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31 August 2024

It's generally been an ongoing frustration for me that the validity / reliability of my Helpfulness Testing and thus inner inquiry results have at least almost always relied on a 'weight of probability' sort of evidence. — Sure, over the years the weight of such probability has steadily increased thanks to the ever-increasing mass of observed actual outcomes, but it has still remained on a probability basis rather than apparent 'certainty'. Of course, in absolute terms reality knows no certainty, but within the realm of personal experience there are cases where a particular hypothesis can be tested in a manner that in practical terms appears to be rock-solid and watertight, and I've hit upon one of those.

I'd already published the relevant story in my Personal website's Blog, so as search engines don't like 'duplicate content' it's best that I refer you to Eureka! — An interesting eyesight issue much belatedly self-diagnosed, my post of 24 August 2024.

The point here about that is that the diagnosis of my increasingly troublesome eyesight issue, which came to my notice through an inner-vision cue to prompt me to 'inquire within' as to what that was about, not only made immediate sense to me but was also easily and directly testable, without the usual fog of possible alternative explanations leaving one still rather uncertain. All I had to do was to put a hand over my right ('lazy') eye when looking out of my window at some distant features, and experience for myself the immediate ability for me to focus precisely on fine / distant details and see them as sharply as I've ever seen them. Each time I looked with both eyes, I couldn't focus precisely like that, and each time my hand was there over my right eye everything became sharp again.

Indeed, I narrowed it down to just blocking the right-eye's central vision — the very thing that my brain was supposed to have been blocking to avoid conflict between the two mismatched eyes.

Over the small number of days since that diagnosis there's been no confusing relapse — indeed, rather, a consolidation as I accustom myself to consciously looking with only my left eye at things I want to see clearly. I'm using a 32mm round black peelable self-adhesive label on the inside of the right-hand lens of my computer glasses, but not so with my everyday glasses because I'm increasingly consistently able to disregard the right eye when looking 'with focus' at anything, and thus increasingly able to spontaneously adjust the 'balance of attention' between my two eyes according to what I want to see.

I understand that this wouldn't be possible for the hugely vast majority of people, but in my case, with such an opened-up working connection between 'ordinary mind' and my deepest aspects, the latter are actively facilitating this reprogramming of my visual focusing mechanism to operate in an allegedly unprecedented 'dynamic adjustment' mode. The only downside of not having one of those black labels on my everyday glasses is that I don't get much of the increased contrast that the black label on my computer glasses gives me — but using one of those on my everyday glasses would be unsightly and make many people feel uncomfortable about approaching or speaking to me.

Although this has no direct bearing on my Project 'Fix the Human Condition', it does have an indirect significance for it, in materially increasing the likelihood of my various intimations from deeper consciousness about the various outcomes from that project being 'for real' even though they haven't been able yet to work through into dramatic immediately observable worldwide human transformation for the better (i.e., apart from for a thin scattering of particularly 'deeply connected' no-soul people).

Cumulative update on my own self-actualization progress
— deeper consciousness dumbfounded!

5 August 2024

Sounds like a good rubbish newspaper headline or a YouTube clickbait video title, doesn't it, so it's making me giggle as I write this! The 'trouble' is, it appears to be true! — Hence my putting that 'silly' title here, with its rather sensational-sounding tone.

This is a cumulative update (thankfully not a Windows one, so it shouldn't crash any computers), really covering about a year, though with things hotting up this year.

Ever since the fixes for the fundamental misconfigurations in deeper consciousness having apparently completed (see Project 'Fix the Human Condition'), and then me being made an experimental 'guinea-pig' for development of the new, enhanced communication channel between ordinary mind and one's deepest aspects (and then also other experimental enhancements towards full human functioning), I'd been getting a range of generally more or less tiresome side-effects from many of the successive new versions and new enhancements being applied.

Generally a common factor in those side-effects has been sleep disturbance additional to what I'd been getting anyway (I appear not to have had a full night's sleep since my late teens, and even then it wasn't all that frequent). Increased regular sleep disturbances would include 'overactive mind' state and tiresome excessive tendency to sexual arousals (additional to the regular gassy gut and irritating nasal passages disturbances). The excess of sexual arousals has all along been a side-effect of my 'hyper-tweaked' 'sniff-it-out' specialist configuration, but I was getting intensifications of that at times. — Wearying! Disturbances would be settling down, but before they could do so fully another peak would come along, and each time my inner inquiry indicated that, yes, this was another version update or tweak…

If I wasn't also getting clear sign of improvements of my functioning and general life experience, of course I'd have been seriously suspecting I was still being messed about by the garbage, pretending to be my deepest aspects, but no, I couldn't find any other hallmarks of garbage interference.

