ONE RIGHT WEIRDO HIKE
- What Do You Make of This? 

Introduction - the background

My hiking outings

I'd had a single-minded motivation to go on long single-day hiking outings on a regular basis from 1981 onwards, though what really set the ball rolling was my 'falling in love' with walking on the Scottish mountains in a 12-day Easter visit in 1979. Because I wanted to go back there again and again, and wanted to walk on the mountains there far and wide, and in view of certain weaknesses in my knees and ankles, this was a strong motivation for me to keep doing long and strenuous hikes on Dartmoor or strenuous coast path routes in order to keep up the strength of my legs for the mountain trips.

There's nothing so especially unusual about that, of course - except that nearly all the walks have been solo, even in the remotest and most rugged situations, and, with the odd exceptions, in South-West England I've kept pretty strictly to hitch-hiking out and back, even for walks in the Land's End area, some 120-130-ish miles from where I live in Exeter. That makes for very long days indeed, with many uncertainties and requiring a very open mind about detailed outcomes and the time of my return. I've never met nor heard of anyone who does this - at least in such a regular and single-minded way.

Once I'd opened up as a healer in 1998 I found that the average type of people who picked me up in the hitch-hikes changed markedly, and more than 50% of these people were then more or less strong healers themselves, and what I interpreted at that time as being distinctly spiritually 'open'*, even though usually being unaware of their healing abilities.

* I would word that differently now, for I have come to understand that the whole concept of 'spirituality' is seriously problematical, as I explain in Exit 'Spirituality' - Enter Clear-Mindedness. I would nowadays recognise such people as having relatively deep awareness resulting from their being no-soul incarnations or people who have soul incarnated no more than a few times.

I soon became able to sense accurately such things about people and would usually tell them, so that on my outings I was giving information to them that was at least potentially very positively life-changing. A sense of a deeper or 'higher' purpose in my outings thus developed, and also I'd often during my hikes be sending out love and healing 'energy' / intents to all people on the planet, because hikes, especially out in wilderness or otherwise wild and rugged places, seemed to me to be the ultimate sort of meditation in which I could send out healing 'energies' widely, even on a global scale. This was not a matter of giving away my own energy but of allowing myself to be a channel for what I took to be the 'highest'-sourced healing energies*, as a result of which I'd always come out of a walk feeling energized and invigorated.

* In some respects that was helping, but it was also part of the developing problem!

In 2007 I came to understand that the almost universally held belief among healers that for the most effective healing you need to be channelling 'higher energies' from outside yourself was actually sourced from 'the dark side' for the purpose of ungrounding us and getting us more and more intricately involved with the dark force. As I now understand, the only safe way - and also the most effective way - to give healing to yourself or indeed anyone is to allow your own core essence to manifest as the healing 'power' or 'energy'. That is not at all the same as the giving away of one's own energy that occurs when people try to carry out healing through use of their ordinary mind and ego-centred willpower. For more about this better way of 'spiritual' healing, please see Healing From One's Core Essence.

I think that actually on those hiking 'healing meditations' I was generally to a fair extent using my own core essence, as far as I could at that stage, simply because, through apparently being a no-soul incarnation and indeed being enlightened, I naturally and spontaneously perceived myself as being a manifestation of fundamental consciousness ('the Ultimate'), and so actually I generally visualized healing 'energies' as radiating out from my infinite core rather than coming into or through me from some 'higher' source.

However, my doing so much of that, and at that time rather following the Tibetan Buddhist line of it being somehow a great and virtuous thing to give yourself away for the supposed good of others, would have been adding to my ungrounding, or at least minimizing the grounding effect of the hikes, and generally weakening my non-physical aspects.

This sense of 'higher' purpose became further underlined when I eventually had certain extraordinary - evidently strongly guided - encounters with particular individuals who purportedly had exceptionally strong past life connections with me.

However, 'purportedly' is the operative word here, for although there may well have been certain real connections, of a nature that I'd probably never be able to ascertain, the alleged past life connections were simply pieces of a story that was being given to me in my channelling (i.e. by the dark force) for a seriously troublesome purpose.

However, I noticed that there was a tendency for the fictions that I was given to be based on true or at least very plausible situations, so I was left wondering whether there might yet be some very special if not actually unique purpose for my hiking outings, which was yet to be revealed to me.

In 2004 I was given different but very plausible misguidance, to the effect that I no longer had any need nor cause to walk such long walks as I'd been doing up to that point, and it would make sense for me to relax and take somewhat shorter walks. I actually believed that one to a certain extent, so that my 17 to 21 miles became about 10 to 12 and occasionally 14 miles.

