Exit 'spirituality' — Enter 'clear-mindedness'
— an important explanation about this site

Why I stopped in my tracks

Until early October 2007 this site's title was Self-Realization & Spirituality. Nothing wrong about 'Spirituality', you might well think. Evidently I'd been thinking so too — otherwise I'd not have used that title in the first place!

However, Have you ever paused to get asking the core of your own consciousness — your own deepest aspects — questions about the nature of what everyone is calling 'spirituality', and why, if 'spirituality' is so widespread, it's still the case that vanishingly few people actually become genuinely enlightened, let alone anything like optimally self-realized / self-actualized?

— And also, why it is that in EVERY spiritual tradition, if you look with real clarity you see that power hierarchies and control agendas on the one hand and beliefs / illusory realities on the other are always involved, even if they're relatively subtle?

Even if you have got questioning yourself so, unless you were very exceptionally advanced in your self-actualization process — and well beyond just crossing the enlightenment threshold — it wouldn't be your own deepest aspects whose answers you'd have heard.

Any answers from that source wouldn't have been 'heard' directly but would be relayed to you in adulterated form by what I'd for quite some time been calling the 'dark force' (complete with the single quotes) — referred to inaccurately by people at large as 'the forces of darkness' or 'Satan' / 'the devil' and often thought of as astral or 'dark' entities or indeed even demons, but actually also presenting itself as guides, ascended masters, angels and any other type of supposed 'higher being', even including 'God' and 'the Holy Spirit'.

Nowadays, for good reason, I generally prefer to call that 'something' the garbage, and I do my best to distinguish clearly between that and all the illusory manifestations that it causes people to create in their 'minds'. In other words, the garbage itself wasn't any of the previously recognised troublesome entities or 'forces', including the supposed 'forces of darkness', but was the underlying troublesome influence that hijacked part of the awareness of people to create the illusions of and belief in all the recognised non-physical beings, presences and 'forces', right through from 'dark forces' to 'God' and all things 'divine'.

The garbage had a seriously harmful agenda for all humans, and it was unrelentingly seeking to lure and divert people away from simple, direct self-actualization and to prevent them from 'going home' ('recombining with Source')* when they died, for a very troublesome reason that I explain on various of my pages of original writings but particularly in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks.

The major point here is that I myself did get asking myself these questions about the nature of 'spirituality' — and at a time when circumstances had directed me to be clearing out all my old interferences and influences from the garbage in a way and to an extent that few people indeed were and are doing. This resulted in all manner of new insights coming to me, at last clear of the almost universal confusions that the garbage had brought to people through the garbage-sourced concept of 'spirituality'.

Indeed, at the beginning of 1997, when I'd gained what I'm calling fundamental clarity (i.e., I'd crossed the threshold of enlightenment in more normal but also less appropriate terminology) and subsequently started getting into 'healing' activities, at once I found myself continually being slightly bugged by an apparent schism or discrepancy between the following viewpoints that I'd been holding onto:

• My innate, natural perception of reality through that fundamental clarity ('enlightened state') of mine, which perceived all experience as arising from naked awareness or fundamental consciousness (with no discernible levels of supposed higher reality interposed between my physical experiences and fundamental consciousness itself), and no 'story' concerning any supposed past lives of mine. I was simply 'the Ultimate' or at least an aspect of it.
• The supposed higher realities that were almost universally being postulated by 'healers' and people in spiritual and mystical traditions, even though they appeared to overlap with my view in an intellectual way in thinking that 'we are all Spirit [or God]'. Clearly none of these people was actually enlightened and therefore they couldn't have been perceiving things in the way that I was.

Now, because I'm getting my awareness so much more grounded, I can see clearly what that schism represented, and in 2007 I cut right through my fairly long-standing confusion over that, to arrive at unequivocal clear-mindedness, having jettisoned so-called 'spirituality' altogether without in any way having become more materialistic. Now I see, more clearly than ever before, why it was that I gained my fundamental clarity ('became enlightened') so easily and naturally. It wasn't in spite of my not having been on a spiritual 'path', as I'd been half-believing, but, in good part, because I hadn't been on one!

Now let's explain…

Why 'self-realization' / 'self-actualization' is important

Much is made of spirituality in a plethora of varieties and 'paths' in cultures and traditions throughout the world — but one thing all those versions and paths of so-called spirituality are universally not directly focused upon is simple and direct self-actualization or self-realization*. Indeed, most spiritual traditions actively take your focus away from it and, if they acknowledge such a need at all, they hold it away from you and put a lengthy and usually convoluted 'path' in front of you to supposedly 'get there' (but somehow hardly anyone does 'get there'). It's treated as some sort of 'Holy Grail' that, if you follow your 'path' with sufficient diligence (and, I'd be inclined to add, long-sufferingness), you might actually attain sometime in the future.

Self-actualization is simply the uncovering and un-obscuring of your true, deepest nature, which is a 'part' (or, more correctly, a micro-aspect) of the all-pervading consciousness of which we're all manifestations (what I call fundamental consciousness, so as to be as unambiguous as possible), so that you then function in a full and undistorted way as a manifestation of that all-pervading fundamental consciousness ('the Ultimate'), and live a life of vibrant awareness, happiness, love, positivity, free choice and a resulting great flexibility.

Like that you're in a state of total clear-mindedness, and there's no concept of 'spirituality', for you perceive that things are simply as they are and you yourself are simply as you are. When you're functioning in that sort of way, when you die your earthly experience ceases, but you persist as a unique micro-aspect of the all-pervading fundamental consciousness, and are in a state of harmony and awareness, with further, non-sequential, non-karmic, incarnations (what I call no-soul incarnations) being possible.

Self-actualization incorporates (but is more than) what is widely known as enlightenment — the recognition, through direct perception, of your deepest, non-dual, levels of consciousness as being your true nature and identity. Self-actualization is a simple process that requires no ritual and no beliefs (and indeed would be obstructed or completely stopped by them), but does require consistent clearance of the issues that prevent you from functioning as a full and undistorted manifestation of your true, deepest nature, which, as I've indicated, is effectively 'the Ultimate'.

Quite widely nowadays much is made of the value of 'mindfulness' to improve one's functioning and life experience. Yet at least normally the nature and extent of that 'mindfulness' is seriously limited because it's typically achieved through regular formal meditation — something I warn against in many places on this site. That foundation of meditation ensures that the resulting 'mindfulness' would be only partial and unbalanced, with an emphasis on passivity and non-engagement with many of the challenges that everyday life experience presents to one.

People value being in that state, yes, because they become more at peace with themselves, but what is quietly lost is much or indeed most of their intrinsic vibrancy and will / ability for being a positive and creative force for the people around them. They have become to at least some extent cocooned in a more or less unchallenging comfort zone, and so, while probably not going around doing obviously antisocial things, have lost (or failed to find) the plot with regard to their underlying life purpose and life task, which would undoubtedly be very much about proactively being a positive force in some way or other.

In contrast, the proper, proactive mindfulness — complete mindfulness —, which is what clear-mindedness is, is a vibrant state of dynamic balance of peaceful acceptance on the one hand and active engagement on the other, including being prepared, in a fully rational manner, to be a whistle-blower or take other actions as make genuine best sense towards righting things that are amiss around one. That, together with an active, creative, approach to engagement with all situations (where it makes genuine good sense to do so), makes for a vivid and fulfilling life experience, and potentially for a lot of catalytic effect on others towards their taking steps themselves towards their clear-mindedness — i.e., a genuine self-actualization process.

On this site I'm in the process of showing just how direct and simple that process is — especially when you keep your focus on clear-mindedness and don't get lured and sidetracked by the 'spirituality' phenomenon.

The problem with 'spirituality'

The very notion of 'spirituality' or 'spirit' implies movement — spatial movement. Implicit in spatial movement is separateness. The troublesome influence that brings us delusion, power / control agendas, fear and negativity — i.e., the garbage — brought in the concepts of 'spirituality' and 'spirit' as a potent device to ensnare and sidetrack everyone who has aspirations for self-actualization, so as to bring the people progressively more under its control and domination.

The garbage was interfering with us ALL, usually covertly, using all manner of deceits, ploys and lures, to get us perceiving our life experience in terms of separation — specifically, separation from fundamental consciousness, which latter is actually our own deepest aspect and true nature. And so the garbage had covertly manipulated or controlled people into setting up countless religions and 'spiritual' paths in which people's true deepest aspect is misinterpreted as something separate from oneself. In many cases it's deified in a gross and really quite materialistic way as 'God' or equivalent, as in many religions, while in others various much more subtle and 'sneaky' deceptions are used. In the more mystical traditions it's normal to regard us all as being 'Spirit' (or some equivalent name, which latter in some cases is 'God' or some equivalent, so nicely confusing people).

The all-pervading fundamental consciousness has thus been (mis)interpreted as Spirit (or God), which implies something that can move about and indeed think and speak to you. In fact, whatever that 'Spirit' or 'God' is (if indeed it existed), it would be something less than 'the Ultimate', which is fundamental consciousness (i.e., as far as anyone can tell), because the latter is all-pervading and so there's no sense of movement and the implied separation. It's thus not 'spirit' nor 'Spirit' nor 'God', in any actually used sense of the word.

