"Am I a healer?" — Explaining 'healing' and the problems it causes

Introduction

Have you been wondering if you're a 'healer', or had somebody or indeed some inner voice tell you that you are one, or indeed were 'born to be a healer'?

If so, WATCH OUT, for all isn't what it seems, and if you don't hold your situation up to proper scrutiny you could end up in BIG trouble, as I found out the very hard and eventually indeed life-threatening way!

So, now that I've delivered a transient shot across the bows, so to speak, let's see just why this evidently loopy funny little man Philip Goddard is making apocalyptic-sounding 'judgements' on 'healing' (of all things!), and making it sound as though there's something untoward about it. First, then, let's look at what 'healing' is widely thought or supposed to be, and then get holding it up to proper scrutiny.

It's my understanding that ALL people have at least some degree of 'healing' ability. Sounds great, doesn't it — at least it would if only I didn't keep putting 'healing' in those nasty little quotes! In doing the latter I'm actually drawing to your attention there to the simple fact that we need to get looking much more carefully and rationally at what this so-called 'healing' really is, as distinct from what all manner of belief systems and traditions tell you it is, or what people want it to be.

I got taken in by that for years before the penny finally dropped for me as to why I'd fallen into a dire, hellish and actually life-threatening 'hole' that forced me to do the belated crucial 'homework' that included gaining a proper understanding of what 'healing' really is and what it does to both the practitioner and the recipients (all too often in fact unwitting victims).

The sort of 'healing' I'm referring to here is what many would call spiritual healing, which includes many variants such as simple hands-on 'healing', Reiki, Vortex Healing, shamanic healing and so forth, and includes really any sort of 'energy-work' 'healing' methods, such as using wands, crystals, sounds, colours and so forth. However, as I shall explain further below, there are very serious problems about ALL those variants, including what most people simply call 'spiritual healing'*, and I shall point to what we really need to be doing instead, which resolves the various sorts of problem caused by all the various forms of 'spiritual healing'.

Most people are unaware that they have such 'healing' ability because either they've taken on the materialist-reductionist belief system, which dismisses such abilities as altogether fictional, or they've taken on one of the restrictive beliefs about 'healing' that come from the religions. For example, many Christians have been led to believe that only revered teachers like Jesus can be 'healers', while many other Christians have been led to believe that although many people are able to give 'healing', to do so not in the name of 'Jesus Christ' is evil and the work of the devil. I'm not joking in saying the latter, for, as a great rarity among my many hitch-hiking encounters I had such people lecture me about how I was working for Satan, the devil, or the forces of darkness in giving 'healing', just because I wasn't invoking 'Jesus'.

Another 'lunatic fringe' belief among a fair number of supposed Christians is that when you carry out 'healing' that isn't in the name of Jesus you're dabbling with dark forces and are in great danger.

In Buddhism there's a common though not universal belief that anyone doing Reiki 'healing' outside Buddhism, or/and without permission from a Buddhist 'Master', is due for severe karmic consequences. Another common belief in Buddhism is that to use 'healing' is best not done because it's a distraction from one's 'spiritual progress'.

Actually, there's a great irony about that latter belief, because it's actually a rather distorted version of the actual situation — that 'healing', aside from potentially major and serious problems it brings to people directly, is also insidiously harmful through being a side-track keeping one away from the real, comprehensive healing of oneself, which is brought about by a comprehensive genuine self-actualization / self-realization process — about which I have more to say further below.

What such beliefs have in common is that the religions are propagating them as part of their agenda of power and control over people, being themselves covertly controlled or manipulated by the garbage. They're teachings of fear and control, which is the antithesis of love. Fear seeks to hide the truth, while love is in the nature of truth.

If 'healing' didn't have the various harmful direct and indirect effects that I found it to have, and you awarely used it upon yourself, it could be part of a true self-actualization process, and for quite a few years I myself was trying to use it in that way, oblivious of the real cause of my increasing troubles at that time, and the similar or related serious issues and problems I saw other 'healers' around me also struggling with — all of them believing that simply more or better 'healing', or/and being more proactive in 'protecting' themselves, would resolve their issues.

It appeared to me at the time of my own involvement in 'healing' that awarely used 'healing' could be a great self-empowerer and dissolver of beliefs, so assisting one in opening up to your deepest 'truth' — the truth and innermost nature of experience itself. I saw THAT in particular to be why the religions generally seek to restrict or constrain its use. Religions don't want people discovering that they're better off, and would find their deepest 'truth', without religion, as tends to happen when people have an ongoing true self-healing / self-actualization process.

As I point out further below, however, there's a very major problem through 'healers' generally having taken up beliefs concerning 'healing' and the nature of ourselves and of reality — and in any case, again, on this site I present much more effective and focused means for clearing oneself of such beliefs (note particularly the Grounding Point procedure and also The Work.

Indeed, I came to recognise that 'healing', as almost always used, leads people into weakened grounding and unawarely cultivating harmful illusory realities (equating roughly to covert beliefs) in backwaters of their mindspace. So, the 'healing' may appear to help in some ways but is quietly doing various untoward things to you that would cause insidiously serious problems not just in the present but way down the line. Read on to see what a can of worms 'healing' generally is, despite any apparent benefits it may impart on you.

'Healing' — what is it?

Generally speaking, 'healing', in its usual, narrow sense, when done in the safe and effective way, is the emanating of non-physical 'energies'* from one's own deepest aspect (which is fundamental consciousness or 'the Ultimate' itself, and thus unlimited in its healing capacity) to bring about healing of the whole being — that is, not just the physical body but all the non-physical aspects of a person, bringing about emotional healing and some degree of advancement in the person's self-actualization.

'Healing', therefore, when well used, could go hand in hand with positive life change. I and many 'healers' saw the prime purpose of 'healing' as being for positive life change and supporting self-actualization — physical improvements then coming about through the resultant dissolution of 'energy' blocks and rebalancing of all one's non-physical aspects (what is usually but misleadingly called one's 'energy system').

'Healing' could be transmitted by the laying on of hands, or through the hands positioned off the body (either within the person's 'energy field' or at a greater distance), or by visualizations, breathing meditations, and in fact a vast range of possible ways. The healer's intent (as distinct from willpower) plays a crucial role in determining that a particular method transmits 'healing' effects. Supposedly, it can be given directly to the person or remotely — even the other side of the world.

However, nowadays I'm suspicious that much or perhaps all of the supposed distant 'healing' that people believe that they're achieving is really doing nothing very much apart from giving the supposed 'healer' a certain sense of personal importance and self-satisfaction, and maybe comforting the recipient (quite often actually victim) in getting him / her imagining that (s)he is being 'healed', regardless of what's really happening for that recipient.

'Healing' is commonly called 'faith healing', but I avoid that term as it implies some connection with religion, which actually it doesn't have despite various religions claiming 'healing' for their own (and indeed imposing seriously distorted and problematical versions of it). That term also implies the need for belief, and that's far from the truth. 'Healing' works best without belief, though naturally the 'healer' would generally have a trust in the process or (s)he wouldn't be doing it.

We improve our understanding of 'healing' if we let go of the fictitious accounts of instant healing 'miracles' in the Bible and indeed the scriptures of other religions. Teachers of real integrity don't perform 'miracles' (the man who eventually came to be widely called Jesus was most likely no exception, regardless of what the Biblical gospels claim!).

Putting 'healing' into its context

This sort of healing is widely overrated in its importance, actually for a quite sinister reason. Our overall BIG need in our lives isn't so much for 'healing' as normally understood, but for self-actualization, which is by far the biggest and most comprehensive genuine healing, but also goes beyond normal notions of 'healing'. Self-actualization is the clearing out of all blocks, obstructions and distortions in our awareness and non-physical aspects to enable us to function as full, undistorted incarnated manifestations of our true nature, which is fundamental consciousness or 'the Ultimate'. Enlightenment is one stage in that process, and would occur naturally when people don't distort the process by striving for it as is done widely in certain traditions such as Buddhism.

'Healing' on its own, even when carried out in a supposedly 'clean' and safe manner, could never be a very efficient means for self-actualization, yet generally in healing traditions it's regarded as more or less all one needs in order to get 'there'. However, when you look at what they think is our ultimate aim or 'target', you find that they lack a clear focus or indeed any focus at all on true self-actualization, which latter gets replaced by all manner of notions about entering higher realities and getting involved with higher beings, or general rather fuzzy notions of 'spiritual' advancement or 'spiritual' opening up, and evolution over very many sequential incarnations of the supposed soul.

What those confused notions all have in common is that they've come into people's minds from an extremely troublesome influence that affects them through the astral non-reality, and which is all the time seeking to interfere with people (ALL of us — you included, whether or not you're ever aware of that interference!) to steer them away from true self-actualization and into taking up beliefs about purported higher realities and about reincarnation, which are designed to ensnare us in illusory realities when we die, so that then we're (unawarely) fully captives of the garbage. I explain about this troublesome situation in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks.

You can read about my own salutary experiences with 'healing' and some of its plethora of problematical versions such as Reiki and my use of sacred geometry wands in My own self-actualization process or 'path' — Part 1. I eventually learnt the hard (i.e., life-threateningly severe) way that I needed to de-emphasize 'healing' (i.e., in the 'spiritual healing' sense) in my life and to use really powerful and effective means for self-actualization instead — particularly those mentioned in Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way.

If I'd been using decent self-actualization methods like the latter all along, and hadn't tried to make various forms of 'spiritual' healing my main self-actualization process I'd almost certainly not have got into the horrendous and hair-raising pickle that I did with the garbage, as recounted in The 'forces of darkness' ('astral beings') — My own tough experiences, and I'd have got fully clear of really significant interference from the garbage years ago instead of still having the odd (relatively minor) bits and pieces of interference and occasional attack to dissolve (and still with a very rare more major flare-up triggered by particular circumstances).

I haven't fully rejected hands-on 'healing', but simply now regard it as peripheral to the most effective means for self-actualization*, and a siren-like lure away from what each of us really needs to be getting on with. Also, nowadays, if I were to use it at all, I'd do it working from my own deepest aspects — NEVER invoking supposedly higher beings nor any apparently external source of 'healing' energy, and NEVER using symbols, crystals, wands nor sacred geometry of any kind.

Where such 'healing' appeared to come into its own for me was in impromptu situations where I could quickly lay hands on a person who I encountered and had some health or emotional or supposed 'entity' problem. I didn't kid myself that by doing that I'd taken away their problem, but I did think that in some way they'd have benefited, whether or not they were aware of it. However, for good reason I haven't even done that for quite a number of years now. With the passage of time and my ever gaining further clarity, I see less and less reason to use 'healing'. There are always better ways of genuinely benefiting oneself or another person in ways that bring about real healing and positive life change.

I've come to the conclusion that almost universally the running of formal 'healing' practices is harmful rather than beneficial, for all involved. 'Healers' who set up such practices are almost always not putting proper emphasis on their own self-actualization process and so are not able to inspire their clients to get into active self-actualization themselves — even though the clients often believe that they're benefiting. And all such one-way 'healing' sessions, even if they're paid for, are disempowering for the clients, whose real need is ALWAYS to take on proper self-healing and self-actualization methods themselves.

Those who wish to gain some income through really helping people in a healing way would do far better to give deeply aware consultations and counselling, for example, training people to use The Work or / and the Alexander Technique — or indeed more generally the methodology that I present in Crisis Emergency Self-Help and Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way. It would still be essential that such counsellors / trainers be long-standing and deeply aware users of whatever methods in which they intend to facilitate or train others.

Think 'aware touch' instead of 'healing'!

Basically, 'healing' (in the limited sense), if it's going to be used at all, is best reserved for the odd impromptu situations in everyday life, where there's some sort of physical trauma / injury. When used for that purpose, when one doesn't get deeply involved in it and make a 'practice' of keeping on doing it, such 'healing' can be helpful whether administered to oneself or another person — but we're NOT talking here of the 'miraculous' healings that so many people hanker after.

Indeed, in such cases it would be much the best to drop the word and concept of 'healing' altogether, and think instead of simply applying 'aware touch', without entertaining any notion of 'energy' or any 'spiritual' context. That way, you'd stand a much better chance of not (again) getting drawn into the 'healing' mindset and all the problems that it carries with it. Aware touch, without attached 'story' / beliefs, can be particularly beneficial for anyone who is poorly or has a new injury, but it isn't about any sort of 'miracle'.

This is all about simply giving the recipient's own physical healing process a little boost, and helping put the person at ease emotionally. This is something that people can generally give and receive without problem — though it still depends on the giver being 'clean' in their motivation. Anyone who is doing a lot of that, especially if not living in a genuine and healthy manner (and not attending scrupulously to their own personal integrity and self-actualization), would be some degree of problem for any vulnerable person who they set hands upon — albeit generally not as seriously so as if they were practising 'healing'.

Isn't that already recognised, as Therapeutic Touch?