However, in 2006 I found that from late July onwards I was developing a new enthusiasm and strength for taking myself to my limits again, and so I reverted to the sorts of length I'd been doing before - and indeed even a bit more - feeling that this was leading up to something, and particularly having at the back of my mind the need to build up extra strength again if I was going to have my intended Scottish Highlands trip in May 2007, which would be my first mountain trip since 2000 and was intended to serve a joint purpose of my releasing hundreds or even thousands of ghosts along the way (as I now understand, another of the fictions from the dark force in order to convince me that I had 'special powers').

Indeed, it would have been a pointless exercise, going through the motions of releasing all those ghosts, because my understanding nowadays is that ghosts are NOT human consciousnesses at all, but simply elementals left over from particular people's deaths. True, it would be beneficial to dissolve them, but nothing like the benefit of releasing real trapped human consciousnesses, and simply not worth my spending time on like that. In any case, the 'ghost' elementals couldn't be simply 'sent on' as I'd been led to believe I could do with them. It takes ongoing work over a period to dissolve such strong elementals, and in any case at that stage I simply didn't have the sort of methodology, as I could well have now, that could achieve such a thing to any useful extent.

My self healing 'path'

I have gone to some lengths to describe the considerable personal convolutions and trials of my intensive path of self healing on my page, My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 1. From 2004 onwards, attacks from 'astral beings' (i.e. really the dark force) often plagued me, but although the dark force was genuinely trying to control and indeed wreck me, in practice, because I was enlightened, I could experience the attacks as a peaceful observer instead of getting very much into nasty emotional states and getting traumatized anew - the result of which was that each attack, although feeling extremely unpleasant, was actually healing a smallish chunk of the stored trauma emotion that I was carrying, and thus was a sort of healing process for me despite all its troublesome aspects.

My supposed 'guidance' (i.e. really the dark force, only I didn't realize that then) made a lot of that, about all the attacks and ordeals being supposedly extremely powerful healing for a huge amount of past life trauma that I was allegedly carrying - supposedly from an extremely long and turbulent sequence of incarnations, in many of which, allegedly, I'd picked up severe traumas, which had all accumulated to give me a massive self healing task in this lifetime, in which I was supposed to clear myself of it all.

In March 2006 I took up The Work, which, compared with any methods I'd used before, seemed to be bringing forward my remaining healing process in leaps and bounds, and it quickly seemed that I must surely have cleared out just about all of my issues - yet the 'astral beings' were still somehow finding trauma material to attack me with*. Eventually, in late August 2006 I started tentatively asking some questions of what I took to be my higher consciousness, having had a year's embargo on all channelling because of all the interference I'd been getting.

* For convenience I describe it that way, but that is really a bit misleading. To carry out an attack the dark force does not figuratively pick up some 'emotional nasty' energy and throw it at you like an item of physical ammunition. What actually happens is that the dark force by some means causes particular stored trauma energies and feelings to arise strongly in one or more of the parasitic lost souls attached to you, and you then feel those as though they were your own, and often much more strongly than you would ever feel them in normal everyday situations without the dark force attacking. So, you are being 'attacked' solely with material that you are carrying, even though usually, especially for the really strong attacks, it isn't your own trauma material. However, if you do have significant trauma material of your own (at least most of which you'd most likely not be aware of), that also could be used in attacks.

I was told categorically that I'd cleared all my emotional issues (supposedly in July 2006) - yet still more material was surfacing in strong attacks from the dark force, so, where was this coming from? Could the 'entities' be attacking me with other people's material?

The answer I got in my channelling was that they couldn't actually do that in the normal course of events, but I was in a unique situation because well over 4,000 years ago I had made a soul-level decision to carry out a very bold experiment in the long-future lifetime in which I was scheduled to completely heal all my big accumulation of emotional traumas - that is, this very lifetime. The experiment would be this: in that future lifetime (i.e. this one), before my birth my 'higher consciousness' would create strong healing energy links with a number of other people who were especially strongly connected with me through similarities of soul origin and many deeply loving connections having been made in different lifetimes. They could all be described as soul mates* of mine - and there were 26 of them.

* As I nowadays understand, the very notion of soul mates comes from the dark force, which is constantly using all sorts of means to lure people into, and cultivate, attachment, so keeping everyone blocked from genuine self actualization. The very notion of the 'soul mate' or any such relationship being something ideal and to be aimed for, is mythical. During my 'dark times' from 2003 the dark force, posing as my 'guidance', pretty well constantly sought to hook me on all manner of scenarios in which I supposedly had many soul mates and was imminently due to reconnect with various of them (but of course it never happened, and, as I now recognise, would be a bloody hindrance for me if I did ever let myself get involved in any such happening).