Once you've lost or distorted the perception of yourself as being actually fundamental consciousness itself, and have at least an implicit sense of separateness from it, you've lost your direction for true self-actualization, and then you find yourself following one of the myriad variations of 'spiritual path' that the garbage has put into people's minds to follow. Along with a sense of separation come power and control agendas.

In religions these agendas are usually very obvious, but in the more mystical or apparently purer spiritual traditions and 'paths' the control agendas tend to manifest more subtly, such as in the use of rituals, initiations / attunements, mantra chanting, use of esoteric symbols, treating particular objects, people or locations as sacred / holy and prescribing particular ways of going about your life or indeed of following your 'spiritual path'. Indeed, The very concept of a 'spiritual path' or 'spiritual journey' incorporates a sense of separation and obfuscates the simple fact that self-actualization is right here, in the 'now'.

On other pages on this site I expand on this scenario, but the important point I'm making here is that the garbage has been covertly manipulating everyone who has at least underlying self-actualization aspirations into 'spirituality' in its countless forms, for the purpose of taking them away from their true self-actualization — away from true clear-mindedness, and away from what we really need to happen when we die. So, in a nutshell, The whole concept of spirituality is actually given to us by the garbage to divert us from the self-actualization and clear-mindedness that is our true natural, and thus 'right', way to be living.

In The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks I describe how the garbage had been interfering with us and how we can get clear of its left-over interferences and influence, and in Affirmations & declarations of intent for healing & self-actualization and the related pages linked to therein I point readers towards a direct and indeed clear-minded strategy and methodology for self-actualization. As will become clear (sic) if you read the relevant pages, my insights relating to these matters aren't a matter of belief, but stem from hard personal experience. It isn't just from the hardships that the garbage inflicted upon me, but more particularly from my experiences of progressively clearing out its influence that I'd been able to gain such deep and challenging insights.

Cutting 'God' down to size — God the almighty absurdity!

A huge number of people firmly believe in the existence of 'God' or some equivalent creator being / presence because they have a block to their intelligence that prevents them from understanding scientific descriptions of the formation and evolution of the Universe and indeed life on Earth, and so they jump to fill the gap with a completely unfounded theistic 'explanation' of the physical universe and our existence. Sure, the findings of scientists don't present the full picture, but that simply means that certain important questions remain unanswered, and indeed many would appear to be more or less unanswerable. You don't find truth by filling in the gaps in our knowledge / understanding with belief! That way, you simply ensure that genuine knowledge and understanding will never prevail.

Let's look for a moment at the pervasive assertion that life and the world and the Universe is just too complex — too wonderful and indeed awesome — to have come into existence without a Creator God.

For a start, that assertion doesn't prove anything, nor point to even a shred of evidence to support it. What it actually tells us is the shortcomings of the particular people's thinking ability — yes, their intelligence — that prevent them from being able ever to gain a proper understanding of the way things really are.

Also, that assertion immediately begs a question, potentially in an infinite loop, perpetually kicking the can further down the road and round the block, for if what we observe of life, the world and the Universe is too complex and wonderful to have formed without being created by a supreme creator being, then the same assertion must inevitably also apply to the presence of that supposedly supreme creator being. Yes, that supreme creator, then, must itself have had a creator!! — And that creator too must have had a creator! … And so on, ad infinitum! In practical terms, that's an absurdity (indeed, you could say, quite loopy!) — but it's the logical conclusion of believing in a supreme creator being.

I've vainly raised this very point with the odd rather evangelistic Christians who were trying to 'convert' me and were using the above spurious reasoning. The standard response was to the effect of Ahhh, there we have the great mystery of God, who is beyond the understanding of ordinary humans…. — Now, where is the sense in that? — Belief sure is a wondrous thing!

It's not that there isn't something fundamental that's beyond the understanding of anyone in the whole of 'Existence', but that that 'something' is the very nature of 'existence' and human experience itself — not an imaginary Creator God that has been invented to use as a fig-leaf to cover up the real insoluble conundrum!

For the rational approach, for a change, to understanding the 'reality' that we experience, please see On the nature of reality and truth — Too simple to believe! :-).

The red herring of 'no-self'

One of the particularly sneaky and troublesome distortions of the actual situation, which comes to us particularly from the various Eastern religions and 'spiritual' traditions, is the notion that in order for you to become enlightened and especially fully self-realized / self-actualized, you need to relinquish all sense of 'self' in your life experience. According to that sort of outlook, you're supposed to be striving towards a rarefied and much sought after (or indeed feared!) state of 'no-self'.

Yes, it's true that almost everyone has a deluded sense of 'self' that they do need to let go of (or, more realistically, progressively dissolve), but it's the delusions and attachment that need clearing — NOT the sense of 'self' in itself (i.e., the sense of one's having an intrinsic uniqueness). In other words your sense of your own uniqueness and your own abundance and variety of experiences in your own unique combination, and experienced from your own unique viewpoint, is very much at the core of your whole raison d'être / purpose of incarnation in the first place.

To seek to minimize that is actually to point right away from genuine self-actualization and into subtle illusory realities and indeed astral realms in which people believe that they've achieved 'no-self' (assumed by them to reflect a sort of terminal self-realization, also bringing them a great boost to their personal status in the view of others), actually through a process of self denial, and are thus covertly ensnared by the garbage — and also are failing miserably with regard to their underlying primary life purpose.

The delusions of 'self' include everything that makes up one's self image — except for actual physical observations of genuinely positive aspects of one's functioning. A cherished or cultivated self image is necessarily a false image, so that one poses to everyone with a false ID. It's thus intrinsically a deception, a dishonesty. The only thing you can (sort of) know about yourself is that you are what you are — whatever that is. But the catch is that there's no means by which you can ever genuinely know 'what that is' — i.e., actually what you are!

You can only know what you appear to be, or what's helpful for you to assume that you are (i.e., for practical purposes), neither of which are at all the same as what you actually are. The nearest that I've been able to get towards knowing what I am or anyone is, is described in On the nature of reality and truth — Too simple to believe! :-) — but even that view is still conceptual and thus within 'relative truth', and so is still about how things appear to be, rather than how they actually are (which latter we have no means of knowing — i.e., as far as I can tell! ).

It's thus genuinely a crucial part of our self-actualization process, to let go of all attachment to or cherishing of a self image, but it's also equally important to cultivate our genuine underlying sense of 'self' — i.e., our awareness of our own uniqueness and abundance — but without actually getting attached to anything. It's a matter of observing clearly and being completely open-minded, objective and clear-thinking about yourself and how you interact with your (apparent) surroundings.

Some would claim that the latter approach requires a very great humility, but I'd take issue on that. Yes, in one sense it could be seen as involving humility, in the eschewing of 'ego' — the attachment to some sort of self image — BUT it also involves uncompromising self honesty, and that involves standing one's full height and being prepared to speak out at times with uncomfortable or at least challenging 'truths', which paradoxically then get one accused of being arrogant and having an 'enormous ego'.

That is, indeed, what's been tending to happen for me. Basically, if we're serious about our own self-actualization process we need to let go of such concepts as humility, pride, modesty and 'ego', and simply be open-minded, clear-thinking, well-focused observers of all that we experience, and to dissolve attachments as we come to notice them — and always to stand our full height, in every meaning of that expression. (er, well, perhaps not actually physically if you're on top of a mountain in a thunderstorm! )

The confusions around 'no-self' appear to arise because fundamental consciousness itself, being apparently fully non-dual and free from concepts, apparently doesn't distinguish between 'I' and 'other'. Yes, so you could say that your underlying true nature is 'no-self'. But the whole point of incarnating is to have dualistic life experience in which we are apparently discrete, separate individuals, each with a unique set of identifying features.

If you seek to suppress your dualistic experience in everyday life in order to achieve a fully no-self state, what you're seeking to do is to progressively de-incarnate yourself — in other words, progressively to unground yourself to the point of altogether leaving your current incarnation, or in other words to die prematurely and without having paid proper attention to the actual life purpose / life task with which you incarnated.

It may bring some people up with a bit of a wrench for me to say it, but I myself am NOT following a figurative 'right hand path' or 'path of the Light' at all! However, before you throw up your hands in horror, let me make it clear that neither am I following a 'left hand path' or 'path of the Dark (or of Satan)' at all.

These polarities of non-physical or metaphysical left / right and dark / light all came to us from the garbage for the purpose of keeping us diverted well away from simply tuning into our own deeper aspects and living as manifestations of fundamental consciousness. You don't need, and are far better off without, a 'path' for that — for the very notion of being on a 'path' or 'journey' helps keep you from the 'simply being' of genuine self-actualization, and would lead you by one means or another into the clutches of the garbage.

It appears that Satanists typically dismiss those who are on what they call a 'right hand path' as living impoverished lives*, just because the latter people aren't indulging in the massive convolutions of awfulness and (often) depravity and suffering that the Satanists' or other 'magic' practitioners' own lifestyles bring about. However, even those who are on so-called 'right hand paths' or 'paths of the Light' (i.e., what most people would call 'spiritual paths') are themselves in a captivity of the garbage, albeit a much more covert and maybe subtle captivity — believing that they're heading for some sort of self-actualization, when actually they're keeping themselves firmly away from the real thing.

