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I explain here how illusory realities are the primary means by which the dark force interferes with and gains control, in some measure, over every single person on the planet. Their effect at the very least is to covertly distort people's perception of 'reality' and limit their depth of awareness, but they can also in some cases take people into up-front weird scenarios that can be a whole story in themselves. All illusory realities that we are carrying, of which we are unaware (and that is most or all of them) limit and constrain our ability to function in a rational, aware and intelligent manner - and it appears that it is these illusory realities that are the basic cause and mechanism of human irrationality and limited or otherwise distorted outlooks, and poor mental function generally. I explain how illusory realities are created and how they wreak their insidious havoc, and point to simple and straightforward means by which anyone with a will do do so can start clearing him/herself of these and steadily progress towards fully intelligent and aware functioning. |
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Important!
What I am doing in this page and elsewhere on this site and also my personal site, is something particularly bold and unorthodox - because I, as a promoter of self actualization / self realization on this site (and indeed one who many would regard as a 'teacher'), am being completely open and public about my having been briefly inside a psychiatric institution as a supposed 'patient', and am using my experiences and findings related to that as part of my 'argument' and 'message'. Those who have the awareness to properly understand would see that as a tremendous credential of mine for my writings and methods to be taken seriously.
N.B. I talk of being taken seriously - NOT about being believed. Nothing in my writings is about needing to believe anything, and much in my writings is about the extremely seriously troublesome consequences of people being locked into beliefs (including disbeliefs, which are also beliefs) - whatever those beliefs are - and even common or garden opinions (which themselves are still beliefs).
If you read this page carefully you will find MASSES of evidence that, far from being mentally unstable or 'ill', I have been exceptionally clear-minded about the confusing situations with which I was beset by the dark force and by the pressures from people generally to be more 'normal' and accept 'received wisdom', and from the medical and psychiatric 'Establishment' for me to be just another more or less passive, unaware 'patient' and medication consumer with no prospect of any truly meaningful resolution of the issues with which I was beset. I used every situation to cultivate and increase my own clear-mindedness and understanding of what was going on, and indeed to encourage a much more clear-minded, positive and helpful outlook among people generally, including those medical and mental healthcare workers (including even psychiatric doctors!) with whom I had dealings. That's not the sort of thing that one would expect of a person who really was 'mentally ill' or in some way 'unstable' or 'disordered'!
An intelligently functioning person reading through this and related pages would understand that I actually had exceptional 'togetherness' and mental stability in being able to handle in such positive and fruitful ways the confusions with which I was beset, and in my being able to progressively sort all that out myself, observing with a ruthless clarity what was going on and then analyzing my observations over time with a precision that I have not seen matched anywhere else, and then finding original and effective answers and solutions to the questions and problems, without requiring more outside assistance than having some supportive people around me briefly during the most difficult times so that I could get my awareness better grounded.
Yet many people who appear to be intelligent in some other ways have consistently shied away from taking on board that evidence, and have simply stayed with "He's been in a psychiatric hospital - therefore he's mentally unstable [/ a bit loopy / fundamentally flawed / etc], so he's better ignored". Or similar: "He has a record of mental illness - therefore there's something wrong with him and so he's better ignored".
That is some of the stupidest and most dishonest behaviour that people can come out with - equivalent to "He wears unusually short shorts (even sometimes in winter!), and he has hairy legs and a varicocele on his left testicle, and he has a disfigured knob because when he was 12 weeks old a doctor chose to circumcise him and made a mess of it - therefore best to ignore everything he says". It is the behaviour of cheap politicians. People have their opinions and beliefs, and therefore they look for some sort of stigma that they can stick upon me as an excuse for their not taking seriously the challenging things that I have to say. It is that sort of attitude and behaviour that motivates me to always keep clear of debates of any kind (including discussions of healing / self realization issues on forums), for to most people the scoring of 'debating points' and rubbishing a supposed opponent and whatever (s)he has to say is what debates and 'discussion' are about. What they are NOT about, sadly, is a collation and fully rational appraisal of the available data on a particular subject.
Would any of those armchair critics and Philip Goddard stigmatizers achieve such things themselves as I've done, in the face of an attempt by the dark force to destroy them? - Ha-ha! They simply don't have the awareness, clear-mindedness and self honesty to be able to achieve such things even if the dark force were helping them all along the way to - well, wherever the dark force helps people towards...! Their soul programming sees to that! THEY are the people for one not to heed!
For my troubles in writing this page, no doubt at all, still more people will stick upon me pejorative psychiatric labels, in a bid to try to 'rubbish' my ideas and justify their own unwillingness to carefully and awarely examine what is really going on for themselves and others, without preconceived notions or beliefs.
...So now, are you going to volunteer to be the next person to make
a fool of him/herself and come
out with some version of "He's
been in a
psychiatric
hospital - therefore he's
mentally unstable [/ a bit loopy / fundamentally flawed / etc],
so he's
better ignored" relating to me? -- If so, I cannot
guarantee
that you will not be named and shamed on this site... ![]()
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Important!
In order to fully understand the contents of this and many other pages on this site it is necessary to carefully read Exit 'Spirituality' - Enter Clear-Mindedness, which provides essential background information.
A pretty standard response to such people from various quarters would be to regard them as being 'psychotic' or even 'schizophrenic'. Medics and psychiatric workers in particular do that. But what in the name of Winnie the Pooh do those latter individuals think they are explaining by placing such labels upon people? What they show is that they themselves are in the grip of serious irrationalities, believing that somehow they are explaining and indeed solving particular problems of human functioning by putting specific pejorative labels upon people who have had particular experiences that they (i.e. the medics and psychiatric workers) do not understand. Thus medics and psychiatric workers themselves need a major sorting out before they are in the slightest able to start understanding what is going on for other people.
People who use such 'diagnostic' labels upon other people may feel better for it - just as they would feel better for having farted - but the reality is that by doing so they are actually explaining nothing and helping no-one, and indeed helping nothing apart from their professional and social status as psychiatric doctors or whatever. As we shall see, on this page I 'do the unthinkable' and actually look at and get explaining what is really going on for people who are holding unusual beliefs and indeed also depressingly 'normal' beliefs.
Or, what about the person who
holds a
religious belief, and, for example, believes in the existence of a
non-physical 'Ultimate' father-figure such as 'God', despite having no
real evidence of the existence of such a presence? Such a person
will typically accept the contents of a designated 'holy'
book* as a factual
statement of reality to support his belief
- a complete absurdity to any even half-intelligent person - and
interpret all manner of aspects of life experience as
being incontrovertible evidence of the existence of 'God', on the basis
of persistently defective reasoning to interpret his actually highly selective
observations.
Typically,
people with religious beliefs do not get labelled as mentally ill on
that account,
because those particular beliefs are sort-of socially acceptable,
though
actually in
their own way those people are just as dysfunctional and in just as much
trouble as people who
believe that they've been abducted by aliens or are being pursued by
CIA mind control agents.
* Yes, and how in the name of Beelzebub does a book become tagged (or perhaps one might better say, blighted) by that blessed word, 'holy'?What sort of 'intelligence' is at work doing stupid things like that?
Our standard response to such blatant instances has generally been less than intelligent, to put it very politely, for, aside from the matter of religious beliefs, as already noted, we have simply dismissed such people as being 'nut cases' or 'not quite all there', or 'mentally ill', and thus we've kept the door firmly closed to gaining an understanding of what is really going on, and how that sort of problem can actually be resolved. In the case of religious beliefs, the normal response has been to regard them as somehow 'sacrosanct', even if we disagree with them, and therefore something that, if they are to be seriously challenged at all, are to be challenged on the basis of belief only and not reason (i.e. basically "My belief is better than yours!", instead of the more rational "Let's see if that really 'adds up'...") - and also, to defend to the hilt people's 'right' to their religious beliefs, never mind how irrational, absurd or indeed harmful they may be.
But then, leaving aside those blatant examples of bizarre / stupid beliefs, haven't you wondered also how it is that nobody on the planet is fully intelligent and is also in various ways needlessly limited in their outlooks by particular rigid patterns, opinions and what you could call 'self beliefs'? Maybe you've never even thought about that because you've just grown up with the notion that humans are intrinsically irrational or, at best, not fully intelligent, and generally 'imperfect'. But a sizeable minority of the more aware people do have some sort of inkling that the underlying true nature of every person in the world is such that if (s)he could uncover it completely, (s)he'd be fully rational and intelligent, and in all sorts of ways would fit the description of 'perfect' to an extent that would leave your favourite present day idols, and also idolized historical figures such as Jesus and Buddha, gnawing at the post.
In my experience, all such phenomena, and very many more, are
most
effectively and helpfully explained as being examples of interference
and distorted perceptions caused by particular
types of illusory reality*
into
which parts of people's
awareness has become sneakily inveigled** (by the dark
force)
in
such a way that they believe that the contained illusions actually are
'reality', and these people are thus completely unaware that they are
basing their whole lives on any
sort of illusion.