Now at last, so I thought, I had an explanation for the massiveness of what I'd understood to be just my own self healing task in this lifetime, and why, when, allegedly I'd cleared all my issues, the attacks from the 'astral entities' were still strongly bringing up emotional nasties. Yes, purportedly, I'd taken on for this lifetime the simultaneous healing of 26 soul mates' emotional issues as well as my own very considerable ones!

This is the story that I was given at that time, but, as I indicate in the follow-up section, it was actually fiction based on elements of likely fact.

This led quickly onto my being guided to do some healing work (using The Work) on the supposed Creator consciousness's own stresses accumulated over the various Cosmoses and universes - and particularly the issue of existential terror. When I did this I promptly had an attack from the 'astral beings' bring up a very strong wave of terror and related trauma feelings, but I rode it and 'understood' that it was releasing through me, so healing a chunk of the existential terror stored by my 26 special soul mates. Because of our particularly close connections with the Creator consciousness (as, according to the story I'd been given, those 'soul mates' were all more or less directly Elohim sourced, and the Elohim were allegedly the very highest beings short of the 'creator consciousness' itself), through us and this healing a chunk of the Creator consciousness's own stress over the issue was being released.

I think the notion of the purported Creator Consciousness getting stressed was all part of making further story that I had a 'higher' purpose to heal not only 'Humanity' but also the Creator Consciousness (I being allegedly its most unique and special incarnation), and this was being put to me not only to convince me that I was ultra-special but also to get me accepting massive dark force attacks on me on the pretext that in accepting them I was carrying out my destiny to heal the purported Creator Consciousness. Another version of this notion was used in what I take to have been my final very major crisis event brought about by the dark force, in February 2007, which I recount in My Little Brush with Psychiatry.

After that I kept getting further waves of trauma feelings surfacing, supposedly for release through me (i.e. really simply being strong attacks from the dark force). This was the situation on the two days prior to the hike that I describe below.

Now it's time to draw the healing and the hiking threads together, and I caution again that during the ensuing account I'm leaving my various misinformations and misunderstandings more or less intact, though will do my best to be clear that I am distanced from them, and I'll 'pick up the bits' properly in the follow-up section at the end...

My hike on Saturday 9th September 2006

First thing, I was getting indications, apparently from my higher consciousness - but always with the possibility of fiction creeping in from the interfering entities* - that I had now achieved full consciousness** (as a result of having cleared all my emotional issues), and this could be problematical as in that state I would be liable to freak other people, for, I was led to understand, a person with full consciousness would look and 'feel' very strange to ordinary people and would have many special powers. I was meant to get out on the hike to get away from people and have more trauma energies, this time purportedly from all Humanity, emerge through me to release (via attacks from the astral beings) while I was out on the hike. Meanwhile, as a result of that healing, a major part of the rest of Humanity would also achieve full consciousness, while the other part, of different soul origin and not so suitable yet for an enlightened civilization, would die, so that they would leave the planet to eventually incarnate in another, far removed, star system. Exciting stuff, hey! 

* As I've already noted, the very concept of a sort-of separated off 'higher consciousness' that you could communicate with as though it were an external guide is one of the myriad deceptions given to us from the dark force in order to get people receiving 'information' (i.e. adulterated, distorted information or misinformation) from the dark force instead of the fundamentally reliable information that we could obtain from own deepest aspects if only we opened sufficiently in that direction (hardly anyone does).

So, the notion that I was liable to interference from 'interfering entities' when channelling from my 'higher consciousness' or some other 'higher' source was a big distortion of the true state of affairs, in which my communications were ALL simply from the dark force, which would choose from moment to moment whether and to what extent to brazenly attempt to deceive me or to lure with apparently good information in order to keep me 'hooked' on channelling and paying attention to this extremely troublesome 'guidance'.

** Likewise, the notion of 'full consciousness', in which a person's purported higher consciousness supposedly 'comes down' into the physical 'dimension' and merges with his ordinary mind, is another of those deceptions, for the purpose of getting us attached to certain illusory realities and causing very major problems for ourselves, most of all when we've died. You see how 'pixie-led' I'd become at that time by the dark force?!

It's what they call an unexpected outcome...

As usual I set out early for the outward hitch-hike - about 7.0. I felt that it was the turn of a walk from Mousehole on the Cornish coast path to Land's End, continuing to Sennen Cove just beyond - or indeed extending to Cape Cornwall (making it a full 21 miles) if I got very good outward lifts and had an early starting time for the walk. This was right down at the south-westernmost tip of Cornwall and indeed of England.