But then sometime in April 2024 I got a surprise indication from my apparently very surprised deepest aspects, that my lifelong isolation barrier (a 'hyper-tweaked' aspect of my sniff-it-out configuration) had spontaneously started dissolving. That in itself was cause for surprise and some concern, because it had been assumed that that barrier was something that I was stuck with for this lifetime, but would be free of it in my next one — and losing that barrier at this point in my life, without any deep-level preparation for it, could likely cause problems for me, possibly serious.

During the following months I progressively felt stronger connection with no-soul people I encountered, and more of a feeling of real deep friendship. — Just an auto-suggestion effect, maybe?

Completion 1

But then, on 30 June 2024… The nitty-gritty of it is that, unbeknown to me at the time, early on that day the dissolution of that lifelong barrier to connections either way with compatible people for ongoing and indeed close friendships had completed. Thus, when I went out for lunch at one of my regular restaurants, my hugs with two of the server guys there were something of a bombshell experience for me — disconcertingly, unsettlingly beautiful and powerful. I'd never had hugging experiences like those two in my life, and that's really saying something!

What I didn't recognise properly till the following day was that a good bit of the apparent enormity of those experiences was a result of my awareness getting pretty ungrounded then. That dip in my groundedness was a strong aggravating factor in the following aftereffects of that new experience. Disruptive repeated sexual arousals, all manner of hopelessly unrealistic fantasy images coming up, absent-mindedness, and difficulty in continuing with my website work — all feeling very unsettling and fatiguing, and then depressive feelings of anguish starting to come up.

I realized that of course the dissolution of that barrier didn't mean that I'd be likely to start getting any sort of ongoing companionship, because of my age (approaching 82) and my current life situation...

So, that night was a difficult and fraught one with minimal sleep, with the feeling of depressed anguish steadily growing — the underlying story being that the dissolution of that barrier had dropped me in an untenable situation, in which my whole system was now 'expecting' a reasonable amount of everyday properly compatible companionship, which was simply not going to happen during the short remainder of this lifetime, so that every further hug would just serve to compound the state of torment that I'd fallen into. Solution — apparently to bomb off to my next incarnation within a few days!

My inner inquiry consistently indicated that my deepest aspects had no solution as yet, and couldn't indicate any specific measures for me to take, and maybe termination that early really could make the best sense then. Ouch!

After a fraught breakfast, in a sense of desperation, still with no solution showing up in my inner inquiry, I went back to the most basic of basics, and, in a 'dialogue' with my deepest aspects, setting aside the whole troublesome scenario for a little experiment without trying to achieve anything, I reasoned in little baby-steps to identify the nature of the problem, on the basis of a seemingly unlikely working assumption that the troublesome part of the issue was just a standard matter of particular 'story' coming in on the act and then going into feedback loop.

That actually proved to be the answer. I identified several related illusory realities and promptly zapped them using my now very streamlined version of the Grounding Point procedure, and the horrible anguish feeling pretty rapidly faded away, and I was increasingly 'myself' again.

My further inner inquiry then indicated what I was suspecting by then — that that particular anguish sort of emotional stress had blocked the ability of deeper consciousness to 'see' what was going on. That was why it had been unable to point me to any solution until my own conscious 'mind' got practical and started working it out in silly-small stages. That practical course of action had naturally served to get me regrounding my awareness, so fulfilling the other requirement for speedily coming out of that desperate-feeling hole. As they say, I'm not just a funny face!, while others of course say I'm just a common or garden bogeyman; everyone loves bogeymen!

It did become apparent over the next few days, however, that I still had a quieter gnawing feeling of unsatisfactoriness of my life ('impossible companionship stress'), which appeared not to be so easily fixed, and I worked out with my deepest aspects some approaches it might be able to use to apply some fix for that at its deep level. It soon indicated that it had worked out several promising-looking possibilities, and was testing them ('sandboxed') — though in the meantime my estimated 'exit point' had been brought forward to 'by end of December'.

On 27 July I woke up apparently altogether without that nagging stress, and felt great, with an unfamiliar sense of grounded solidity about that 'great' feeling, rather than any sort of excited 'high'. My inner inquiry indicated that, yes, this did appear to be the result of a method my deepest aspects had used, and which had actually worked, and wasn't just a fluctuation of my feelings.