Actually, no. 'Therapeutic Touch', although conferring some benefits, is just a version of 'spiritual healing', complete with its harmful basic beliefs (most likely a cut-down version), which was developed to make it appear acceptable to medical institutions so that appropriately trained nurses could administer it in hospitals, medical centres and so forth. That's why I can't usefully call what I'm referring to here as 'Therapeutic Touch', even though that name would be the best (i.e., most accurately descriptive) term for it. So, what I myself am talking of is Therapeutic Touch without the spirituality and 'healing' baggage that contaminates official 'Therapeutic Touch'. It is therapeutic touch (not capitalized), but it would be too confusing for me to use that term at all.

Yes, TT is described as 'scientific' and 'evidence-based', but when you look at official descriptions of it, we're down to 'energy' and 'spirituality-talk' again. I expect that it's less harmful than more widely practised 'healing' because of more emphasis on the touch and less on the beliefs, and the more rigorous application of the method within the medical institutions, which I'd expect to be less ungrounding — but the issues would still be there.

Psychic surgery — not such a big deal!

Certain 'healers' go further than what I've described above as 'healing' and directly focus what they regard as 'healing energy' to bring about specific and often very detailed physical 'healings'. Such individuals are commonly known as psychic surgeons. Because the ability to do this is uncommon it's often held in some awe, for its intended or claimed results can sometimes seem well-nigh miraculous.

However, such work on its own has still less value than 'healing' as I've described it above, because overall positive life change and emotional and holistic healing of one's non-physical aspects is of prime importance, and psychic surgery rather potently diverts people away from the broader healing and positive life change that is their true priority. It can also handsomely cultivate the healers' sense of and lust for personal status ("boost one's ego" in common parlance), and is disempowering for the recipients of such 'healings'. There's also a more fundamental problem about psychic surgery, which I mention further below.

You may well have the idea that a particular psychic surgeon is doing a much greater job than an 'ordinary' spiritual 'healer' could, but it can often be the other way round. A psychic surgeon gets a lot of pressure from clients to heal pressing physical problems of theirs, and in many cases this results in the psychic surgeon effectively being only a psychic surgeon and not so much of a true holistic 'healer' at all — though in fact not that many people who are regarded as any sort of spiritual 'healer' are anything like as holistic in their approach as is really needed.

It certainly appears 'sexier' to be a psychic surgeon and held in awe by many, and always with a long waiting list of eager clients, but that's all too readily just a personal or social status thing and a sidetrack from one's self-actualization process, and real healing power for the human race at large comes through much less 'sexy'-looking ways. The mere fact of having a waiting list of clients speaks volumes about patterns of personal powerlessness that are being fed by such 'healers' and psychic surgeons.

I'm not aware of a single 'healing' that I've done that I'd call 'psychic surgery'*, nor of a single instant 'miracle cure' that I've brought about (but of course there may have been some that I never got to know about). Yet I'm well aware that the amount of healing power for people in general that I've been wielding over the years has been significant (though unlikely to be so through laying on of hands or doing supposed distant healings), and the same could be true for you and many other 'healers'.

Probably my main beneficial impact upon people when I was into 'healing' had more to do with giving little bits of really insightful life-change counselling — putting them in touch with a more accurate view of themselves, as having a huge as-yet unrealized potential that could be progressively opened up, and my being an effective role model with regard to a healthier outlook on life — and also in some cases my giving an introductory Alexander Technique lesson. I was effectively giving or reinforcing for them notions of taking command of their own life situations and sorting themselves out instead of keeping on relying on 'healers' and therapists.

To me, being a healer in any genuinely worthwhile way on the one hand, and being a teacher and empowerer on the other, were virtually synonymous. Even when I wasn't actually giving hands-on healing sessions, when I encountered people who I sensed were 'healers' themselves I'd normally remark on that apparently special attribute of theirs and, where seemingly appropriate, give a suggestion or two as to how they might get into healing — but with emphasis upon self-healing and self-actualization, and with a caution against the all-too-common desire to concentrate on healing others without giving priority to one's own self-actualization process.

The point here is that with minimum effort on my part, instead of just making a relatively small number of people possibly a little bit 'better' from particular problems, I've been acting as a catalyst for a large number of people's moving at least a bit closer towards getting into self-actualization and in some cases themselves becoming teachers of sorts and strong catalysts for the same thing.

So, through my various encounters during my outings, I leave behind me a trail of life turning-points or at least positive seeds that I've planted, which in many cases will in some manner 'sprout' later on. And nowadays, of course, I have this website here, which is regularly bringing about major life turnarounds and indeed actually saving lives.

You yourself could operate in this way if you wished — it's nothing peculiar to me.

And now a Red Warning about psychic surgery…

In practice there are additional and very serious problems about psychic surgery and the people who choose to practise it. For a start, the whole modus operandi of psychic surgery involves the use of illusory realities in a more concerted way than in 'standard' healing work, and so the garbage is intrinsically involved. Indeed, psychic surgery overlaps to a very significant extent with 'magic', and carries with it to a fair degree the problems associated with wielding 'special powers' in general.

Further, the garbage covertly directs particular people into psychic surgery, and exploits the situation to enable them to put implants and other 'astral nasties' in clients' non-physical aspects, while believing that they're doing only beneficial things. Because psychic surgeons are at least to a fair extent using their ordinary 'mind' to direct the supposed 'healing energy', they aren't able to know and take into account what's truly for a client's best interest*, and such a person will inevitably drain his / her own 'energy' in doing such healing work, resulting in health problems**. Also, the way they operate to a considerable extent blocks the operation through them of the one really safe, healthy and effective healing source, which is their own deepest aspects. They're thus particularly open to garbage interference and influence.

In short, if you're a psychic surgeon you have a very serious problem of involvement with the garbage, whether or not you're aware of it, and likewise, if you've at any time been a client of a psychic surgeon, you've almost certainly picked up one or more serious problems from him / her (related to connections with the garbage), whether or not you're aware of it at the present time.

I myself was a client of Chris Thomas (henceforth abbreviated to CT) for a few sessions in about 2000, and he recounted to me how he came to have his apparent 'special' powers of being able to 'see' within people's bodies and create 'energy' implants (he usually called them matrices) to carry out healing functions. He told me that he'd had a couple of alien beings visit him (I think he meant non-physically, or if they'd seemed to be physical they would have been illusory ones in an astral realm), and ask for his co-operation in some project, and when they'd finished with that project they gave him those special abilities, supposedly as a reward.

What they'd actually done was to put 'implants' of some sort in CT's non-physical aspects, which enabled the garbage, which had given him the illusion of those aliens, then to control and manipulate his non-physical perceptions, so that he was then operating unwittingly as a puppet of the garbage. People like me, who the garbage particularly seeks to 'bring down' and either take over or wreck, are particular targets* of people who are psychic surgeons (and indeed also those who are called 'lightworkers').

I'm not suggesting that CT himself had anything other than the best of intentions for me or anyone else, but he was being seriously manipulated by the garbage, and succeeded in leaving me with 'implants' and other garbage connections that were one of the steps towards the tremendous troubles from the garbage that commenced for me in 2003. Also, the mischief didn't end there, because I also received harmful 'implants' from Neil Budgen (henceforth abbreviated to NB), a long-standing Reiki teacher (not a 'Master', as such people absurdly call themselves)*, who himself had learnt from CT how to create energy implants in people (as already noted, CT called them 'matrices'), supposedly for healing purposes.

NB himself was being controlled by the garbage and almost certainly a partial walk-in, and, as far as I can tell from my own inner inquiry, the implants he was putting into people's non-physical aspects (including my own) were not the temporary healing implants that he believed they were, but were relatively permanent and decidedly harmful, so further compromising the intrinsic protection of my own non-physical aspects against garbage interferences.

My points about CT's own serious predicament were underlined by his final communication to me — a somewhat desperate-toned email in December 2006 in which he said he was under massive psychic attack, which had been going on for a few months then, and it looked as though that would be going on for some time yet. And later on I noted that from 2009 onward his website had apparently disappeared, so I seriously wondered whether those attacks had even brought about his demise.

I did find a couple of online articles by CT dated 2010, but otherwise his online presence had all but disappeared, including the website he'd been using to promote his psychic surgery practice. However, in early 2011 I found an apparently recent video of CT explaining that he was recovering from a massive sustained attack from what he interpreted as particular extra-terrestrials called the Annunaki, which latter, he claimed, were the big troublesome influence affecting the human race (trying to take control of it, and all that). He looked much more frail, and his 'energy' was much weaker, than when I had my own personal encounters with him.

My own understanding is that the Annunaki, like ALL supposed ETs that communicate or otherwise interact with people in any way here on Earth are simply more illusions created in the people's minds by the garbage — with the use of astral realms and, occasionally, particular elementals, to make them appear particularly 'real'.

Doubts, questions and practical aspects

"What makes you think I'm a healer?"

To some extent in everyday life but primarily on my weekly hiking outings, when I hitch-hiked out to some wild place for a usually strenuous hike and then hitch-hiked back within the day, I'd encounter people who I could sense were 'healers', and usually they were unaware of the fact. Often I'd be moved to tell them what I'd noticed, to give them the opportunity to embark on an active self-actualization process and thus have positive and healing effects upon others through a sort of catalytic effect.

As already noted, all people have some 'healing' ability, but those who I thought of as 'healers' were those ones who had this sufficiently strongly for it to be worthwhile (in my view back then) for them to actively use it in some way. Such people are invariably what mediums and psychics would call old souls (owing to extremely troublesome misinformation that they've received from the garbage posing as all their sources of channelled or clairvoyantly obtained 'information') but are really direct incarnations of fundamental consciousness (what I call no-soul incarnations), or at least have soul-reincarnated no more than a few times. In short, they have little or sometimes no soul programming.

There are actually three main factors, any or all of which may catch my attention to alert me that the person is a 'healer' (though nowadays I can always confirm such things and possibly find out more details if necessary, by means of inner inquiry supported by Helpfulness Testing):

• A very subtle impression of there being a (non-physical) silvery or whitish light or radiance around the person. This isn't a direct indication that the person is a healer, for what it really tells me is that the person is poorly grounded (which is actually a distinct problem for them). That, however, generally goes with no-soul people, and also those who've soul-reincarnated no more than a few times, who are intrinsically the strongest healers.

• An 'energy' resonance between the person and myself that I feel as a beautiful love-filled 'buzz'. That indicates a relative compatibility with my own 'energy' (as far as I can tell, I myself am a no-soul person) and so again points to the other person as being in a similar state and thus being a strong healer. However, I have to be very circumspect about that, because the garbage readily gives me such impressions when there's really only a little bit of mutual 'resonance', in order to try to get me unhealthily involved with the particular person.

• A sort of 'liveness' and 'openness' in the person's countenance and manner (what some other people notice and refer to as a particular 'spark of life'), which ordinary people don't have — i.e., even if they have an animated manner and are apparently happy and 'doing well' in their life.

• A sort of 'liveness' of the 'energy' in the person's hands, which I can feel when we shake hands on introduction / parting. It feels very beautiful to me, and varies a lot in character from person to person. I used to interpret that as 'healing energy', as 'healers' generally do, but I'm more circumspect nowadays about any such interpretation.

  That's because my understanding is that genuine healing 'energy' from the hands has a very subtle feel that the vast majority of people simply wouldn't notice, and what people are actually feeling is an amplified and distorted replica of such impressions, intruded by the garbage in order to mislead people about what's really going on for them, and to keep them tuned in to impressions given to them by the garbage rather than the much more subtle (but all important) impressions that come from their own deepest aspects.

Having written this far, however, I'd point out again that nowadays actually I don't regard being a supposed 'healer' as being the really important thing. Such people are at least potentially more open than other people to their own self-actualization, and really that is what's important. Their 'healing' ability, although real, is a secondary issue, and can all too easily become a sidetrack if focused upon in lieu of getting on with a broadly based genuine self-actualization process.

"I feel that I have a calling to be a healer — What can I do about it?"

As various search queries landing on this site used to say, I'm a healer — what now?

Actually, the real and quite crucial first thing you need to do about it — whether you just feel that you have a calling or have had some apparent direct 'call' from some non-physical source — is to drop that very notion like a red-hot brick! — I'm saying this seriously. This is 100% the case even if the calling has apparently come from 'God', 'the Holy Spirit', 'Archangel Michael' or 'Jesus'. ('Apparently', here, is the operative word!)

The very notion of having a 'calling' or being 'called' to be a 'healer' is ALWAYS the work of the garbage, seeking to divert your underlying life purpose / life task relating to the genuine healing and life upturn that comes from self-actualization, into alluring side-tracks that would (a) keep you pointed well away from genuine self-actualization and (b) make you (and almost certainly others) more ungrounded and open and vulnerable to the garbage — that harmful change generally getting misinterpreted as your supposedly becoming more 'spiritually open' or 'spiritually aware'. It would be the wrong sort of awareness — astral perceptions — that you'd be opening up for yourself and others.

