How I Discovered a True Self Actualization Strategy

Introduction

The starting point of what follows is my experience with the methods of Stephen and Lynda Kane, who sell a range of products and services that are particularly promoted for energy awareness cultivation and the elimination of environmental stresses from people's lives. Stephen and Lynda present no banners about self actualization or self realization (and indeed are into the 'spirituality' phenomenon, which diverts people away from genuine self actualization), and also you'd have to read all their 'blurb' very carefully to get even an inkling that their methods and products might have been at least the basis of the most effective and comprehensive solution so far available to all those issues with troublesome 'entities' (actually usually dark force interferences) that so many people have. Indeed, partly because of that remarkable underselling (as I see it now) of their products and methodology, and my attachment to actually less effective methods, initially I had no real interest in them and what they were doing.

The Energy Egg - it just had to be a con!

At the Quest fair (South West England's largest 'mind, body and spirit' fair - an annual event) at Newton Abbot, Devon, in July 2006 I was enjoying myself slowly browsing around the multitude of stands manned by healers, therapists, clairvoyants and traders in all manner of goods in any way related to life improvement or spiritual or mystical paths / practices / activities. Having already been wandering round a few times, I came up to a stand at which a healer friend of mine was selling a few things, and he enthusiastically announced to me, "There you are, Phil, that's what you want for your entity problem - one of those Energy Eggs!". He was pointing to the stand almost opposite his, at which a couple were selling little polished white egg-shaped stones and also some much larger polished white egg-shaped stones, and making what seemed to me to be bizarrely optimistic claims for them concerning elimination of a huge range of types of environmental stress.

I didn't really think this was anything more than a con, and that was why I'd ignored them previously when passing by them, but my friend insisted that I try one of the Energy Eggs - pointing out that the stand holders were doing muscle ('strong arm') tests on inquirers there to demonstrate the effectiveness of the devices. I still thought it all had to be a con, but on the other hand I did have a major problem with 'astral beings' (actually interferences from the dark force) which was being only very slow to improve, let alone to clear. So, with a strong but constructive scepticism, I allowed Stephen Kane to demonstrate the effect upon me there of one of their Energy Eggs, using the 'strong arm' test (the form of energy testing best suited for two people working together rather than just testing on your own).

The results of that energy testing appeared to be convincing, but I was still suspicious that somehow there was something untoward going on - maybe some covert manipulation or 'rigging' of the testing, for example, in order to sell basically useless devices. But on the other hand, I had a major 'entity' problem, and anything that stood a reasonable chance of helping to strengthen me against the 'entities' (i.e. the dark force) was not to be sniffed at. So, as the price of an Energy Egg and transmitter base, although significant, wasn't crippling for me even on my very modest means, I purchased one on the spot - but not expecting any really tangible effects from it even if it were benefiting me. At home I set it up on its transmitter base after attuning both of them to myself, and then left it to get on with whatever good it might be doing for me.

Over the following week I increasingly felt a warm outgoing radiance emanating from what seemed in a way to be my heart centre but seemed to be less clearly located than that (more like my whole chest area), and it was associated with an impression in what I took to be my 'inner vision' of a vague broad fuzzy vertical column of a very energetic shimmery white light, which seemed to be just in front of me but also to be part of me - as though it was something that was really within me, which was being shown to me as a virtual image just in front of me.

At that time I was still channelling (channelling actually having caused me massive problems because of the dark force involvement in ALL channelling), and what I took to be my 'higher consciousness' indicated that what was appearing to me then was actually not a column at all but my core star, which was opening out now that all manner of accumulated environmental stress effects in my system were progressively being cleared by the Energy Egg.

In fact I understand now that at that point I was getting communication NOT from my 'higher consciousness' at all (an invention of the dark force) but from my deeper aspects (very good in itself) but relayed to me by the dark force, which could adulterate it according to its extremely pernicious agenda, so rendering all such channelled information highly problematical and considerably worse than simply unreliable. Anyway, using inner inquiry supported by energy testing (of which more below) I have much more recently (speculatively) established that the big change I was experiencing initially after getting the Energy Egg was genuine*, and the primary stress material that was being cleared at that time was a major cumulative environmental stress from the large number of crystals that I'd accumulated since late 1998 and had placed on window ledges and shelves in my living room and bedroom.