* Up to the time of my writing this page I'd been inclined to use the terms 'astral realm' and 'illusory reality' completely interchangeably, but my writing this page has caused me to become clearer and more focused about this, and to use 'astral realm' for a subset of illusory realities - the really up-front and normally temporary ones in which some scenario or 'story' is acted out. I sense that that would be more helpfully meaningful.
The term 'astral' in my usage refers to what I call the astral sub-reality, which is that aspect of reality (and of consciousness, because consciousness is actually the underlying true nature of 'reality') into which we project all our illusions and distorted notions. The dark force works within this and exploits it to interfere with every single person on the planet. With caution one could to a fair extent equate the astral sub-reality with the Jungian concept of the so-called Common Unconscious or what various healing and New Age related traditions call the 'collective human consciousness' - but none of those traditions has properly understood the astral sub-reality's true nature and full significance.
** Important note - This is merely a convenient way of describing the situation, for actually it isn't possible to say whether such a description is objectively correct and true. The problem is that consciousness can never objectively understand itself nor know its own inner workings, and the underlying nature of 'reality' and indeed all experience is none other than consciousness (or, strictly, awareness) itself. Thus, whatever consciousness experiences, any description of that experience and its true nature can be only schematic or figurative. In the case of astral realms / illusory realities, I think really a more accurate description would probably not refer to a person's awareness getting into or being within an astral realm or illusory reality at all, but rather, its becoming attached to a particular illusion, and it's the means of attachment (which we really can know little or nothing about) that is what we are tending to think of in the figurative terms of an illusory reality that (part of) one's awareness actually enters.
I explain in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks how the use of astral realms by the dark force - occasionally also involving production of elementals that can be seen by other people and even photographed - could very nicely explain at least the vast majority of alien (i.e. extra-terrestrial) encounters and abduction experiences. Here I'm drawing your attention additionally to illusory reality involvement in the whole issue of human irrationality and limited outlooks, and reactive and 'driven' rather than aware and intelligent behaviour.
When you get looking closely in an aware and clear-minded way at what is going on for people, you find that, time and time again, the limiting and distorting factor is rigid patterns of outlook and behaviour, and these are ALL based in particular beliefs, the vast majority of which do not pronounce themselves openly as such (though others most definitely do!) and are generally betrayed only to people who have the awareness to notice the patterned behaviour and see how that indicates certain deeply ingrained beliefs. If you can get a person freeing himself from a belief, any pattern that it was causing can then start to dissolve.
For the purpose of getting a broader understanding of such
beliefs,
I've found it greatly helpful for healing purposes to regard each
belief as being the contents (or part of the contents) of an illusory
reality just in the same way that the
up-front temporary astral realm experiences are, and indeed to regard
them as being, as
I've already noted, just a different
version of the same basic phenomenon. This understanding actually leads
us to a great simplification of approach, for while the psychologist or
psychotherapist would 'thrive' on convolutions and complexities of
proliferating categorizations, and thus making mountains out of Aunt
Ada Doom's goose-pimples (and also mountains of doctorate theses to
infest the vaults of higher education establishments), the real,
practical way to address issues of
what people would call 'mental functioning' is to find the very
simplest and most direct, 'common underlying principles' working model,
so that any remedial approach can then likewise be simple and
aimed directly at the common underlying factor(s) in all the diverse
problems that one sees 'in the flesh'. 'One size fits all', sort-of
thing - wouldn't that be convenient! -- It may not get me a doctorate,
but at least it appears to work! ![]()
Sorry about the smiley's rabid channellings (seen when you hover your mouse pointer over that and indeed other smileys). Clearly Lady Violet Withering-Glance or other similar 'higher' and evidently superior being is channelling through these smileys, and, whoever it is, he / she / it clearly needs to clear a few illusory realities from him/her/itself!
Here it's my task to explain just what illusory realities are,
how they are used by the dark force to ensnare, control and confuse us,
how we can (in some cases - generally astral realms) recognise that we
are or have been in one,
and what we can do to clear ourselves of these seriously troublesome
distortions of our life experience.
Let me emphasize that although for educational reasons I give particular attention here to rather spectacular, 'brazen' astral realm experiences, NOBODY in the world is without at least some covert illusory realities in his own mindspace, which are at the very least acting as distorting filters upon the person's view of himself, the world and reality itself. So, if the experiences of my own that I relate below appear to you to mark me out as 'a bit weird', this is in part because you have not yet recognised the illusory realities that you yourself are carrying, and which are distorting your own world view and indeed your own view of me and what I've written on this site.
The puzzling questions that I relate further above about people's nonsensical beliefs had been bugging me through my life, and it was only during the dark force's attempts to disrupt my life and indeed destroy me from late 2003 onwards that I became familiar with the concept of the astral realm and the ways that the dark force uses illusory realities of all sorts to cause us a whole range of very serious problems.
During those troubles of mine, my
first
significant acquaintance with the astral realm concept*
was one
night during the extremely gruelling sequence of ordeals over five days
and nights (with no sleep), which culminated in my first psychiatric
hospitalization,
in October 2004. By that stage I'd become immensely,
bafflingly,
gullible towards my non-physical 'guidance', which was really the dark
force posing
as something 'higher'. Supposedly as part of my 'testing and training'
for a very special
purpose, when in the bathroom in the middle of one particular night then I
was
instructed to roar out at the top of my voice "I am Archangel Michael!".
* Of course that was NOT my first acquaintance with astral realms, but was just the first time that I'd got hold of the concept of an astral realm and thus a handle on beginning to explain for myself what the eff was really going on. Indeed, quite apart from astral realm involvements in other aspects of my life right from early childhood, my disruptions from the dark force from late 2003 involved a multitude of astral realm illusory reality experiences of different kinds.
Now, roaring out "I am
Archangel Michael" in
the middle of the
night*
would have been all very well in an isolated country
house or
some
therapeutic centre where people are expected to do odd things like
that, but here I was in a small flat in a seemingly respectable scheme
of flats in
central Exeter, and my (open) bathroom window opened into a sort of
courtyard enclosed by other flats and houses, so any loud sound in my
bathroom would be nicely heard by anyone living adjacent to that
enclosed space. And, what's more, when I roar I really ROAR, with a
penetrating and indeed, you could say Stentorian, voice! I was thus
immediately most concerned when I was given that instruction, for (a) I
didn't want to disturb neighbours, especially in the middle of the
night, and (b) no useful purpose could be served by all the neighbours
thinking I'd lost my sanity, and maybe getting me taken away and
incarcerated in a psychiatric hospital "for his own good" and then,
against my clearly stated will, being progressively
destroyed with drugs and electro-convulsive therapy (ECT).
* It might appear a bit loopy of me to consider accepting even in the slightest degree an instruction to call out that particular crazy thing. However, within the particular context it did actually make a sort of sense. This was within a convoluted fictitious scenario that my 'guidance' had been giving me, in which I was allegedly one of five concurrent incarnations of Archangel Michael (which latter, as I now understand, is one of the multitude of bogus, illusory higher beings that the dark force causes to manifest to various people), and allegedly I was destined thus to be very soon a 'great world leader / spiritual teacher'. My doing certain self-challenging things like roaring out "I am Archangel Michael!" was supposed to be strengthening me for that role, assisting my self healing process by breaking up old restrictive patterns of outlook and feelings that would hinder my carrying out that prominent role.
Actually, that and certain rather similar acts of mine on other occasions did, I think, have a genuinely beneficial and strengthening effect for me towards being comfortable with a genuinely strong and effective high profile in public, for those acts were indeed in various ways breaking through and weakening various highly restricting patterns that I was carrying - which meant that I was then in a significantly stronger frame of mind to speak out challengingly about important things in public. Ironically, this represented a complete backfiring against the poor old dark force, for in that respect it had unwittingly helped prepare me for what I've been doing more recently - ruthlessly exposing in public the dark force's 'agenda' and modus operandi, together with disseminating means to actually clear oneself of its interferences.
In the event my 'guidance' assured me that the neighbours wouldn't hear anything because I was then temporarily in an "astral realm" that contained a replica of my flat, and I was even in a different time-scale there. So, still with some reluctance I did ear-ticklingly ROAR out to the world "I AM ARCHANGEL MICHAEL!", I think a few times. I still felt uncertain and embarrassed about that, for I well knew by that time that my 'guidance' was unreliable and all too often highly reckless in the 'information' that it gave me - but at least in the quiet of the small hours I heard no hint of telltale signs of my having disturbed anyone, and also I had a sort of 'gut feeling' (undoubtedly coming from my own deepest aspects) that this concept of the 'astral realm' was a genuine one, whether or not I was actually in one at that time. Anyway, there followed no sound of people talking or walking anywhere around, nor of windows or doors opening or closing. Just maybe I really had been in such an astral realm at that point.