I walked my usual half-hour's walk from central Exeter to Alphington Junction on the A30 dual carriageway, feeling nervous lest I be conspicuous and seem strange to anyone who saw me (i.e. on account of my having supposedly attained 'full consciousness'), and placed myself on the filter lane as usual so that I could get traffic on both slip road and main carriageway.

I waited some 40 minutes, and then noticed that a car from the main carriageway had pulled in for me further down the filter lane. Something was odd, however. Both the couple in the car got out and stood staring at me as I half-ran towards them. I don't remember having both members of a couple in a car that had stopped for me ever getting out before - let alone standing and staring at me like that. Then, when I came up to them their energy felt strange, as though they thought something was wrong. The fellow asked "Are you all right?". I was mighty puzzled, replying "Sure!", and asked where they were going. Anyway, I got into the car with them, and learnt that they were going to Truro, so it was quite a good lift, especially as I always got picked up pretty quickly just beyond the Carland Cross roundabout where they'd be dropping me.

Nearing the Merrymeet roundabout, which comes before Okehampton - only about 12 miles out from Exeter - the driver said they'd got to stop a moment at the Whiddon Down services just off that roundabout, to buy something. When we stopped there, however, the couple both started getting out of the car, with a very difficult atmosphere and looking as though they'd seen a ghost, and the fellow said "This is as far as we're taking you." No apology, no explanation; just a strong feeling about them of fear and something being very wrong. I'd never, never ever had anything like that happen before. Another thing that struck me was that although in the car they'd not discussed prematurely dropping me off here, they both seemed 100% unanimous in what the fellow said, almost as though they'd telepathically come to a complete agreement as to what to do when they stopped here. It was not at all like the usual situation of one member of a couple doing the talking and the other meekly agreeing.

And now for the return hitch hike...

At that point my 'guidance' acknowledged that a line had now been drawn, and now, while I started walking on the road (carrying a very well made and conspicuous EXETER sign) for my return hitch-hike, I was told that my 'higher consciousness' was now starting to release the 'Tiddles' beings (i.e. supposed astral beings) from me. I was still under attack as long as they were with me, but I could feel a succession of definite changes, a minute or two apart, as each of my alleged relationship chakra cords connecting me to the Tiddles beings and keeping them with me* was supposedly dissolved. Aware that this could all have been simulation from the (supposed) interfering entities themselves, I didn't get greatly excited about that, simply concentrating on walking in the Moretonhampstead direction and showing my sign to the occasional car that came.

* And what a lot of old codswallop that was! Relationship chakra cords keeping supposed astral entities with me, indeed! That was all part of the deceits to encourage me to believe that what was happening to me had some sort of 'higher purpose' and had actually been chosen for me by my own 'higher consciousness'! As already explained, any entities were actually illusions given to me by the dark force, and those relationship chakra cords were thus totally fictitious.

That detail of the dark force's story was just a repetition of a hopelessly misguided 'reading' that a healer (trained by the prestigious School of Energy Healing, and thus using Barbara Brennan's healing methods) had given me at the Quest mind, body and spirit fair at Newton Abbot in July that year, in which she'd 'seen' those relationship chakra cords connecting me to the supposed astral entities. Of course it was the dark force showing her all that.

I should say that I'm sure that the particular healer was doing a good job within the framework of reference of 'Energy Healing' - but this underlines the tremendously flawed and distorted nature of that whole healing modus operandi, which had been made famous by Barbara Brennan's classic books on spiritual healing, Hands of Light and Light Emerging. Barbara had no idea that all her supposed 'higher' perceptions were actually images and impressions being given to her by the dark force in order to lead her astray, and that her guide, Heyoan, was, like all other guides and supposed higher beings, just an illusion created in her mind by the dark force, using messages and data from her own deepest aspects (but with various covert distortions) in order to appear to be a real 'higher' guide.

Eventually, near the Beetor road junction (well off the Moor), it now getting to the dark side of dusk, a returning farmer in his four-wheeler picked me up. He was going part way to Chagford, but most kindly diverted to take me to Moretonhampstead, where I arrived in the dark - though at least the centre there was lit. I was greatly relieved that the farmer didn't seem to notice anything spooky about me and in fact I felt a lot of warmth from him and a sense of his liking me a lot. I assumed that, if today's weirdo happenings really were what I'd been told, this man was himself getting close to full consciousness and so I was feeling his increased openness.*

* No doubt at all, that was another false impression that I was being given by the dark force in order to continue cultivating for me the story of everyone then being on the verge of 'full consciousness - though undoubtedly the particular man was friendly enough.