* The visual impression I'd had at that time, however, had been misdescribed to me by the dark force interference posing as my 'higher consciousness', for it wasn't actually intended (by my deeper aspects) as a representation of my core star at all but simply as an indication to me of an active process of uncovering and unblocking of various of my life force energies. In short, my system was seeking to tell me that the Energy Egg really was working for me and indeed doing a tremendous job of it. Without some reassurance like that, there would have been a distinct possibility that the dark force would at some point have sought to convince me to get rid of the Egg as 'worthless' and a con (as indeed I'd first assumed that it was).

However, at that stage I didn't get my head much round the ways that the Energy Egg could be tuned to different stresses, and so I tuned it only to the odd few things (very fortunately including the crystals - not realizing then just how much harm they were actually doing me)* and basically just let it do what it would on the basis of its default programming. That actually meant I was missing out on a major part of its functionality, but nonetheless by then I had a sort of intuition that I was onto something important with the Energy Egg and ordered a Guardian Angel to give me more power for strengthening me against entities. However, those were out of stock just then (Would that it had been the 'entities' rather than Guardian Angels that had been out of stock!), so I had to bide my time, while meanwhile the dark force staged upon me a series of very severe attacks - one of my most major crisis events - and even got me briefly hospitalized.

* But most unfortunately I omitted to tune the Energy Egg to by far the worst environmental stress damage that I was needing to be cleared - that caused by the sacred geometry 'healing' wands that I had then. At that time, not having taken up energy testing, I was very cursory about tuning the Egg to possible stress sources in my flat, and simply tuned it to a few things that were around 'in the open', and Stephen and Lynda had indicated that crystals could cause environmental stress problems - and my sacred geometry wands were then generally put away when I wasn't actively using them, so I just didn't connect with the possibility that they might be the very serious environmental stress sources for me that I subsequently found out that they'd been.

The Guardian Angel's quiet arrival

It wasn't till the end of September 2006 that the Guardian Angel actually arrived. That delay, however, was auspicious, because it meant I had one of the first of the new generation of Guardian Angel which was ovoid in shape and, it was claimed, distinctly more powerful than the original egg-shaped ones. I was rather excited to discover from the Guardian Angel's instructions that it could be energetically connected with the Energy Egg so that the two devices could work together in a synergistic way and the user could then receive extra protection and clearance work from the Guardian Angel through the Energy Egg (thus described as an Angel Egg).

However, despite my ongoing problems with the dark force I somehow didn't really take much notice of the instructions as to how to tune or program the Angel Egg / Guardian Angel for specific purposes. No doubt at all, the dark force was actually steering me away from following that up. Thus again, although I was getting increased protection and clearance, I was getting really short measure as compared with the claimed potential of these devices. Nonetheless, I had an intuitive confidence that they were serving an important function for me, and was happy to have them doing what they would do for me, meanwhile experiencing more problems from the 'entities' (i.e. the dark force) but always with the overall impression of things getting very gradually better and my having gradually more awareness in the here-and-now and in my own peaceful and happy true nature, which made the attacks gradually easier to 'ride'.

During the winter of 2006/7 I had an interesting diversion in that a supposedly very accomplished so-called 'lightworker' gave me a series of sessions (thankfully free of charge) that supposedly were removing entities from me but were actually doing little or nothing of the kind and were in fact placing in my system some further problems - particularly energy connections that would then hinder further attempts of mine to clear the 'entity' (i.e. dark force) interferences. I didn't know about this till late December 2007, though it had soon become evident that I still had the 'entities' interfering with and periodically attacking me.