— And so it has remained, so clearly something important really had happened. My deepest aspects indicated that a figurative 'template' had been applied, which had disabled that completely unhelpful sort of stress while protecting other parts of my functioning that would otherwise have been negatively impacted — a bit like using a stencil mask. Indeed, not only that, but, it was suggested, that 'template' should enable some other issues to start dissolving, so very likely I'd experience some other positive changes very soon.

The following day, back from a hike and walking up Fore Street, I noticed an unexpected sense of a lot of heat emanating from my chest. Shit — probably getting ungrounded again! My inner inquiry indicated with a sense of some excitement that another real change, which wasn't expected or indeed wanted to occur within this lifetime (because of possible unhelpful side-effects) had spontaneously commenced: the dissolution of my hyper-tweaking (i.e., of my sniff-it-out configuration). Shit (again)! — No doubt another wave of sleep disturbance to follow as my system does its best to readjust!

Completion 2

On 6 August, out on another hike, I was really struck by how rock-solid my 'okayness' felt, as though my true stature as a well-functioning human had magnified further and solidified — i.e., beyond anything I'd known before —, with suggestions of my being likely and able to take the public stage about the changes if particular relevant situations arise*. A check within indicated that this was indeed not a fantasy of mine, but an indication of yet another new and totally unexpected spontaneous change: my specialist configurations had spontaneously started a rapid unravelling as they were replaced by the more balanced specialist configurations that had been awaiting me for my next incarnation.

But that wasn't all. Allegedly all the really significant other configurational constraints on my functioning fully as a manifestation of deeper consciousness were also rapidly falling away…

Allegedly, deeper consciousness is dumbfounded (its choice of word) at what has happened, all spontaneously and without so much as a 'by your leave'.

Of course I can't verify any of that, so am naturally cautious about that depicted scenario, but it would at least 'add up' pretty well with my own experienced inner changes, and it will do so much more strongly if those changes are maintained and indeed progress further.

Does that mean that externally I'm yet, or imminently, a fully functioning human? — Actually I think not, for pretty obvious practical reasons. Yes, internally that may be more or less true, but I'm still carrying more superficial issues, any of which may or may not be clearable within the very short remains of this lifetime of mine.

Indeed, as I understand it, even in new, 'clean', planetary civilizations, nobody at all would be without at least some relatively minor issues that constrain their degree of manifestation of deeper consciousness. All sorts of factors would create some limitations on one's functioning, even though generally that level of functioning would be well beyond what we see in relatively self-actualized no-soul people here on Earth today.

We need to remember that deeper consciousness and indeed 'What Is' deals in probabilities, not certainties, and 'perfection' is in the realm of, yes, certainties, and thus is a nonsensical concept in real life experience, except as a direction-pointer for optimizing our life experience!

An obvious question: am I alone in having this happen?

Allegedly, no. I understand that a handful of specialist-configured no-soul people in the world at large, who are using my methodology and thus progressively opening up their communication channel between 'ordinary mind' and deepest aspects, have the same 'unravelling' occurring, but more slowly, each at a different rate, and it's now expected (but still not intended!) that more will be following.

Do I know who any of that handful of individuals are? — Yes, just one of them, in the USA, who's allegedly at the very beginning of that happening, which in his case is likely to be quite slow because he's much involved in developing a small self-employed business, and hasn't time to be using my formal methods all that much, but has still been making impressively positive changes in his life — I think quite a bit enabled by his strong connection with me.

Other individuals who considered themselves to be part of a prospective working team of particularly open and aware 'specialist' no-soulers to work with me all fell by the wayside in that respect because of self-sabotaging patterns that were greatly hindering their self-actualization process and indeed they were using their connection with me as a rod with which to beat themselves and block their progress. — So, indeed I dropped the notion of any 'team' of us in this dysfunctional civilization; more trouble than it would be worth!

A possibility after all for widespread positive change for people soon — just maybe 'for real' this time!

22 July 2023

People's ingrained patterns of brain function, left over from the effects of the apparently now dissolved garbage and other recently-fixed misconfigurations in deeper consciousness, have been intractable to an extent that has had deeper consciousness itself baffled after using a whole succession of different methods to speed their dissolution, each time with little or no result. I've explained about all that in my Project 'Fix the Human Condition' page, to which I refer you.

As mentioned at one point in the latter-linked Project page, I'd recently identified three appropriately 'specialist'-configured no-soul people as actual or imminent founder members of the first-ever 'guardians / overseers for Humanity' team. However, it turned out that one of them had once again relapsed into a mass of long-standing issues, actually significantly held in place by a vaping addiction. That rendered him unsuitable to be in any such team till such time as he could somehow get out of that.