The indication from my 'guidance' was not to wait here in the little market town, however, but to continue the open-ended adventure aspect of the whole outing, by walking in the dark, on and on along the unlit road towards the Merrymeet roundabout, being prepared to walk all the way if necessary. Fortunately there turned out to be a more or less full moon, so except where large trees cloaked the road in shadow I had sufficient light to walk by, although it was a bit dangerous in that in some positions cars might not see me in time and I could possibly get hit. Still, I was quite enjoying the sense of adventure, even though this was a stupidly dangerous thing to be doing.

As I walked along here I received the message from my 'guidance' that people would not be reaching full consciousness yet; they'd wake up tomorrow in that state.

When I eventually got to the Sandy Park area I did finally get a lift, and then it was a relatively normal hitch-hike for the remainder of the way home, with another lift from by Whiddon Down services into Exeter, arriving home about 10.30 p.m.

Those final two return lifts produced no surprises - just kind people with warm and friendly 'vibes'. Evidently there was no need for the supposedly higher powers (i.e. really the dark force) to do anything freaky to make anything happen now.

A post-hike big surprise

Right there back in my flat I was breathing sighs of relief that apparently I'd done whatever major thing I'd been meant to do, and was amazed that at age 64 I'd walked the longest walk that I'd done in the region*. Little did I know that the day was still to spring upon me what seemed at the time to be a most magnificent and awesome surprise.

* My longest mileage ever was in about 1962 - a solo 36 miles in 8 hours' walking (!) on very easy ground (mostly tarmac pavement and canal tow-path) from Harrow Weald (Middlesex) to near Tring (Hertfordshire) and retrace. I'd done that in everyday shoes and had rather sore feet at the end!

As you can imagine, back here in my flat I had many feelings of scepticism about what had gone on during the day - but the matter of that extraordinary outward lift couldn't be dismissed at all and definitely pointed to something very special having been going on - and indeed the day's attacks from my little Tiddly Widdles likewise pointed to something very much out of the ordinary.

Another thing that told me something special had happened to me was the enormity of what I experienced while I was getting my simple evening meal - something for which I was completely unprepared, so that I felt to be reeling in incredulity as the experience hit me.

As soon as I'd arrived home and removed my shoes, the first thing I did - which was now what I pretty well always did upon return from a hike - was to put on a particular CD of Frank Perry's incredible Tibetan singing bowls music, called Chakra Healing. It is such restful and relaxing music, but also, the tracks that are supposedly for the higher chakras had for me a spellbinding visionary quality that was powerful and extremely difficult to describe - especially the seemingly incandescent Third Eye Chakra track.

As the music played this time it all seemed more vivid than usual, but when it came to the track for the so-called third eye chakra - really, it is very difficult to find words for the enormity of what I experienced then. Imagine a continuous music of eternity (although actually playing only for some 12 minutes), whose intensity is like a never-ending electrifying orgasm, but not of the body. It was a total indescribable ecstasy of 'mind and soul' in musical sound. I could hear a whole plethora of strands and shifting relationships within the continuous sound, which I'd never heard before - but again, when I listened in a more normal way for an instant I realized that actually I wasn't physically hearing anything more at all; it appeared that my mind was hearing a huge part of the music that was beyond the physical.

I cried and cried intensely as I underwent this experience of ecstasy and rapture, the like of which I'd never even dreamed of before in my life. To talk of beauty is hardly to touch the radiant - even incandescent - magnificence and splendour of this...whatever it really was.

My 'guidance' then explained to me that, having reached 'full consciousness', I was for the first time hearing - as others would when they had 'full consciousness' - the true music of the Elohim, which cannot be directly heard by a human's ordinary mind. According to the story I was given then, certain Earthly music links one to the purported music of the Elohim and then, if one has or is close to 'full consciousness', one's 'higher consciousness' hears the Elohim music and integrates its experience with that of the 'lower' or 'ordinary' mind, which latter just hears the physical music.

Picking up the bits - making more sense of it all

Okay, now let me tell you things that I resolved or sorted out subsequently that make some more sense of the proceedings on that hike. I had written a lot in this section at various stages after the event, which incorporated continuing confusions and deceptions that I was receiving from the dark force because I was still channelling. I finally chose to wipe all that out and replace it below with a new follow-up and explanation, clear of all my earlier confusions, now that I'm not channelling at all and am getting much more clear of dark force interference.

Let us be completely clear that all my channelling and listening to or accepting 'guidance' was enabling the dark force, posing as the particular alleged higher sources, to communicate with me and lead me seriously astray. Actually, through all those problematical channellings I was receiving communications from a pure and reliable source (my own deepest aspects), but the catch was that they were being relayed to me by the dark force, which was adulterating them to fit the big and troublesome story that it was seeking to involve me in.