However, one thing I did gain from that therapist was an increased focus and momentum towards proper clearance of the 'entities', and, despite a quite strong feeling of resistance (no doubt given me by the dark force), I got increasingly interested in following up Stephen and Lynda Kane's methods. I purchased their e-book Hidden Secrets of Real Health, and, although having some reservations about the high proportion of that e-book that was taken up with advertising Stephen and Lynda's products and services (not that I mean that they shouldn't have been advertised there at all), quickly realized that I'd really got to get on one of their Energy Awareness Training workshops - even though at a superficial level I was feeling very doubtful whether there was anything worthwhile in it all for me (undoubtedly the dark force still trying to steer me away, using as the basis for its interference the more subtle thoughts from my own deepest aspects, which would have been indicating some reservations on account of the Kanes' spirituality rather than pure self actualization angle, and indeed another problem that eventually came to light).

One real sign of the power of Energy Egg and Guardian Angel was that in the autumn of 2006 I was intuited to get up earlier each morning, bringing forward my regular getting-up time from 6.50 to 5.50 and then, after a month or so, to 5.20. This enabled me to do quite a bit of computer (mostly website) work before going out on my regular shopping. However, this wasn't such a big dent in my time in bed that it might appear to be, because I also started being kinder to myself in the evening, going to bed a bit earlier.

Energy Awareness Training - and a whole lot more!

I finally got on one of their Energy Awareness Training workshops in mid May 2007. You can read more about it in the relevant section of My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 2. It was a two-day affair, and much more information-packed and 'busy' than the various healing workshops I'd been to previously. Nothing at all there was wasted time, and it quickly became clear to me that I really was picking up there a set of life tools a whole league beyond anything I'd used before, which would empower me to have full command of my self actualization process, tremendously improve my life in all manner of ways and also to greatly strengthen myself against the 'entities'.

I now understood much more clearly and deeply how proper grounded energy awareness was really a fundamental key to both the self actualization process and self actualized living as a fully authentic person - for it enabled one to always make the best choices in one's everyday life and not to unawarely make choices that were fundamentally weakening for oneself. By 'best', here I mean those choices that are the most supportive and strengthening to one's whole being and thus for one's deepest and ultimate good, rather than necessarily what one superficially wants.

Because the underlying nature of each one of us is fundamental consciousness ('the Ultimate' as far as anyone can tell), what choices are shown by the most rigorous mode of energy testing (what I nowadays refer to as deep level awareness testing) to be strengthening for oneself are pretty well also what you could describe as being for the deepest and ultimate good of all concerned (though bearing in mind that in some situations that would have to be only a generalization, because it wouldn't be possible for every single affected person's individual ultimate good to be served by every 'strengthening' choice that one makes; it is really only an overall cause-effect relationship).

Along with the energy testing method as a precursor to developing full, direct, properly grounded energy awareness, I learnt a range of powerful practices for cultivating one's life force energies and reversing their normal decline with age. In particular these were, part of the Returning Life Sequence*, and Falling Lightning and Self-Power Walking*.

* Soon after, I bought the Returning Life Sequence DVD so that I could learn the other parts of the practice and so gain maximum benefit from it. More about the Returning Life Sequence in Some Potent Self Actualization / Healing Practices.

** Stephen and Lynda actually called the practice 'Power Walking', which term I had been using on this site till late April 2010, when I switched to calling it 'Self-Power Walking'. I made this change because a Web search revealed that there is a well established widely used quite different meaning for 'power walking', and it isn't at all what Stephen and Lynda or I had been using that term for - being simply the use of some special physical technique to enable oneself to walk at a particularly fast speed. For this reason it simply isn't practical to use the term 'Power Walking' - otherwise an excellent term for the purpose - for the yogic / semi-yogic walking practice that I'm referring to on this page and elsewhere on this site.

I also had a personal 'Energy Solutions' consultation with Stephen and Lynda immediately following the workshop, and this gave me some further practices and pointers for changing details in my life to help resolve various physical problems as well as the 'entities' issue. It was very striking how Stephen and Lynda were empowering for me in all their services and products*. Instead of giving 'healings', which, as I was now beginning to see, always contained a disempowering element about them, they were showing me and others how to heal ourselves, and to live consistently healthily, in the most efficient ways. Although I still at that time felt a hankering after the comforting warmth of 'healing sessions', those had actually been encouraging me to stay in something of a rut and to keep depending to some extent on others (with all the problems of the involvement of the dark force), while 'the Kane approach' gave you the tools and the direction-pointers in the expectation that you would use them to find your own way in your life as you turned the latter around.