Thus an important aspect of coming out of any addiction, fixation or attachment is to recognise that when you let go of it you're not just 'giving it up' and thereafter living an impoverished life without something you were enjoying, but rather, you need to see the addiction as something of a ball-and-chain that you've managed to get free from, so that you have more freedom and can live a more varied and abundant life.

So, the real choice is not between 'left' and 'right', nor between 'dark' and 'light' but between (a) following a 'path' (whether 'dark' or 'light'), which necessarily incorporates the following of rules and taking on board illusory realities, and cultivates the occlusion of one's deepest awareness, and (b) opening to the simplicity of your own deepest aspects, the core of which is fundamental consciousness or 'What Is' itself, and gaining the freedom and happiness of having the deepest and broadest possible awareness, and becoming immune to all influences that might tend to divert one from that direction.

The whole concept of clear-mindedness ties up in all manner of ways with straightforward manifestation of yourself as fundamental consciousness incarnate. You don't have to wait till you're optimally self-actualized in order to start using and experiencing at least a basic level of clear-mindedness — you can start right now. If you go to Affirmations & declarations of intent for healing & self-actualization, and follow that through also to Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way and other relevant pages that they link to, you have a succinct and potent set of pointers for speedy and direct self-actualization, all based on clear-mindedness.

When you cultivate and open up your awareness in a well-grounded manner, without beliefs, preconceptions and garbage-sourced preoccupations or influences, then you're operating at least in some degree in clear-minded mode. Paradoxically, on the one hand, through cultivating and increasing your grounding (i.e., your connectedness with the physical level of reality or consciousness) you progressively increase your manifestation of your true nature — 'the Ultimate', while on the other hand, if you seek to cultivate what people typically think of as 'higher' awareness you progressively further unground your awareness and opening yourself to getting misdirected by imaginary / fictional scenarios.

So, if you try to point 'high', you get 'low' (which usually pretends to be 'high' or even 'divine'), and if you get connecting really well with the physical level with an open and clear mind, you get 'the Ultimate', which actually transcends the concepts of 'high' and 'low'.

In clear-minded mode you live without 'story' about yourself outside this lifetime, for you can never truly know any of that, and any such 'information' you do pick up is almost certain to be garbage-sourced and distorted if not wholly fiction in order to try to divert you from self-actualization. Similarly you live your life without 'story' about supposed higher realities. I'm not saying there aren't any higher realities (whatever 'higher' would really mean!) — rather, simply that we can never know about any because, as far as I can ascertain, anything of the sort that actually appears to us is illusory.

You are NOT 'Light'! You are consciousness / awareness! Thus self-actualization and clear-mindedness are not about light nor Light as so many 'healers' and mystics claim, but are about vivid clarity of awareness and perception. It's the garbage that has led us into the fiction that we or indeed our so-called source (which term itself implies separateness) are 'Light' and we will 'go to the Light' when we die. By equating consciousness or awareness with light, the garbage had lured countless people away from true self-actualization — the manifestation of their clear-minded natural state.

Similarly, you're NOT, and indeed there's no such thing as, a 'being of Light'. You're a being of clarity, of vibrant awareness — not of Light. 'Light', and indeed the whole light / dark polarity (apart from actual physical light) is solely of the astral illusion that was given to us by the garbage.

In a nutshell, then…

This site is about how you can be truly you — fully you — natural you — as a being of vibrant awareness and clarity, living a free and flexibly and creatively happy life, with the great personal stature and power that manifests naturally once all the garbage influences (including attachment to personal status and control agendas) have been cleared out or dissipated.

One thing this site is NOT about is meditation, which all manner of traditions have seriously mistakenly associated with self-actualization, so severely unbalancing and distorting the notions of self-actualization that they embrace and promote. I do, however, show on this site what people can most usefully take up instead of standard meditation, to bring them forward into genuine, balanced and grounded self-actualization. (Try Self-Power Walking, for example!)

…And one important thing that self-actualization and the resultant clear-mindedness is, is the ultimate mental health.

Laying to rest some old chestnuts

"Self-actualization is about being who you really want to be"

— Oh, no it isn't!

The very many people who believe such a thing haven't yet understood what self-actualization really is. From an enlightened or self-actualization viewpoint, the very notion of being who you really want to be is meaningless. You are simply who- or whatever you ARE (who- or whatever that is), whether you like it or not! And, what's more, nobody in the whole of 'Existence' can actually know what that is — because consciousness inherently has no means or basis upon which it could genuinely understand its true nature or modus operandi!

So, if you're wanting to be a particular person or to have some particular perceived identity or be some particular way or other, then you're in big trouble, like almost all people. You're out of touch with the reality of 'What Is' and are captive to the garbage and its noxious agenda through your attachment to illusory realities and in particular to some false identity that you're seeking to present to yourself and all other people. Cut out the fancy, picturesque or 'cool' hairstyles, the impressive beards, the self-harm of tattooing and body piercing, the ornamentations, 'fashionable' or 'cool' clothes, and at last showing love and respect for yourself, and let yourself be seen without all those decoys and obfuscations! — Then you'd be showing respect for others too, by encouraging them to liberate themselves from all their pretences!

Self-actualization is about dissolving all false identities and opening out and manifesting as fully as possible your own true nature, and thus your own TRUE identity, whatever that is. If you're trying to prejudge as to 'who' or 'what' you are, you're virtually completely keeping yourself closed to enlightenment or any genuine self-actualization.

It's true that self-actualization is assisted by your having a good idea of the 'positive' qualities of your own true nature, and pointing yourself towards uncovering those. However, the serious error that people generally make in the whole 'spirituality' mindset is to try to fit themselves into the mould of a perceived 'spiritual' / 'enlightened' / 'self-realized' person (i.e., a stereotype), and at best they therefore become simply rigid parodies of the real thing (i.e., their genuine true nature). What they're doing is a lame attempt at end-gaining rather than attending properly to the means by which they could become genuinely self-actualized and free.

"I've been reading this site for over a month now, and it's making things worse for me — please help!"

Many people who come to this site have done so because they were looking for solutions to their own problems of gross interferences and attacks from the garbage. At least theoretically, they'd come to just the right place, for not only do I present a potentially extremely helpful explanation of what they've been experiencing, but I actually present a whole set of methods that, if they're properly and awarely applied in a balanced and grounded manner, would enable them to be progressively resolving ALL of those problems — and easily and joyfully! Believe it or not, there was nothing scary or intimidating about the real means to clear out all one's garbage interferences! Indeed, the whole mindset of these methods actually un-scares and un-intimidates whoever uses them.

However, there's a complicating factor. You do need to ensure that you're operating in the right mindset when you get using the methods. The garbage could often usurp a person's very discovery of ways to rectify their situation, and interfere with that person in a way that turned the 'solution' effectively into part of the garbage's arsenal of tools to bring about disruptive and potentially wrecking attack situations for that person. The person then was still sort-of using the methods, but inadvertently within a mindset that was counter to the real purpose of those methods! That then served the garbage and not the person. I know about this deeply from my own personal experience, so let me mention a few examples.

• I took up The Work in 2006, and all was going well despite some garbage interference, but after a few months the garbage, posing as my 'higher consciousness', started giving me a whole lot of 'story' about myself and my alleged major role for all of Humanity and indeed all of 'Creation', and it got me listing more and more things that it was imperative that I put to inquiry using The Work — getting into an increasingly exhausting and indeed intimidating 'vortex' of 'story' and anxiety about my situation and the apparent inability of The Work to really resolve anything fundamental.

  This led into one of my biggest garbage attack crises — one that was indeed potentially lethal, at least if the findings of my retrospective detective work on that event are anything to go by.

• Similarly, in 2007–8, when I developed and got using the extremely helpful Grounding Point procedure, whenever the garbage managed to get an attack on me going, it sought to put into my mind a whole mass of pointers to particular illusory realities that could theoretically have been in my mindspace (but actually probably were mostly not so to any material extent), each of which supposedly needed to be 'zapped' by use of that procedure if the attack were to be dissolved. The garbage was clearly seeking again to get me wearing myself out and getting increasingly ungrounded and panicked by apparently having to individually 'zap' an ever filling bottomless pit of illusory realities, each of which of course was supposedly imperative to 'zap' immediately.

  Fortunately, with my previous experience with The Work, I saw what was happening, and soon set a very low limit to the number of Grounding Point 'zappings' of illusory realities that I'd carry out in a session or even in a day. I made a point then of choosing only the most relevant and all-embracing ones to 'zap', and concentrating more on defusing the other main element in the mechanism of garbage attacks — emotional 'button-pushing'.

• I also found that when I read certain books or articles that were at least impinging on things I really needed to know about the garbage and how it operates, I'd be attacked with grossly exaggerated fear-related feelings together with 'pseudo-thoughts' and illusory realities insinuated into my mindspace to 'inform' me that I was now being taken over by this or that troublesome force or faction, usually related to something that I'd just been reading.
  