I have used inner inquiry supported by energy testing to support or otherwise my direct intuitions about various aspects of the events of that extraordinary day in my life. I must caution that all 'information' so gained is intrinsically of speculative character, and is not a statement of categorical fact; its actual value is simply in its providing the most helpful and seemingly meaningful explanation yet of all my otherwise weird observations and experiences on that 9th September 2006 hike and the ensuing events / experiences that befell me.

That mysterious outward lift - "He will be surprised but will know where to go."

My speculative understanding as to what most likely was going on concerning that freaky outward lift is as follows:

During my initial wait, when the dark force determined that a particular car was approaching with people who were themselves quite open to hearing communications from it (although they may not have been aware of the fact), the dark force actually 'spoke' to them, so that they both actually heard a man's voice saying "That man over there needs assistance. Would you please stop for him." - simultaneously being gently attacked with a feeling of obligation to stop for me. So, no wonder they seemed quite disturbed and assumed that something was wrong, but yet also didn't seem to really want to have picked me up in the first place.

Then, once we were on our way, the couple were attacked with uncomfortable feelings of fear together with pseudo-thoughts to give the impression that there was something very untoward and probably spooky about me, then also, as we were approaching the Merrymeet roundabout, the dark force gave them pseudo-thoughts about stopping off at the next Services in order to purchase something as a pretext then to get rid of me. Then, just as they were pulling into the Services car park, they both heard that mysterious man's voice again, saying "Please say to this man, 'This is as far as we're taking you'. He will be surprised, but will know where to go." - and simultaneously the dark force attacked the couple more strongly with the fear feelings, also giving them pseudo-thoughts that had the effect of distorting their visual impression of me to make me look subjectively 'weird' to them - hence their looking all shaken up, as though they'd seen a ghost, when we all got out of the car.

That was it! I think this was most likely true, and my inner inquiry supports every detail of this, because it explains precisely what I observed, with no loose ends that don't 'add up', and from hard personal experience I'm all too familiar with such control tactics of the dark force. I was struck particularly by the clear and definite way that the driver told me just "This is as far as we're taking you" - carefully calculated words - rather than making an excuse or openly admitting that they didn't feel comfortable with me and apologizing for not wishing to carry me further. There was no embarrassed searching for words; it was very much as though he had been instructed to say those very words and no others. In all my thousands of hitch-hiking journeys I have never before or since had anyone behave in such a manner towards me*.

* Famous last words! On 27th June 2009 I was summarily dumped at an unlit layby at dusk between Launceston and Okehampton, on my way back to Exeter after a hike in Cornwall, and exactly the same words were said to me, with absolutely no explanation given. That was much more puzzling than on the occasion related on this page, because there was no obvious reason for that to have happened then. I recount that experience in 'The hitch-hiker's nightmare' on the Favourite Great Hikes page on my personal website.

Also, the notion of that couple's being interfered with to distort their visual impression of me is very valid indeed. In fact the dark force did just that to me when I looked at my face in a mirror once I was back at home that day, to convince me that I had undergone a major change (supposedly having reached or almost reached so-called full consciousness, and no doubt also to convince me that I'd now look weird and even frightening to pretty well anyone else). If I hadn't at that point been expecting myself to look possibly somewhat strange as part of a very positive process I could well have been very disturbed and indeed scared about what I saw of myself then in that mirror.

Had I really attained full consciousness?

No, not at all! Indeed, to the best of my understanding nowadays, all that stuff about 'full consciousness' was dark force sourced bullshit of a seriously pernicious sort. As related in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks, huge numbers of people are being led into extremely long-term horrendous problems through the dark force disseminating through New Age and various healing and 'spiritual' traditions a belief that 'Humanity' or at least a significant proportion of the human race are now very close to 'ascension' into an actually fictitious non-physical '5th dimension'. I was similarly being bullshitted by the dark force into an alternative but equally fictitious scenario involving attainment of 'full consciousness' here on Earth - a scenario that some have called 'ascension on Earth'. Attachment to either scenario creates an illusory reality within the mindspace of the believers in it, and this then would most likely ensnare the person's consciousness at the time of death and cause the immense problems described on the abovementioned page.

So, I can 'thank my lucky stars' that I've released myself from that extremely dangerous and harmful snare that had been given me by the dark force.

What was happening for the human race

The alleged great healing for Humanity

After the hike the dark force posing as my 'higher consciousness' gave me the story that the healing that I'd supposedly done during that hike was actually not directly upon people at all but was on an alleged template of human emotional make-up in the purported 'collective human consciousness'. Then, allegedly, from August 2007 people's 'higher consciousnesses' (or 'higher selves') would start using that template to bring about swift clearance of all emotional issues for the particular people, to enable them to move rapidly to the state of 'full consciousness' by 6 years from then. Although the target year for Humanity in general to reach 'full consciousness' wasn't told me directly, the 6 years from that September 2006 hike pointed to 2012 - very close indeed to the (in)famous 2011, beloved of so many New Age and mystical movements and traditions.