* At the time, in my immediate enthusiasm, I was conveniently turning a bit of a blind eye to their spirituality angle, and simply relating to their methods within my own non-spirituality framework of pure self actualization. They actually appeared to be expecting me, like other people who enthused about their methods, to return to them for follow-up sessions and get on other workshops of theirs, but really my ongoing use of energy testing pointed me to what I needed to be doing in my life, and it didn't support my returning for more (which would have been disempowering), apart from possibly in due course buying from them an Archangel and further 'specialist' Energy Egg varieties.

My life has been quite different ever since that Energy Awareness Training workshop, for no longer did I have to make any 'weakening' choice ever again. Because I was at once using internal means of energy testing* - not, say, a pendulum - I could immediately test 'on the fly' any idea that came to me to see if it would be strengthening or weakening for me to take that idea up. I was able to use such testing to choose every item of food when shopping and again when choosing and preparing my meals. This immediately resulted in my meals becoming much more varied and interesting (and dependably healthy and harmonious for me) without costing me significantly more. Also I was able to establish what food supplements would be genuinely helpful for me. Generally, for example, we are told that a particular food supplement is good for certain issues, but there is no general understanding that each person is unique and has his own unique combination of sensitivities, 'resonances' and special requirements, so that no general rule serves any particular individual very well.

* Indeed I had to use internal means and keep clear of using a pendulum or any other method involving physical movements of an arm, because I found that the dark force completely hijacked the arm movements. Even internal means were getting dark force interference too, however.

I started off by using the 'smile' test, which uses the sensation of the corners of the mouth pointing up (for 'strengthening') or down (for 'weakening'), and after a week the dark force was superimposing its own fake-ups of the 'smile' responses, and I very nearly stopped testing altogether then. However, I found that I could with care (including using my detailed knowledge of the dark force agenda in order to recognise bogus answers) distinguish between bogus and genuine responses, and when the genuine response was more or less completely masked I could usually clear the way for the genuine response by yawning very widely (and usually stretching too) and immediately retesting with the corners of my mouth physically forced 'up'. What this does is to ground my focus on physical sensations of the corners of my lips (rather than any internal, non-physical facsimile of it), which tends to close out my perception of the dark force's superimposition of its fake responses.

After a few weeks I added the 'eye focus' test (eyes relaxed, feeling to be infinity focused, = 'strengthening'; eyes tensed as though for very close focus, with an 'anxious' feel about them, = 'weakening'), so that I was using both methods simultaneously for every test. This made the responses more clear and robust and made it more difficult (though by no means impossible) for the dark force to hide the genuine answer.

Much more recently I arrived at a testing method of my own, which I call Rabbit Ears, which seems to be pretty well clear of dark force interference, particularly when used really rigorously. Unfortunately (in a way!), however, in the meantime I got carried away with testing hypotheses rather than objects and people and actual situations, not realizing that that was really only 'mental testing' and not connecting all that much with my really deeper aspects, and so I did start accumulating some 'story' that became problematical on this website, and, most notably, the strange and educational affair of the so-called Clarity-Sphere project, which has now through serendipity transformed into something genuinely extremely useful, about which I write in Stone Spheres as Healing and Self Actualization Aids.

A neat example of the elegance of using energy testing to establish what foods were suitable / unsuitable for me was the matter of what people told me I should or shouldn't eat in order to help me with the arthritis (primarily the arthritis in my right knee, which had been precipitated by a very severe dark force / psychic attack event in September 2006). One particular 'healer' was emphatic that I should exclude all tomatoes and citrus fruit, "because it makes the body too acid". That was nonsensical to me anyway, because the acidity of something you eat actually has no bearing at all upon the acidity of your body fluids. Theoretically a lot of very acid food could upset your digestion, but even then, pretty well always your stomach would simply reduce its own acid production in order to maintain its optimal degree of acidity. Anyway, my energy testing indicated clearly that tomatoes and citrus were no problem to me at all with regard to either body acidity or arthritis.