  The insinuated 'story' combined with severe attack feelings was generally a truly hellish sort of experience, and it took all my clarity of mind to get myself rapidly out of what were actually the beginnings of seriously 'wrecking' feedback loops of distorted perception. One time it was supposedly Pleiadeans, and another time it was supposedly the 'Fourteenth Faction' (supposedly from another universe), while other times it was simply 'astral beings' claiming that they were my real 'masters' and now I had no escape from them… — and so on (I'd heard it all before…).

Some other people inevitably would have got similar troublesome experiences precipitated by their reading things on this site or/and using certain of my methods that are supposed to be enabling them to progressively clear out their garbage interferences.

In Anatomy of a 'forces of darkness' ('astral beings') attack crisis I describe how I worked out for myself the primary mechanisms of a garbage attack, and how the feedback loop at the centre of an attack is created and built up. I suggest you read that now if you haven't already done so, and then, below, let's see what we can do to advise the hapless person who'd been reading this site for over a month and was getting increasing attacks and seemingly alarming effects that appear to be associated with my writings 'feeding' his fears and anxieties.

I've been reading this site for over a month now, and it's making things worse for me — please help!

Now let's examine that pleading question and get some idea of what was really going on there. Actually that 'quote' is a rough paraphrase from one actual email communication in response to this website, but I'm sure the fellow concerned was effectively speaking for a fair number of people and so I extracted a 'generic' version of a précis of his message.

What is the person actually telling us? He says he's been reading through this site for over a month — but actually nowhere in his email does he say that he'd been using the methods that I present on this site, so we can reasonably assume that he wasn't using any of them, at least to any material extent; indeed it looks as though he'd hardly or not at all been even considering using any of them. Now, in that situation, what purpose could be served by all that reading through this site over such a long period? I'm not saying it's wrong, but we do need to look and see what's really going on.

It's clear from the body of his email that he was operating in 'victim' mode. He was perceiving nasty thing upon nasty thing as happening to him, but he appeared not to be actively doing anything to resolve his situation, so of course the garbage automatically exploited his lack of aware positive action and plied him with further successive 'nasty' impressions of what was allegedly happening to him — all the time feeding in further pseudo-thoughts to the effect that he was a victim of nasty goings-on and needed help. Indeed, it looks as though, in a feedback loop of 'victim mindset'-related distorted perceptions, he was compulsively, albeit unawarely, using his reading of my writings as a red-hot iron rod with which to beat himself.

That's precisely what, I'm sure, a significant proportion of people coming to this site would be doing. They're all good people who don't in the slightest mean to be doing anything crazy or less than the best for themselves, but I've seen for myself 'from the inside' how the garbage could get one into such feedback loops of distorted perceptions that made one feel that one had been taken over and was powerless to do anything about it, and 'needed help'. One's response to the situation was then inevitably dysfunctional and, frankly, crazy!

The 'I need help' bit is sheer poison, which the garbage would insinuate into people's mindspace (usually covertly) with merry abandon. That's one of the most self-disempowering thoughts and indeed illusory realities that you could entertain or be carrying. With regard to ALL garbage interference issues, you were LOST as long as you didn't cut straight through that powerless 'I need help' mindset and start being your own genuine helper — or, much better expressed, at last recognising yourself as the captain of your ship, and getting on with your new self-command — by awarely using effective methods to clear yourself of that garbage.

Here are a few simple basic starting suggestions for anyone to get cutting through that 'powerless' crap with which the garbage would go 'feeding' people.

• Use the Grounding Point procedure to 'zap' (i.e., bring about the dissolution of) the following, allowing a reasonable period between each of the zappings to ensure that you're keeping your awareness as grounded as possible:
  • A generalized 'visualization-with-your intent' of all the manifestations of your sense of your own powerlessness and needing help.
  • A generalized 'visualization-with-your intent' of all the manifestations of your garbage interferences and attacks.
  • All illusory realities in which I'm in trouble or have nasty things being done to me or am a victim in any way — and all container illusory realities in which any of that is 'real'.
  • All illusory realities in which there are obstacles to my taking up the most simple and direct methods to clear myself of all garbage interference and attacks — and all container illusory realities in which any of that is 'real'.
• Do a formal reading of the following declarations of intent (DOI), using the method given in Some potent self-actualization / healing practices:
  
  • With clear conscious choice, I affirm my intent that I'm in full command of all aspects of my life and that no apparently external force or influence has any command, hold or sway over me — and that this is coming about with all speed.
  • With clear conscious choice, I affirm my intent that I have no obstacles of any kind to my taking up the most simple and direct methods to clear myself of all interference and attacks from apparent unseen influences, and that I'm my own best helper for bringing that about — and that this is coming about with all speed.

• Disable the emotional 'button-pushing' aspect of the sense of powerlessness. For this, use the Feedback Loop Zapper procedure given in Some potent self-actualization / healing practices, following it with an end-of practice procedure, as also given on that page.

  • Further, take on the relevant measures given in 'Dark force' and entity troubles — The real way to clear them — BUT first, whether or not you consider yourself to be in actual crisis at the moment, read carefully through Crisis emergency self-help — Life upturn the SMART way, for that's a great primer to get you into the right mindset to enable my self-actualization methods to work well for you.

I hope, therefore, that people who feel disturbed or intimidated by my writings or some adverse manifestation apparently triggered by them will understand that what's really happening in such cases is that left-over garbage-mimicking patterns are effectively pointing out to them whatever vulnerability of theirs they're exploiting, so one can actually then use the above methods to heal that vulnerability and thus immunize themselves against any further interferences / attacks using that particular vulnerability. Isn't that handy!

Various people who are into some version of 'spirituality' come out with that sort of distorted thinking. In my experience this has been particularly people who are into psychic and to a certain extent Paganistic pursuits, though I've had this sort of rubbish also from individuals who regard themselves as Buddhists or at least Buddhism-aligned. In any event, what such people reveal is a degraded, relatively superficial awareness and an augmented level of self-deception through denial of what they don't want to countenance. It's the end-gaining attitude of supposedly thinking and doing all the 'right' things to be a 'spiritual' person (i.e., a cherished stereotype of one), without being at all willing to do the necessary clearance work that would enable a genuine self-actualization process to occur.

One of the great problems about 'spirituality' is the way that it gets people into a seriously unbalanced and ungrounded outlook in which they're trying to create for themselves some sort of 'ideal' reality (i.e., actually an illusory reality) rather than actually look clearly at the current situation and recognise what needs to be changed in order to uncover and open out the 'ultimate' reality of their own deepest aspects. So, a highly distorted notion of self-realization / self-actualization has been cultivated in 'spirituality' circles, so that people believe that they can achieve 'self-realization' through 'being positive' all the time without doing the essential groundwork.

So, instead of using appropriate methods to get themselves clear of the untoward influences that are distorting their life experience and covering up their own deepest and 'truest' nature, they seek to deny the existence of any such untoward influences by creating their own illusion of everything being sweet in their own rose garden, actually within their garbage-sourced prison, whose existence they don't want to know about, thank you very much.

Do you say, I won't bother about all that stuff about computer hackers and viruses and supposed need for various layers of security on my computer, because that's all being too negative and heavy, and all you need to do is to focus on what's sweet and positive!? If so, to be frank, you bloody fool — you're the sort of sucker that the computer hackers and phishers and all the rest of the cyber-criminals are after!

— But that's just the mentality of a very large proportion of people who are into whole 'regions' of 'spirituality' — and very much the whole 'New Age' movement. Yes, they usually do acknowledge the existence of some sort of 'dark' presence or 'forces', but then just shrug their shoulders about it and look the other way — or, indeed, in some cases, wilfully play about with it, refusing to acknowledge that it's anything significantly harmful or injurious.

Surely, in real terms, the most positive outlook on your computer security must be to be as aware as reasonably possible of potential threats to the security of your system and to take all reasonable precautions to ensure that your system doesn't get hacked / infected. By the same token, actually the most negative outlook would be the one that just didn't want to think about such issues.

It's one thing to compulsively dwell on problems just for the sake of dwelling on them (which would be harmful and thus 'negative' in effect), but quite another to be really practical and go identifying and addressing those problems, so that life gets better and better as a result! Isn't the latter the really positive outlook?

So, to all the aforementioned detractors of my own outlook and indeed person, who reckon that I'm being 'negative' and 'heavy', I ask where is the material difference between my own actually identifying and addressing (or at least pointing people to means to address) very serious problems that do exist in people's life experience, and the extremely sensible and 'positive' matter of having proper security set up on your computer?

The problem here is one thing above all that those people don't want to know about. Hacked computers will usually seek to hide the fact of their being hacked, and similarly, the people who speak out against my being so 'negative' and 'heavy' are themselves hacked people who are compulsively not thinking straight because of the garbage-sourced interference that's distorting their whole life experience. Naturally they'd 'disagree' with anyone who has greater mental freedom and clarity than they do, and who can see the mess they're really in, and they'd seek to put pressure on others to similarly turn a blind eye to anything that might actually start getting people free from their captivity at the 'hands' of their garbage-mimicking patterns.