You note how my 'higher consciousness' or other 'guidance' was consistently changing its story as it went along?! That was, in my experience, a consistent hallmark of dark force behaviour. As soon as events were taking me towards exposing one story as bullshit, a different version of the story would then be dished up to me, to try to cover up the imminent demise of the just discarded version, which latter, if now queried, was always claimed to be "not [or not entirely] correct", but always with strong denials that I was being told lies. In an ironic sense the latter denials were correct, because the dark force, being just programming with no underlying conscious awareness, has no concept of genuine truth of anything, and thus the concept of a lie (deliberately incorrect information being imparted) is actually meaningless in relation to it.

For me that sounded (and still sounds) an immediate warning bell, for that is all part of the dark force agenda to get us hooked on illusory realities in which 2011 or thereabouts would indeed appear to be tremendously significant, actually for the mass ensnarement of people by the dark force in some sort of 'heaven' (which would very likely be experienced as something far from 'heaven' by those involved once they could no longer turn back) in which their processing by the dark force could get going in earnest.

I thus fully distance myself from that story of the great healing for 'Humanity', while not actually ruling anything out, because we cannot actually know what will or won't happen in the future. If there is such a template that people are now using or going to use for fully positive self healing / self actualization purposes, then that's great! If there is no such template, that's great too!  Things are simply as they are, whatever anyone believes.

So, on the face of it, as far as I can tell, this story about a great healing for Humanity was all just dark force sourced bullshit for the sake of further building up the 'weasel' story in which I was destined to shortly become some sort of world 'spiritual' leader or 'father figure', and in preparation for that I was to be the Great Healer and effectively Saviour of Humanity (although the actual word 'Saviour' was never used to me) - an illusory reality in which I could get ensnared and then be pretty well fully in the power of the dark force.

However, this is not quite so straightforward because something very powerful with apparent healing potential did appear to be going on during that hike, even though, as I say, at face value the story I was given and involved in was seriously troublesome bullshit designed to lead me very much more deeply into the clutches of the dark force.

To be as grounded (at least in most ways) as I was on that hike and remain peaceful observer while being constantly severely attacked by the dark force with trauma 'energy', and to be maintaining a clear healing intent for the human race (as well as myself) during that whole process, very likely indeed did bestow some sort of healing effect upon people in general, even though it was presumably not the sort of thing that would immediately and obviously 'save the world' or be noticed by anyone*. At a very deep level we are all connected, and indeed at our deepest level of all we are simply fundamental consciousness or 'the Ultimate'.

* One person did write in soon after I'd originally written this page following the event, telling me that she was sure that she was experiencing major healing resulting from the abovementioned alleged template. Although I cannot absolutely rule out that that was indeed happening (how would anyone ever know for sure?), I see it as much more likely that the particular person was herself being taken in by elements of the dark force sourced story that I was being given, and the cause of her own self healing process accelerating at that time (if indeed it really was) was most likely something else.

It could even have been her reading this very page and most likely certain others on this site that had in some way opened her awareness more and thus enabled her self healing process to become more active.

So, although nothing can be proved, I assume that some sort of benefit for people in general did arise from that outing of mine - even though it would appear at face value to be only a drop in the ocean. However, we need to remember that each drop in the ocean counts to make it what it is, and so each is to be welcomed as a very positive thing, and in the case of healing through connections in consciousness we cannot know that there would always be such a mathematical relationship, and just maybe even one healer working in the right way to fulfil an intent of fundamental consciousness itself might actually in one session have a greatly disproportionately large positive effect, whether or not that effect is ever noticed by anyone or attributed to a specific source.

That mass exodus from the planet - fact or fiction?

I think a good way to describe it now is, bullshit! However, while it's helpful to be light-hearted about such issues, it is necessary also to say that that story was all part of a seriously harmful agenda, and I felt considerable relief at letting it go with the rest of the dark force sourced stories and convolutions. Again, of course, I can't say categorically that such a thing won't happen, but the simple truth is that none of us has any means to know such things, and indeed we have no reason beyond the dark force sourced stories to expect such a scenario. All the channelled stories about our future - including those in any hallowed ancient teachings - are all basically from or at least greatly distorted by the dark force, and so are best fully ignored.