I remained very unsure about the true nature of that experience until I got seemingly clear indications from my inner inquiry in 2009 actually while writing these notes here. The results of that inner inquiry gave clear support to the hypothesis that a major part of my awareness had actually been in an astral realm at that time, and in the physical, 'real' world that particular event simply hadn't happened, and thus no neighbours had been disturbed. However, because I have no physical proof of this I still keep an open mind about what really happened then. On the other hand, the possibility that my inner inquiry indications really have been correct over that is underlined by later experiences of mine, where I did indeed have physical 'proof' that certain seemingly 'real' experiences of mine had actually not happened in the physical 'reality'...
So, what would you like to do about that, then? - To stick a 'diagnostic'
label such as 'psychotic', 'schiozophrenic' or 'schizotypal' upon me and to
feel due superiority for having done so, or to begin understanding the real
issues involved so that they can start being addressed and actually resolved? -
That choice is yours, not mine...
So, enter here my very major instance of 'real' experiences that never physically happened during my September 2006 hospitalization, which latter is briefly described in My Little Brush With Psychiatry. Quite apart from the various hell ('night terrors') realms that I was briefly taken into, repeatedly I was taken into astral realms that were at face value completely lifelike replicas of that particular hospital, in which a variety of crazy and bizarre things happened (according to the breathtakingly convoluted 'story' agenda that the dark force was trying to get me to engage with), which all seemed completely real - not as in a dream at all. These happenings included (but there were others too):
An absurd scenario that involved my
having accidentally
having
got hold of the credit card of one of the nurses (who I
shall call X*)
from the ward office
instead of my own, and
the police being all over the place looking for the 'thief', who they
'knew' was me (but somehow they never found me, even though I wasn't
doing anything anything apart from withdrawing into my room a bit to
hide from them!);
* He was a nurse in the real, physical hospital. At that time I didn't know his real name, and my 'guidance' of course filled in the gap, making it David Wilson, which I found out afterwards was totally fictitious. Within the particular astral realm there was supposed to be something pressingly important about his name and who he was supposed really to be - though I can't remember details about that now.
My obeying instructions from my 'guidance' to keep on pestering and psychically manipulating the abovementioned nurse X and eventually (following further specific instructions from my 'guidance' and being quite embarrassed about it) actually trying to get him into bed with me - yes, for that! (He - or rather, his astral replica - reasonably patiently refused!)
My repeatedly obeying my 'guidance' to try to get out of the hospital during my first evening there (which seemed to be not just one evening but a whole succession of them), and my way being barred at the door by a particular very well intentioned nurse. One of my escape attempts half succeeded because I managed to get down into the ward below, which has a confusingly almost identical appearance and layout, though with a smaller reception area - but there I was confronted by a particular nurse called Jamie (mentioned below), who was surprised and apparently pleased to see me (we knew each other from my previous hospitalizations). I didn't let on that I was trying to get out, and sheepishly returned to the upstairs ward where I was supposed to be.
A disturbance I created when I was going into one of the hell (night terrors) realms in the corridor*, near where my bedroom was, in which my 'guidance' instructed me to keep crying out and screaming to get the nurses to get me some ECT treatment (actually extremely harmful). A fair number of nurses came around me, as I then lay on the floor, still deafeningly screaming at times, in a quite large room that actually I found afterwards didn't exist in the real hospital, and the nurse Jamie (the one mentioned above) was very nice and forbearing as he very patiently insisted to me that it wasn't a good idea for me to go for ECT at once**, and to take time to think about it before they took any action about that.
* The subjective experience at that point was of a wide area of the floor of the corridor just immediately in front of my feet dissolving into a seemingly bottomless pit of seething darkish mass of night hell maelstrom, into which I seemed to be starting to fall - accompanied by a marked increase in hellish-feeling dark force attack that was evidently trying to give the impression of being the intrinsic feeling of starting to enter hell.
** This is an interesting anomaly, because the dark force would have had a totally harmful agenda for me in its use of the astral realms that it took me into. My 'reading' now of this situation suggests that to some extent my own deepest aspects were able to communicate with my ordinary mind in those astral realms, by means of directing particular astral replica people to behave differently from how the dark force was trying to make them behave.
Indeed, one particular sign of this active involvement of my own deepest aspects as a positive force in the proceedings was that this whole crisis event was the first in which the concept of astral realms (in the sense of a type of illusory reality) had come into my mind as a major factor in the proceedings, and, despite all my confusions, I quickly came to understand, right at the time, that the various weird experiences that I was going through were in astral realms and thus not to be taken for reality nor indeed taken really seriously as any real threat to my safety and wellbeing. That must have reflected subtle communications coming through from my own deepest aspects, because, surely, the dark force would have been actually trying its damnedest to scare the brown stuff out of me, and it would hardly have told me of such things itself, seeing that knowing them enabled me to handle the situation so much better and indeed get clear of it dramatically quickly as compared with how things would(n't) have worked out for any regular sort of 'psychiatric' patient.
It appears that in this particular case the dark force was actually seeking to get me into an actual ECT experience within an astral realm, for the purpose of its possibly getting me ungrounded enough for it to stage a partial walk-in upon me or have something else seriously nasty to happen to me, but my own deepest aspects foiled that one by bringing in the replica of Jamie, who in the 'real' world seemed to me to be a particularly warm, well intentioned and responsible nurse, to actually operate as a mouthpiece for my own deepest aspects in order to squash that whole notion of ECT. Even as his replica spoke to me in that astral realm, I felt a considerable relief that I was being 'let off the hook', and no longer had to press for something that I well understood to be extremely harmful, and which would have had no true benefits for me whatsoever.
Actually, Jamie and his role in that astral realm reflected a memory from when, in December 2004, in some desperation through that particular crisis of attacks, I'd presented myself for my second hospitalization. Jamie, as a senior nurse at Wonford House, was then detailed to interview me as part of the process of deciding how to deal with me, and, under great pressure from my 'guidance' (i.e. the dark force) to do so, I then had repeated to him the reckless rubbish that I was getting from my 'guidance', that I thought that possibly my only way out of the situation was to have ECT. At that time Jamie gently urged a measured consideration about that, and suggested to have a day or so's pause first and see if that was then still what I really wanted - but if at that time I were still sure about that, "we could certainly consider that then".
Fortunately my awareness had grounded quickly enough there that within a few hours I'd completely dropped the ECT notion as I ceased to pay attention to the 'guidance', and no staff member mentioned ECT to me, so, that was clearly not on their agenda for me at all. Something within even the most narrow minded staff there seemed to recognise that, no matter what the issue was that had been troubling me, I was just too mentally healthy, albeit in ways that they didn't understand, for them to even contemplate (i.e. on their own initiative) using upon me what they did recognise was a drastic measure.
Ironically, if I had actually been making an disturbance in the 'real' world, crying out for me to be given ECT, I might well have encountered much less or even no resistance to that being used - though it would have undoubtedly depended on which staff were attending the disturbance, and I think the real Jamie would have been one of those who most likely would have (again) urged me to think very carefully before getting involved with that, even though I don't suppose he realized anything like how destructive ECT really is.
An
extraordinary and very long sequence in which 'my
guidance'
(i.e. really the dark force) was, in an abrasive and hectoring manner,
taking me through carrying out a
series
of what even then I took to be Satanistic practices, involving a sort
of
peculiarly
fascinating completely
ritualized masturbation in my hospital bed during which I was attacked
with various levels
of fear or/and anxiety emotion feelings while focusing on the sort-of
erotic sensations and pre-orgasmic and eventually actual orgasmic
sensations. This was allegedly to increase
the
'pleasure' of the tiresomely ritualized 'handwork'.
To increase my
fear and anxiety further for this purpose, I was periodically
instructed to absolutely roar out (and, as already noted, I can roar
quite deafeningly!),
"FIRE! FIRE! - HELP! HELP!",
the
'guiding' voice assuring me that this
was happening in
an astral realm and so, although the Fire Service and Police would
arrive and search, nobody would actually find me. I actually obeyed
(deafeningly),
and each time there were voices of people apparently searching for the
source of the fire and the person who'd called out, and indeed the Fire
Service arrived and were searching too - but nobody found
me.
Actually, on one occasion during all that, somebody did briefly open my
door and peek in, but my 'guidance' told me just to keep facing the other way
and to ignore the person and anything that he or she might say, and nothing
would happen. To my surprise, after my having pretended to ignore a few things
the person said to me, that person withdrew, closed the door, and left me to a
continuation of this bizarre situation.
Curiously, in that particular astral realm experience, when there were sounds of people apparently searching for the source of the disturbance, my room seemed to be in a large multi-storey building (and with quite reverberant corridors that sounded as though there was a lot of concrete in the building's construction), so that there was quite a bit to be searched, whereas in the real hospital (which was just two storeys and constructed with bricks, not concrete) there was no way that I'd have escaped being identified as the culprit pretty well at once if I'd made a big noise of any sort.
