnings about him that were issuing from my own deepest aspects. If I'd had a genuine Helpfulness Testing method then, no doubt at all I'd have picked up an unambiguous inner warning about him and his wands on first sighting of the advert that had initially drawn me to GH, and would have had nothing to do with him, and indeed where appropriate I'd have warned others about him and his offerings.

As it was, I persistently misinterpreted those warnings as just little bits of unhelpful fantasy of mine — except that nonetheless I did feel to be just a little bit on guard about him, and on the lookout for any sign that he might be up to something untoward. But then, when the clearer signs started coming, I was so desperate for assistance to get clear of the 'entity' interferences and attacks that I kept waving aside all the inner niggling 'fantasy notions' about him, and kept giving him the benefit of the doubt — again and again!

I say this, however, not in any sort of self-recrimination, but to show how anyone can be led astray even when their own deepest aspects are giving them constant warnings. Indeed, my retrospective recognition of those warnings has been part of a very positive learning process of mine, in that I'm becoming much more adept nowadays at recognising the subtle hints and 'nudges' that emanate from my own deepest aspects, and heeding them (backed up by Helpfulness Testing) instead of hanging onto any preconceived notions or falling for any messages or pseudo-thoughts intruded into my mindspace by any 'external' unseen source.

By this means I know that right up to the present time I've repeatedly been able to avoid or give brush-offs (diplomatic or otherwise!) to a succession of people whose garbage interferences would have caused me endless serious problems if I'd given any of them the benefit of the doubt in the way that I did with GH, and actually got engaging with them.

Meet one predicted great enemy of the 'Higher Plan for Humanity'!

From a much later perspective, in 2017, my inner inquiry supported a revised interpretation of GH's behaviour on his visit to me on 8 December 2003, which tallied with the early impressions of him that I've noted above.

According to the new interpretation, what had elicited GH's 'astonished' laughter was intimations from his 'guidance' (which, whatever it was identifying itself as, was of course the garbage) that I was a particular predicted seriously major ENEMY of the (purported) 'Higher Plan for Humanity', and I was at that point walking straight into the trap and process of my destruction that he'd already been guided by the (purported) Higher Powers to start implementing.

On that basis, then, it looks as though all his subsequent strange and emotionally disturbed behaviours towards me can be seen to have been a result of his increasing anguish as he was repeatedly failing in his various garbage-directed attempts to destroy me using the various psychic attack scenarios and methods that his 'guidance' took him through setting up — his anguish and fear escalating as it eventually became apparent that I wasn't only surviving the succession of attempts on my life but was showing clear signs of becoming stronger and indeed increasingly immune to all the available and applicable psychic attack methods, and then, to cap it all, I was clearly beginning to question what he was really up to in his dealings with me, and really beginning to smell a rat.

If you stop and think about it, no other explanation would tally so precisely with both his overtly strange behaviours and his overall clearly concealing pertinent information from me. If there were a less serious reason for all that concealment, surely the latter wouldn't have been so consistent and wouldn't have been so loaded with fraught emotional undercurrents the whole time! — And let's also remember that crucial 'blurt' in his final email to me: his threat to call the Police if I emailed him again! He clearly had 'Police' associated with me in his mind, which surely tells us about a particular BIG anxiety of his!

I also expect that the garbage was giving him considerably exaggerated expectations of the effectiveness (for most target people) of the attack methods he was using anyway, as I'm fairly sure it does with all practitioners who supposedly do 'magic' (including psychic attacks). And, if my own direct experience of the garbage and cacoprotean network is anything to go by, most likely the poor bugger would have had the completely fictitious story repeatedly pushed on him, that because he was failing in his crucial task to save the whole (garbage-sourced) 'Human Plan' from destruction by this funny little man here, he was due for the most horrendous karmic retribution, which would go on for aeons beyond the current lifetime.

Why no attempts to kill me by physical means?

At face value it looks quite bizarre that there have been no noticeable attempts to 'bump me off' physically.

At a conscious level I can't claim fully to understand that, though it should be pretty obvious that the Law of the land can get at people who physically harm or kill other people, whereas, not just here on Earth, but, my inner inquiry suggests, pretty generally throughout all other reasonably developed human-type planetary civilizations currently, the Law can't effectively deal with harm and death caused by psychic attack, thanks to the lack of awareness of what's really going on with regard to psychic- / occult- related issues. — Yet I've known of cases where the garbage / cacoprotean network has motivated individuals to kill others.

My inner inquiry has consistently supported the hypothesis that my particular 'hyper-tweaked' 'sniff-it-out' configuration, which has motivated me and given me the necessary aptitudes for identifying and enabling the fixing of the underlying misconfigurations in deeper consciousness that had enabled the garbage to be created and to thrive, contains an element that acts like a sort of 'force field' within my developmental trajectory, which deflects likely physical threats to my life from people, so that I had the best possible chance of fulfilling my life task without getting destroyed by any means the garbage might use to direct people in that sort of way.