So, it does make good sense to bring more genuine healing into your life (though really the whole concept of 'healing' as generally understood needs sending to the recycling tip along with the garbage), but you'd be asking for serious trouble to try to do so on the basis of some sort of external agency (whether guides, angels, 'God' or whatever) 'calling', advising or instructing you to do anything. The genuinely healthy and beneficial approach to healing is based on your own self-actualization process. — Please read on…

"How would I make a start into healing?"

People take many different routes into starting to practise 'healing', but I have to warn that virtually ALL of them bring serious problems with them, including ALL the well known versions such as Reiki. Here are a few of the problems about such methods.

• Invoking guides and other so-called higher beings including ascended masters, goddesses, angels or archangels, and indeed 'God'. None of these are what the particular 'healers' think they are, for the garbage simply creates illusions of such supposedly beneficial beings / presences in one's mindspace and invisibly poses as them just like a concealed puppeteer, to lure the 'healer' into involvement with it and taking on its usually fairly well disguised agenda for taking control over people.

  I explain about this in Channelling and clairvoyance problems — The safe alternative and The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks. The apparent lovingness and wisdom of those supposedly higher beings is nothing other than that of your own deepest aspects, which is being relayed to you by the garbage, actually in insidiously if not grossly distorted form.

• Not using genuine healing 'energy' at all, because 'energies' that come from perceived external sources are all illusory as healing agencies, and generally are being used as decoys to hide harmful processes that are occurring during a session.

• Being motivated to ask supposedly external non-physical sources for guidance or other information (dowsing or channelling). As already noted, when you invoke or receive communications from a non-physical source (even just a supposed guide of yours) you're actually getting 'information' given to you by the garbage posing as whatever higher or beneficial being who you think you're getting. Channelling or dowsing is one of the commonest ways that people pick up major problems of interference and attacks from the garbage, and indeed it precipitated my own very severe shenanigans with it — see The 'forces of darkness' ('astral beings') — My own tough experiences.

• Hazards of picking up problems with 'entities'. Actually generally it's not so much true 'entities' that are picked up (though in some cases this may occur, sometimes with disastrous results), but elementals and / or problems or increased problems from direct garbage interferences / attacks. This can occur through the healing work weakening your grounding and also through its giving the garbage opportunities to place thought forms and 'implants' in your non-physical aspects, so rendering you much more 'open' and vulnerable to the garbage and indeed 'entities'.

• Use of symbols in some traditions such as Reiki. These don't connect you to or channel genuine healing 'energies' at all, and indeed what they really do is simply to have a disruptive and weakening effect in one's non-physical aspects. All 'sacred' and healing symbols have been given to us by the garbage to get us weakening our non-physical aspects in a whole plethora of ways and increasing its hold upon us.

• Use of crystals, stones, healing wands or sacred geometry structures. To my understanding, a similar consideration applies. Each such object or device can 'channel' only particular 'frequencies' of supposed 'healing energy', and that 'energy' is liable to arrive to some extent distorted or unbalanced by the construction or configuration of the 'hardware'. Nowadays my best understanding that in the real, physical reality they cannot genuinely channel anything, helpful or harmful, but to people carrying certain widely-held illusory realities in their mindspace, their energy-channelling qualities appear to be 'real'.

  I myself had been using some very powerful sacred geometry healing wands, but eventually understood that they were each distinctly limited as to what range of 'energies' could be channelled through them in healings, and the sacred geometry constructions on those wands (mostly the merkaba configuration of two interlocking pyramids) ensured that the 'energy' received had a 'jagged' quality about it that was significantly disruptive in my non-physical aspects and had been a particularly major factor in opening me to the tremendous troubles that I fell into with the garbage from late 2003 onwards.

  When I was using those wands I hadn't yet progressed to recognising that all their supposed energy channelling was illusory, and relied on an individual to be carrying the right illusory reality in the back of his mindspace for them to have any effect on him, whether beneficial or harmful.

• Use of attunements and 'transmissions'. Attunements are given in Reiki and its many variants, and also in Vortex Healing. Such attunements ALWAYS are covertly attunements to the garbage, regardless of what anyone believes about their benefits and supposedly 'high' connections. In any case the Reiki attunements involve putting symbols into a person's non-physical aspects, and those symbols, as already intimated, themselves increase a person's connections with the garbage.

  If you seriously want to open yourself more to the 'highest' and purest healing source, then no attunement carried out by another person will do that, and the way to go about it's simply to embark on an active self-actualization process — for that's what progressively opens up for you that 'ultimate' healing source, which is your own deepest aspects. That is in effect the ultimate healing attunement.

  One type of attunement that's particularly virulent in its damaging your non-physical aspects and opening you more to the garbage is the Merkaba Activation attunement, which I learnt from Gordon Hughes, the 'lightworker' who made my sacred geometry wands. In no way is that a true healing procedure, and it did me particularly serious harm in opening me further to the garbage.

  Potentially even more harmful are the 'transmissions' given to Vortex Healing students / 'trainees'. I see very strong pointers to most of those individuals who give those transmissions actually being (completely unawarely) members of the postulated cacoprotean network, and their placing of implants in the non-physical aspects of the recipients would be, at best very harmful, and in many if not all cases would result in the recipients actually becoming members of the cacoprotean network (and thus part of the garbage) themselves.

  For some further notes about the problems of Vortex Healing, please see the relevant section in FAQ Corner, Part 1.

  However, I warn that it's very likely that potentially any 'ordinary' Reiki teacher who you might go to could theoretically achieve a similar result through attunements that (s)he gives — and that becomes still more likely in some of the supposedly more powerful Reiki versions and offshoots such as Karuna, Tera Mai, Golden Re and Golden Ray. Also, being attuned by somebody else isn't necessarily required for this to happen.

  Grahame Wyllie, one particular British 'lightworker', calling himself Shabdan, has channelled and disseminates what he calls Ascension Reiki, which is a sort-of learn-it-yourself type of Reiki that you attune yourself to and practise by following the instructions in the manual that you buy from him. I've heard / read a variety of reports of people who've had to discontinue using it because of the serious problems it had caused for them.

  I don't know whether any of those had actually become cacoprotean network members, but I caution that Wyllie appears to be a part of the network himself, and thus all his methods of 'preparing oneself for ascension' are very likely at least to harm one in ways that are priming one for possible incorporation into the network at a future time, if not to make one immediately part of it.

• Taking-on of beliefs in particular 'spiritual realities' involving some sort of hierarchy of dimensions and higher beings, and in soul reincarnation as being a fact of life for us all. This is one of the areas where I myself got led astray as a result of my involvement in 'healing'. It's the garbage that seeks to get us attached to and believing in such scenarios, because it seeks to stop us progressing towards optimal self-actualization and thus total freedom from garbage interference and control. Taking on such beliefs puts a great big spanner in the works of any attempt of ours at a genuine self-actualization process.
  

  I don't mean at all that we should disbelieve anything, but rather, that the healthy way forward involves our keeping an open mind about such things, with the understanding that we can't really know what's true beyond our present-time observations of 'What Is'. You can read more about the problems arising from taking on beliefs in supposedly higher realities and in sequential, evolutionary reincarnation of the soul (and indeed the notion that our true identity is the soul), in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks.

This all looks pretty scary, doesn't it! How, then, could anyone safely get into using their healing ability? — NOT by taking up Reiki, for a start (as I used to recommend)! — Lie down and die, perhaps?

The answer is actually reassuring and simple, and this site puts you strongly in touch with it. The first thing is to take up active self-actualization methods, including Helpfulness Testing, as I indicate in Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way, and in the course of that you could actually establish for yourself to what extent doing any hands-on healing would be beneficial for you to do (most likely it wouldn't be, to any really significant extent), and, regardless of that consideration, you'd be turning your life around to an extent that you almost certainly wouldn't have thought possible.

But then, if you do at some point have some genuine reason to use safe hands-on healing, you simply do it from your own deepest aspects only, as already intimated, without invoking any beings, presences or supposed 'energies', and keeping completely clear of all healing traditions or passed-on methods.

— But then again, if you think you have some genuine reason to use supposedly 'safe' and 'genuine' hands-on healing, the chances are that you need to hold that whole notion up to more penetrating scrutiny and get more focused on the range of methods for self-actualization and corrective physical and mental changes that I give on this site. They're all do-it-yourself and thus fully self-empowering.

See yourself not as a 'healer' but as a catalyst for genuine healing…

If you want to see yourself as a healer, stop right there! Hold yourself up to proper scrutiny. Why do you want to do so? What that would tell me straight off is that you have issues you seriously need to resolve before you'd be all that beneficial in ANY sort of helping or caring role. If you're wanting to be a 'healer' or helper / carer, you're internally craving to be healed / helped yourself!

You need to get that out of your system before you can respond in genuinely helpful ways to other people's actual needs. Seeking to be a 'healer' / helper / carer is also a way of trying to fool oneself that one is really okay and doesn't have any issues needing to be cleared, by covering-up with an overcompensation response. That is, you effectively posture as being in a superior state to that of the people who you imagine you're helping or wanting to help. I'm okay and you're not okay, sort-of thing!

To be genuinely beneficial to others, you first need to use a genuine self-actualization methodology, such as I present on this site, to turn your own life around. Then, without needing to pose at all, you would increasingly be catalytic for positive change in others, and could introduce appropriate individuals to this methodology, to enable them to turn their own lives around and themselves to become progressively more catalytic to others for positive change…

Let go of the notion of running a formal 'healing' practice!

This should be pretty obvious from things I've written further above, but if you want to run a formal healing practice of any sort, presumably with paying clients, you're straightaway in trouble, because you've lost the plot of your own self-actualization process. If you want really to help other people and yourself, the great thing to do is to run workshops for people to learn real self-healing and self-actualization methods, such as I present on this site.

That, if approached in the right way, is intrinsically empowering for all involved, whereas running a standard sort of formal healing practice constantly disempowers people and encourages them to put far too much emphasis on 'energy work' healing rather than the full gamut of genuine self-actualization methods — and of course feeds their patterns of wanting to pass the responsibility for positive change in their lives into the hands of anyone but themselves.

Naturally you'd need first to have become highly proficient and 'connected' in your ongoing use of the methods upon yourself for your own self-actualization process, otherwise you'd be hardly less of an unwitting charlatan and impostor than any common or garden (or indeed universally revered) Reiki 'Master'. So, if you're 'raring to go' to run such workshops without first having been achieving dramatic positive personal change through use of the methods over a number of years, you'd really need to subject yourself and your motivations to particularly careful and deep scrutiny and get your own 'house' in order first.

Actually there are a few possibilities for running genuinely beneficial self-actualization-related paid courses. What I have in mind here is NOT therapies, which are all more or less disempowering for the clients and so obstructive to any self-actualization of theirs. If you become proficient in using The Work in clearing material of your own, you could benefit a fair number of people in paid sessions for training them in using The Work upon themselves.

Or, if you're sufficiently well-healed, you could take up the Alexander Technique and, if you ever become sufficiently proficient in it, and train suitably aware individuals to take the method into their own lives. However, to become a professional teacher of that you could run into trouble without having proper insurance for that — in order to for a reputable insurer to take you on for that you'd need to have some sort of professional qualification — and the courses tend to cost a LOT!

— And then if you went through all that, you'd be strongly motivated by a perceived if not actual need to recoup all that cost, so your mindset in that practice would then tend to be distorted by that financial pressure, which would much reduce your benefit to others…

Those methods are not to be thought of as alternatives to my methodology but as third-party methods that are integrated into my overall methodology.

About smoking and using other harmful / addictive substances

I'm at odds with a large minority of 'healers' in that I say openly and publicly that every 'healer' or supposed promoter of self-actualization who smokes, or uses other harmful or addictive substances such as cannabis or other so-called recreational drugs, or alcohol, is only a notional one at best, and can't be genuinely effective in any sort of 'healing' at all without stopping using such substances.

These substances in various ways have disruptive and weakening effects in people's non-physical aspects, making them more open and vulnerable to the garbage and more prone to attracting problematical 'energies' and 'entities', and they hamper or indeed block their users' own self-healing / self-actualization process, quite apart from the direct physical harm that they do. Also, taking any such substance regularly is a habit that's helping to keep in place one or more of its users' emotional issues, and it encourages other people's retention of such habits.

Of course various 'healers' have criticized me, at least by implication, for not having an 'each to his own', laissez-faire attitude with regard to 'healers' who smoke or indeed have any other shortcomings. They accuse me of being judgmental, because they confuse my clear-mindedness and use of aware rational discernment with being judgmental (i.e., in the negative, harmful sense).

In fact I'm not saying that smoking 'healers' are bad people, but I'm simply pointing to cause and effect. How on earth can a supposed 'healer' who is holding onto harmful habits himself be an inspiration and motivator to others to let go of their negative and harmful habits? Such 'healers' are in denial of issues of their own and so are great teachers of keeping in denial, and indeed of remaining attached to smoking — not of facing and resolving issues. Is that really what you'd accept of a supposedly holistic 'healer'? In my books they are ALL really ANTI-healers — if for no other reason than the abysmal role model they're presenting.