Also, that astral realm was within another astral realm with its own - indeed Cosmos-scale - convoluted and really way-out story in which allegedly this whole Cosmos was just starting to implode. Consequently, during the above scenario there were periodic sounds of heavy things falling and breaking in nearby rooms in the hospital (supposedly as the beginnings of the whole of Existence starting to disintegrate). Again, those crashings and breakings seemed to be happening at different levels in the large multi-storey building with quite reverberant corridors, whereas in the Cedars I was simply on the upper of two floors, and there was nothing especially reverberant about the corridors.
One thing that was new during the continuing ordeals in those first two days of that hospital experience was that my ongoing frequent inner dialogue about what was actually going on for me was actually providing me with very helpful information among all the distortions and confusions, and I was noticing that and using it to my advantage, to assist me in very gradually getting my awareness detached from the astral realms and more grounded again. Frequently I'd have a hunch that this or that experience was really just within an astral realm, and my 'guidance' indicated that this was the case. This enabled me to be building up a picture of what astral realms were like, how they could be recognised (at least sometimes), and how they worked and could be used by 'astral beings' (i.e. the dark force), and it also meant that, time and time again, I knew not to take seriously the various bizarre and at times extremely untoward things that appeared to be going on (including my even starting to fall into a sequence of hells), and to regard it all as various sorts of 'movie' that were being presented to me.
Indeed, at that time there were some fairly extended periods when I was lying on my bed and the dark force was sort-of giving me the impression then that I was already starting to fall into the promised sequence of hells ("for aeons and aeons until the Cosmos has sufficiently expanded again after its implosion that is now under way"), and I was emotionally preparing and 'steeling' myself for that actuality - though actually not being het up about that, for if it was inevitable and was actually starting to happen, then it made sense simply to accept it peacefully, even while still carefully observing to see if that really was happening or in any way really had to happen to me.
But yet I seemed to be increasingly getting additional, more subtle information, which was indicating that this was all just an astral realm in which I was being shown 'night terror' movies rather than genuinely falling into any objectively existent hell, and I was pointed to periodically checking the time on my bedside alarm, for I'd find that my time-scale in this astral realm would be much extended compared with actual physical time - and so it turned out to be, amazingly so. Indeed, an afternoon lie-down of some 20 minutes in 'real' time apparently lasted for a good hour or two). Thus, during my two days of these astral realm experiences in the hospital before I got my awareness sufficiently grounded and came out of all that, the subjective time that I spent in all those experiences was very considerable - probably fitting something like four to six days' / nights' worth of weird experiences into that 48 hours.
Also on those occasions when I was being shown 'hell' visuals, almost at once those visuals became limited to displaying on a sort of 'video screen' rectangle in my 'inner vision', as indeed had been happening during some of my experiences in this crisis just prior to my hospitalization. Then the 'story' from my 'guidance' became much more that I was just being shown various sorts of 'night terror' for some sort of educational purpose, and mention of my dropping into hells soon quietly faded out.
I think what was actually going on was that my own deepest aspects were being very active in seeking to head off a potential major disaster for me that the dark force was trying to engineer at that time through its use of an incredible complex of astral realms to confuse and unground my awareness and then to get me into some sort of 'auto-destruct' feedback loop of trauma energies within a sustained 'hell' experience. Theoretically, what the dark force was trying to do could have resulted in my going into a coma, within which I'd experience 'aeons upon aeons' of real hells (well, they would be 'real' within the illusory reality in which my awareness would have then been trapped), while nobody in the physical reality would have had a clue as to how to help me. I understand that this sort of horrifically disastrous thing happens occasionally to people who are into 'dark' practices, and sometimes to particular susceptible individuals to whom 'dark' practitioners send particular types of psychic attack.
Fortunately for me, my doggedly remaining 'peaceful observer' of whatever was happening (thanks particularly to my being enlightened) was actually scuppering those attempts by the dark force anyway, but my deeper aspects were assisting me in that by ensuring that what I did see of the night hell visuals was presented on a 'video screen' as something interesting that I could learn from, so that there was no chance that I would mistake any of that for something that was actually happening to me, or for somewhere where I was actually going. Thus it pretty quickly worked out to have for me more of a sort of entertainment and educational value rather than anything else - albeit that hardly being any sort of way that I'd choose to spend my time!

The Cedars psychiatric hospital,
Exeter,
where the above-listed (and a lot more) weird experiences
took
place.
-- Or is it an astral replica of The Cedars? ![]()
It came as a relief but no complete surprise to me
to
establish
afterwards that none of the things that I relate in the above list had
happened in physical reality.
No police, no fire crews, no credit card confusions! I couldn't even
find traces of tell-tale
ejaculate in my bed, where I'd
deposited it seemingly so realistically (albeit hardly satisfyingly!)
in that Satanistic-style masturbation astral realm (Let off the hook
over one prospective little embarrassment!
). I
did
eventually get the opportunity to check with nurse X
as to whether I'd behaved strangely with him and had even sought to get
him into bed with me, and he seemed a little taken aback when I asked
him
about that, and assured me that nothing of the sort had happened. Yet
that astral realm in particular had seemed immensely 'real', and I'd
really 'physically' felt his hand as I'd sought to drag him into bed
with me! ![]()
It turns out that there looks to have been a sinister significance about the
involvement of that particular nurse, who was one of the two there then
who never seemed to me as though they were really nurses, and who I
(still) regard as quite unsuitable to be employed in caring professions
at all. Indeed, that guy seemed much more as though he was a handyman
who was visiting to do some manual task - or even as though he was a
patient himself! My inner inquiry
results concerning the particular nurse pointed to his having a strong
spirit attachment, which the dark force was
opportunistically seeking to get affecting him in particular ways to
get him wanting personal involvement with me, in tandem with the dark
force's
trying to get me
infatuated with him through all the astral realm encounters and then
supposedly my trying to involve myself closely with him in everyday
life
(my 'reading' is that he was gay and so potentially responsive to me if
I had made the right sort of advances to him). Fortunately I remained
far from infatuated and in any case saw him as far too loaded with
serious issues of his own for me to want to be involved with him at all
- even though it was clear that he
did like me
quite a bit*
* Actually, as I found out later, he tended to get quite stressed out by his work there, and by the other nurses, and I think he was drawn a lot to my positivity (particularly my positivity towards the nurses), which he felt as something of a foil to all the stress he was getting from pretty well everyone else.
As though all that wasn't convoluted enough, I've more recently come to recognise that during ALL of that set of experiences related above (indeed, starting with my ordeals in that crisis even before I got to hospital), part of my awareness was within yet another astral realm, which thus appeared to contain the lot. That one didn't give me clear, seemingly 'real' impressions like the others, but rather gave a more vague 'backdrop' sort of impression and perceptual 'coloration' to the whole crisis sequence. It had a strange and to me curiously fascinating sort of 'atmosphere', linked to a vague but still quite strong impression of being in some sort of building with very bright rather steely daylight flooding into all the rooms, and there seemed to be a great deal of angular squareness about everything in the rooms and the building overall, including the very large windows that let in all that daylight.
My retrospective inner inquiry results relating to this are
suggestive
that this
impression was actually based on a particular memory of one of the
parasitic lost
souls attached to me, and the occasion was the particular individual
being in a psychiatric hospital in which he or she had actually been
given ECT (or at least an equivalent treatment). As far as I can tell
(indeed quite likely not having the parasitic lost soul attached to me now, so
that I couldn't
'read' any further from it), that experience would have been a very
long time ago,
and not on Earth - indeed in some far removed star system, which
may or may not have been in this particular universe. Hence the strange
atmosphere and peculiar qualities of the room and indeed building -
though of course the dark force could distort anything to give strange
impressions like that anyway.
This would certainly help explain my otherwise pretty
baffling
degree of gullibility and my even more baffling state of
'commandability'*
during my most serious
crisis
events - especially the first three of my four 'hospitalization' crises
(two in late 2004 and two in late 2006) and that of February 2007).
* I.e. my just obediently doing what I was instructed to do, even if it was crazy and potentially lethal for me - though even then still with some very definite boundaries beyond which I would stop in my tracks and rebel.
Interestingly, my fourth 'hospitalization' crisis (October
2006),
although it did have its own peculiar 'coloration' indicative of a
'container' astral realm, was unable to really develop, because on that
occasion I'd to a fair extent learnt
my lesson
about the gullibility
problem and the need to get my awareness grounded*, and
decided
very
firmly to disregard all 'guidance' and other inner communications, and
the crisis immediately collapsed when I got myself hospitalized (just
to get some supportive people around me to help ground my awareness).