I'd point out, too, that inevitably my writings on this site can't give a balanced depiction of what my own life experience is like. Inevitably I write much here about the garbage and how it's been interfering with everyone. Why? Because I'm constantly dwelling on problems and the garbage? — No, not at all! I'm doing so because otherwise everyone would go on in just the same old way, allowing themselves to be increasingly distorted and captive, with no notion that there really are simple and straightforward means to get clear of all that garbage (sic).

It's other people's ignorance and confusions that necessitate my writing so much on this site about the garbage and people's left-over patterns mimicking it, to start putting the record straight and enable at least some people to start moving in the real self-actualization and freedom direction. If you want to see some other aspects of my life experience that are in contrast with my writings about how to get clear of garbage interferences, you could, for example, explore my music compositions or the photos and natural soundscape recordings I get during my adventurous hiking outings.

If I were not such a vibrant, buoyant and, yes, 'positive' individual with a really positive life experience, and indeed with a great sense of humour ('keeping it light', and all that!), there would be no way that I could have been effective in 'cutting the garbage down to size' in the way that I've actually managed to do. Heavy, my haemorrhoidal arse!

"Your site's message is one of fear. Please remove it."

Sure, yes, I'll remove it at once!

— Er, but hang on a moment. Just why, then, do various people write in to tell me how, by providing a proper working understanding of the troublesome experiences they've been having, my writings here have actually been powerful in dispelling fears that the respective people had been carrying?

— No, on second thoughts just possibly I might not remove this site after all, even though of course I'd incur various people's wrath by keeping it. For some weird and arcane reason I have particularly little inclination to discard this site on the basis of a particularly, chronically, frightened person's ill-based requests for me to do so. What such a person needs to do is to use methods that I give on this site to enable him himself to dissolve the fears he's carrying, which motivate him to send such an absurd request to me (and yes, that request really was sent to me; I didn't make that one up!).

One only has to read through my writings awarely and without preconceptions, to see that by providing proper explanations / understandings, and simple and safe methods to use for people to progressively dissolve their troublesome issues and get genuinely clear of them, this site's message is one of grounded, clear-minded love and positivity, and the antithesis of fear. The headline quote above is from a person who is simply afraid of looking at what's actually there — and thus who is afraid of ever addressing his own issues. It's HIS message, therefore, that's one of fear, and thus for ignoring.

"If a belief system or tradition is long-established or 'ancient', its tenets are true, and anyone who holds them up to scrutiny and dismisses them is wrong"

Once in a while somebody or other — evidently very much a 'sheep' — ignores the notes on this site's Contact page and writes in to me with actually baseless comments, usually in the form of rhetorical questions (and thus reminding anyone with 'eyes to see' that indeed they have no rational basis for their communication). These are really just different versions of the headline assertion here, and either directly or implicitly berating me for my having the effrontery to cut straight through the fog of belief and obfuscation that constitutes 'spirituality' and all its branches and ramifications. That includes belief in the human 'aura' system, with its 'energy bodies', 'chakras', 'meridians' and so forth, and believing that, say, the ongoing use of meditation or sacred geometry is beneficial or indeed 'important'.

Nobody has yet explained to me on what rational basis it could be, that the older a belief or tradition is, the more 'true' or 'correct' it is — and indeed I have to admit that I myself have signally failed to work out how such a thing could be. Clearly I must be a little 'lacking upstairs', then, not being able to work that out. Indeed, if that assertion really is true I'd better take down this life-changing and life-saving site now and abandon my weirdo ideas and follow one of those harmful traditions. After all, myriads of other fools have done so over the centuries or indeed millennia, so I might as well join them!

I hereby pronounce, then, that the Earth is flat, and that it's the centre of the Firmament and is ruled by a wrathful and vengeful God who is too busy for anything worthwhile because He is constantly weighing people in the balance and finding them wanting, then breathing WRATHFUL fire as He throws them into the great burning pit of Hell! I'll have no further truck with all those new-fangled modern beliefs and heresies that claim you can live — let alone live better! — by thinking for yourself instead of following time-honoured beliefs and traditions! You divert from the latter, and you're rebelling against the Almighty, and so it's the fires of Hell for you, meboy [or girl, or 'other']!

Okay, back to sanity now. I'll not waste my time / energy by engaging with such people, and as soon as I see the gist of their time-wasting emails I stop reading, and delete them. This site is for people who have the mental capacity and motivation to think beyond any beliefs and tunnel vision they may have. Any other people would do well not to waste their time on this site, and to go off and wallow in their illusory realities (and indeed to cock the other leg) somewhere else far removed!

This site's 'scalpel cutting' motif is there for a reason.

Need I really say more?

"I can't understand how you analysed and came to good conclusions and indeed this entire level of understanding within your lifetime…"

The above is an actual quote from an email I received in November 2014 (edited for clarity). Yes, quite a proportion of people who come to this site and recognise its importance would undoubtedly feel that way. But actually that apparent conundrum is straightforwardly resolved by a thorough and aware reading of the accounts I give on this site of my own personal experiences.

For one thing, as already mentioned, from 1997 I had fundamental clarity (aka 'enlightenment'), which took me on a quantum leap of mental clarity, so making it much easier and simpler to get to the bottom of issues and see things as they really are, so progressively cutting through all manner of previously normal confusions. But also, more fundamentally still, according to my best understanding, I was born as a no-soul person*, so I was free from the hugely vast majority's confusions and rigidities of outlook and thinking, and so had a truly massive head-start compared with anyone even slightly 'normal'.

Then, not only did severe interference and attacks from the sweet little garbage force me, for my own survival, to hold up my life experience and all my ongoing observations to ruthless scrutiny, but also my whole life situation had been keeping me clear of the time-wasting distractions that the garbage gets almost everyone into, such as close 'relationships', socializing, and pursuing all manner of other fixations and emotional if not physical addictions.

Also, once I'd taken up and refined Helpfulness Testing as a means to tap the information / understandings resource of my own deepest aspects, bypassing the normal mediation or at least interference from the garbage, I tended to be able to cut through the standard confusions of the life experience as with a scalpel cutting straight to the core. That doesn't represent something unique and awesome about me, but simply something that any sufficiently aware person can do, now that I've made the method and all the necessary cautions and caveats available on this site.

If used really awarely, it can make a person appear to 'ordinary', less aware people to have superhuman powers of deep knowledge and insight. The reality, however, is that the 'ordinary' people, until / unless they get clearing their own garbage-sourced programming and interferences, are themselves functioning as sub-humans.

When you have real clarity, the sort of task I've achieved doesn't appear so Herculean, because so much of it is a matter of cutting through all the garbage-sourced complexities and 'story' and arriving at the MUCH simpler actual situation. — Well, okay, I mean a really effective working model of the actual situation, because we can never know what's absolutely true, particularly with regard to what I categorize for simplicity as 'everything non-physical'. The important thing is that my dire situation with the garbage attempting to destroy me ensured that my working model was built up on the basis of what actually worked when I applied it, rather than on what seemed to be a nice or attractive theory or simply got people's approval.

That's one very good reason why I completely disregard people's attempts to argue or 'discuss' with me my purported 'views'. All they're seeking to do is beat me into submission with their beliefs and opinions. If they genuinely wanted to get closer to any sort of genuine 'truth' they'd simply get on with putting my working model and methods into practice and see for themselves to what extent those bring them benefits beyond whatever they may imagine they were gaining from their own particular belief systems.

Steve Gamble's supposed influence upon me — an important clarification

In various places on this site I refer to the dramatic and crucially positive and life-changing effect of my being introduced to Steve Gamble's Shopping for Spirit series of writings. That has led some people to conclude that I or my writings are thus somewhat 'lesser' through supposedly being 'influenced' by his writings. Belatedly, in 2017, I decided it would be helpful to add this note here to give a more focused clarification as to the nature of that effect, and the continuing major and fundamental difference between his outlook and mine.

In April 2007, when I was still struggling with my own garbage shenanigans, somebody emailed me out of the blue, saying he respected the writings of both myself and of this guy Steve Gamble, who I hadn't heard of before, and he was wondering what I'd make of his Shopping for Spirit writings, because he thought there were things in common between his writings and mine at that time (which latter were then all firmly based in 'spirituality', for whatever good that was doing anyone!).

I read a few of those articles, feeling a very disturbing paranoid atmosphere in his writing and so not liking it at all, but at least he was emphasizing the importance of getting clear of any sort of engagement with what he was calling 'the astral', in which everything was illusory. Importantly, he was claiming that what we perceived as supposed higher dimensions and higher beings as well as 'low' or 'dark' non-physical beings were all illusions within 'the astral' — something that immediately clicked with me, as did his pointing out the harmfulness of supposedly sacred symbols and sacred geometry.

However, I also sensed that there was much that was hair-raisingly 'not right' in both a multitude of details and his overall outlook presented in those writings, and indeed in his outlook as manifested in his whole site. I took my prompts from him to hold my own outlook up to a new scrutiny and experimentally to change my outlook accordingly*, and dropped his writings, and any notions of engagement with them or him, like a hot brick, because I saw that he was still in deep and serious trouble and was leading others into such trouble.