Actually, this issue isn't only about obviously harmful drugs but, more generally, about whatever substances we ingest in an addicted or entrenchedly habitual manner, no matter how socially acceptable. Thus caffeine, theobromine and other naturally occurring stimulants are 'out'.

Yes, that means that, to be effective in your own self-actualization process and thus as any sort of genuine healer, you've no option but to keep clear of tea (apart of course from a big range of herbal teas, as long as they're genuinely free of caffeine or other stimulants), coffee, cocoa, and of course confectionery — sugary things are the object of much unacknowledged addiction — including of course chocolate, which contains a range of recognised stimulants as well as the sugar.

The issue is NOT simply whether a particular substance is deemed harmful or harmless, but the fact of being driven by an addiction or entrenched habit. As long as you retain anything of the latter, you're seriously hindering if not altogether blocking your self-actualization process and prospects, and are being harmful to others in being a poor role model, even though no doubt a socially acceptable one!

I thus encourage anyone who seriously wants to operate as a 'healer' or positive force in any way at all to commit themselves to keeping clear of smoking or any other substance misuse habits (even such things as eating sweets) immediately or at least at the very earliest opportunity. I give some useful pointers for anyone wanting to get clear of addictions, habits and compulsive behaviours in Letting go of addictions and compulsive behaviours.

However, for most people who've been using cannabis regularly for a significant period the chances are that the cannabis will have damaged their motivation for positive change in their lives, and in cases where that's happened they wouldn't use (at least properly) the truly effective methods that I give on this site for addressing their addiction, and will hold onto the latter, very likely justifying it and possibly being angry with me for having spoken out about this matter. Such people can't be effective holistic 'healers' of any sort, never mind how strongly they may appear to transmit what seems to be some sort of 'healing energy' (really just an illusory impression provided by the garbage).

'Entities' and garbage interferences ARE an issue for 'healers'

This issue is so important that, although I've really already covered it fairly well above, I return to it here.

People starting into healing are commonly taught that The Highest Will ensures that a 'healer' is never presented with healing issues that (s)he isn't ready yet to handle..

Following what I've already said further above about the garbage's almost universal involvement with 'healers' and their healing activities, it must be quite obvious that the aforementioned belief, rife in healing traditions, is founded on nothing better than ignorance based in denial. Indeed, the notion of any external 'Highest Will' itself is sourced from the garbage to divert us away from the true 'ultimate' reality of fundamental consciousness, which is the base level of our own deepest aspects and of 'What Is'.

As I've surely already made clear by now, the human race is replete with problematical and indeed seriously troublesome non-physical influences! The garbage, attached 'lost' souls, and connections to primary archetypes are involved in the vast majority of mental health issues that are presented to doctors or psychiatric units. Indeed, it's virtually certain that you yourself have interferences from one or more of those in one form or another, albeit in most cases more or less covert.

The main types of troublesome non-physical 'entities' and influences that I'm aware of are:

• Elementals. My understanding nowadays is that most if not all of the overtly seriously troublesome 'spirit attachments' that people are aware of as such are nothing of the kind but are elementals, which are programmed complexes of thought forms. I write about these in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks. To the best of my understanding, the most troublesome type of all tends to be the 'combo entity', which is a postulated combination of an entity-like elemental with a soul fragment (see below).

• Soul fragment attachments. Much less often recognised, but apparently also quite common. When a person suffers trauma, commonly or maybe always a part of that person's consciousness becomes apparently separated off, still connected by an 'energy' cord. It may float around close to the person or it may attach to an object or a place or another person, in the latter case causing a range of mental and emotional problems and generally weakening the person, who would often feel 'drained', and would run into resultant health problems — not to mention also very often getting driven to alcohol, smoking and other addictive behaviours.

  Emotional healing and the resultant soul retrieval process (NOT a soul retrieval healing session, however, which is always harmful!) for the owner of the soul fragment is the most fundamental need.

• Parasitic 'lost' souls. These aren't at all the same as spirit attachments or partial walk-ins (see below), and almost all people who are no-soul incarnations or soul incarnations who've incarnated only a few times have some of these attached to them. They're attached at quite a deep 'level' of consciousness, which could loosely be described as 'soul level'. I write about them in some detail in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks.

• Primary archetypes. These are not 'entities' themselves, but comprise what I often describe as a seethingly virulent cesspit of distorted human experience, which has been created by, and is ever being further augmented by, the garbage. It appears that people don't naturally have 'active' connections to them, but the garbage sets these up via parasitic lost souls (see above) attached to a person.

• Partial walk-ins. These are human souls degraded and specially programmed by the garbage to take over and control to various extents the individuals to whom they're attached. They're a particular feature of people who are spiritual teachers and so-called lightworkers and indeed many 'healers' — especially those who've set themselves up as teachers of healing.

• Spirit attachments (failed partial walk-ins). Because of their very strongly control-oriented garbage-sourced programming, these generally have a similar effect to a partial walk-in — though the affected person has a better chance of recognising that something is amiss, and even, if very clear-minded and strong-willed, doing something about it.

• Psychic attacks from people. Anything that's claimed to be a psychic attack from 'aliens' / 'extra-terrestrials' would almost certainly be an attack directly from the garbage or possibly indirectly via an elemental — but in the odd cases attacks from supposed 'aliens' / 'extra-terrestrials' would have been set up as psychic attacks from actual people.

• ILLUSIONS created in one's mindspace by the garbage (such as astral entities, astral beings, demons, etc., and also all other types of non-physical beings and 'presences', including all the supposedly beneficial ones such as angels, 'ascended masters', Jesus and indeed 'God').

  This, contrary to popular belief among 'healers', is the most widespread and indeed ubiquitous type of non-physical influence, and often manifests as apparent entities or 'voices', and to some extent and in various ways it interferes with just about everyone on the planet — usually covertly. It's the primary problem in ALL healing work that isn't done purely from one's own deepest aspects, and the garbage has an unremitting agenda of seeking control and domination over people individually and the human race altogether.

  I give a lot of information about it and its interferences in The true nature of 'the forces of darkness' and its interference and attacks, The 'forces of darkness' ('astral beings') — My own tough experiences and Night terrors and hell experiences — Understanding and clearing them.

• (according to others) 'spirit attachments' (earthbound spirits). These (the supposed consciousnesses of people who've died but, supposedly, have been unable to 'pass on') are apparently one of the plethora of garbage-sourced myths! What people interpret as earthbound spirit attachments would be one of the above-listed manifestations.

I myself have apparently received harmful implants or other energy 'devices' opening me further to the garbage, from at least four 'healers' independently. I write more about that in The 'forces of darkness' ('astral beings') — My own tough experiences.

Unfortunately most teachers of healing encourage their students to open to some sort of external-seeming 'guidance', whether by pendulum dowsing or by 'listening within', without a mention that people who do this would be opening themselves to the garbage even if they're supposedly 'protecting' themselves, or that all apparent non-physical sources of 'guidance' and channelled information are all highly problematical because of garbage involvement.

I therefore recommend that, however safe any teacher of yours makes opening to 'guidance' sound, you don't get involved in it at all, and indeed get right away from that teacher, who is a menace. But ultimately it's your own choice…

'Protection'? — Forget it!!

As for the notion of psychic 'protection' during healing work and at other times, for an extremely important reason I'd say, Forget it!. The point is that, throughout the planet, 'healers', 'lightworkers' and psychics are using all manner of methods to supposedly protect themselves from supposed 'entities' or indeed from 'dark forces', and for the most part those supposed protection methods simply don't work and indeed many are more or less harmful — and it's those people's own garbage interferences that give them the impression that their 'protection' methods do work, so that they continue to deceive themselves.

It's far better that you remain aware of your real vulnerability without kidding yourself at any point that you're protected, and also to be using proper self-actualization methods that are progressively 'cleaning' and strengthening all aspects of yourself, both physical and non-physical, so that you're uncovering and cultivating your natural invulnerability to 'entities' and the garbage (and also increasingly living a happier life, with tremendous inner clarity and freedom). That is the real protection — cultivating your intrinsic invulnerability to 'entities' and problematical influences. The sort of methodology that achieves this is pointed to in Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way.

Issues relating to giving, receiving, and helping others

I found that there's a widespread belief that if you're practising healing, generally it's important to charge a reasonably significant fee. The catch here is that, yes, there is some logic and 'truth' in that. Yet the real issue is, why the hell are people setting themselves up as practitioners of 'healing' in the first place?

As I've already indicated, generally speaking, that's not genuinely helping the recipients because they need to learn to sort themselves out. So, really, even if you think your motivations are pure, there's nothing very pure about taking money from people for spending time on them that's not really helping them and usually would be harming them in invisible ways, despite any short-term apparent benefits.

So, what I'm saying is that if you want to really assist people, practising 'healing' or indeed any other 'therapy' upon others is generally not the real answer. Let me summarize below some suggestions for being really helpful to others, and circumstances in which it could be 'energetically pure' to charge fees and even possibly make a living (or, much better, part of a living). Most likely I shall add further items to this list.

• First, and very important, ensure that you yourself are sorting yourself out, regularly using upon yourself any methods that you may be introducing others to or indeed using upon them at any time. You can't be very beneficial to others unless you're an excellent role model and are functioning well in the ways that they need to be doing.

• Related to the above, and just as important, address and get resolving whatever emotional issues of yours are causing you to want to help others. You need NOT to be attempting to help others in any way while you're being motivated by a sense of emotional 'need' to help. That requires great and indeed rare self-honesty and self command!

• Think in terms of empowering people to heal themselves or sort themselves out. People will try to 'lean' on you, wanting you to do their thinking for them, and generally to take over their own responsibility for sorting out their lives. If you do what they want of you, and answer questions that they need to answer for themselves, you're failing to do what they actually need, which is a firm nudge or indeed push or even plain kick up the arse (figurative, presumably!) to get on their own two feet and sort themselves out.

• It's unethical to take (further) fees from people if you can see that they're depending on you rather than getting cracking on their own self-healing / self-actualization or otherwise sorting themselves out. That means, you need to be ready to ask a client not to come back to you, and to be firm if they try to put pressure on you — even if you're short of money and could do with the fee! I have to do this sort of thing all the time with people who email me from this website, asking for all manner of types of help or advice, certain of them indeed offering a fee. My name must be mud in many quarters!

• If you're self-taught in really effective self-actualization (related) methods, potentially you could be an excellent teacher of them, and better than at least most professionally trained ones — provided that you haven't been deceiving yourself as to the efficacy of your methods or your ability with them. Genuine self-actualization is inherently 'self-taught' (a bad term because it's about learning, not teaching!).

  However, there's a practical issue then, which applies to me, so I know all about it! If you're going to run any sort of formal practice, nowadays it's wise to have insurance against claims from clients.

  While most clients would be very accepting if, say, they had some small accident on your premises or you made some simple error that they considered had hurt or harmed them in some way, there would be the odd ones who are looking for somebody to blame for their own problems, and would latch onto almost anything that they could claim that you'd done wrong, and seek to make trouble for you — and that could include litigation.

  You may choose to proceed uninsured, of course, but you need to be aware of the potentialities for problems in your working situation — albeit not in a paranoid way.

  The catch is that unless you've got a recognised qualification in whatever you'd be practising or teaching, you'd probably not be able to get insurance, at least from a reputable insurer. For that reason I chose not to formally teach the Alexander Technique or indeed any of my methods, even though I'm an inherently better AT teacher than many (not all!) professionally qualified teachers, and of course am the 'horse's mouth' as regards my own methods.

• On the basis of my own experience, I counsel that the most effective way to assist people is through a broad-based personal counselling and giving demonstrations of methods that you use yourself.

• One particular way that you can make something more powerful out of personal counselling / 'life coaching' is through practising as a facilitator for the inquiry process of The Work. That would be extremely beneficial, provided you don't allow clients to keep coming back for repeated facilitation sessions, because they still need to learn to do it themselves and not depend on others to prop them up.

  When I used to give informal healing sessions for a small donation, although I now recognise the hands-on healing as something that was best not done, I also often added in an introductory Alexander Technique lesson. That, plus some life-change counselling, actually meant that the people who were in one respect victims of mine (the 'healing'!) actually still got some real benefit from those other parts of their sessions with me.

  And whenever I gave an AT lesson, it was always a matter of showing the person how to do it themselves — something that a considerable proportion of professional AT teachers don't do, presumably to protect their financial interests.

• It's harmful to you to be 'giving yourself away' without getting a return for it (it impacts seriously on one's health, at least long-term), and, in more subtle ways it's also harmful to the recipients. However, depending on the situation, the most appropriate return may not necessarily be financial, and there are some circumstances in which a really deeply aware person may recognise that there's a specific reason why their having the opportunity to give a particular assistance free of charge would actually benefit him anyway.
  