* Actually there was a little more to it than just that. My inner inquiry indicates that the underlying main factor was the gradually accumulating effect of my using two Energy Eggs and a 'Guardian Angel' , which were already beginning to have a noticeable positive effect resulting from their gradually bringing about healing of the multitude of weaknesses and distortions in my non-physical aspects that had been caused by my extensive use of crystals and especially sacred geometry healing wands. This was already resulting in my awareness becoming slightly but significantly better grounded and thus I was better able to be discriminating when things got rough, and to be more liable to think, figuratively, "Sod the lot of you!" to my supposed 'guidance' and get my awareness more squarely into the everyday reality instead of doing what the dark force was trying to get me doing.
As noted above, my October 2006 crisis event turned out to be almost a non-event, in that I made a point of ignoring all inner messages and 'story', and so had only severe attacks from the dark force to make something of a crisis - and that attack was rapidly dissolving even as I was being transported to the Cedars psychiatric hospital again, and I was in there for a princely total of just two days - and not an astral realm in sight. -- At least, so I thought at the time and indeed up to October 2009, when I suddenly twigged. Yes, there was an astral realm experience then after all! At least, that's the only explanation I can come up with for the particular anomaly.
During my second evening there, there occurred a natural event that is a great rarity in Exeter - a thunderstorm, albeit not a severe one. Early that evening I was lying on my bed, having a nap before no doubt a little later going on 'walkies' up and down the odd corridors yet again, when I started hearing the occasional rumbles of thunder of an approaching storm. Once this was coming over, I got permission from the nurse at reception to stand in or just outside the main doorway to watch any lightning that deigned to show itself on that side, and enjoy the general sense of natural wildness - actually a very healthy and grounding thing for me to be doing in that situation.
And so, yes, I enjoyed watching the occasional rather flickery in-cloud lightning flashes, which threw up a wild and menacing silhouette of the very nearby Wonford House psychiatric hospital, which I was facing squarely from the Cedars main entrance, where I remained just sheltered. I was pleased at the amount of sky that was visible around Wonford House, so that each lightning flash gave a really wild impression with that silhouette - the storm gradually moving on so that the lightning became mostly in the space of sky on the right side of Wonford House, while the heavy rain, which had been preceded by some hail, gradually eased off, and I went back inside.
Perfectly straightforward, hey! -- Except that in October 2009 I suddenly woke up to the fact that the main entrance of the Cedars just happens not to point in that direction, and indeed has a lot of trees blocking anything much of a sky view except over to the left. On the right half of the view from that entrance, in particular, there is a cedar tree that blocks most of the sky. To get to a position in relation to Wonford House that I had seemed to occupy during that thunderstorm, I'd have had to go right out of Cedars' main entrance, walk a little way round to the right till I'd passed all of Cedars, and then gone right again at some point behind Cedars to gain that particular viewpoint. You can actually see that in the photo of Cedars, which has Wonford House visible behind (see below).
I definitely didn't go away from Cedars main entrance during that experience, nor shelter under any tree, and if I'd done so I would have got distinctly wet, and would have remembered that. Also, the entrance area seemed considerably larger and more extensive than the really very unassuming main entrance that it actually is, and it had a much larger expanse of tarmac (on which the rain was nicely splashing) extending from the main entrance towards Wonford House.
I have no idea whether in the 'real' reality I did stand outside that entrance at all to watch the storm (though that is the sort of thing I'd do), or whether I was just standing or walking around in the reception area and corridors, or indeed remaining lying on my bed. I would guess that the latter seems most likely, for if I'd been moving around among people while so deeply 'somewhere else' I think I'd have seemed very peculiar and might well have upset or even collided with other 'patients' who were wandering around, or would have been noticed by a nurse as behaving oddly - and I got no feedback that indicated that I'd had any sort of problem - the nurses being consistently positive towards me and impressed with my togetherness, positivity, and my articulacy in explaining aspects of my situation and what was really going on for me (although of course at that time I didn't have the fuller understanding that I have now).

You see? There is the main entrance of Cedars
(immediately above the word 'psychiatrique'), with Wonford House right
round the back - and there was no major entrance
on the Wonford House side of Cedars, apart from very likely the odd
emergency exit. My viewpoint during the thunderstorm experience was
pretty well that of this photo, except that I was just on the far side
of Cedars and thus closer to Wonford House.
The deep shadow here is mostly from the cedar tree that
would have blocked a good deal of sky in any view from the main
entrance.
As far as I can make out (this notion supported by my inner inquiry), the dark force was still vainly trying to make something of this failed crisis - which, after all, was really another attempt to destroy me in some way - and was trying to do all sorts of things to 'bring me down', rather as a freshly beheaded chicken might (no doubt rather chaotically) try to run around before it finally expires. On this occasion I'd managed to get my awareness sufficiently grounded that the dark force was failing virtually completely in all its attempts, and this particular astral realm appears to have been the one, out of all its attempts, that just managed to 'slip through'. However, even here it must have been a failed attempt at something, for there's no way that the dark force would have given me a better view of the thunderstorm just for my enjoyment, without some pretty sinister intent.
In the February 2007 crisis event (described in My Little Brush with Psychiatry) I'd 'caved in' again, having been sneakily enticed into the relevant 'container' astral realm while being given a lot of pretty convoluted channelled (mis)information that seemed rather convincing at the time. This led into a potentially extremely serious situation, where, fortunately, I was sufficiently open to the strong warning signals from my own deepest aspects when the 'all-night spectacular' eventually started developing an actually dangerous aspect, and I rebelled pretty well in the nick of time with very decisive and determined action to get re-grounding my awareness.
It's very evident from all the above-related experiences that astral realms can be 'nested', one inside another, and this is true of illusory realities generally. My understanding is that there can be a pretty well indefinite number of levels of 'nesting'. This applies not only to serious crisis-level attack events, but also to dark force interference with every single person, both directly and through soul programming, about which I explain further below.
Another thing evident from those experiences and indeed many other experiences that I've had with interference and attacks from the dark force is that there appear in practice to be various types of illusory reality, in addition to the 'straight' astral realms. For the most part I suspect that they are basically the same, but it is just the type of content and the details of how they've been applied that make them seem to be different. On the other hand, my understanding is that the 'night hell', 'night terrors' or simply 'hell' type of astral realm is fundamentally a bit different, for what one sees there is basically a 'display-only' astral realm, in which the person is simply observing visual displays while also being attacked by the dark force with very nasty emotional feelings and also by some means being informed that unthinkably terrible things are happening or about to happen.
What is actually happening in a full night hell, as distinct from the versions that I've been shown in my adulthood, is that first of all a 'container' astral realm has become established, in which is placed some sort of belief that whatever one is experiencing within it is happening for real and is one's entire reality - and presumably also, that any feelings you experience are your own genuine emotional responses (i.e. thus not caused by any external interference). So, the grotesque maelstroms of the night hell visuals, accompanied by intense attacks from the dark force with feelings of fear, terror, anxiety, panic and so forth, are occurring within that 'container' astral realm, in which its contents seem to be your entire 'reality'. That is hell indeed, by pretty well anyone's definition!
Similar concoctions of astral realms are actually used in certain virulent types of psychic attack that are sent to people by some black magic or voodoo practitioners, and, depending on their content, they can put a person into a horrific potentially lethal auto-destruct feedback loop - just as the dark force was apparently trying to achieve for me in certain (or indeed perhaps all) of my most serious attack crisis events. I doubt very much, however, whether any of those human 'dark' practitioners understand the mechanism of their attacks as I've described it here; they would simply carry out particular rituals that they have learnt have the particular dire effects, and it would actually be elementals controlled by the dark force that would actually do the detailed work.
This nesting or 'layering' of astral realms is not just an interesting little quirk that occurs more or less fortuitously, but it is applied by the dark force in a more or less purposeful way to progressively insinuate people into increasingly distorted perceptions, and into beliefs that initially they would have no truck with.
The REAL way to see 'something nasty in the woodshed'!
Typically the installation of any astral realm in a person's mindspace begins by the installing of a 'container' illusory reality, which predisposes the person to be affected in a particular way by the astral realm itself - the 'main' or 'action' illusory reality. Thus, before giving the person an illusory experience of encountering something nasty in the woodshed, first the dark force would need to install in a more or less hidden part of the person's mindspace (i.e. if it hadn't been put there already) a 'container' illusory reality that predisposes the person to believe what is in any illusory reality or astral realm that is 'nested' within it. Its content could probably be described as "Everything in here is real, and is the only reality, and all my feelings are my own genuine responses to what I see".
Then almost certainly at least one further 'container' illusory reality would be nested inside that one before the actual 'woodshed' one - the astral realm itself - is installed. These sub-container illusory realities would define aspects of the sort of experience that the person would have upon seeing the 'something nasty' in the woodshed. They would thus also be 'predisposing' illusory realities. The content of one of them might be described as (for example) "There's something hideously forbidding about the woodshed [or, about woodsheds in general] and something unthinkably awful will happen if I see something nasty there".