Another sure sign of a whole paranoid mindset is his espousing a range of popular conspiracy theories — in such a manner as to help promote his business interest.

The rational, non-paranoid approach would be for susceptible people to get healing their weaknesses that make them vulnerable to those environmental stress factors. But of course such a rational and grounded mindset wouldn't earn Gamble any of his living, so he has no incentive to point people where they really need to be pointed! You NEVER improve your grounding, at least in any worthwhile way, by buying products that are claimed to improve your grounding — no matter how convincing the sales talk may appear to be!

Note that I myself was never claiming that the polished stone spheres used in my own (previous) methodology, including the now-'legacy' Clarity-Sphere, either ground or heal you, nor indeed that they'd do anything much for you without your actually using them in very specific ways. That wasn't an oversight of mine, but a consequence of my recognition that you have to use your own 'grey matter' well, to get grounding yourself or to have a worthwhile self-actualization process running, and there's no way round that requirement.

As must be very apparent from careful reading on this site, I don't make a big issue about 'protecting' oneself from environmental stresses (a defensive mindset that's at least on the verge of paranoia), because if you use Helpfulness Testing you can find out for yourself if there are particular ESs affecting you that you need to address, and what you'd need to do about them.

What it really came down to was that he was pointing to serious problems in 'spirituality' as fairly generally practised / understood, yes, but then was NOT dropping spirituality but simply putting forward his own version of 'spirituality' — actually much as I myself had been trying to do while being pixie-led by the garbage. Instead of the obviously absurd and very harmful 'My God is better than your God', it was now 'My spirituality is better than their spirituality'. Big deal!

Anyway, my own response back then in 2007 to the contents of his 'Shopping for Spirit' writings was to recognise quite soon that spirituality itself, in any form, was the real problem, so I simply dropped it — the whole lot —, and then set-to on building up a practical working model instead, outside all belief, and based on my own observations and practical experiences, laced with oodles of rational scrutiny and practical testing of hypotheses. — SO much simpler and less stressful!

Once I'd made that experimental choice, it took a good few weeks for me to adjust to being so confoundedly consistent and spirituality-free, and indeed trail-blazing out here on my own, but every time I felt the pull to revert in some manner, upon doing my little thought experiment of reverting some detail in my overall new mindset, I sensed at once the conflicts it would cause if I held onto that bit of the 'spirituality' mindset. Thus each time I had a very slight 'wobble', it served to underline and reinforce my new, consistently rational approach, so served a most valuable service.

Gamble was relying heavily on his own psychic perceptions in his outlook and writings, so of course was just getting his own custom-made version of 'spirituality' dished out to him by the garbage. He claimed there was a real, supposedly non-astral 'spirit world' that one would or at least could enter upon death — something completely unverifiable.

No doubt he'd 'seen' that supposed spirit world and therefore was taking it to be real, really just because the garbage would have made that particular illusory manifestation seem a bit different from his regular astral illusions to convince him that it was non-astral and thus 'real'! I myself am all too familiar with such tricks, so I empathize with Gamble, but his persistent fatal error had been not to hold himself and his view of 'reality' up to a full and honest scrutiny, because he's too attached to it and also afraid of publicly eating humble pie as I myself kept doing each time I found I'd been 'pixie-led'.

One of the fundamental pointers to Gamble's continuing entrenchment in 'spirituality' rather than a genuine self-actualization process is his perception of each of us having, and being intrinsically separate from, a supposed 'Source'. That's implicit and indeed often explicit in many parts of his writings. Indeed, at least in his own set of 'affirmations', when I read them, it was so brazenly expressed as to make those affirmations quite nonsensical and inherently of poor effectiveness (to put it politely).

When you're enlightened, and at least have consolidated your enlightened view of 'reality' over a period of time, you'd understand that the very concept of 'Source' is meaningless.

Each of us is simply a continuum of consciousness or awareness from full duality (conscious mind) to the non-duality of what I call for convenience 'fundamental consciousness'. Consciousness has no means to know of any source of it — it simply is as it is, and isn't as it isn't! It's not that there's necessarily no 'Source', but simply that we could never actually know of such a thing, and the concept can never make sense anyway because it implies a circular absurdity, for any source itself would presumably have a source, which itself would have a source, and so on, ad infinitum. Yes, we're back to the circular 'God' absurdity!

Hence of course people's compulsion to throw belief into the arena, to try to hide the gap in their knowledge / understanding. — Fear and deception, deception, deception, all along the way!

So, although Gamble's writings did give me a very constructive kick up the backside to let go of certain harmful notions that had been major factors in my garbage shenanigans of 2003 to early 2007, if I'd actually allowed his writings to be any sort of ongoing influence on me, I'd presumably still be in deep trouble even now, if indeed the garbage hadn't by this time brought about my demise, whether directly or indirectly.

Instead, once I got that kick up the arse I quickly came to see what the real problem was, and recognised the need to ditch the whole of 'spirituality' — not to come up with either a Gamble or Goddard version of it — and to build up a whole new practical working model of 'reality', based on the masses of actual observational data that I'd amassed through all the hardships I'd been dragged through, instead of taking on any more beliefs or following any more gurus / 'teachers' (all themselves being pixie-led by the garbage just as I'd been).

The bottom line, therefore, is that if you want to choose between Gamble's writings and mine as being some sort of 'life guide' for you, if you're definitely after spirituality it's Gamble's ones that you'd want — though I'd also respectfully point out that wants have a funny way of not being the same as actual needs!

It makes sense for me to include here quotes from a selection of people whose lives were turned around, and in some cases actually saved, by taking on the methodology presented on this site. For clarity I've made the odd small edits, but have sought to keep that to an absolute minimum.

• I start here with an example of a person who was in apparently seriously deep trouble, but whose saving grace was that she had the awareness to recognise that something was wrong and surely didn't have to be that way, and thus through an Internet search came to stumble upon this site. It's clear from the odd emails from her that my seminal page Crisis emergency self-help — Life upturn the SMART way made a deep and constructive impact for her, as it would for anyone who genuinely wants to clear pressing issues of theirs.
  

  The following unedited quoted passage (with just the odd typo correction) from an email of this person in Canada comes a princely two weeks after her discovering this site and having the 'balls' and plain common sense to get reading this site in purposeful manner and within days actually to start using my methods instead of the usual 'sheep' thing of finding a myriad reasons 'why not'.

  I have to say, all the things you've written, they WORK

  They actually, really, in reality WORK

  Of course, I'm doing my work too.

  But it works! it really, really does!

  I thought I was a total goner.

  And I haven't even gotten any of my spheres yet!

  Just doing the affirmations, power feet rocking, power marching, and clarity raise your hands and breath thing.

  and then I do some self power walking and grounding points every day when I've time

  and I've finally gotten the hang of grounding point, which is highly effective!

  I can bring on a strong attack this way but I don't leave the area I was walking in until I've silenced/ cleared the attack. It sometimes takes me a little while, but I see attacks are launched on trauma energy/ stress energy 'energy' and when I notice what the 'thing' is or was, I'm able to bring it up full force for a grounding point/ which can cause a serious attack/ but then I sometimes just walk and ground myself (I'm walking mainly on the wild sea coast) to do this- and breathe, and the attack eventually dissipates. I've had two days prior today I was able to do this with some terrible old trauma energy, and today, I was only mildly attacked at various points.

  It's a real nice thing to remain emotionally detached.

  Your work/ writing is waking me up to how I've been led along by the garbage for so long, building to this big crisis thing now, but I can see more and more the things I thought I was choosing were just now things to lead me astray. No wonder I'm here in my life today! I never even realized it. I thought that guidance was essential. Not meant to utterly destroy me using my own weakest points!

  More people should know these things!

  All people should know these things!

• And here is another, much more recent one, from a US citizen living in India:

  I discovered your site in October 2017 searching for ways to remove entity attachments. I was looking into shamanism, and simultaneously sacred geometry was showing up in my mind space.

  I was placing meaning onto it when it showed up in everyday life. I started experiencing things like panic attacks complete with suicidal urges. 

  Your site pointed me in the absolute opposite direction. I went over most of it in the space of a week (tons of content that I'm now re-reading).

  I started self-power walking and it was crazy the difference it made. I'd go from blurred vision and suicidal urges to relatively happy and peaceful. Still a ways to go but your site has had a huge impact. Pretty sure it saved my life or at least helped me out of a tremendously tough spot.

  Anyway, just donated and wanted to encourage you to keep up the good work. Thank you so much for your effort.

• …And a yet more recent one from a very together-sounding guy in Canada in 2018:

  Thank you for this important work! I wasted two years of my life on the garbage, which had presented itself to me as higher spiritual beings. I see now that I opened myself up to the garbage by embracing the so-called spirituality espoused by well-meaning people during my journey of personal healing. I found this website because the garbage kept messing up my life under the guise of spiritual guidance, and your site was a rose in a field of thorns! Your work single-handedly pulled me out of that morass. The clarity of your ideas and your presentation of them cut through that junk in short order. In the course of a single day of reading, I was able to see the garbage for what it is, and ditch a batch of harmful beliefs — including the notion of belief itself! I've continued to read and re-read over the subsequent months.