  When I gave a series of Alexander Technique lessons to a relatively impecunious friend of mine, although she did bring me a little produce from her large garden, actually the real benefit for me was that I was learning to teach the AT, which I was still pretty new to myself! We had great laughs together as I made my little errors and actually very quickly learnt to be natural and 'fluent' as an 'unofficial' AT teacher.

• If you're thinking of some sort of 'teaching', see if you can think more in terms of facilitation and counselling rather than 'teaching', as that sort of mindset is much more empowering for your clients, and more healthy for you too.

• …And counselling is generally harmful if involves giving advice (i.e., based on personal opinion). Really helpful counselling provides not 'advice' ('you should do this or that') but rather, insightful pointers to how the person can help him/herself.

• Helpfulness Testing is the smart way to ensure that you make the best choices out of the options available to you.

Experiencing the feelings of the recipient during 'healing' — is it a problem?

Yes, it's definitely a problem, and it's something of a red warning signal for those who have 'eyes to see and ears to hear'. Unfortunately many psychics and 'healers' who experience that sort of thing are misled into believing it's a 'higher perception', and that they have some degree of (additional) 'superiority' through having it.

As an example, somebody wrote in to me as follows:

My girlfriend has the ability to feel and heal people. She's having an issue with feeling the pain from the individual. It can be a family member or a person she may work with. It has become a curse to a point even though it's a blessing. She's gone as far to want to lose the power because of the pain. The pain will last for a little bit of time even after the person has left. Any advice? She wishes at times that she could make the power go away.

For a start, apparently the particular woman has a problem in being unmotivated to work out / find out for herself what's really going on, seeing that it's her partner who wrote in to me on her behalf. What that tells me is that she's unlikely to be motivated to take any of the measures that she really needs to be taking to genuinely sort herself out. Sadly, the world is stuffed full of people like that, who stand little chance of getting out of their actually serious predicaments.

And now to come to the points that the guy raised.

• A healing ability is NOT a blessing — nothing is! A healing ability is a healing ability, just as a nose is a nose or a kitchen sink is a kitchen sink. Indeed, the perceived or imagined 'healing ability' would generally be largely illusory anyway, so all too often a 'healing ability' is actually not much of a healing ability and indeed is more a sign of a serious problem!

  The whole notion of anything being a 'blessing' or 'gift' (apart from the term being used just as a loose figure of speech) comes to people and traditions from the garbage as part of its cultivating the pernicious misinformation that there's some external and 'higher' being / presence / authority that graciously gives us our lives and whatever comes to us in those lives, and to which we need, or are supposed, to be grateful, or towards which we're supposed to feel obligated.

  The reality is that we and the true nature of reality are fundamentally consciousness / awareness, and nobody in all of 'Existence' could genuinely understand what that is or how it works. Nothing that we experience genuinely informs us of any external non-physical agency that gives us anything or 'blesses' us — i.e., apart from the confusion and mayhem caused for us by the garbage and all the illusions it creates in people's minds. We ourselves, thus, as far as anyone could ever tell, are the 'giver' of all we have.

• A fair degree of healing ability towards other people, as well as towards oneself, is part of our natural state (which is another reason why it couldn't sensibly be called a blessing or gift), but in the majority of people it's largely shut off because of the low level of awareness and openness of their own deepest aspects — so the (much less common) more aware people are often identified as 'healers' and having a 'gift' — especially by psychics, mediums, clairvoyants and so forth.

  These 'healers' are then given actually seriously distorted information to the effect that they have some sort of 'calling' or duty to go giving 'healing' to people (usually meaning doing so through the hands), or at least that it would be a very good thing if they did. That misinformation is completely inevitable because of the very nature of channelling, clairvoyance and other psychic perceptions, in which the garbage, often posing as supposedly 'higher' sources, provides all the 'information'.

• I greatly empathize with the woman experiencing what she interprets as other people's pain when she's giving healing. The guy who wrote in is actually more right than he probably ever imagined, that what's happening for her is a 'curse' (i.e., in the figurative sense, for her sort of situation doesn't require a literal curse put upon her for her to have that sort of thing happening for her). The reality, as far as I understand it so far, is that nobody genuinely feels other people's pain and other feelings, so something else, and indeed distinctly untoward, is happening when a person gets the impression of experiencing another person's feelings.

  This actually comes fully into the same category as ALL psychic perceptions, in that they're NOT the direct perceptions that people generally believe that they are, but they're simply impressions that are given or shown to the 'perceiving' person by the garbage.

  That means that they're ALL bogus perceptions, and any such 'perceptions' are a clear sign of a person's need to get to work on grounding their whole being and their awareness in particular, as part of a genuine self-actualization process to build up and strengthen their whole being and make it progressively immune to the garbage's interferences. All psychic 'perceptions', as normally understood, actually need to be completely disregarded.

  Thus, in the case of the woman friend of the guy who wrote in, what's really happening is that the garbage, which has actually been giving her considerable ongoing interference (because she's so weakly grounded), picks up her very subtle deeply sourced awareness of the feelings of the other person, and is relaying to her a vastly amplified and almost certainly distorted version of the real thing, by means of putting upon her the relevant 'colour' of attack. So, what she's given to believe is her own direct perception or 'empathy' is actually garbage attack upon her!

• It's helpful to clarify here that we all do have an intrinsic ability to sense or be aware of another person's current major feelings — BUT those impressions are of a very subtle nature so that routinely they get drowned out by the garbage's amplified and distorted versions of the same thing, which are always aimed to mislead. Only in exceptionally self-actualized people (i.e., well beyond mere enlightenment) would the genuine subtle impressions of other people's feelings be recognisable for what they are.

  Those impressions in any case are NOT the experiencing of the other person's feelings themselves, but rather, a state of observing them. This is in much the same way that most people can on occasion to some extent remember strong feelings and indeed physical pain associated with particular situations without reliving the actual feelings.

  They do nonetheless observe the feelings in the memories. So, the moment you start feeling the feelings themselves when you're remembering a past painful situation or are giving healing to somebody feeling painful things, what's happening is that you're getting some emotional 'button-pushing', which the garbage immediately exploits to put some degree of relevant attack upon you.

• As to what an affected person can do about the situation, I'd say, first read carefully through the whole of this page, in order to start gaining an understanding of how you've been led astray in your whole approach to healing, and then get systematically following the various links through, so that you pick up the whole methodology that would get you out of the hole that you're in.

  It's very important to understand that the garbage routinely gets the idea into more aware people's heads that they're 'healers' (i.e., as something 'special') and should be using that supposed 'gift' by making quite a thing of giving 'healing' to others — and to understand that this is NOT the real way forward for the healthy, positive and vibrantly happy sort of life that a genuine self-actualization process would bring you.

  A particularly helpful page would be 'Dark force' and entity troubles — The real way to clear them, because really all the generally recognised psychic perceptions need to be treated as aspects of garbage interference or 'troubles', and thus that page points you to the various measures that you need to be taking to properly resolve your situation.

  As I indicate on this page and others on this site, the most important thing is to be using your healing abilities to heal yourself first and foremost — through an ongoing genuine self-actualization process. That's also much more healing for other people in the long run rather than your repeatedly 'giving yourself away' to others.

  It's for the purpose of side-tracking people away from a healthy self-actualization process (the real self-healing), that the garbage emphasizes to people that they're 'healers' and are supposed to be healing others (rather than genuinely sorting themselves out), and in any case gets them using relatively ineffective if not downright harmful healing methods.

People reporting back that they've felt the healings you've sent them

Yes, it does happen, quite frequently. That of course proves that the supposed 'healings' are effective and doing the recipient good — right!?

— Well, no, sorry to say, actually such reports mean next to nothing of any use.

When I was active in Reiki (etc), people were all the time reporting that they'd felt healings that were supposedly sent to them remotely — as though feeling a 'healing' were the really important thing, rather than its actually benefiting the recipient! — Yet when people sent me distant healings and wanted me to report on them, I never noticed anything that I could put down to the supposed healings that had been sent. Indeed, not having Helpfulness Testing then, I never had means to know whether any supposed healing sent to me had had any effect at all, let alone a positive or helpful one.

However, as I've remarked on other pages on this site, the garbage readily interferes with different people simultaneously in ways to convince them of things that it's seeking to get them to believe — and giving (generally very pleasant) sensations and impressions to convince a person that they're receiving effective healing is an old trick that I've observed ad nauseam, both for myself and for other people.

For this reason, without prejudice to whether any particular 'healing' is effective, it's essential to discount and disregard any sensations or impressions that the recipient or indeed the 'healer' has experienced, apparently associated with the supposed healing.

Is there really such a person as a genuine healer, then?

No. — And yes. The very notion of a 'healer' as normally understood is nonsensical, as you may have started to suspect from the sometimes rather contradictory notes I've written above. All 'healers' as generally understood are doing more harm than good in that role, regardless of any worthy intentions or brilliant reputation they may have.

The real 'healers', if indeed one insists on such an anachronistic word at all, are those who in various ways inspire or / and train others to use genuine self-actualization / corrective physical change* methods such as I present on this site, which are used upon oneself only and cannot be used on another person's behalf. That way, and only that way, can people develop and cultivate their self-empowerment. I can't empower you on your behalf; I can only point you to means for self-empowerment.

Reiki and 'spiritual healing' — my own volte face

Yes, not only did I get certificated as a so-called 'Reiki Master', but on this very page at one time I was recommending Reiki as the best 'way in' to doing any sort of 'spiritual' or energy-work healing. At that time I had no idea of the reason why I was having serious troubles from the garbage (what I took then to be interfering 'astral beings').

Also, I now understand that, although the strongest single cause was a combination of the sacred geometry wands that I was using and my channelling, my prior involvement in Reiki had been a part of the picture. It had been helping to unground my awareness, and to weaken my non-physical aspects with the symbols I was using, and also to be accumulating illusory realities in my mindspace, which the garbage could then exploit to my great detriment.

Indeed I used not only the standard Reiki symbols but the odd ones from Karuna Reiki and other sources, including the OM, then the merkaba too, and a particularly harmful one called something like the Mer-Ka-Fa-Ka-Lish-Ma, and then really got into my own, directly channelled, version of Reiki, using the harmful 'Am Re' symbol that I'd channelled. (Initially I was told that it was the 'new OM' and that I was supposed to distribute it far and wide.)

About the time I was into that, I also became aware of somebody else seeking to disseminate a supposedly much superior newly channelled version of Reiki — the already mentioned 'spiritual teacher' calling himself Shabdan. Indeed, commendably in one respect, he was putting it forward as something to learn oneself without having to have formal lessons or workshops.

Well, commendably apart from of course the package of instructions being sold to one at a price, so there was still a business element in this. However, I found from a whole variety of sources that a high proportion of people who bought their self-teaching packages for 'Ascension Reiki' soon dropped it like a hot brick because of the various (clearly garbage attack) problems that it appeared to be causing. In retrospect, I'm remarkably unsurprised!

Just for a laugh, here is my own Reiki 'Master' certificate — not worth the paper it was printed on! I see that the teacher (NOT 'Master', as she called herself!) even omitted the year in the date — it was actually 2001. How in the name of Beelzebub (or Winnie the Pooh, if different!) can a maximum of three undemanding workshops, with at best only the most cursory discernment as to who receives a certificate (virtually all workshop members get one), create or define a worthwhile 'healer' — let alone a healing teacher or supposed 'Master'?!

As well as my Reiki involvement, I went on some training workshops of the Westcountry Natural Healing Fellowship and also of the National Federation of Spiritual 'Healers' (NFSH) — both here in the UK. I'm actually glad I went on those, because even then, although I knew nothing of the garbage involvement in all such healing traditions, I found those organisations' approach to healing to be frustratingly limited and superficial, and based in a significantly low degree of awareness, and so I was already beginning to find out the shortcomings of what are supposed to be our most high-grade and prestigious healing traditions and organisations.

This was initially a considerable disappointment for me, for, in those early years, I'd actually been aiming for eventual accreditation as a practising 'healer' by the WNHF and indeed the NFSH. In the event it very soon became clear that there was nothing in those two traditions or methodologies that was really pointing to or seriously helping people towards genuine enlightenment and self-actualization — and, as I now recognise, that also meant that there was no means within such traditions / methodologies for anyone to seriously clear themselves of 'entities' and garbage interferences / influences.

In the workshops of both those organisations the participants were told that when they'd finished a healing session they needed to 'close down' (i.e., close their chakras down) in order to protect themselves. Even if chakras actually existed, that would be an absolutely breathtakingly stupid and harmful thing for anyone to be doing — let alone teaching anyone else to do, and it was amazing that that harmful practice was part of standard 'healing' practice in both those organisations (though my impression was that many individual members had a bit more sense and never felt motivated to do that).

Another woeful wrong that they were all teaching was that in order to carry out a healing, the 'healer' needs to 'draw in the Light' through their supposed 'crown chakra'. In hindsight I nowadays recognise that procedure straight off as invoking the garbage and ensuring that one transmits distorted, relatively low-grade healing 'energies' if one is transmitting anything at all, and is cultivating an 'open door' to increasing interferences from the garbage.