Then, nested within that there might be one going something like "Anything unusual and unexpected that I may see in a woodshed is 'nasty'". And then finally, within those nested 'predisposing' or 'laying-down-the-ground' illusory realities is installed the 'action' one, i.e. the astral realm, in which the person actually sees something unexpected and unusual in the woodshed (which most likely would be just a distorted perception of something perfectly ordinary that's usually there), and this is then experienced as a traumatic occurrence of 'seeing something nasty in the woodshed'. (Ahhh! Aunt Ada Doom of Cold Comfort Farm lives on!)
As I've already noted in outline, in terms of superficial 'appearances', non-night-hell illusory realities can be generally divided into:
'Foreground' illusory realities, which I am calling astral realms, which, more often than not, are only temporary. These astral realms are used by the dark force in a very up-front way, to give the person a specific normally temporary experience that is illusory but seems to be real. These include encounters with and abductions by 'aliens' or extra-terrestrials, and also (in the case of some people into 'dark' practices) experiences of consorting with purported astral 'lords' or magicians. They also include experiences in the nature of 'seeing something nasty in the woodshed' (see above), which some people are prone to. If you meet up with 'The Council of Nine' or 'The Galactic Brotherhood of Light' or any such council or group of non-physical or 'Galactic' beings (as some 'lightworkers', healers and psychics do), you are having such an astral realm experience, and the beings in it - however real and 'physical' they seem - simply do not exist in the physical 'reality'. The astral realm experiences of my own that I've described further above all come within this category.
Caution! It occasionally happens that a person who's had one of those seemingly realistic astral realm encounters comes away from the encounter with some apparently physical object that he's been given by the supposed beings. Any such person is in particularly big trouble, for (a) that object serves to 'confirm' his belief that it was a 'real' experience and that the actually illusory beings actually exist, and (b) it shows that he has sufficiently weak grounding that the dark force can cause elements of his illusory realities to actually start manifesting in a particularly direct way in the physical reality of 'What Is'.
That sort of occurrence can be the beginning of a sort of catastrophic breakdown of the personality, as the person gets more and more confused and disjointed interpretations of what is 'real' and what is illusory. Such a person is actually theoretically in a small degree a threat to the integrity of 'What Is' itself, in being the vehicle by which the dark force can start converting illusory astral objects and events into actual physical ones, so, potentially just beginning to convert the order of 'What Is' into a chaotic state of disorder that theoretically could lead to the destruction of 'Existence' as we understand it. Fortunately this process appears never to be able to go at all far before the person meets his (usually untimely) death. Theoretically, however, a very large number of people with that problem could pose a more serious threat for us all, but, thankfully, I'm not aware of any signs of a trend towards increasing frequency of that problem - very likely because fundamental consciousness itself ensures that anyone with that sort of problem to any threatening degree wouldn't last long enough to do significant damage.
Astral realms cannot be created in a person's mindspace unless a particular part of that person's awareness is sufficiently weakly grounded. For this reason a quite large majority of people cannot experience them, and herein lies a serious practical problem, because that majority is particularly inclined to regard anyone experiencing astral realms as being inherently disordered or 'mentally ill'.
'Background' and 'covert' illusory realities, which almost
always
remain in place in a person's mindspace until / unless the person takes
deliberate measures to clear them. These are the sneaky ones and indeed
the most ubiquitous, and to at
least some extent everyone is carrying some - and
generally a person would have no idea that he is carrying such illusory
realities, for they simply act like distorting filters, (mis)shaping
the way he perceives 'reality'. These underlie all beliefs and strongly
held opinions. Typically multitudes of these are
nested or 'layered' in various ways that would not be possible to
achieve, say, with a group of piles of sheets of paper, for there would
be interrelationships and interactions between elements of different
'piles' or 'nests' of illusory realities.
As just noted, a particular feature that distinguishes
these
illusory realities from the ones that I call astral realms is that
their content is more some sort of belief (i.e. distortion of
reality) rather than any specific 'action' scenario. However, this
distinction, although important, is not always clearly defined, and
many people experience plenty of illusory realities that lie
between those two categories.
Generally speaking, this category of illusory reality is readily created in anyone's mind, regardless of how well grounded their awareness is. However, some of these illusory realities are created more readily if a particular part of the person's awareness is weakly grounded.
A sort of 'layering' that looks superficially similar to that of illusory realities, though in simpler form, is familiar to people who use image editing software such as Photoshop. You can take a particular drawing or photo as your basis, then add various 'layers', each of which contains some additional element. One or more of them might contain some text, or different images can similarly be superimposed upon the underlying image to add bits to it or distort it in some way, each being movable independently of any of the other layers, so that you can have very fine control over the final synthesis, which can thus quite transform the original image. However, whereas the blank areas of each superimposed layer in such a composite image are simply transparent so that you still see something of the underlying image, things are not so simple with the 'layering' of illusory realities.
The illusory reality 'layers' superimposed upon 'reality' are not what they appear to be. Supposing, for example, that you have one particular 'layer' whose only obvious content is a notion that angels exist or that seagulls are incarnations of demons, or that nothing exists that is not physical, or that antipsychotic medication really is beneficial for some people. That 'layer' contains the 'code' in 'thought energy' for the particular notion or belief, and otherwise is 'transparent', so that in all other respects you still perceive 'reality' correctly. -- Or is it?
My own experience and inner inquiry results suggest a different picture. That appearance of 'transparency' in all those illusory realities superimposed upon one's view of 'reality' is illusory. In each such illusory reality there is the 'code' for the intended content, plus some 'code' that 'reads' the person's underlying view of reality and then relays that via the dark force (in the astral sub-reality of course) to his conscious awareness ('ordinary mind') to give his actual conscious perception of 'reality', actually completely within that illusory reality; he is thus seeing an astral replica of reality, supplied by the dark force, and thus not reality itself!
Because the astral sub-reality is, by its very nature, an aspect of reality that is intrinsically the latter's 'distortion' aspect, what is relayed back to the person as 'reality' is actually NOT exactly 'reality', but contains subtle distortions that are in addition to the intended and specifically programmed distortion(s). Thus the astral replica that the person actually sees has hidden the actual reality from that person and substituted a variant astral replica of it.
Thus each of the many 'layers' of illusory reality that a person is carrying is like a (usually subtle) distorting filter over his perceptions and interpretations of the 'reality' that surrounds him but which he actually isn't seeing directly at all - and those distortions are in addition to distortion elements specifically intended and programmed by the dark force.
However, there is a self limiting effect with increasing number of such 'layers' - for as more and more get added, the more deeply buried ones become no longer perceptible to the person, and their direct effects become increasingly attenuated. This comes about through a process of progressively closing off the deepest (and progressively less deep) aspects of the person's awareness. This process actually occurs progressively over many soul incarnations, and it results in the vast majority of people throughout the world actually having a very shallow awareness and being hopelessly out of touch with their true nature or any deeper or broader aspect of reality than the mere physical appearance of things and their own crude emotional reactions to them.
In soul-reincarnated people many illusory realities do not need to be replaced by the dark force when the person is born, for by then the person is carrying the coding for those illusory realities actually in the part of his awareness that defines the soul - what I generally refer to as the person's soul programming. This causes a whole range of awareness-limiting illusory realities to automatically install themselves in the person's mindspace during his first few years of life.
It's hardly surprising, then, that so few people are able to get even a glimmer of a grasp upon understanding the true nature of themselves and of reality, and of the ways that the dark force obfuscates and confuses the situation. They have in their mindspace not just one illusory reality to try to see out of, but a whole plethora of nested illusory realities, each giving some distortion of reality. No wonder that almost everyone who comes to this site and reads things here about self realization and getting clear of dark force interference still fundamentally fails to 'get the message' and then do anything effective about it! And no wonder that pretty well universally, never mind how 'brilliant' and supposedly intelligent a person is, that person has various beliefs and irrational and distorted perceptions that fly in the face of the reality of 'What Is', even though the latter is right there staring him in the face.
No wonder indeed that humans overall are in all sorts of pervasive ways irrational and are effectively, in functional terms, sub-humans! Everyone has the fundamental capacity for fully rational, positive and healthy functioning, but a varying but generally large part of that capacity is occluded, hidden, shut down - and illusory realities are a major part of the mechanism by which the dark force has achieved this sad state that human-type beings are in throughout all of 'Existence' (i.e. wherever they occur - not only on Earth).
Generally, in the case of covert and notionally permanent illusory realities, you can't recognise them directly unless you're very highly self actualized indeed - but if you were that far self actualized you might well not have any illusory realities to experience and recognise! However, pretty aware and clear-minded people generally can deduce the presence of various illusory realities in their mindspace, sufficiently well for them to use an appropriate measure to initiate their dissolution - provided that they gain sufficient understanding of the sort of things to look out for in their life experience, particularly where things don't seem to be going ideally for them. Sufficient of the necessary understanding for starters can be gained by reading relevant pages on this site - though further understanding is gained through actually working on clearing these illusory realities and thus gaining more awareness and thus more accurate perceptions and making more accurate interpretations of one's observations.