Another factor that would motivate such 'lightworkers' to restrict themselves to psychic attack rather than physical methods to destroy a targeted person is the fact of their having little chance of getting into trouble with the Law that way. Also, I rather suspect that many of them hold a quite bizarre belief that's apparently rife amongst overtly 'dark' practitioners, to the effect that to cause a person's death through psychic attack doesn't count as murder, and therefore wouldn't land them with significant karma, whereas to kill somebody physically would. Absolutely nonsensical, but that's the level of rationality of such people.

I still had to be open (to a point) to attempts to destroy me by psychic attack scenarios, however, so that I could be gathering data about what was really going on, so enabling me eventually to fulfil that life task of mine.

And now a malignant network joins the fray!

It's necessary to emphasize that the interpretations and conclusions here are necessarily provisional, because of the impossibility of physically verifying them — but, once again, the way that my 'findings' appear to explain so much that previously was unexplained does point to the likely validity of my conclusions (at least approximately).

At this point in the writing of the original version of this account I really thought I'd got the matter well-nigh 'tied up' — but then along came yet another 'revelation'. As previously noted, it had always seemed to me to carry some particular significance that, during the crescendo of interferences and attacks that led up to each of my major crisis events, it seemed as though a more powerful and intelligent presence was directing the proceedings. This was in marked contrast to the volatile and inane opportunistic interferences and attacks that were occurring at other times.

What I came to understand through looking carefully at all the observations and using some careful inner inquiry in late 2008, was that the Galactic Brotherhood of Light and similar bogus organisations are illusions created in people's minds, and selected 'lightworkers' are initiated into these 'organisations' as 'members', for the purpose of 'feeding' a sort of malignant network of human minds that has a partial resemblance to a botnet of hacked or compromised computers, in which the garbage can use the combined mind power of the individual people (i.e., not computers) linked in this way.

This mind power that's being used is both the thinking aspects — the 'intelligence' — and the ability in particular to manipulate and focus the actually illusory 'Earth energies' in order to (supposedly!) destroy particular people who are sensed by the garbage to be a major threat to it.

Subsequently I refined that understanding, and realized that the network was almost certainly the equivalent of a lichen, in that it was a self perpetuating product of a symbiosis between two major components — in this case between a network of human minds and a complex of astral thought forms (programming in 'thought energy'). Indeed, it's not just symbiosis (mutual benefit) but also mutual control that keeps this hideous phenomenon in place. I now provisionally regard this network as being effectively nothing less than the basic true nature and identity of the primary aspect of the garbage or 'dark side' — the 'ultimate Satan', if you like.

Because I realized that this must be a unique phenomenon, of which there could never be more than one in the whole of 'Existence', in order not to have people getting into confusions over terminology I coined a completely new term to use for this malignant network — the cacoprotean network, or cacoprot for short, for it was misleading for me to keep calling it 'the human botnet', as I'd been doing initially.

Members of this cacoprotean network are at times aware of particular projects — even murders — that they're detailed to do (any such murders all by psychic means, so they'd never be found out except maybe by the likes of this awkward old b*gger here), but generally they're unaware of the way their mind power is being covertly harnessed, just as the owners of computers in botnets are generally quite unaware that their computers are being used for nefarious purposes.

So, I doubt whether any individual members of the Galactic Brotherhood of Light or any other part of the network consciously knew much or indeed any detail of what was being done to me, nor even of the real intent behind various things that were going on — though it would have been necessary for at least one of the network members to have a clear conscious intent for it to carry out any major task, such as 'removing' particular threats to its overall plan.

It's now pretty clear to me, and this is supported by my inner inquiry, that overall, and particularly during my major crises, that network was trying to destroy me. So, in other words, not just GH but a significant number of actual people would have been used by the network in trying to 'bring me down', even though GH was most likely the only human to know any specifics of the intent or the operations (though even his consciously knowing something of this can be only surmise). This therefore gives a somewhat reduced prominence to other apparent intents of the garbage, such as trying to get me 'taken over' by a partial walk-in or spirit attachment.

In particular, now I have cause to mention here the extraordinary sequence of events that included my 'right weirdo' hike on Dartmoor on 9th September 2006.

Even when it seemed that I'd got my understanding of that baffling episode all tied up, recognising it as a great convoluted mass of 'story' that I'd been led into by the garbage, presumably for the sake of convincing everyone that I was insane, there were things about it that still seemed just too purposeful and too 'organised' to be accounted for by what I'd come to understand of the garbage and the ways it interferes with me and other people.

What I'd now come to understand was that there was indeed a major plan, which indeed the garbage's astral thought forms on their own couldn't have come up with. It appeared now that the cacoprotean network — of which the Galactic Brotherhood of Light was just one particular 'face' — was carrying out that plan.

It appears that the particular plan was initiated when I encountered GH at the Quest fair in July 2006 and showed him the Energy Egg that I'd just bought. My doing that had apparently alerted the whole cacoprotean network that I'd got onto the Energy Egg and thus, with the help of it and undoubtedly eventually more of that 'family' of devices, I was bound to become much more active in my whole self-actualization process and thus become much more rapidly immune to the network and indeed to the garbage in any of its manifestations, and indeed to psychic attack of any kind — and so there was a pressing need to stage a final massive 'elimination' event for me before I could become too immune for any such attempts to work on me any more.