Those were just two of the things that showed me that the leading people in those organisations / traditions had very little genuine understanding of what they were doing in what they were calling 'healing', and they were mostly operating on the basis of doing what they'd been taught, though amended individually by what their 'guidance' suggested to them. And, as I've already indicated, for 'their guidance', you really need to read the garbage pretending to be some beneficial source of 'guidance'. Not a single one of those people, at least of whom I was aware, was doing proper Helpfulness Testing and so getting genuine reliable guidance from his/her own deepest aspects.

What I've come to recognise much more recently is that the whole structured human 'energy system' or 'aura' (including the chakra system) upon which those organisations and traditions base their healing methods is one of the plethora of harmful illusions that the garbage gives to people with 'psychic' (in other words astral) perceptions. I'm thus all the more glad to have got myself clear of that whole scene.

In a nutshell, then, although I'm sorry to have to say it, if you want to get into genuine healing, free from troublesome influences, all the 'healing' traditions and organisations — regardless of their reputation and any claims made by them to be 'squeaky clean' — are 'out'.

— Still not convinced? — Well, what about the following?…

A cautionary personal experience…

I started off learning and practising hands-on 'healing' in late 1998 at a small 'healing' group that met on Thursday lunchtimes in a room above the Evolution shop* in Fore Street, Exeter. This group gave healing sessions to members of the public for a nominal donation that simply paid for our use of the room, and we worked on each other when not occupied with members of the public. We all had many seemingly good experiences there, but one particular individual — MR — who came for a few sessions was to prove to be more challengingly educational for me than either I or the group leader had bargained for (though the latter never came to know about that).

I should think the young fellow MR was about 21, and much of the time he had a withdrawn and somewhat troubled look about him. However, he and I seemed to be drawn to each other, so that it usually fell upon me rather than any of the other 'healers' there to give him the sessions that he came for. He told me that he was experiencing a lot of very troubling inner confusion, but, without the sort of experience and knowledge that I have now, I wasn't able to get him to be more precise about what he was experiencing — and in any case at that time I'd not have known really what to make of any details that he did come out with.

Anyway, he usually seemed to light up during the sessions, and it was obvious to me that he was basically a deeply aware person and a strong 'healer' himself, with a lot of potential unusually close to the surface — and I really liked him, and he seemed to like me.

Then the healing group was closed down, because the leader realized that she had other priorities (actually running that group and teaching Reiki had been an unhealthy thing for her to be doing in the first place), and that was that. …Or so I thought.

Some time later, at the beginning of 2001, out of the blue I had a telephone contact from MR, who had been to Cheryl, a local clairvoyant who I myself had visited for a 'reading' the previous year, not knowing then of the garbage involvement in all clairvoyance / channelling. Cheryl had recommended to him that he come to me for healing / guidance. What didn't occur to me at all then was that quite likely the garbage had given that idea to C, for the specific purpose of causing me a major problem.*

So, I started having weekly sessions with MR in my flat. These were 'healing' exchanges, giving him training in hands-on healing — effectively Reiki, because that was what I was into at that time. I also included for him each time an Alexander Technique lesson, and his physical alignment was consequently rapidly improving. When he was laying hands on me in his turn as 'healer', I had exceptionally intense (and immensely pleasurable) sensations from what I interpreted as an extremely intense flow of healing energy, and in turn I interpreted that as marking him out as an especially powerful healer.

I did, however, feel a bit disturbed at a sort of contradiction about him, for at times I still witnessed that withdrawn and deeply troubled countenance of his, while at other times he seemed radiant and positive — and he still spoke in rather vague terms about very troubling and confusing inner experiences, but never going into specifics about them. In my inexperience then with such matters, I was feeling rather nervous of what might be opened up by his telling me in detail about any of that, so I never encouraged him to talk more about it.

I also got the impression of some sort of 'entity' around him — I assumed it was some sort of guide — and it seemed very big, almost the height of the room. It seemed to be sort-of 'loving' but in a creepy, twisted way, and had about it a slight sense of menace. Indeed, I also sensed a certain dark 'stickiness' in MR's 'energy field', which added to the slightly disturbing quality of MR and whatever was around him.

After early February 2001, I heard no more from MR (the silence starting with his failing to appear for a loosely pre-arranged session) — which immediately troubled me, for I sensed that something was wrong about all this. It didn't seem appropriate for me to go chasing him, for if he didn't want to come any more, that was his own choice. However, just a little later that month his mother, SR, contacted me because she herself wanted to learn hands-on healing.

So, she started coming to me for weekly healing exchanges in which she could learn hands-on healing. Apparently she didn't know anything about MR's stopping coming to me, for she said she sought to avoid prying in his affairs, and recognised that he had issues that really only he could figure out how to handle.

A few days after her first session with me I attended the third of four of the 'healer' training workshops of the National Federation of Spiritual 'Healers' (NFSH) that I'd been attending. This was with Pamela and Reg Ellis (henceforth abbreviated respectively to PE and RE), who were highly regarded local 'healers' with much experience in 'healer' training (i.e., for the sort of spiritual healing that the NFSH concerns itself with).

Nonetheless, I felt that a lot was lacking about them and what they were 'teaching', and that neither of them had anything like the sort of depth of awareness and ability to understand healing in a way that would come naturally to an enlightened person such as myself.

Evidently RE in particular abounded in psychic 'awareness', which I well understood even then to be something very different from genuine enlightened awareness. Indeed, there was something about the whole 'look and feel' of RE that for me had strong echoes, NOT of genuine healing at all, but of paganism and 'dark' practices, so I never really felt comfortable with him, nor felt that he could be a teacher of the pure and genuinely beneficial sort of healing that I'd want to be involved in.

Indeed, my heart rather sank when the two of them took time to introduce the workshop participants to such practices as astrology and numerology as supposedly being part of people's training for 'spiritual healing', for, even though I didn't know about the garbage involvement in all that then, it seemed to indicate a hopelessly confused outlook, and one that was pointing well away from any true direction for enlightenment / self-actualization.

They also taught the myths that 'healers' need to 'close down' (i.e., close down their chakras) at the end of any session, and that at the beginning of a session the 'healer' needed to 'draw in the Light' from above himself, through his supposed 'crown chakra' — again showing me that in their healing work they were working more on the basis of rules and tradition rather than from any sort of deep awareness or genuine understanding of the healing process and healing methods.

Sometime during the second (and final) day of that workshop we had a group distant healing session. The way we were instructed to do it was as follows. First, we would sit in an inwardly facing circle and all together concentrate and visualize a column of white light being created by our intent in the middle of the circle. Then we would have a period of about 10 minutes during which simultaneously each of us would silently give distant healing successively to two particular people who (s)he felt needed it at that time, as follows:

Focus on the person from memory, then silently invite the person's 'higher self' into the room to take whatever it needed from the healing energy of that column of white light in the middle of the room.

So, I followed that procedure for two people, one of whom was MR, who I assumed was in some sort of trouble and therefore would benefit from some distant healing. Although it didn't strike me as significant at that time, simultaneously with my focusing on MR, RE coughed a little and left the room.

At the end of that session, RE appeared in the doorway of the room and fired at me the question, Philip, did somebody you brought in here in the session have a serious problem? — to which I said that I didn't know about that exactly, but there was this guy, MR, who had stopped coming to me for healing exchanges. RE immediately barked at me, Philip, don't you ever see that fellow again! He's in serious trouble, and you mustn't have anything more to do with him!.

I'm afraid typical of RE, he fancied himself as the cognoscentus, and regarded me as being just another healing novice who wouldn't be able to cope with such issues, so he volunteered no further information.

When I asked him if MR had a spirit attachment he gave a non-committal sort of 'yes' with the implied subtext that he didn't think I was ready to be told about such things (which of course was bullshit). He did at least explain that when he'd coughed and left the room he'd felt some 'presence' carrying an immense amount of 'negativity', which is something that he said he's very sensitive to, it giving him an intense feeling of having to get well away, and causing a constriction in his throat (hence the coughing). He explained that while out of the room he'd been remotely 'looking at'* the energy systems of the workshop participants to see where the problem lay, and the problem appeared to be connected to me.

At the end of the workshop I asked RE if he'd be able to help MR by removing his spirit attachment — just in case MR got in touch with me again so that I then had the opportunity to refer MR to him, and, a little reluctantly, he said 'yes' — quite categorically, but there was a sort of negative energy about that 'yes', which I could only assume meant something like -But don't you bloody well dare to refer him to me, because I've told you to keep away from him and have nothing to do with him! — as though it was his business to give me orders as to what I should or shouldn't do in my own life! Ordering people about like that is all about personal control agenda, not genuine healing — garbage stuff, through and through, and highly unprofessional for a teacher of any sort of 'healing'.

A few days after that workshop, on the last day of February, SR (i.e., MR's mother) came to me for another session. I broke the news to her about what had happened at the workshop, and that apparently MR had some sort of powerful spirit attachment that was carrying a lot of 'negativity', which, apparently, RE could help him with (though no doubt at a stiff price financially). I also gave her a sealed letter with the same information, to pass to MR, so that at least he had the best available information to assist him towards taking any necessary action.

The following week, instead of SR turning up for her next session, a letter from her turned up in the post, and in it she was bitterly complaining that I'd brought disharmony and problems into their family life, and she now felt that she couldn't have anything further to do with me. The old game of Shoot the messenger and ignore the problem. — So, that was that. …Or so I thought.

About the same time I was going to weekly 'Sounds and Silence' sessions of a very small group of supposedly Dzogchen practitioners (Dzogchen being the 'highest' of the traditions within Tibetan Buddhism), and I learnt from the group leaders ('facilitators') that the names of PE and RE had just become mud in the eyes of them and many others whose activities revolved around the Evolution shop, because a meditation workshop the weekend after PE and RE's workshop, held in the same room (above the Evolution shop), had had to waste an initial half hour trying to clear out an 'entity' that appeared to be in that room.

I explained about what had passed during that workshop I'd been on, and there were rolling eyes and tut-tuts, with mutterings about PE and RE having been seriously negligent in not clearing the room of entities and problematical 'energies' before leaving after the workshop.

It thus looked as though MR's serious problem was more than just having a spirit attachment, and involved his somehow unawarely 'dropping' troublesome 'entities' here and there.

This appeared to be underlined when, about a month later, the enthusiastic but in his own ways decidedly problematical local 'healer' and 'lightworker' Mark Cox (henceforth abbreviated to MC), who gets some 'honourable' mention elsewhere on this site, visited me for some purpose and at once started using a pendulum to dowse and see if there was an 'entity' in my flat (the tacit assumption of us both being that any such entity then would most likely be something left over from MR's sessions with me). MC got a 'yes' to that, and then guided me through 'smudging' my flat — lightly fumigating it with smoke from burning sage*, supposedly to clear out the 'entity'. Once we'd done that he dowsed again, and got an 'all clear' indication, so assumed that the 'entity' had been cleared off.

Within an hour of his departure he phoned me from home, sounding really fraught, telling me that the 'entity' that had been in my flat had attached to him and his young daughter, and was making him feel extremely tired, with a thick head. He was complaining in a rather accusing tone, that he was quite experienced in removing 'entities' from himself and other people, but this one was a really bad one — a real b*gger, as he put it — that was firmly resistant to all his methods.

He eventually got some 'specialist' entity removal instructions from Simon, a guy who was one of the leaders of the previously mentioned 'Dzogchen' group, and MC reckoned that he did eventually get that to work, and he told me that he and his daughter were okay again.

Over the next few years, very occasionally I'd see MR in the busy High Street, and indeed on a few occasions I actually came right face-to-face with him in the local Sainsbury's supermarket. But every time he clammed up and pretended not to have noticed or at least recognised me — though the first time that happened, he very purposefully changed his direction of walking to get right away from me once he'd spotted me, and on that occasion there was about him a distinct sense of his being in a very angry and disturbed state.

I made no attempt to make any connection with him as he clearly didn't want it, and indeed on those various occasions I really didn't have anything further helpful to offer him (as I have now) to enable him to get out of his troublesome hole.

…And that's the last of that story, of which I'm aware. That is, except for what is revealed now through my using inner inquiry supported by Helpfulness Testing to do a post mortem on it. My understanding now (which still has to remain somewhat speculative, but at least effectively and usefully explains everything) is as follows…

MR had some very major interferences from the garbage. He was almost, but not quite, a no-soul person (which straightaway explains why he and I were naturally drawn to each other, and why I recognised him as being deeply aware and a strong healer*), and so the garbage had landed him with a fairly normal complement of parasitic lost souls — but they were particularly strongly traumatized, and, more importantly, were keeping him actively connected to a wide range of primary archetypes, which were being used to give him a whole lot of troublesome and often conflicting inner experiences and impressions.