However, in the case of astral realms in which you're being given specific temporary experiences, there are certain signs to look out for. That doesn't mean that if you don't notice any such signs your particular experience is genuine and 'physical', but it does mean that if you do notice the telltale signs you can be pretty confident that it is indeed an astral realm experience that you're putting under scrutiny. So, the following notes refer specifically to temporary, 'action scenario' astral realms and NOT to the really ubiquitous covert illusory realities.
Although astral realms appear superficially realistic, they do so only because of the ungrounded state of a particular part of your awareness, which makes you hypersuggestive and super-gullible. In my case, being a no-soul incarnation and enlightened too, even when I was in those astral realms I had the clarity to also be aware that they were astral realms or at least were likely to be so. I give here a few observations that seemed to be identifying features of temporary astral realms that I experienced:
The astral realms had a
different time-scale from real, physical time, and much more happened
in
each than could ever have
occurred in the 'real' world within the physical duration that I spent
in them. This was very much my own experience in those hospital astral
realms, but also in others that I'd been in during certain other
crises brought
about by the dark force getting my awareness ungrounded.
N.B. My understanding is that the time distortion can in some cases work the other way round, so that a person seems to have lost a chunk of time in the physical 'reality', which doesn't seem to be accounted for by any astral realm experience, and indeed the person may be unaware of any particular 'inner' experience at all that coincided with the 'lost' chunk of time. Probably as something or a rarity, in such cases a watch or clock in the 'real world', belonging to the affected person, may also show a baffling time discrepancy corresponding with his 'lost' chunk of time - presumably because some part of his awareness was sufficiently ungrounded that the dark force could use his 'energy system' to, in a small way, start replicating astral distortions in the physical 'reality'. I actually have an acquaintance for whom this happened on one quite recent occasion.
There was a peculiar dreary and disconnected / disembodied quality about the hospital replica in the astral realms, completely lacking the warmth and vibrancy of the real hospital.
The people in the hospital replicas all appeared superficially to be the same people - nurses, doctors and patients - yet I was aware again of a sense of disconnectedness about them all, which was not how things were in the real hospital. In the astral replicas these people were like actors who'd been put there to look like the particular people. Some would talk together as they purposelessly came and went, but overall there was a sense of no real interaction between them, and indeed it seemed that when any did talk together, if I'd got closer to them to hear what they were saying I'd have most likely heard just actors' 'crowd talk' - a repeated "ru-ba-shi-mon" or other gibberish. The meals woman went into the kitchen towards mealtimes, and did the preparation work there, but apparently there was no food to prepare and nothing was prepared!
Nobody interacted with me, except when my 'guidance' directed me to interact with somebody, as in the disturbance I caused, and when I was trying to get the previously mentioned nurse X into bed with me, and on another occasion when I kept trying to get out of the hospital (once again following 'guidance' to do so!) and a different nurse very patiently stopped me from going out the door.
Even those interactions with me were all part of a 'story' that the respective astral realm had been set up for, and there was nothing of the warmth and vibrancy of my spontaneous interactions with nurses in the real hospital.
Whereas in physical 'reality' all sorts of external things, such as the sun, the sound of birds, traffic etc, would impinge on my awareness, the astral realms were all lacking in such external 'impingers'. Within the astral replica of the hospital I saw my shadow in a shaft of sunlight only while my 'guidance' was giving me a somewhat distorted description of how I could tell whether or not I was in an astral replica of the hospital, and that was given as a particular indicator. Otherwise, I didn't notice the sun or indeed anything or any sounds that weren't some specific element of the illusion and the 'story' of which it was part. Indeed, there was an 'outside' (of the hospital) only at those moments and in those respects in which something 'outside' was part of the story that I was being given.
I think this was a major part of the cause of the already noted dreary
and disembodied quality of the astral realm experiences. What really 'wakes one
up' and keeps one interested in life is all the external 'impingements' - all
the sounds and unexpected details, which do not form part of some single-minded
'story' that's being laid down for you, and which keep your attention much more
on
living joyfully 'in the present', with whatever it brings you from moment to
moment.
So, in my experience, and according to my 'reading' of what is the general situation, it is theoretically possible to tell if you're in an astral realm while you are in it, though few people have sufficient clarity or depth of awareness to recognise it for what it is 'from the inside'. Therefore almost everyone undergoing such experiences would regard them as being 'for real'. However, armed with the information I've listed above, I think many more people could retrospectively identify astral realm experiences that they've had. In particular, the extended time-scale of most of these temporary astral realms, and their lack of 'irrelevant' details (i.e. all the external 'impingements') is a giveaway.
For example, if you've had an experience of being abducted by 'aliens', can
you remember details of your surroundings during that encounter? For example,
was there a planetary landscape? If so, what was it like, and what was the
weather doing? Were there birds (or some equivalent) flitting about and
singing? Was the air cold, cool or warm? Was there any wind? If there was a sun
shining, did you notice your shadow (something typically omitted from astral
realms)? Were there plants, and did any of the plant species look familiar?
Were there insects (such as butterflies, flies and so on)? - And so on...
I'm concerning myself here with how the dark force gets people unawarely creating their own, completely unbidden and unwanted illusory realities, and not with how some 'dark' practitioner may create them (which would no doubt involve some sort of ritual based on a very 'ritualized' perception of the nature of what he's doing, without necessarily knowing that he's actually creating illusory realities).
As I understand it, there are two or three primary steps by which the dark force achieves this:
Getting a particular part of the person's awareness
sufficiently
weakly grounded (if it isn't already so). This is achieved most often
through interfering with the person in ways that cause the person to
unground his own awareness. In my case it was through the dark force
keeping on
intrusively communicating with me and giving me a lot of 'story' that
seemed sort-of convincing at the time, and which seemed progressively
more convincing as my grounding got further weakened. For many people,
controlling / manipulating them into certain drug dependencies is a
particular means to get them ungrounding their awareness - notably use
of alcohol or / and cannabis.
Actually the ungrounding of a person's awareness is required only for creating astral realms and also any (usually) covert 'belief' illusory realities that the dark force is trying to get established quickly as a preliminary in an attack situation. All my dark force attack crisis events started off with a sequence of persistent attempts to get me progressively ungrounding my awareness. Some people are already more than sufficiently ungrounded, so that no ungrounding measures are necessary for them to get landed straightaway in whatever astral realm / illusory reality that the dark force kindly chooses for them.
Intruding covert messages into the person's mindspace, which are perceived as thoughts or in some case 'thought voices' and NOT as anything like what people generally mean by 'hearing voices'. I refer to these pseudo-thoughts, unsurprisingly, as pseudo-thoughts. The dark force constantly feeds pseudo-thoughts into the mindspace of even supposedly normal and intelligent people.
However, in a well functioning person, without the dark force doing something additional these pseudo-thoughts would mostly be recognised at a deep level as 'not mine' and would be discarded and mostly forgotten, without being consciously noticed - except perhaps by the odd person, as part of the inconsequential faint background 'noise' of their mindspace.
Covertly attacking
the person with specific
cocktails of painful emotion feelings, usually at a very low level, to
coincide with particular pseudo-thoughts. This is often consciously
perceived as 'the feelings of my
thoughts'*,
and it confuses the person's
deeply situated 'machinery' for summarily recognising and discarding
'not mine' thoughts, messages and signals, and then the targeted
pseudo-thoughts are not immediately recognised as 'not mine' and then
are passed to the next level of inner scrutiny for the person's deep
levels of consciousness to use different 'self tests' to determine
whether those queried pseudo-thoughts are still worth a second glance.
* Thoughts that don't have emotional stress (or a dark force attack mimicking stress of one's own) associated with them actually have no feeling in the sense that almost anyone would recognise, and have a much more light and 'transparent' quality about them than what almost anyone actually experiences from their thoughts (so pervasive is stored emotional stress plus the sort of dark force interference described above).
When these pseudo-thoughts are thus scrutinized, it is not just them that are looked at but the feelings that came with them. Some are discarded at this stage, but others get misidentified as 'own thought, but with emotional issue attached', and then are stored in a sort of personal 'repository' for memories of a whole range of types of experience that have emotional stress or trauma associated with them. Within that holding area there is no means to distinguish between 'mine' and 'not mine', and so everything in that holding area effectively behaves, and is treated, as though it is 'mine'. One big problem!
This happens because experiences cannot be properly
evaluated
and then sorted into one's memory databanks while they are 'glued
up' with emotional stress of any kind, and so until their 'payload' of
stress energy has been cleared they have to be put in a 'holding area'
in the memory,
where no energy is wasted in futile attempts to evaluate them properly.
Such memories are thus still unsorted and little evaluated.
The trouble with that memory 'holding area' is that not
only are
its memories unsorted so that they cannot be usefully be called upon to
assist in a rational appraisal of any new situation, but in practice,
for the most part the only 'handle' that can be used to call up
particular memories from there is how those memories feel
- in
other words the 'feel' of their emotional 'payloads'. The result of
this is that all sorts of things in your everyday life 'push buttons'
that remind you of particular memories that are in your 'holding area',
and thus call up those memories with their emotional stress 'payload'.