Thus it would appear that the real purpose of that weird long Dartmoor hike was for the network to 'destroy' (i.e., murder) me by means of a sustained absolutely massive attack with 'Earth energies'. The warped logic of this was that by convincing me of the need to get myself exceptionally grounded by going on that long and hard walk on wild and rough terrain while being severely attacked for much of the day by the garbage with bog (sic) standard emotional trauma energies, I'd be 'plugging into' 'Earth energies' as I'd never been before.

I'd thus be far more open to the network's massive attack, which would of course supposedly be using all the existing connections of mine to various 'power points' like Stonehenge, Avebury and Glastonbury Tor. Indeed, my 'grounding' at that time was intended and expected to cause me to massively augment those particular connections, so guaranteeing a lethal outcome, which would have seen me dead within a few weeks.

Incidentally, the 'real' attack with 'Earth energies' was not something that I or anyone else would feel. It would simply devastate one's 'energy system' so that one's whole physical being then fails over a very short period. So, the severe — and indeed very strongly felt — attacks that I had, of the more familiar type with emotional trauma material from the garbage, could be seen as a decoy or smokescreen to keep me off the scent of what was really going on. It would thus have helped hide the fact that it was actually a massive psychic attack by humans that had killed me.

However, the catch once again was that not only had I almost no belief in the illusory reality in which these so-called 'Earth energies' exist and operate, but also, my own very deeply derived notion of grounding was 100% grounded and practical. Thus, instead of opening connections to anything non-physical at all for my grounding (which is all part of the New Age sort of mindset), I, actually being a practical old sod, simply allowed myself to be 'in present time', greatly enjoying the walk and the 'feel' of the ground and the land despite the weird and extremely uncomfortable things that were going on for me then. Thus, instead of making myself more vulnerable as expected by my would-be murderers, I'd intuitively and spontaneously made myself less so, even though clearly not fully invulnerable.

On the face of it physically, the operation ought to have been a fiasco anyway, because I didn't take the notionally lethal 'personal' wand out with me, and indeed had had no instructions to do so. However, what the garbage had done was to put an astral replica of that wand in an illusory reality that had been covertly placed into the back of my mindspace.

As I now understand it, when I was at Grimspound — supposedly a strong energy or 'power' point, the garbage covertly made an energy connection between the astral replica of that lethal wand in my mindspace and Grimspound in addition to the other 'assassination' connections that that particular wand was already carrying. So, each time I passed through Grimspound I'd be getting well and truly 'frazzled' by the actually illusory 'Earth energies' there.

As I say, it was my lack of belief and any significant attachment to the notion of 'Earth energies' — and indeed to the whole New Age mindset that gives credence to those supposed energies — that saved me.

Another factor, which was assisting my developing immunity to a small extent, was the Energy Egg that I'd bought that July. That was giving nothing like the extent of assistance that I'd have got from its 'big brothers' (the Guardian Angel and Archangel, which I subsequently obtained), let alone the more effective (but now 'legacy') Clarity-Sphere that I myself developed much more recently — or indeed the still much more effective methods I started using in 2018, which used no external aid at all.

Indeed I hadn't even tuned that Egg specifically to the attack 'energies'. Yet, considering its small size, it was doing a sterling job in enabling my 'energy system' to make itself a little bit more immune than it would have been otherwise to every aspect of the attack. If I'd known to 'tune it to the attack' (actually to align my 'ordinary mind' with my deepest aspects with the assistance of the 'Egg') at that time I'd have had significantly more assistance from it.

Part of the network's plan was, after the attack, while I was supposedly in a state of steady self destruction, to speed up the process in really a quite ghastly and ghoulish manner. GH had noticed during that very harmful April 2005 'healing' session that he gave me, that my neck was in a very poor state, with badly worn vertebrae, which, according to him (in a rather pitying tone), were beginning to fuse together*. The network therefore included in its plan for my demise, that my self-destruction would be speeded up by getting me into a specific self-destruct feedback loop relating to my neck.

THAT is why, in the few days following that weird September 2006 Dartmoor hike, the garbage was seeking to get me to believe that my neck was rapidly disintegrating! I was actually meant to get, then, into a sort of feedback loop of fear and belief, using an illusory reality created in my mindspace by the garbage, in which my neck actually was disintegrating to the point that my head would imminently fall off, to cause me a horrific and agonizing (though I'd guess, brief) death.

Actually, that would have happened only in an astral realm, because it would be physically impossible — but, as I understand it, that subjective experience would have accompanied my death at that point from a different and physically possible cause.

However, I got to a point where I spontaneously wouldn't 'play ball' any more and rebelled, calling the Crisis Resolution Team instead (to protests from my 'guidance'*) in order to assist me in starting to get my awareness fully grounded again — which quickly led to my third hospitalization. So, that self-destruct process got nipped in the bud.