Unfortunately it was not workable for me to keep trying to help him, for my trying to do so would actually have disempowered him and made things more difficult for him, not less. Thus, in order to keep myself in balance and good shape, for the time being I'd had to draw a line under him as I routinely have to for almost everyone else.

Yesterday at bedtime I mentally stepped out of routine, and as I was about to go to bed I idly tested the hypothesis There are currently some things (i.e., that deeper consciousness is aware of, of which I'd so far been unaware) that are well worth my knowing now. — To which, I got an enthusiastic 'strengthening' response. I tested a few ideas that came to mind, and didn't get a lot of sense about that, no doubt having not formulated quite the right hypotheses to test, so drew a temporary line under that and got to bed, having rather minimal sleep.

I was thinking about the issue of the 'not-quite' member of 'the Team' during my last half-hour in bed this morning, and went into a bit of rather forlorn inner inquiry about that matter. It would be so helpful if there were some sort of figurative 'switch' that could be turned to release a person from the very basis of the tendency to habit and addiction. As it appeared that there wasn't one that could be used universally (surely deeper consciousness would have located that by now!), could there perhaps be something that could be operated at the 'individual' level?

I was getting that familiar sort-of outraged feeling, that there just had to be some 'switch' or 'key' to such personal situations. — Then out of that sense of outrage came the thought, A hook! — Surely there's some sort of hook that's involved! That is, a 'hook' in the sense meant by computer software developers, where a program locks onto a particular location in the in-memory code of another running process.

To my surprise I got an immediate strong 'strengthening' response, as though I'd really hit on something important. Surely there must be some sort of figurative 'hook' that's responsible for everyone's addictive tendencies. — That is, in addition to the effects of the now apparently fixed faulty data cache. That could also resemble an attachment point on a virus particle, which attaches to a specific molecular configuration on the surface of a cell, which it then infects.

My further inner inquiry indicated that it should be relatively easy and straightforward to identify both the 'hook' and the passive 'receptor' that the 'hook' is attached to, and then to dissolve that hook or otherwise render it harmless, and to reshape the 'receptor' spot so no such 'hook' could attach again.

We're not talking of doing anything directly to the brain, but rather, to that aspect of each person's consciousness that is all the time interacting with and directing many of the brain functions relating to 'mind'.

So, this could hopefully be done for individuals, but what about universally? — Allegedly, not only was it envisaged straight-off as purely a universal operation, but the process had already started before I got out of bed. As always, assuming it does work, there would be a 'gestation' period, though I get a strong indication that the latter would be very short.

Now, does that mean that everyone's patterns would be very soon gone in a puff of blue smoke, so to speak? — No, because the ingrained patterns would still take some time to dissolve.

The point here, which is particularly emphasized in my inner inquiry responses, is that what had been baffling deeper consciousness about the intractability of people's ingrained patterns was that the human brain was flexible enough in function that even long-established patterns should have been dissolving quickly enough for some positive change to be noticeable in most people after just a few weeks, with faster change in those people with less deeply ingrained patterns (or indeed just few patterns to start with). Had deeper consciousness really misjudged the flexibility of human brain function?

It looks now as though I've likely at last come up with the missing 'key' — the much needed explanation of the stumbling block that had been preventing people's brains from progressively recovering from at least the worst of their dysfunctions. Although it would be unrealistic to expect more or less all people to recover full healthy brain function in this lifetime (particularly people with a lot of soul programming), things could still now progressively become a whole lot better.

However, as I cautioned last year, any such widespread rapid positive change does have the potential to unleash some temporary destabilization in various parts of the world, with a small possibility of most or all of us being wiped out in some frenzy of world war, so this is no guaranteed 'paradise tomorrow' or even 'paradise at all' scenario.

And we also need to remember that it's likely that even with people generally becoming progressively more rational and indeed 'human', we've already gone too far in our destruction of Earth as a habitable place for us to do better than just slightly slow the collapse. The alarming sudden increase in severe and indeed unprecedented heatwaves is already a harsh warning — and yet still, politicians give priority to getting votes in the next election, over anything to do with stemming Humanity's nosedive into oblivion.

Yes, and still NONE of them, apparently, are saying or doing anything about the pressing need to hugely reduce the human population (say, one-hundredfold). Mass deaths (i.e., done the proper way) are needed NOW!! Those people could then reincarnate in new planetary civilizations (not on Earth) that are free from the problems caused by the now-fixed 'fundamental problems'.

(30 March 2024 entry deleted — looks as though that observation was an error by my own deepest aspects)