Another example of energy awareness / energy testing paying off handsomely for helping me clear the arthritis was Stephen's recommendation that I take quite a lot of extra-virgin olive oil every day. So many people had told me I should be taking lots of cod liver oil, but I'd always felt a strong resistance against that. My own energy testing also concurred with Stephen's recommendation. I have since come to understand that the importance of using the olive oil rather than cod liver oil was not so much because the former was more helpful than the latter in terms of its fatty acid constituents, but simply because cod liver oil contains a fair amount of vitamins A and D, and if I were going to be dosing myself with the oil at an optimal level to help with the arthritis I would run the definite risk of overdosing with the vitamins at times. Best to keep any vitamin supplementation completely separate so that I could control it on the basis of my energy testing, maintaining optimal levels without risk of overdosing, and completely independently of my intake of essential fatty acids.

The energy testing enabled me to immediately get adding to Stephen's small number of recommendations for Feng Shui enhancements in my living space. I found I had to get a better camera to take photos of sufficient quality to use for prints at particular positions on my flat's walls, and that led on to my setting up my Clear Mind Photos project. Again, for the latter the results of my detailed energy testing were my 'guidance', so that I was doing only what would be genuinely taking me forward in the ways I most needed to go.

As for the practices, the Returning Life Sequence, Falling Lightning and Rocking Earth / Sky Mountain (the latter two having been given to me in the personal consultation) were done every early morning after I'd finished breakfast and ablutions and had made my bed. At once, every day I felt a new level of secure happiness about me, which did not disappear when the entities put attacks upon me. This was not at all like a daily 'recharge' but was very much a daily increment, as though each day I had taken another step up a long flight of steps.

The practices were so vigorous at the speed I was using for them (which has increased over the months for the Returning Life Weave to about or slightly more than two weaving breaths per second), that I had to be stripped down to a pair of shorts (real, i.e. short, shorts) and  have open windows and if the conditions were at all warm (say 20 degrees or more) I had to be naked or have a fan blowing on me.

After a week or so, my 'entities' (i.e. the dark force) staged another severe attack on me, in which 'they' were plying me strongly with extremely nightmarish messages that the practices had fully opened me to the 'entities' and they were now taking me over completely - with super-nightmarish feelings to match. But my peaceful happiness stood out in spite of all that and I continued the practices, for after everything that I'd been through with the dark force I well knew its agenda and the way it would always seek to deceive in order to steer people away from whatever could free them from its interferences. Sure enough, the attack passed - indeed more quickly than the previous really major ones.

Thus my life continued at an unprecedented rate to become more and more securely happy and positive, and although I still had the dark force's interference and attacks, my awareness was getting increasingly centred in the physical here-and-now, thus progressively marginalizing the interferences - putting them increasingly on the periphery of my experience. Also, the gradual healing of the arthritis in my right knee (which seemed to have been precipitated by the very severe dark force attacks the previous summer and autumn) accelerated, so I was able to go on longer and longer hikes again - all the time with my energy testing gloriously leading me on. Initially I found it difficult to believe it was other than deceit from the 'interfering entities' (i.e. the dark force) that was indicating that within a matter of months I'd walk the 21 miles on the strenuous coast path from Exmouth to Beer again - yet that was precisely what happened. Indeed, I first achieved that on 11th August, just two days before my 65th birthday - and I repeated it not long after with much less discomfort to that knee. The knee appears to be virtually healed now. Thank you Returning Life, especially!

My energy testing is 'broken'! Long live energy testing!

As already noted, I very soon got major dark force interference in my energy testing, and it still continues now. This might appear to be a considerable impediment, but actually in a backward sort of way it had a very positive effect for me.

The point is this. The standard way of doing energy testing in order to ensure that you don't get interference from the dark force or any other sources involves a very rigorous and restricted sort of interrogation. You don't actually ask any questions at all (which would always invite the dark force to answer), and, generally speaking, you keep clear of using words at all in your test queries (because words are an ineffective way to connect with your deepest aspects for a reliable response). Instead you look at something or visualize it, and get a test response to it. That's great as far as it goes, and I had nothing against working in that more restricted way instead of my previous channelling in which I could ask any manner of questions but would get highly problematical answers.