As I understand it now, the immense succession of astral realms with which I was plied once I was in the psychiatric hospital that time was a sort of aimless thrashing-around of the garbage / cacoprotean network immediately following the clear failure of the network's attempts to get me into self-destruct mode as part of its great plan for my destruction.

The garbage's behaviour then wasn't for my entertainment / education (it could have fooled me, though! ) but was something more like a newly beheaded chicken running aimlessly around, no longer with any idea of what it was doing. It was my own deepest aspects that helped shape how I experienced what the garbage was giving me, to make it genuinely educational despite all its hideousness.

However, it looks as though I did actually suffer some weakening from that attack during the Dartmoor hike, because, apparently, just a tiny bit of the 'real' attack did trickle through to me. That would almost certainly have been the cause of the arthritic flare-up of my right knee, which started late that month and kept me out of hiking for that whole winter season — and which I healed spectacularly effectively during 2007 and into 2008, with full-length hikes by end of July 2007 — notably on coast path from Polzeath to Tintagel on 30 July 2007.

I have no evidence or inner inquiry indications that I'd be able to significantly heal the onset of, say, age-related ('wear and tear') osteoarthritis, even though my methods would very likely ameliorate it somewhat and minimize the speed of its advance. That underlines the hypothesis that this particular bout of osteoarthritis had a completely different cause, which was resolvable through use of my particular self-actualization methods and the way in which they'd have been healing damage done to my non-physical aspects caused by any psychic attack.

My sacred geometry wands and the cacoprotean network

On examining carefully all the crises and major attack events, and using Helpfulness Testing to carefully interrogate my own deepest aspects on this matter, it appears extremely likely that the sacred geometry wands were not only making me generally more vulnerable to the garbage, as various other factors were also doing, but it was those wands (including also, no doubt, the two sacred geometry devices that I'd had from the Maitreya Monastery) that specifically opened me to the cacoprotean network in an exceptionally direct way, and THAT was the cause of my most major crises. It looks as though the following main phases of relatively direct interference from the network itself occurred for me as follows:

• October 2003 (probably starting with the Ahn nonsense), through the rest of that year, till the seriously threatening crisis in April 2004 (when emergency advice on the phone from the Evesham 'healer' CS enabled me to get out of that one).
• October 2004 (leading to my first hospitalization).
• Late November / early December 2004 (leading to my second hospitalization).
• April 2005 (leading to my going briefly into respite care).
• Late August / early September 2006 (including my 'right weirdo hike' and leading to my third hospitalization).
  

  N.B. The crisis that led to my fourth hospitalization, in October 2006, was almost certainly not one of this sequence and had all the signs of being one of the strongest of the opportunistic 'routine' attacks from the garbage, without especially direct attention from the network at that point. Hence its all being over so much more quickly. See further below for an explanation.

• Late January / early February 2007 (leading to my all-night spectacular of 3rd-4th February).
• — and just possibly in late May 2007, as a much less effective final attempt.

Particular hallmarks of what I take to be that relatively direct interference from the network were a much greater intrusiveness of the communications, including the visual 'no' flashes (becoming very aggressive and bullying in nature), and getting me deeply involved in some seemingly purposeful but very elaborate story that then enabled the garbage to get an increasing hold upon me till at some point I'd take some grounding action that broke the trauma 'energy' feedback loop of the then rapidly intensifying crisis level attack, and also at that point I'd more or less rapidly get my attention out of the troublesome 'story' that I'd been getting entwined with and which had been part of the attack mechanism.

It looks very much as though the network simply couldn't interfere with me in that very strong and direct way except when I had those sacred geometry wands around me for a fair amount of time on an ongoing basis, and once I'd put them away, and especially once I'd altogether got rid of them, the network could no longer do that to me.

I could still get severe and even more or less crisis-level attacks (in the sense that I had cause sometimes to call the Crisis Team to help get my awareness more grounded again), but those were all simpler affairs, with a decidedly opportunistic character.

They often did carry some 'story', but that wasn't greatly convoluted, and clearly related to something in my everyday life that had pushed a button in some way — and there was very much a familiar repetitive quality about those exploitations of the odd emotional 'button pushings' that I sometimes experienced, so it was particularly easy to recognise what was going on and not to get taken in by the menacing pseudo-thoughts that were often being inserted into my mindspace.

However, even when I did have the sacred geometry wands around me for a good bit of time every day, there were many phases of apparent lack of the very strong and direct interference from the network — most notably between the crises of April and October 2004, when actually I had no significant attacks (but still troublesomely 'wonky' channelling) and really thought the attacks were all over.

Very likely during those times the network was to some extent, in some manner, seeking to keep me under observation, and it may well have been involved relatively directly still in my channelling, so that I was still getting some quite convoluted 'story' about myself and the nature of reality.

However, that 'story' was really pushed on me and made into a compelling and often intimidating issue for me only when there were also the tell-tale stronger and very pushy communications and a crescendo of attacks that would build up generally over at least a week till I was obliged to respond to my inner 'crisis' alarm signals and seek some sort of urgent assistance.