* That was true, that he was basically a 'strong healer' in the sense generally meant (which, as I've indicated further above, is a pretty bogus and nonsensical concept anyway), but the intense and seemingly very beautiful sensations that I experienced from his hands when he was laying hands on me were a gross distortion of the very subtle and faint genuine sensations that might be caused by the supposed healing 'energy' flow (actually 'resonance' effect, not 'energy' flow).

The garbage had been tremendously magnifying and distorting my genuine sensations, actually mixing in elements of painful emotion energy, to give the sensations an intense, ecstatic, almost erotic and indeed potentially highly addictive quality — just as it also does for people generally with regard to their sexual feelings, making those feelings compulsive and addictive, unlike genuine natural erotic feelings, which almost nobody experiences because of their covert garbage interference (something that few people yet appear to know about).

Actually that experience of him in those sessions was causing me some feelings of craving for closeness with him and indeed getting involved in a 'close relationship' with him — though my own good sense wouldn't have allowed anything unhealthy to develop — at least at all far — and I'd no indication that he was seeking any such 'relationship' with me anyway, so I recognised the craving as just one of those things that one needed to acknowledge but set on one side and seek to address the emotional issue(s) underlying the craving.

Indeed, more recently it became clear that the garbage was running quite a campaign of seeking to get me craving for highly unsuitable young(ish) men who had various serious problems that would have caused me no end of trouble if I'd sought to get involved with any of them.

Although of course I didn't know of any of that back then in 2001, I did feel a certain nervousness about what was going on for MR, so, for my own well-being, in practical terms I had no real intention of getting involved with him and all the troublesome 'baggage' that he was evidently carrying.

Additionally, he had some soul fragments attached to him. It was these that were giving me the impression of a sort of dark stickiness in his 'energy system'. It's been only much more recently (since I took up Helpfulness Testing in 2007, which led me into my extremely useful method of inner inquiry) that I finally established that such an impression of a dark stickiness was (for me) apparently an indication of the presence of attached soul fragments, just as an impression of a faint whitish light around somebody or something is, for me, apparently a cautionary indication of something to do with ungrounding or weak groundedness.

However, that wasn't all. In MR's particular case certain aspects of his whole being were poorly grounded to such an extent that the garbage had been able to use his non-physical aspects ('energy system') to create entity-like elementals, which in certain cases could incorporate one of the soul fragments, tearing it away from him and making it mobile, being then moved around by the garbage's interaction (via people's energy systems) with the elemental.

My inner inquiry points to a combination of soul fragment and entity-like elemental (a 'combo entity') as generally being the most troublesome and havoc-wreaking type of 'entity' that can affect people.

I'm not sure whether MR actually had one of those 'combo-entities' attached to him, but the garbage was hijacking his energy system at times to cause him unawarely to create such 'entities' for the purpose of causing big problems for other people, indeed such as me myself.

He'd been controlled by the garbage into smoking tobacco (and I suspect using other problematical substances such as cannabis and alcohol) to weaken particular aspects of his non-physical aspects in ways that enabled 'loose' soul fragments to be drawn to him and attach to him parasitically, so even though he lost ones when those disgusting 'combo-entities' were formed, he soon gained new ones and was thus never free of attached soul fragments.

It thus speaks volumes for my own strength and groundedness (in relevant aspects of my 'system') that, apparently, none of those 'entities' ever attached to me — at least anything other than so transiently that it didn't get noticed. Unlike garbage interference and parasitic lost souls, these 'combo-entities' would always betray their presence on their 'victim' because of their significant energy draining effect, quite apart from any negative effects on the person's emotional state.

With regard to the workshop experience described further above, I have the following retrospective observations.

What we were doing in that group distant healing session was effectively a 'dark' practice. That visualized (and thus 'etherically' created) column of white light was actually nothing that could assist anyone's healing! It was simply an illusory pool of 'energy' from our own 'energy systems', projected into the astral non-reality, from where the garbage could use it (via our own 'energy systems') to create elementals.

It's thus quite possible that any- or indeed everyone who supposedly received distant healing from that session received instead an elemental that would have caused him/her additional trouble of some sort. I don't know whether any of those supposed healing recipients actually did receive elementals from that session, but the potentiality for that was definitely there.

Also, as I've been at pains to point out in various parts of this site, the whole concept of the 'higher self' is bogus — a concept that has come to us from the garbage in order to get people looking for their deepest aspects (what they really need to be opening up and using for healing and 'deep knowledge') outside themselves and thus to go accepting the garbage's interferences because it's then posing as their 'higher self' (or 'higher consciousness'). So, when each of us in that workshop was invoking his/her, or anyone else's, 'higher self', (s)he was actually invoking the garbage! — Great!

Now we come to the question of what it was that freaked RE so. Was it really an entity that had come from MR when I invoked his supposed 'higher self', as RE seemed to be assuming, and also indeed as I myself had been assuming until mid 2009? — Actually, if you think about what was really happening then, was it really likely that an entity from MR would just then have popped up at that workshop because I'd invoked his supposed 'higher self'? — Actually I can see no way that that could realistically have occurred.

For a start, as I've already intimated, any time that I (or anyone) invoked anyone's (including my own) 'higher self', what was really being invoked was the garbage. So, I'd invoked NOT any genuine aspect of MR at all, but the garbage, and invited it to take what it required from that supposed column of light — the 'etheric' pool of energy from the workshop participants, projected into the astral non-reality, where the garbage could work with it.

My current Helpfulness Testing supports the hypothesis that what scared RE's pants off so was an elemental that was created during that session by the garbage from that supposed 'column of light'. However, the garbage still couldn't do that directly; it would have had to hijack part of the non-physical aspects of one or more of us at that workshop in order for such an elemental to be created.

What I now understand about that is that the garbage to a certain extent used several of us together to create that particular elemental, but there was one person there who was significantly more ungrounded in the relevant aspect of his non-physical aspects than anyone else and thus who was the unwitting 'major player' in producing that elemental — and that was — me? — No! It was RE!

That tied up nicely with his being by far the most strongly 'psychic' of any of us at that workshop. Being strongly 'psychic' is actually extremely unhealthy and potentially dangerous — a matter of having strongly ungrounded perceptions / awareness that opens readily to the astral non-reality and thus to whatever the garbage seeks to present to one.

In RE's case it was more than just certain perceptions of his that were ungrounded and garbage-connecting, for this ungroundedness was also a problem in various aspects of his whole being, thus enabling the garbage to hijack parts of his system rather as a virus would hijack aspects of a living cell's chemical 'machinery' for its own purposes. So, RE had completely unawarely been the main creator, under garbage hijacking / control, of the elemental that had then scared him silly!

As to why he experienced such intense fear / terror when this occasionally happened (he had unwittingly created such elementals on the odd occasion before), the answer is simply that, no, he wasn't that sensitive in any direct sense, but the garbage did to him what it was just a couple of years later to do to me in grand style — it attacked him with the feelings of intense fear / terror, which he experienced in a much more directly emotional way than I did in my garbage 'troubles' from 2003 onwards, because he didn't have the advantage of being enlightened, nor indeed being anything particularly near enlightenment (having a fair amount of soul programming).

The garbage could thus show him any old harmless paper tiger and attack him with terror to give him the impression that the paper tiger was a real one or indeed much worse! And he'd not only feel the nasty feelings but would tend, at least to some extent, to react out of those attack emotions too, being completely unaware of their true nature and their not really being his genuine responses to the situation at all.

Because the garbage doesn't have an aware consciousness like people, it's not really helpful to talk of it having an intent, but it would appear that its programmed agenda in that workshop was very much concerned with seeking to associate me in the eyes of RE and PE (and indeed other healers) with scary entities and 'dark' stuff in order to get me discredited.

— But that can be only conjecture, because, as I say, the garbage is really only programming, and you can't, for example, meaningfully talk of a computer virus as having an intent; you can only look at what its programming actually makes it do.

Finally, one little point to make clear. My understanding nowadays is that there was NO way that RE could have helped MR, notwithstanding his apparent belief that he could. Indeed, because of his own garbage interference and his propensity to unawarely create troublesome elementals, most likely any attempt of his to assist MR would have added to the latter's problems, and indeed in such a situation he himself could quite conceivably have picked up a massive problem (i.e., one of those 'combo-entities') from MR.

All the help that MR needs is actually now on this site — and in the face of his using that methodology (i.e., using it well), his particular issues would be no more difficult to clear than anyone else's issues — apart from the simple matter of his interferences screwing up his motivation to use the methods properly and in an ongoing manner.

Two particular educational personal experiences in 'healing' work

A taboo on 'blowing the whistle' on bad / harmful practitioners

There was one little episode relating to my already mentioned Reiki teacher (up to the Reiki II level), Sheila Neve, who'd recently then taken on the Buddhist name Pema (her name therefore henceforth abbreviated to PN), that caused me some doubt even quite early on, about what was really going on in the 'healing fraternity'. She was, seemingly commendably, enabling apparent novices like me and various others 'off the street' to learn 'healing' through actual regular practice, in a little group that met every Thursday lunchtime, as already described further above.

We'd give healing to members of the public who came in, and do so to each other when there was nobody else to attend to. Even then I well understood that genuine healing was much more than just the 'energy work' hands-on stuff, and would give each 'client' who I was supposedly 'healing' a little bit of constructive life change counselling, including in particular cases a recommendation of the Alexander Technique. Always my concern was for the person's greatest well-being rather than in learning and applying a particular orthodoxy.

On one occasion, the owner of the premises, Kay (henceforth abbreviated to K), a rather uptight and agenda-driven woman who seemed to have an ongoing urge to find fault with me, as evidenced on a number of occasions, came up to our practice room while we were working, and loitered a bit, as though looking for something to criticise, and then had a quiet word with PN. Then, after my particular 'client' had gone, PN gave me quite a telling off, saying K had heard me criticising a fellow professional while giving a little counselling to my 'client', and this wasn't acceptable — and this was all delivered to me in a very negative tone as though I'd done something unforgivably bad.

What I'd actually done was simply to recommend the Alexander Technique to my 'client', and had mentioned the centre where I myself had had my AT lessons, and cautioned her that there was a brilliant teacher there and also a seriously bad one, who latter was actually my first AT teacher — and, with her best interests at heart, I named the two AT teachers, so she needn't make a mistake about that. PN told me in a telling-off tone that I should never criticise a 'fellow professional' and should always use discreet language instead, like You just need to be very careful in choosing your teacher.

I was a bit shocked at the attitude that was being shown by K and PN. Clearly those two, and very likely the 'healing fraternity' generally, had a taboo on naming bad / harmful practitioners. It looked very much as though their primary concern wasn't at all the real interests of their clients, but rather, their top concern was to preserve and cultivate the respective healers' status in a supposed elite of self-perceived 'professionals' — and of course presumably to ensure that they all made as much money as possible out of as many fully trusting (in other words, gullible) clients as possible.

Where was the love and genuine best intent for one's client? — Not with people like those, as far as I could see! My own view hasn't at all changed in their favour since. If a practitioner is a bad or harmful one, then it makes very good sense to warn people about them — and notice my blowing the whistle about certain individuals on this and the odd other pages on this site.

Yes, discretion is still necessary when saying / writing things about them publicly (i.e., because of litigation possibilities) — but NOT the stultifying sort of cover-up that PN and K seemed to think I should be colluding in! The place for a bad / harmful 'healer', AT teacher or indeed doctor or mental health worker is OUT (possibly for retraining in some cases) — and with no ifs and buts!

Issues and complications surrounding 'confidentiality'

During the period of my attendance at those weekly group sessions I also got having weekly home healing exchanges with one of the group members, who I shall call A. Our sessions, at her flat, were greatly enjoyable, and indeed were made quite entertaining by A's cat (called Gannet, would you believe!), which took a liking to me because I'd play with it, and it would frequently playfully attack one or other of my feet during those healing exchange sessions.

But A had a serious relationship problem, in that she seemed unable to let go of a very intrusive disturbed and continuously distressed man, who tended to get drunk and treat her abusively. At that time she was seeking to keep him at bay, but she did still sometimes fall down on her better judgment and let this problem man, who I shall call J, into her abode, because of the way he pulled on her emotional 'heart strings' by insisting that he couldn't live without her and would kill himself if she pushed him out of her life.

A actually brought him to our weekly group healing session on at least one occasion for healing, and as far as I can remember I myself gave him some hands-on healing then, though I really had no idea what to say to him in terms of life-change counselling (i.e., that he'd really 'hear' and understand), and I had doubts as to whether any healing given to him was good use of the healer's time. I also gave him a hands-on session in A's flat, and again got the same impression. Also I was nervous of him because of his track record of violence — not just some degree of violence against A, I think, but getting into actual fights with people out in everyday life.

He felt that there was something terribly wrong about him, and he was abandoned by all people and any external agencies such as 'God' or any other non-physical presences — and was in torment about this, feeling totally isolated and cut off, and so was tending often to lash out at people rather than take any degree of command or responsibility over his life — though I do still salute him for at least trying to do something about it in coming for 'healing' at all (I assume, with a little nudging from A).