  I intend to continue donating to help keep this website running as my finances allow. I'm grateful that this life-saving information is search-engine friendly (I worked in SEO, so I can appreciate what you've created here on that level), and not kept hidden behind a pay wall. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

• …And another 2018 one from somebody in Rochester, NY. Note how she started getting out of her troubles NOT by taking on a belief or slavishly following instructions from this site, but by using the material here as prompts to start experimenting and seeing for herself what actually worked — which of course is the mindset I myself employed (and had to do so, as there was no viable alternative) when I was starting to find my way out of my own difficult 'hole' back in 2003–2007.

  I've been reading your site and PDFs for 2.5 months.

  Having been in crisis, utilizing procedures from your writings at least saved my sanity, if not my life.

  In January, after an especially severe attack, unable to function for a month, I was taking many hard looks at myself and asking what have I always been doing and what needs to stop?

  I came to your site.

  One of the first pages I read was about crystals. I realized that I had about thirty of them right next to my head, all pointing at me when I slept!

  At first, I was offended, sad, and horrified that I'd have to get rid of my crystals, that I'd used and believed to be pure, amazing, and powerful for over 40 years! Always had to have one in my pocket. Always had to have at least one if not two with me while I slept.

  I reluctantly decided to experiment. For a few weeks; the only thing I did was remove the crystals.

  I immediately felt so much better and more content; no more nightmares that disrupted me for days, and will never keep crystals by me again.

  For another month, the only thing I did was power walking, and then added in Grounding Point and affirmations.

  Yesterday, I activated my new sphere (large white marble) with care, tapped the sphere for any possible ESs, and did my power walking. It seemed like grounding point was already more effective.

  This triggered a powerful need to clean and organise my space for about ten hours. That night, I went to sleep. I slept deeply, which has been rare where I live now.

  I woke up to an extreme attack of vertigo that led to severe nausea where I almost threw up. Simultaneously, a fast onset of excruciating cramps from my monthly cycle. (That speed of onset never happened before.)

  Now, more of a peaceful observer, I tapped my sternum, thinking maybe this is the garbage, and also did a grounding point procedure with the Clarity Sphere, and all of it immediately subsided a LOT. Within about 45 minutes, I felt 100% fine.

  Also, the next morning, my mom started cleaning a cluttered area on the other side of my room, which I had tapped for as an ES.

  Since discovering the procedures you've written about, and utilizing them…

  • I no longer hate myself, and instead, I love myself.
  • I feel calm, content, balanced, alive, present, and peaceful.
  • I have confidence.
  • I'm not severely irritated by everything, and so many more strengthening things.

• This one from early in 2018, from MF in California, USA, is a particularly striking and inspiring one. This guy, like me, had clearly seen his true nature, but had suffered from having had no genuine guide or reference that made sense of what he was experiencing, so inevitably he superficially misinterpreted his bang-on healthy perceptions as representing something wrong that was going on for him, and consequently, with garbage connivance, let himself get led astray by a toxic guru (though probably no more toxic than most or even all spiritual 'gurus'!). Because this account of his is so educational, I'm including the whole of it despite its length.

  Just want to thank you and let you know how grateful I am for your website and your methods for clearing away the garbage. Probably like many others, I found your website in the midst of a crisis, and when I look back on it now, it looks even worse than I realized at the time, and I am amazed that I survived it.

  In my case, my crisis was some 25 years in the making when I began following a guru and using his 'secret' Hindu meditation techniques. Before I found your website, I had spiraled down to such a living nightmare — primarily unrelenting voices that first appeared in meditation and got worse as time went on, plus intense energies surging through my body — that I ended up going to a psychiatrist because I thought I might have something physically wrong with me, like a brain tumor, for instance. That's how bad it was and how much I was in denial that this guru and his techniques could have anything to do with it.

  Fortunately I didn't get a psychiatrist who insisted on hospitalization or medication — although we talked a bit about medication — and he sent me to a therapist who worked with people who heard voices, and she sent me to a psychologist who also worked with people who had similar symptoms. Long story short, the psychologist said my problem was a 'spiritual' one, and he and the psychiatrist ruled out schizophrenia or other causes, and we all agreed that I should stop meditating, since it came out during our sessions that the problems seemed to get worse during and after meditation.

  The proof of this was that five or six months after stopping the practice of this meditation and throwing that guru out of my life — and instead taking walks to the park (eventually taking up self-power walking and your affirmations) — my life became so much better, and problems I'd had over the past 25 years that I'd not even connected to the meditation disappeared.

  Depressing thoughts that I now realize were not my own at all went away. For years I'd felt drained of energy and often was exhausted, and now I have more energy and do more vigorous exercise than I did 25 years ago. (My exercise, by the way, I find to be very grounding and helpful in that sense as well.) My mental clarity and focus also improved tremendously. Whereas before I often had a sleepy, foggy, spacey mind — one that often felt like a magnet was inside my head pulling my attention away from the world into a sleepy, dream-like state — I now have a sharp, strong focus, and my ability to do my work has improved greatly. (Sometimes during the depths of my crisis I had sensations of 'beings — pulling on my bodily energies, as if to try to pull me out of my body. A few times it felt like someone had entered my back and grabbed my stomach from inside and pulled it back toward my spine.)

  A few years before I was plunged into the depths of my crisis, I had manic depressive episodes that came out of the blue off and on for a couple of years. Those gave way to panic and anxiety attacks in ridiculously small, stupid situations. (When they were happening I would often say to myself, This is stupid. There's no reason for me to be panicky in a situation like this. This doesn't even feel like my feeling.) These symptoms worsened and became suicidal feelings. Yet even when I was in an emotional upheaval and crying as these suicidal feelings flooded over me, there was a still, silent 'me' behind it all watching in amazement and thinking, This is ridiculous. I'm not going to kill myself. Where are all these feelings coming from? These symptoms too have gone.

  The only one that's taking longer and still hangs around on the edges is the voices, but there's much more space between them and me, and I easily see them as illusions, and they're much easier to ignore.

  Ironically, I ended up following this guru and doing his meditation method because of spontaneous awakening experiences I had at a time when I had never really heard or cared about meditation, religion or anything spiritual and was focused on my career and love life. After several of these spontaneous experiences in which I experienced the still clarity and knowing of my true nature beyond time, space and body, I started looking into things like meditation and other 'spiritual stuff' to see if I could find an explanation of what had happened to me.

  One day while sitting and contemplating a really big experience I had a couple of days before, (this was before I started doing the guru's meditation techniques; in fact all of the awakening experiences happened before I was initiated into his techniques and none after) I said to myself, I wonder what it was that I was looking at when I said, 'This is me. This is what I am.'

  After a few seconds, I thought, Was that my soul? Was I looking at my soul? After I uttered that second sentence, it felt as if that question hit a roadblock at the front part of my brain. It was like a logjam of thought, and I instantly knew this question was going nowhere. Then I realized what I had asked and thought, What a ridiculous question! Why did I come up with that question? That's a question that can never be satisfactorily answered.

  I laughed it off and dropped the question, and in that moment I felt the heaviness of that logjam of thought just fall away. That left a kind of quiet space in the front part of my brain that was instantly occupied by that same awareness from the previous experience and with it an instantaneous, wordless and absolutely certain knowing. I sat up startled and said to myself, I don't have a soul! I don't have a soul!

  This was startling on two levels: 1) that I could even know the answer to a question that I thought was unknowable, and 2) that the answer to the question was an answer that wasn't even on my radar of possibilities at the time. In fact, because of the New Age babble and other spiritual things I read on my short search to discover what these experiences were all about, I thought this information that I didn't have a soul was a bad thing. I quickly became depressed because I thought it meant I was a beginner and was going to have to go through lifetime upon lifetime to build up a soul before I could get to an advanced state, whatever that was.

  Long story short, it was you writing about no souls on your website that caught my attention when I was in the worst of my crisis and searching the internet for anyone who had any experiences similar to mine that made me read the rest of your website and start putting some of it into practice, especially the affirmations, self-power walking, grounding point and archetype zapper. Until your website, I had never in the 25 years since that experience heard anyone talk about no souls.

  I also had a similar experience of instantaneous wordless knowing just a few weeks after I was initiated into the guru's meditation techniques, which warned me not to do the techniques and to get the heck out of there, and also that not only did they have nothing to do with the realization of what I am but that they were actually dangerous.

  However, this way of knowing was still new to me, and when a series of counter thoughts were rationalizing that, no, it was right to follow the guru and do his meditation, I went with the thoughts instead, and in doing so made the worst mistake of my life. (I use the word thoughts because they were like normal thoughts cascading through the analytical thinking brain except really fast, like a computer program, as opposed to that experience of a still and quiet instantaneous, wordless knowing.)