Also very likely significant was the temporary considerable reduction in attacks in February 2005, when I put the sacred geometry wands away and didn't use any for a few weeks. What trouble I might have saved myself if I hadn't brought them out and got using them again! I'd have still had attacks, but very likely not nearly as much as I did get, and very likely indeed I'd have had no further real 'biggies' where the network itself was relatively directly involved.

This implies an even stronger and redder warning than ever to everyone about sacred geometry, and especially sacred geometry wands / other devices, because it looks very much as though quite generally they don't just weaken you and render you vulnerable to the garbage in the general way that so many other environmental stress factors do. They're also a tool for opening you to a much more direct connection to the cacoprotean network — a connection that unfortunately for many people would be made to appear to be opening them to angels and ascended masters and other supposedly higher beings — just as I myself had been misguidedly wanting them to!

On the other hand, I can't be sure that my stopping using sacred geometry wands at that time was actually responsible for the postulated cut-off of the network's ability to directly intrude upon me, because it was about the same time that I finally cut out channelling altogether — and indeed fully recognised all non-physical beings and 'presences' as illusory and thus for ignoring — and thus could no longer get lured into any sort of really major attack crisis scenario through getting embroiled with some further convoluted illusory scenario. Thus in 2007 I was at last in the beginnings of hauling myself out of the really major troubles fast.

Important — Please understand this!

In this section I've done something extremely bold, which will inevitably appear to some people to be an eye-wateringly harsh attack on two defenceless individuals. Let me say this clearly: the above account is NOT harsh in the slightest. It's simply a lovingly objective and clear-minded account of what actually happened, as far as I can establish it. It's not an expression of any feelings or subjective judgements or assessments of mine upon those individuals.

Nowhere is there any cause for me to judge upon the individuals concerned, for they'd been simply unfortunate victims of the controlling influences of the garbage, just as to some extent every one of us is or has been (including me), even though in most cases unawarely.

Indeed, during my 'dark years' of disruptions from the garbage, I myself presumably harmed a number of people by introducing them to Reiki and use of crystals and even sacred geometry wands, and indeed giving others attunements to the strange symbol that I'd channelled, which was alleged to be the basis of a new and much more effective healing system, like a super-efficient Vortex Healing without the latter's complexities. — And clearly, like all the other 'healers', 'lightworkers' and 'spiritual teachers', despite my best intentions I'd been dishing out masses of harmful fairly widely believed misinformation, or variants thereof.

I have to assume that what I did then, completely innocently, could have led to one or more people's premature death — though I'd have no way of finding out how much harm I did actually bring about for any particular person. So clearly I can have no high moral ground at all in any account that I may give of other 'healers' or 'lightworkers' doing harm owing to deceptions and manipulation / control from their garbage and 'entity' interferences.

To some people it would seem to be crazy of me to go saying that GH was being guided and controlled by the garbage rather than any genuine and truly beneficial 'higher' beings. However, if you actually look at the evidence with open eyes, even if you set aside the masses of detail evidence recounted above, which all points to that one conclusion, there's one very simple and blindingly obvious point that readers of this account generally overlook.

If GH and MC were being guided by genuine beneficial 'higher' beings (who implicitly would have vastly superior knowledge and understanding), then, why in the name of Winnie the Pooh did neither of them give me genuinely effective understanding and methods that would enable me to speedily get clear of the garbage interferences and attacks? Surely the 'angels' or other 'higher' beings would have guided them thus if they were what those individuals and indeed other people quite widely believed them to be!

If we don't totally honestly look at and report what's actually happening to cause problems, how the hell (sic) could any of us, and indeed the human race in general, get out of the desperate 'hole' we're in?

It's a simple fact of life, that if anyone, for whatever reason, runs some troublesome garbage-sourced agenda on me I shall use the situation for maximum positive purposes that would further the stemming and weakening of the garbage agenda and facilitate people's self-actualization and clearing out of garbage influences. That can well involve my giving an informative account of the particular situation on this website, including naming names where I consider that sufficient positive purpose would be served by my doing so. Another bottom line is that anyone who has some troublesome (especially status or control-related) agenda they don't want to get exposed would do well to keep clear of me!

On the thorny matter of being rational / objective rather than giving 'benefit of the doubt'

(later note, 2018, revised 2022)

If you've read this far with any sort of awareness you'd have noticed how I'd been somewhat struggling with myself in writing this particular account. In the face of a pile of apparently incriminating evidence against GH I was originally constantly seeking to be 'fair' on this page to all involved by giving the benefit of the doubt at many points. After all, my findings represent a pretty 'serious' case against him and his motivations and actions towards me — a hypothesis that in no-one's books is for taking on lightly!

My primary error in writing most of the above, at least until I eventually put the record straight in stages from late 2017 through well into 2022, was in my falling over backwards to give the benefit of the doubt in quite a number of places, in an understandable but nonetheless misguided urge to be seen to be fully 'fair' to GH and other mentioned parties, in underplaying his apparent motivation all along to do me serious harm, even to the point of causing my death.