However, it was precisely because I'd previously been channelling and had already opened up my inner communication pathways massively to the dark force, that I was unable to prevent its soon coming in to interfere in my energy testing even when I was keeping rigorously to the mode of interrogation that was supposed to avoid such interference altogether.

I did consider there and then the option of simply not doing energy testing for a while to allow the practices to strengthen my system further before I tried again. However, that would have denied me the facility of ensuring that I was making only 'strengthening' choices in my everyday life, so I cautiously chose instead to try continuing with testing and just being very discriminating with the test results - much easier for me than for most people because I was already so aware of the agenda of the dark force, in considerable detail, and so could generally spot dark force sourced answers to my testing.

Because my testing was 'broken' anyway, I became bolder and more creative in my use of it - not actually channelling but rather, what I could call at that time 'discriminating use of energy testing in unsafe mode'.* That has enabled me to quite rapidly get a lot more information from my deeper aspects, with much clearer insight into aspects of my situation and self actualization process. This requires constant vigilance for dark force interference in testing responses that I've received, but I'm greatly encouraged by the way that the answers that I'm getting and not discarding have consistently taken me forward and made for rapid positive changes in my life, whereas previously following my channelled 'guidance' for any sort of everyday life choices had persistently led me into problems and increased the dark force interference. Now the answers I'm accepting are all consistently assisting me in decreasing the attacks and other dark force interferences.

* As already noted, in late 2009 I came to understand (thanks to an unintended prompt from Lynda Kane) that this was really not the most reliable mode of energy testing, best described as 'mental testing'. Nonetheless, it had actually been assisting me very greatly, but because I didn't realize that it was interrogating only a somewhat deeper level of my 'mind' rather than really deep levels of awareness, my 'energy testing' of hypotheses had led to my accumulating some 'story' and even a major project that were somewhat 'off the rails', but which I was able to rectify once I was aware of the limitations of 'mental testing' and got using energy testing fully rigorously.

In my Energy Testing Guide I now explain the distinction between these two modes of energy testing, which I call respectively mental testing and deep level awareness testing. I explain there how mental testing is actually not inferior but simply different, and can be extremely useful if one understands what one is doing and doesn't get one's mental testing confused with deep level awareness testing and think one is doing the latter when one is really doing the former.

Clarifying about pure self actualization / self realization without spirituality...

As I became increasingly clear of dark force influence, my whole perception of how the dark force interferes with everyone sharpened, and I came to see that the very concept of 'spirituality' was a snare sourced from the dark force to divert us away from true self actualization, and consequently I changed the focus of this site away from spirituality and directly towards self actualization and clear-mindedness - hence, too, the current title of this site*

* 'Self actualization' and 'self realization' actually mean exactly the same thing, but the former is commending itself to me rather more now because of the unhelpful esoteric and 'spirituality' connotations so widely loaded onto 'self realization'.

This led into my finding ways to bring about one's healing and self actualization in as efficient and painless manner as could be. Yes, owing to my unwitting 'mental testing' rather than really effective energy testing, I'd got into the odd blind alleys (which gained me scorn and derision from certain quarters), BUT these all in their different ways proved not to be wasted time and to have led me to genuinely more efficient working for healing and self actualization - particularly in the case of the apparently ill-fated Clarity-Sphere project that actually came to demonstrate to me and others that you don't need special 'programming' in a suitable stone sphere to make it greatly assist your healing and self actualization process.

Please see Stone Spheres As Healing and Self Realization Aids.

My recognition of the issue with spirituality as against genuine self actualization inevitably led me to some degree of a parting of the ways between myself and Stephen and Lynda Kane, and this became more marked owing to their objections to my presenting on this site any methods that were the same as or obviously based on the methods that I had learnt from them. In my view then, which has not changed, methods in themselves are not subject to copyright, and I see it as unethical for anyone to claim 'intellectual property' rights of any kind on a healing or self realization method (which, after all, is basically an urgently needed means of making this world a better place to live in) and attempt to stop people disseminating it. Originators of such methods can still perfectly ethically gain income from workshops, consultations and sale of documentation for the methods.