Indeed, presumably having picked up some details from A and possibly me, he contacted the already mentioned psychic surgeon CT, hoping on hope that he could at least gain some understanding of his problem, and actually had a session with him. Very shortly after that I had the final session of my own with CT, and, while he was working on me (again unawarely doing me harm rather than good) and explaining the various things he was doing, he broached the subject of his session with J, because J had told him about his connection with A and me.

He explained to me in pitying terms that J was actually a really sorry case, for whom very little could be done, because he was, purportedly, one of just seven individuals on this planet who were actually not proper humans at all, but were experimental constructions by beings in a particular star system that CT actually named as NGC 584, whose main preoccupation and life activity was experimenting with DNA and genetic engineering as part of the purported 'Higher Plan' by purported higher beings to organise and manage life (including humans) on Earth and planets in other star systems. According to CT, J had no higher consciousness and only rudimentarily developed chakras, and had a very short life expectancy.*

CT told me that he'd been careful not to give J that information, for it would only cause him more torment, with unpredictable but presumably generally troublesome results, so had just said a few peripheral things and half-truths relating to the situation, just to throw J off the scent and keep him quiet.

He told me that what he did do for J, which was the most he could do, was to give him a bit of connection to what he described as the 'group Human Consciousness' — which nowadays I'd interpret as a pretty murky aspect of the astral non-reality. Lucky J — I don't think! — To put it directly, if CT had genuinely achieved such a result it would have greatly compounded poor old J's problems, in making him still more open and vulnerable to the garbage's interferences.

So, what the hell was I to do about this? Here was even more reason for A to keep clear of J for her own well-being! As I felt a personal responsibility towards A as she was my regular healing exchange partner, and we were thus good friends, on our next healing exchange session I chose to tell her what CT had told me — or at least most of it — on the understanding that this was confidential information, shared just between us 'healers', to enable her to make better choices with regard to J.

Then a few days later I received a rather aggressively toned email from CT, saying that he'd had a worrying phone call from J, who was furious because, according to the latter, CT and I had breached confidentiality by passing on details of his situation, and, indeed, I'd shared the information at our weekly healing group and thus the whole group knew all the details of his situation (which actually was news to me, for I hadn't done that at all and the group actually didn't know anything about his situation nor indeed his session with CT), and rather pugnaciously asking me for an explanation. — Ouch!

In the event I did manage to placate CT at least to a reasonable level, with an apology and also an assurance that I hadn't gone 'blabbing around' as had been claimed, but had simply exercised my own humane flexibility over the normal confidentiality that we apply to our healing work, in order to assist A's own well-being.

Actually it appeared that his concern wasn't so much about my having overridden any taboo about not rigidly maintaining 100% confidentiality, but more about the chances of his reputation getting a big dent in the healing community at large, where that taboo thrives and could theoretically cause him a lot of trouble if it got known that he'd shared any information about a client with anyone at all for any purpose — even with a fellow 'healer' with particular 'compassionate' cause to be given that information.

Then naturally I phoned A to find out what had gone on, and it turned out that, fool that she was being, she'd let J into her flat again, and he'd found her crying a bit and had pressured her to breaking point, to tell him what she was crying about — I think he was quite suspicious and even paranoid at that time about the little bits that CT had told him, which had given him the impression that there was a problem about him that was still being concealed.

So, A then, under considerable duress, had 'cracked up' and told him some bits of what I'd told her, though doing her best still to conceal the body of the scenario. I learnt from CT that in J's furious phone call to him, he'd sought to placate J by giving him an additional session free of charge then, and CT had told him just a few minor details in an attempt to quieten him and throw him off the scent, while still keeping from him the supposed core of the situation.

Then, either that or the next week, right in the middle of one of our Thursday lunchtime healing group sessions, J turned up on his own and started furiously ranting at me, shouting out to the group that I'd wrecked his life and was the lowest of the low and not fit to be a 'healer' for anyone, and so on. Fortunately we all intuitively knew to let him run his course, just giving a listening ear.

Then after about 15–20 minutes he left, and that was that. I guess my reputation was a bit dented among the group at that point — though actually that's the sort of thing that could happen for any 'healer', no matter how reputable, who has dealings with a client who is unable to take responsibility for his own life and thus blames others for his troubles when they appear to be unable to resolve them for him.

Finally, some months later, when all that little kerfuffle was fading into the past, one day I was coming out from Exeter University campus, having just used the launderette there, and to my consternation I was faced by J himself, looking and sounding aggressively confrontational.

Fortunately there were people passing by all the time there, so he'd have some degree of disincentive actually to physically attack me, but he did immediately start ranting at me again, and in a way that was extremely menacing and gave the impression that he was trying to provoke me and get me into a physical fight. He was calling me a variety of 'low' things and repeatedly shouting at me that I'd wrecked his life and was wrecking other people's lives through my healing work, and so on, and telling me that he wanted me to die in torment and go to hell.

I just gave him a listening ear, with my best attempt at a sympathetic slight smile, without engaging with the substance of his tirade, and periodically would start to edge away, to give the message that I now had other things to get on with, but each time he'd head me off and renew or even crank up further his fury and 'venom' — which did feel quite intimidating! Finally, after an interminable-feeling 20 minutes or so, he ceased heading me off as I sought to walk away, but then he was calling out after me things about hoping I'd die in torment and go to hell and all that. And that really was the last I heard from or about him.

I continued to have regular 'healing' exchange sessions with A for a good four months after my passing on to her of CT's 'revelation' about J, though for obvious reasons we had to take particular care to ensure that this happened while J wasn't around, but then eventually A had rather 'caved in' to J again, so having him in her flat at times, and said she felt she couldn't continue with our weekly sessions — in a tone that suggested that she felt under pressure to have nothing further to do with me.

I was naturally sorry about that, but at least I could draw a line under the whole situation. In any case I'd had a certain nagging intuition that our regular 'healing' exchange sessions had got a bit too cosy and comfortable in their regularity and were unlikely to have been doing all that much that was genuinely helpful for either of us anyway, so, any 'sour grapes' aside, I also felt a certain liberation at that particular cessation in my life.

My current inner inquiry on what had really been going on back then points to J's problem being something MUCH more straightforward and indeed potentially resolvable than CT's garbage-sourced hellish scenario for him. Indeed, my indications now are that there was NOTHING fundamentally wrong with him at all. He was simply a no-soul person (as I am), and thus particularly vulnerable to troublesome garbage interferences, and indeed was actually of high self-actualization potential, and indeed with the potential for above average health and life expectancy.

What the garbage had done to him (thus effectively negating that potential) was to cultivate within his mindspace an illusory reality in which there was indeed something terribly wrong about him.

It had actually been drawing upon certain primary archetypes for the purpose, and most likely had incorporated some story about his not being a genuine human at all (derived from a primary archetype something like the one I refer to as 'the ultimate outcast'), and his being the result of an experiment by some sort of supposedly higher or non-physical beings or 'aliens' (derived from a primary archetype that, for convenience, I could call 'the Frankenstein archetype'), together with feelings and bits of story derived from other primary archetypes — especially the proto-archetype and the 'birth trauma' one, to virulently back up that notion.

So of course the poor guy was inevitably in torment, and of course the garbage gave CT the particular story involving the presumably fictitious NGC 584 geneticists to compound the predicament of J and of anyone else who was getting any similar sort of story from the garbage. What a pity neither I nor anyone else, at least who was available to him, had the sort of understanding then that I have now!

If such an understanding had been available then, there would have been at least a possibility of getting him sufficiently aware of his genuine true nature, and indeed motivated to use the sort of methods that I present on this site, for him to clear all those illusory realities and attacks and other garbage interferences himself. Nobody could have done that work for him, but at least theoretically he could have done it himself.

As for the confidentiality issue, had either CT or I done anything wrong, i.e., in the sense of being unethical?

That would depend on one's viewpoint, of course, for nothing is intrinsically right, wrong, ethical or unethical; those words are just judgmental labels that people unhelpfully put upon people's actions rather than think intelligently about actual outcomes from such actions. Obviously, if you're a person of low awareness — a 'sheep' who lives his life on the basis of complying with rules and taboos and received 'wisdoms', as indeed are the majority even of 'healers' —, then you'd be appalled at the way CT and I handled the situation, and regard us as flawed individuals, tainted by what we'd done.

On the other hand, if you have a high level of awareness you'd understand that flexibility and the providing of uniquely appropriate responses to each individual situation is an essential component in all of life. With genuine awareness you don't rigidly comply with rules and especially taboos, but instead always consider what choice or action would be most likely to be the most beneficial for all people involved — and we need to remember that people's wants and their needs are not at all the same thing.

In real terms, CT had acted with great integrity, demonstrating genuine concern for the best interests of J in passing the particular 'information' to me, as a fellow 'healer' who was having some dealings with J. Sure, it was extremely harmful misinformation, but neither he nor I knew that at that time. I'm sure his conscious intentions were of the best, and, it would actually have been unethical for him not to have passed that apparently vital 'information' to other responsible-seeming 'healers' who were seeking to assist J.

— And similarly, I myself acted only out of my intention for the greatest genuine benefit for all concerned — which I certainly wouldn't have been doing if I'd obediently abided by the taboo and not said anything to anyone about what I'd been told by CT. It's the person who sticks to the rulebook and is firmly attached to all relevant taboos who lacks genuine integrity — every bit as much as others who are more visibly problematical through simply being anarchic and gossip-prone in their approach to 'healing' work.

Yes, in this particular case there were some unforeseen consequences, but, even with J's resultant ructions, that in itself doesn't mean that anything genuinely untoward or harmful in the long run had come out of that. All too often we interpret discomfort and maybe somebody getting very upset as being bad, and so we withdraw into our perceived 'comfort zone' and fail to make genuinely positive and necessary choices and actions in case somebody gets upset or takes a dim view of us.

Thus, by our timidity and inaction we quietly cause or at least cultivate harm all around us, and pressure other people to live in a similar way, being continually harmful through our timidity and inaction where action is really needed for positive change. Quite often the real need is for actions that are liable to put a pussycat among the pigeons and ruffle perhaps a lot of feathers in the process!

In a similar situation in the future, would I take the same action again?

In principle, without prejudice to my shaping my responses to the uniqueness of each respective situation, my answer is a clear 'yes' — but with the rider, that of course I've learnt much in the meantime and would presumably handle things more carefully and elegantly to minimize the possibility of problematical unforeseen outcomes. But such unforeseen outcomes would still be at times an inevitable part of taking the most beneficial actions — even conceivably with personal danger involved. The point is, all life carries risks. Constraining your life in an attempt to avoid risk altogether is effectively an attempt not to really live, and is thus plain stupid.

As regards J's rantings at me, as I've already intimated, this is the sort of thing that ANY 'healer' who is really seeking to do the best for their client is liable to be faced with, hopefully as no more than a rarity, if they take on the odd very disturbed and troubled individual who has little or no sense of their own self-responsibility.

So, when such a person finds that things don't work out the way he wants, or there are some uncomfortable or troublesome unforeseen consequences, he may well lash out at the 'healer', verbally and even possibly physically, rather than recognise that a particular real (human) villain in the piece is the client himself, who is refusing to get in touch with his own responsibility for his life and is seeking to pass that responsibility over to other people, and then goes blaming them when things (of course!) don't work out as he'd been hoping for.

How did you discover you were a healer?

I answered that in this site's FAQs.

In summary…

On the basis of a whole mass of personal experience, my emphasis on 'healing' progressively changed over the years from ungrounded enthusiastic user (self-'healing') and unofficial 'teacher' to a whistle-blower about all the problems that 'healing' as almost universally understood brings with it. I came to recognise that there 'healing' carried out only 'from the core' (one's own deepest aspects) and not invoking any sort of external 'energy' or agency would be free from those problems and thus benign and theoretically beneficial.

However, more recently I took steps further back as my own methodology developed, and came to the conclusion that, regardless of any apparent benignity, what people are generally calling 'healing' — even including the safe, 'from-the-core', way to go about it — is a significant waste of time, and harmful because it's a side-track from much more efficient and comprehensively effective methodologies, such as what I present on this site. Generally speaking, what's really needed isn't what people call 'healing' but an ongoing comprehensive genuine self-actualization process.

I now point once again to what's probably the best place for you to embark on what's bound to be a joyful and life-enhancing exploration: Healing and self-actualization — The safest and quickest way. And then, the best way you can be a 'healer' for others is through getting them motivated and pointed towards becoming their own best healers. Now, that's real healing power, that makes so-called 'miraculous healings' look much less impressive or significant — indeed, tacky if not indeed sinister!

Finally another observation of mine that you might wish to bear in mind and see if you too get the same impression. I've encountered, and indeed had dealings with, a very large number of people who regard themselves as healers. They ALL, apparently without exception, in their different ways, did NOT have really brilliant physical health, and generally each had their own particular more or less troublesome health issues, which one would have expected them not to have, or at least to be visibly on the decline, if their 'healing' activities were really as beneficial as they were believing. You can try working out for yourself just why this observed situation might be…