— But how can underplaying certain points just to keep various people happier and not 'rock the boat' be genuinely fair at all? Surely only being completely rational and objective in your interpretations of a situation or set of data can be genuinely fair upon anyone, regardless of whether anyone actually likes or dislikes it!

 

Therefore no-one is being defamed here!… (2021 addition)

Note particularly:

• On this page I've sought to present only an objective record of what happened, together with the various pieces of circumstantial evidence, and rationally based reasoning and working hypotheses, without categorically judging upon anyone.

• I've gone to great lengths to ensure that only those hypotheses that 'add up' properly with all the observations are (provisionally) accepted.

• I'm well aware that the named involved parties have had masses of opportunity to get in touch with me to give me their side of the story if they reckoned I'd wronged them in any way.

• None of those individuals has yet contacted me to put me right on anything I'd written. They — especially GH — could hardly be unaware of this page and its contents.

In September 2021, while writing this note, I did a couple of test searches for sacred geometry wands in Google and DuckDuckGo respectively, and both included Sacred geometry, wands and crystals — A serious warning (which links to this page) only a few entries below top of list. That's particularly striking, as, overall, Google is currently suppressing pages on this site, resulting in very little traffic coming here because the hugely vast majority of people rarely use any other search engine than Google.

In February 2022 that page was quite well down on Google's list, though with GH's site (no longer 'Angelic Light' but an .eu site that I'll not name here) several entries lower. In the DDG list his site was top of list and that warning page of mine the second entry.

Even if GH hadn't done such a search himself, surely friends / associates of his would have drawn his attention to that and indeed this page, so I can be pretty confident that for reasons known to him rather than me he's so far chosen not to contest anything I've written here.

Presumably there would have been a lot of character assassination going on behind the scenes to discredit me to people who mention my name / work to him, just as the Energy Egg people got doing because they perceived me as a threat to their business and personal status interests.

He'd undoubtedly have misused again what he called my record of mental illness (in his final email to me) for that purpose, without any reference of course to his own much more serious dysfunctions. And of course he'd have made no reference to the unprecedentedly effective self-actualization methods I developed, which gave the lie to any notion of me being 'mentally ill' and showed me indeed to have outstanding mental clarity and stability!

It's still open to any or all of those individuals to contact me and explain what was really going on between them and me. Please note that any genuine 'owning up' about the various misdeeds that appear to have taken place or to have been attempted would be accepted and reported here with loving appreciation — not condemnation, for they'd then be actually coming into the realm of personal integrity, which is to be celebrated without qualification.

As remarked elsewhere on this page, I recognise each of the individuals referred to as being victims of circumstances beyond their control, so I'd be rejoicing at their growing freedom from the old interferences, and their emerging fundamental 'goodness'.

In the whole 'spirituality' and 'New Age' movement and traditions a great weight is put upon a supposed duty or obligation we all purportedly have, to look the other way when anyone is behaving harmfully, in the misguided belief that that's being 'positive' and non-judgemental. In fact what that is, is sticking your head in the sand and yourself being partly responsible for the troubles in this world because you're compulsively ducking out of your own personal responsibility, in appropriate ways, to call harmfully-behaving people to account or at least 'blow the whistle' on them.

They themselves actually need to be stopped in their harmful behaviours, which are doing them no genuine favours at all, and other people need to be warned about such harmful people who are still on the loose, instead of just being left to find out the hard way what's really going on.

Would the 'spirituality fundamentalists' who do stick their heads in the sand about such things really have the same laissez-faire outlook towards people who molest children? — While I've no doubt some do, my own general experience is that many of these 'spirituality-heads' actually lose their marbles and temporarily forget their usual It's their own journey, so we should leave them to get on with it mantra and get quite hot under the collar about said 'molesters' — which is hardly surprising, because the laissez-faire attitude towards people behaving harmfully isn't rationally based to start with, and so when they do find particular people's behaviour pushing buttons for them they just react out of whatever patterns they're carrying.

In my own line of retrospective 'detective work' concerning how my dealings with GH connected with the severe and at times potentially life-threatening experiences I was dragged through from late 2003 to early 2007 (though with repercussions still at times hitting me a little even now in 2018), I came down to two main variants of a single hypothesis that explained the mass of weird observations and experiences that I relate further above (and more!). The primary difference was as follows:

• GH was seeking to benefit me in the early stages, and then his strange behaviours could be explained on the basis of his actually having been given the story that I was imminently to be some sort of world 'spiritual' leader, teacher or 'father figure', and the garbage then cultivating his personal jealousies relating to that, arising from his previously having been told by his 'guidance' (manifesting to him as members of the actually illusory Galactic Brotherhood of Light — i.e., the garbage) that he himself was about to take up that role.
• GH was all along following instructions from his 'guidance' to set up a series of psychic attack scenarios to destroy me — a purported great enemy of the 'Human Plan' — in one way or another (mentally disable or kill). As to whether his 'guidance' was overtly on the 'dark' or 'light' side is actually a minor and really irrelevant point, because it was coming from the garbage anyway.