This is a troublesome process that Harvey Jackins, founder of Re-evaluation Counselling*,
called
'restimulation', which results in the new experience, often
fundamentally unstressful in itself, being experienced as stressful and
provoking a response that is based on a reaction to the emotional
stress and not on a rational appraisal of that situation.
* You can read about my own experiences with and critical appraisal of Re-evaluation Counselling in My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 1.
At its most basic level, that is how the dark force cultivates irrationality in every single person. There are variations in the specifics from person to person and to some extent according to particular situations that a person may encounter, but those two or three steps described above are the foundation of the vastly major part of all human irrationality.
Note how, once some distorted notion, associated with stressful feelings, has got insinuated into one's 'holding area' just in the same way that a 'real' stressful or trauma situation would, that can progressively grow in time, like a cancer (actually in just the same way as an actual stressful or trauma experience), because it keeps getting restimulated by various everyday situations, which then, whether awarely or not, themselves have a stressful effect because of that memory restimulation, and then the memories of those situations themselves have to be stored in the 'holding area', so that the person becomes increasingly 'booby trapped' by having all those stressful 'restimulation' memories, which themselves then can be restimulated by further everyday situations.
Like this, distorted outlooks and attitudes become deeply ingrained over time, giving rise to what in Re-evaluation Counselling are called chronic patterns. However, in Re-evaluation Counselling there was no understanding of dark force involvement in the process, nor of the really chilling long-term significance of those 'chronic patterns'.
The dark force uses various means to facilitate and intensify this process, particularly for individuals who it has targeted for some sort of disabling or 'wrecking' treatment. It can magnify emotional stress feelings that one is experiencing, so causing greatly exaggerated restimulation experiences and thus greatly speeding up the process of blocking the person's intelligence and awareness by causing a big proportion of his new memories to be diverted into his holding area so that they can't get sorted into the 'filing system' of what was supposed to be his main memory system and 'intelligence / rationality databank'.
Rational and intelligent operation depends on use of that memory filing system so that you can understand what is unique in each situation and produce a unique and appropriate (i.e. positive and constructive) response to it - but a whole mass of gunged-up memories in your holding area instead of in your memory filing system ensures that the major part of your awareness and overall intelligence is blocked or distorted by illusory realities created by every one of the stress laden distorted notions and perceptions that are in those memories, and that thus you are effectively living as a sub-human. You wouldn't necessarily be aware that anything was untoward at all, because of the way that your awareness is distorted by the illusory realities that are created by your attachment to those stress-laden distorted notions that are crawling about in your 'holding area'. You would simply perceive your limited and distorted state as 'how I am', and, very likely, would resist any notion that you had all or indeed any of this material to clear, or indeed could be any way other than how you now appear to be. Also, you would regard anyone who is functioning significantly better and more awarely than you as being 'a bit weird' or even disordered.
Your intelligence deficiency is thus a 'double whammy', because on the one hand a lot of your memory data that you need for rational or intelligent appraisal of new situations is not in your inner 'filing cabinets' where you need it for fully intelligent functioning, but in your horrendously overfilled and clogged up holding area, and on the other hand you have a whole mass of illusory realities that have been created from your still unevaluated experiences, the key to whose proper evaluation is the memories of them in your holding area, which, as I've indicated, are unavailable for such appraisal or 're-evaluation' until / unless their emotional stress 'payload' has been cleared.
And hardly anyone does anything really effective to clear that mass of emotional stress energy, so the holding area continues to fill and the person to become steadily more rigid in outlook, unaware, and indeed still less intelligent...
That is not the end of the damage, however. If those gunged-up memories in your holding area are not mostly cleared out by the time you die, the more 'loaded' ones will have created distortions or 'imprints' in your 'subtle', non-physical aspects, which, with some assistance from the dark force, become seemingly indelibly imprinted when you die, so that then you are tied to your emotional attachments that are 'coded' in those imprints, and you then cannot revert to fundamental consciousness, as we all need to when we die, and instead, you, as a trapped consciousness, which is now what is known as a soul, are programmed by the dark force to reincarnate, as a soul reincarnation.
Each successive soul reincarnation is more distorted and
unaware / irrational
than the previous one, until eventually the end product is a
non-incarnating 'parasitic' lost soul under the complete control of the
dark force. The vast majority of people are soul incarnations and thus
have soul programming, which results in their deepest awareness getting
speedily attenuated as a whole range of illusory realities pretty well
automatically get installed in their mindspace during their first few
years of life. These people are all effectively captives of the dark
force, even though generally completely unaware of their very serious
predicament, and indeed very
resistant against any such notion.
I explain more about this phenomenon in The True Nature of the Dark Force and its Interference and Attacks.
The dark force is thus intricately involved in the whole phenomenon of human unawareness, irrationality, negativity and general paucity of really positive and constructive creativity and achievements - and in every direction that you could look, if you had sufficient awareness and clarity of sight you'd see that illusory realities are a big and essential part of this unedifying mess that we are in.
As already noted, particular individuals get strongly targeted and 'up-front' harsh treatment from the dark force. These are generally people with no soul programming or at most very little, and the dark force gives these people a hard and very often pretty horrendous time, seeking to get them loaded with sufficient emotional stresses and illusory realities that (a) they lose any motivation for effective and genuine self actualization (which would free them from dark force interference and captivity), and (b) they are ensnared by those illusory realities and thus made captives of the dark force when they die. Such people are targeted in that way because they are inherently pretty resistant to taking up beliefs and getting attached to illusory realities, or indeed getting much attached to anything, so, to ensnare them the dark force has to work hard at it, trying to cultivate attachment in all sorts of ways and also manipulating the people into ungrounding pursuits and drug dependencies - especially nicotine, alcohol and cannabis - the latter two in particular making people wide open to dark force attacks and other wrecking tactics, and picking up dark force controlled entities. For a high proportion of these people the process starts with early childhood night hells (aka night terrors).
Such people tend to get really strong and disruptive attacks from the dark force, in addition to all the covert 'controlling' types of attack. These strong attacks are with emotional stress and trauma energy / feelings, at an intensity that can be anything up to 'truly hellish', and may be any sort of cocktail of recognisable emotions such as fear, panic, terror, anxiety, depression, grief, and even with a strongly adulterated sexual arousal / desire /ecstasy that, although seeming to an ordinary person to be immensely pleasurable, is actually based in painful emotions and is highly addictive and thus extremely problematical, and doesn't reflect one's natural, well functioning state at all. This is all part of the process of building up illusory realities and beliefs in the individuals' mindspace, and strong attachment to those distortions of their perceptions. The dark force can use 'flood tactics', feeding in a constant stream of repeats of a particular pseudo-thought (or group of them), intruding them into a more or less hidden part of a person's mindspace so that the person doesn't know it's happening. This in itself can progressively build up a more or less hidden illusory reality containing a belief that the person's 'ordinary mind' would dismiss out of hand as 'rubbish'.
I well know about this latter phenomenon, because it's featured high in the means by which the dark force has been able to keep staging attacks on me, long after I'd supposedly cleared out the primary ammunition that the dark force could use for attacks on me - i.e. all the emotional issues that I'd been carrying. A menacing (but actually nonsensical) illusory reality could be covertly built up in the back of my mindspace, while on the surface, if I became aware of its contents I'd regard them as absolute rubbish. The dark force would then establish and progressively build up a feedback loop of some usually fear based trauma emotion feeling, in some way using that illusory reality as an 'augmenting resonator' of its associated emotional stress. I describe the attack crisis event of mine in which I first came to notice this mechanism, in Anatomy of a Dark Force ('Astral Entities') Attack Crisis.
Get rid of them of course!
... - What's that? "Impossible", you say?
... - Oh, drat it, what a lot of rubbish you're coming out with! Look. By the same token it's impossible for anyone to drive a car.
... - "What do I mean by that?"? -- I'll tell you. It's impossible for you to drive a car - until and unless the car's tank has the appropriate fuel in it and you turn on the ignition (or power, if electric), and indeed you actually drive it - which requires your conscious choice to do so! Driving a car remains impossible for anyone until or unless those particular criteria are fulfilled.
... - Ah, so you're just starting to wake up! Now I'll tell you what criteria need to be fulfilled for you to start getting rid of the illusory realities that you're carrying. Here goes...
Okay, there is a bit more to it than that to make it really effective, but, provided that you don't have too much obscuring soul programming (in which case you'd be extremely unlikely to be interested in doing this anyway), even doing that much would start making some inroads upon your own load of illusory realities and getting you a bit closer to perceiving the 'real reality' of 'What Is', and thus you'd be already starting to become a nicer, more intelligent and indeed happier person than previously.
You can make much more of the Grounding Post procedure by these straightforward means:

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