  Those 'thoughts' that he refers to are what I'd call 'pseudo-thoughts'. — Philip

  I also had another experience of instantaneous silent wordless knowing immediately following a major awakening experience in which the clear obvious knowing was that there's nothing in-between this world of form and, for lack of a better word, the experience or state of non-form, that non-conceptual, non-dual fundamental awareness that we are. In other words, I knew without a doubt as if I had always known it that there are no intermediate dimensions between this world of form and the state of non-form, no levels where beings live in form in lesser dense and lesser dense bodies and dimensions that we can't see from here (except maybe in visions) until they reach the non-form state. In still other words, there's no heaven. No astral worlds. No spirit worlds. And no spirits. The experience of this world of form and the experience or state of non-form are two ways of this ultimate knowing knowing what it knows, and what it knows is itself.

  This was another thing, in addition to your discussion of no souls, that made me keep reading your website and made me think that you were on to something: your approach of treating these apparent entities from some other dimension as illusions.

  In retrospect, this was consistent with another realization/knowing experience in which I knew/realized that at the moment of death, all form 'blinks out' — in other words, that this true 'I' that I am, which is always here, will simply stop experiencing form instantaneously, and that you don't lift out of your body and float above it and the scene until you somehow put greater physical distance between you, the body and the scene. No, you only experience the scene through the body, and once that ultimate 'I' is no longer associated with the body, the whole scene blinks out, the whole world blinks out, all of form blinks out, kind of like when the last frame of a movie goes through the movie projector and the screen becomes instantly blank. So no one is floating around in the scene in some spirit body like a ghost after one dies. Such apparent experiences or apparent entities are phenomena that seem to come from brain-body processes and are not objectively real in that sense.

  Anyway, it has been a little over five years since the depths of my crisis in late 2012, and I am now feeling better in every way and wake up feeling great about being in the world and looking forward to experiencing the day, whereas before when I woke up, these garbage thoughts and feelings would make me depressed and make me feel like I shouldn't even be in this world.

  One interesting thing I realized about the guru's meditation techniques was that they gradually knocked down the wall between my dreaming state and my waking state so that my dreaming world intruded into my everyday wide awake world. I realized that the voices I was hearing in the waking state actually were, in many cases, clearly the same voices and characters that were occurring in my dream state.

  Sometimes the voices would start in dreams, and when I would wake up, they would keep on going from where they left off in the dream state. The only difference was now I only heard them and didn't see them. The garbage was sabotaging the dreaming mind with rogue programming from the inside and the guru's meditation was doing the work of drilling from the outside in so the rogue programming in the dreaming mind could bleed through into my everyday waking world and take over.

  Stopping the meditation and doing your techniques instead, as well as paying attention to my physical senses and what they are experiencing in the external world as much as I can during the day, have helped build this wall back up.

  I still have dreams that are clearly garbage dreams, way too many in fact, but they don't get through into the everyday world anymore. I am hoping the techniques continue to work and clear the garbage out of my dreaming mind entirely, because I know from my own experiences before I ever got involved with that guru that there are clearer and more refreshing sleep states possible than I am experiencing at the moment.

  Thank you again for your website and for being a pioneer in this work. I am sending a donation and hope you find a way to keep this web site up forever.

• From KS, USA, December 2019, with paragraph divisions added for readability:
  

  Thank you for enabling me to swiftly turn around a scary situation regarding the appearance of a psychic lost soul entity, two others in my house, and a myriad of other bewildering things. Having desired for awhile to learn psychic abilities; recently it seemed as if my dream was finally coming true, occurring over the past 6 mths or so.

  Everything began (from what I can see) with a powerful reiki session (my first). Not long after that, I started seeing 'repeating numbers' everywhere. Then, seemingly overnight, I became telepathic, able to often contact Jesus, the ascended masters, the archangels; the Pleiadians, dead loved ones, along with trees, the moon, snow, leaves, etc. I became very attached to the angels, along with my Spirit Guides and Higher Self.

  At one point, I thought I was speaking with Jesus. He wanted to continue our conversation throughout the next day, then admitted he was depressed and lonely. I realized this wasn't 'Jesus" and that something else had hijacked my 'communication channels.' After that, I rarely was able to telepathically communicate with others, especially those that were 'inside me,' like my Spirit Guide. He would jump on and take over; shutting down the connection. Long story short, his presence was making my life miserable as I had started to depend upon my communications with my cosmic 'friends.' I felt a sense of loss and frustration over not being able to talk with them.

  Then, two separate entities showed up a couple of days ago. Lost souls as well, they'd suffered tragic, quick deaths. I told them about the love they'd receive if they let go and kept going and so they went on that way, leaving the house clear.

  I am pretty new at all this, and it's been a real education, to say the least.
  

  I'm so glad I found your site; you really cut to the chase and I've been able to see through the illusions and realize that I am safe and everything's ok. I have read and reread the page about getting rid of the entities, etc…The words, ignore it, etc. have helped me immeasurably. I now have hope for a life free and clear of this kind of torment. Now I see how even 'clean' spirituality has been a heavy burden for me over many years. The truth is, I have a choice. Now I am reflecting on my life without the spiritual ties. A new chapter.

  I donated to your site. You're a breath of fresh air. I'm so glad I found you.

• Here's one from Kryštof Zelený in the Czech Republic, March 2020 (— and yes, he did very willingly agree to his full name being used):
  

  I'd like say a huge thank you for the ever coming great updates, revisions and improvements as for example the new Feedback-Loop Zapper feels to be deserving a great applause as it not just makes great sense, but I already seem to be getting increasingly more powerful benefits out of it, while being more relaxed in the process.  
   
  The Alignment of Intent would still be the 'Nobel prize' one, at least for me, as from September 2018 (while using it mostly daily), smooth yet very positive overall changes seem to be unfurling in my case (even though yes, still including a decent amount of self-sabotage and head-banging).
   
  Indeed as I didn't yet resolve my problem with an 'elemental swarm' in my system (in steady decline however) such improvements make it MUCH easier for me to make progress in world and life where there are many indirect stresses and problems on top of direct interferences, sometimes making it all a sticky mess. As I sometimes struggle, returning to your work is always very motivational and brings positive possibilities into my outlook, which is frequently being challenged by what I observe in the human-managed environment.
   
  Truly, compared to the illusory prospect of my possible future that I've escaped by a miracle (unsurprisingly including eternal doom, becoming the new 'Satan' for doing unspeakable things to the universe, torture in hells and other flatus), what you allowed me to experience now is nearing a paradise if I look back on all that.
   
  I say thank you again, and let's form a firm monthly donation support for Philip, as it really is a wise way of directing finances.

• Here's a particularly inspirational response, from SP in the USA. For obvious reasons I do NOT give his name! Here we have a 'before' and 'after' email, with a roughly seven-year gap between them. Minor editing to improve readability.

  September 2013 (before):

  Hello friend, its me again. Um, Philip, I've made some very bad choices recently concerning a sexual crime and might be facing jail time for possibly 20 to life. I was wondering, because I'm still not proficient and reliable with energy testing, if you could give me a 'reading' if suicide might be a viable option for this situation at this time?

  (I didn't give the requested 'reading', because that's something I wouldn't do for anyone at all, at least relating to possible suicide, but I did point out that his situation and likely imprisonment would be a tremendous challenge for him to make something really positive of his life and life experience.)

  August 2020 (after):

  I got out of prison recently. I'm excited by some of the updates you've made. There are some new practices that I'm already getting indications are going to be helpful for me to play around with. I was surprised, yet in a way not really, by how you've stopped recommending clarity spheres. In retrospect, it's simple to see I've always had somewhat of an uneasy feeling about them.

  The idea of taking more direct approaches strikes me as beautiful beyond words. (don't mean to wax poetic there but I've been spending the last few minutes trying to describe the feeling I'm getting about it. Haha.) I think the principle here isn't relying on anything 'external'? Though I can't really confidently say that since we don't live in closed system and I'm definitely not wanting to get into should and shouldn'ts.

  But anyway, I've wasted enough of your time. I'm glad to hear that your still kicking ass going hiking and doing music, and, well, living a f*cking awesome, rich, active life. I'm trying to get back out there and do the same. I've picked up a lot of healthy (for the most part) interests over the last 7 years.

  Perhaps I'll have to talk to you about music sometime.(composing not just listening :)) I'll catch you later. I'll try to make some 'healthy' donations when I can. I really appreciate the work you put out here. Because of how I've used the ideas/methods, I've managed to make some great improvements in my mental/emotional health.

• From MA in Turkey, October 2021:
  

  The words, especially the ones in a foreign language, cannot express the warmth I feel for you in my heart. I cannot thank you enough for the beauty that your methodology has brought to my life.

• From Gerty, on her site (on her web page, now disappeared), December 2021:
  

  This website has helped me forward more than any mental health professional I've met throughout the years.

• …And of course I'd gently remind that my own experience of getting myself out of an almighty pickle that was beyond the reach of 'healers', 'lightworkers' and the 'mental health' professionals is in itself a pretty impressive testimonial for the rationally-based working model and methodology based on it that I built up progressively from 2007 onwards. I used all the disruptive experiences that were inflicted upon me as valuable data-gathering and learning experiences, which eventually gave me the necessary understandings to get properly and effectively addressing the issue. Who else has achieved that?!!