However, although I originally stated that the evidence supported both alternatives equally, that wasn't really true, and much more recently I made amends about that further above, where I reveal the immediate sense of unease I had about him when he came to deliver my first wands, suggesting a possible motivation to seriously harm or kill me.

That consideration would sound to many people to be out of place in an objective assessment of the evidence, but it was nonetheless an objective observation (albeit of a subjective impression I'd gained) that needed accounting for, and to set it aside would itself be a failure of objectivity.

As previously explained, I had no history of getting such impressions from people, and I have a whole mass of observational data that shows fairly conclusively that deeper levels of my own consciousness can and do 'read' a variety of people's attitudes, agendas and motivations. More recently I've been able to get more in touch with those deep-level perceptions with the assistance of Helpfulness Testing, which fact has enabled me fairly consistently to make the most helpful choices over many years as to who to engage with and who to non-engage with or indeed to whom to give a wide berth in my everyday life.

While that observation about GH in itself would have a much lower priority in a public writing of this account than it would have for me in private, it happens to point us back to the 8th December 2003 occasion when GH uttered that from-the-depths 'astonished' laughter, telling me that I had one almighty surprise coming to me.

Now, that and his behaviour generally then never quite made sense to me on the basis of his honestly believing or being told by his 'guidance' that I was about to emerge as a great 'world leader' or some such thing. Surely, if he really believed that some such thing were true, he'd have volunteered some information and indeed passed on some useful guidance, and indeed would surely have been detailed by his 'guidance' to get working with me for the common good!

But no, that 'astonished' laughter (and its particular tone) and his withholding further information was fully consistent only with his being in some way delighted about something pretty untoward that he'd been informed was coming to me. Also, his odd behaviours on all subsequent occasions, although explainable on the basis of either of the 'confusions / jealousy' and the 'straight agenda to seriously harm or kill' scenarios, call for the application of a very basic and fundamental principle in rational interpretation of a set of data — Occam's razor.

Occam's razor isn't a rule that we have to abide by, but it's a commonsense principle that helps maximize the probability that you've chosen the correct or at least the least incorrect hypothesis out of a bunch of them to explain your data. I myself do my best to apply that principle generally in my life wherever I seek to understand something, and indeed anyone at all sensible would do likewise.

The principle is simply this. In any rational / objective investigation or inquiry, precedence is given to the simplest hypothesis that explains all the available relevant data. In other words, the simplest is the most likely to be true (my emphasis).

That can easily be misinterpreted, and all too often indeed it is. It does NOT mean that the simplest hypothesis is necessarily correct, nor that the correct hypothesis wouldn't turn out to be seriously complex. It simply means that without further data, it simply doesn't make sense, and can cause all sorts of problems, if you choose a hypothesis that's more complex than the current data would justify. It's important therefore not to take on that simplest hypothesis as 'fact' or 'truth', but to regard it simply as your current working hypothesis. (Sounds familiar? — Have you by any chance read something similar elsewhere on this site? )

What I'm coming to here is that by seeking to give GH the benefit of the doubt, quite apart from any other considerations, I myself was actually falling down on Occam's razor (Ouch!) , because the 'straight agenda to seriously harm or kill' hypothesis is actually the simpler in the first place — AND that and not the slightly 'kinder' but more convoluted one explains ALL the observations, at least as I've been able to remember them, and in the smoothest manner.

I'm still in no way judging him as good or bad, because, as already repeatedly noted, that unfortunate individual is a victim — himself being something of a puppet of the garbage, particularly through his being an unwitting part of the cacoprotean network.

However, I do have to say this loud and clear, that in his current state, he, along with thousands upon thousands of other people on this planet, is immensely harmful and indeed dangerous because of what the garbage had got him doing. It's a great pity that our legal system doesn't recognise anything astral or psychic as being more than indicators of supposed mental illness (or indeed sometimes something actually positive), and shows no sign that it would ever recognise psychic attack as a crime or indeed a cause of anyone's wrecked mental state or indeed death.

Getting clear about MC's place in this bizarre affair

Finally, on the basis of all my observations, it looks not far off certain that the previously mentioned local 'healer' / 'lightworker' MC behaved with such an abusive-defensive manner to my telling him a little of what by then I'd come to understand about GH's real intent towards me because he (MC) was actually feeling quite panicked right then because he'd actually been 'in' on at least some of GH's various psychic attack attempts to dispose of me (remember that he'd already revealed to me that he'd been working with GH at times), and indeed might quite possibly have been actively involved in certain of those attacks.

Also, as observed on another page, when MC gave me that 'reading' he'd come also to offer me (at a significant price) a moldavite pendant that he claimed he'd been wearing himself, but a 'Pleiadean spirit' had come to him the day before and told him that it was meant for me, and that was (purportedly) why he was offering it to me. Now, while the garbage could easily have directly interfered with him in that way by giving him the illusion of a 'Pleiadean spirit' (actually a nonsensical term), in the circumstances another possibility looks considerably more plausible — that the 'Pleiadean spirit' was actually none other than GH, who'd passed the pendant on to MC to offer to me, with the 'Pleiadean spirit' story to explain why he was offering it to me just then.

The bizarre 'reading' and the pendant-cum-laughable-explanation coming to me at the same time pretty conclusively jump up and down, calling out Fake, fake, fake! — Something seriously untoward is going on here!. So, although I'm pretty sure that MC was an 'accessory after the fact' rather than being on an equal footing with GH, he was still pretty clearly an accomplice in a series of plans that were effectively murderous in their intent towards me.

Yes, and it could well have been much more than coincidence that just the following day my attempts at channelling suddenly started to work, and marked the beginning of my seriously and eventually potentially lethal troublesome times, from October 2003 to early 2007, when I finally started in earnest finding out how to extricate myself from that desperate 'hole' I'd fallen into.

Never mind that! That's nothing to the problem I'm having to face at the moment! (Remember?) — What that was no doubt referring to…

Indeed, consider this. GH's various estimates he'd given me of a completion time of my being free of all my issues look suspiciously like simply coded deadlines (no doubt fed to him from the cacoprotean network) by which he was meant to have brought about my death!

So, on that basis, on the assumption that MC's clearly fake clairvoyant reading for me was a coded indication of when the network was intending me to be dead, can you now see how that doom-laden and desperate-sounding remark of GH's in April 2005, Never mind that! That's nothing to the problem I'm having to face at the moment!, begins to look to having a significant place in the succession of events?

It looks to be much more than idle speculation, that the network was driving GH on an action plan that was supposed to have me dead by Christmas 2004, indeed after the failure of the first plan (the 'Ahn' nonsense) in October that year. So, once I was in touch with him the following spring in my own state of desperation he would have been really getting his knickers in the twist because the network, being the 'core' of the garbage, would have been making him frantic with terror about the failure of what he was supposed to have succeeded in doing to me during those last months of 2004.

After all, according to the messages he'd have been getting from his 'guidance', he'd clearly been letting down all Creation by his failures, and was due for apocalyptic punitive karma for having thus failed! As already noted, that's the sort of story the garbage gives to people who don't succeed in carrying out its hideous plans! I know that first-hand, as it periodically tried that on me. The difference with me was that I had the mental clarity, even in my most troublesome times, not to take that nonsense seriously, seeing that it was so clearly just a story aimed at making me spectacularly shit myself (the odd puke thrown-up too), and commit a juicy little suicide for good measure. So I just shrugged my shoulders with a general air of 'Oh well, just sod the lot of you! Whatever will happen will happen!'.

Undoubtedly the 'Ahn' nonsense (October 2004) was the first attempt on me, but I'm pretty suspicious that there was another attempt upon me during November and December, which commenced in earnest in early November, though with some 'story' lead-up during the previous few weeks.

One evening then my 'guidance' (i.e., undoubtedly the cacoprotean network, posing as a guide called Orin), got me repeatedly drawing in the air the already mentioned symbol, which, once I'd got a full mental image of it and drawn it on paper, I was told was to be known as 'the New OM'.

Considering all the observed context, I suspect that the bogus new 'healing' method, which I was encouraged to call Divine Consciousness Reiki, which was based on use of that symbol, was itself intended to kill me. Maybe so-called 'Earth energies' were being focused on (actually imaginary) copies of that symbol that I drew on myself or used in any way. But then whatever was tried on me didn't either kill me or seriously harm my health, and I progressively lost interest in it anyway (thank goodness!). For one thing, I got fairly concerned at the significant proportion of people to whom I gave alleged 'full clearance' remote 'healings' using that method who had long-lasting troublesome after-effects — what I'd now recognise as garbage attacks. And also, it progressively became clear to me that none of those people was really getting anything much or indeed at all in terms of clearance of their issues.

So, I reckon that there'd most likely been at least two failed plans for my demise before the January succession of hideously disruptive attacks started. — And thus by April 2005 there look to have most likely been three successive very major elimination attempts carried out and failed by the time I got that absurdly revealing remark from GH, Never mind that! That's nothing to the problem I'm having to face at the moment!, by which time another destruction attempt was running, which he sought to make the final, terminal 'Phil-the-monster crusher' with all that use of crystals and the use of 'energies' being channelled through them to lucky me…

And so on — it gets tedious, doesn't it, so I think I've built quite enough of the picture to make my point about what was apparently really going on!

…So, after all these evidential convolutions, the main message out of this is that ALL 'healers', psychics, and particularly 'lightworkers' are at least potentially a menace, whether or not they're deliberately seeking to harm anyone, and are ALL best given a very wide berth by anyone who is at all open and aware (and thus at least potentially susceptible to psychic attack). With the methodology presented on this site, no-one has any genuine need for such practitioners at all — even supposedly 'squeaky-clean' ones!

 

Three pictures that tell a story…

Gordon Hughes, the man who brought me so much trouble — more evidence for those with 'eyes to see'…

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