However, I would put a word in here to say that there IS tremendously good reason to expect an imminent major cull if not full extinction of humans on Earth at the rate things are going at the moment. I say that not on the basis of any channelled story or esoteric teachings but simply on being aware of how we are HUGELY too many for our planet to sustain for more than a short period now, and we STILL have not got the screamingly obvious 'message', that if we don't take drastic action to reduce our numbers pretty well immediately, the results of our lack of self-responsibility will overtake and very likely overwhelm us. Again, it is the dark force that is blocking people's awareness and cultivating the fixation on procreation as being supposedly the primary fulfilment in people's lives (one of its myriad upon myriad of deceits). I write more about this situation in The Future of Humanity.

The aftermath for me of the big hike

Right at the beginning of the hike my 'guidance' explained to me that after completion of my big task for Humanity on this hike through being bombarded with "massive" 'Tiddles' attacks, 'Tiddles' would then be released from me and in place of the attacks I would start to receive a "massive" healing from what were supposed to be higher sources.

This I understood to be the major healing and repair of my various physical issues (including the skeletal wear) that had been predicted in a channelled reading by an apparently high grade* medium in July 2006. In her reading she'd said that my physical state would get "a lot worse" over about the next three years owing to the effects of the 'astral beings in my aura' (which her channelling source said would be with me for seven years yet) but then would level off, and then in years 4 and 5 this powerful healing would come in and restore me to a significantly better physical state than for quite a long time.

* I don't mean by this that that particular medium, or indeed any other, is good or safe to go to for a consultation or 'reading' (please see Better Without Channelling), but simply that she was much more deeply aware and positive in her outlook than the vast majority of those who regard themselves as mediums. That in no way renders benign the dark force sourced deceptions that she would inevitably and unawarely be channelling.

So, how did things work out?

Although allegedly the 'astral beings', which I was at that time mockingly calling Tiddles (but of course were just an illusory manifestation of the dark force), had supposedly been released from me at the end of that hike, it turned out that I still had the impression of interfering 'entities'. Allegedly these were 'parasitic extra-terrestrials' called Hathors, but I'm now clear that this was all just more 'story' to keep me engaged with the dark force. Basically, no entities at all had been 'released' nor sent off from me, and now the dark force was starting to work on the next stage of what was actually a particularly sinister attempt to get my awareness sufficiently ungrounded for it to stage a partial walk-in upon me*.

* As I now understand, any attempt to lumber me with a partial walk-in was actually a side issue on this occasion, and indeed would have been completely redundant in the event of success of the primary plan. Further below you can read what this was apparently all really about.

Another part of the fiction was that I had 'relationship chakra cords' or indeed any sort of chakra cords connecting me to astral entities, though I my inner inquiry on the subject does support the notion that I had a variety of highly problematical energy implants in my non-physical aspects, which made it easier for the dark force to interfere with and attack me.

By the end of that hike I noticed that my badly worn neck vertebrae seemed to have got distinctly worse, with more scrunching of shredded cartilage and rubbing of smooth bone against bone than ever, and these ominous signs seemed to be a bit worse still the following day. My 'guidance' was then telling me that indeed the vertebrae were rapidly disintegrating, and even within that day my neck would break as it failed any longer to hold up the weight of my head, and I would die in a gruesome and excruciating manner. An elaborate and quite gruesome scenario was put to me to explain why this was all supposedly meant to happen.

I had a sleepless night and was being attacked again, in ways that made it seem that my body really was in a process of disintegrating and dying - and of course I was given an elaborate and indeed awesomely apocalyptic fictional reason for this and why I was supposedly going to fall, upon my imminent death, into a succession of every hell and night terror that anyone had dreamed up during the history of all Creation. Another sleepless night followed, with the threat seemingly increasing. I was getting a bit afraid to get up off my bed in case something horrible happened to my neck. Also this was resulting in me getting skimpy about getting meals for myself...

This led into a crisis, complete with further severe attacks, which took me into my third hospitalization. During the second day of my hospitalization I became aware of what seemed to be massive healing energies, supposedly from a 'high' source, coming into my neck while I lay in bed very early that morning, and allegedly that was another template healing, and could theoretically have done a very major repair of the worn vertebrae, but that would have required me to lie there on my back motionless for about an hour - which was not workable for me and so the energy matrix that had allegedly been placed in my neck got broken up by my movements and the healing couldn't proceed at all far. However, it had restored my neck to its crappy but at least usable state pre-big-hike, so there was no longer any serious threat of a ghoulish head-falling-off scenario!

That of course was all more bullshit from the dark force. In reality, what it had been doing was to interfere with me in ways that tensed up certain of my neck muscles to cause poor alignment of the vertebrae, which in turn resulted in the adverse effects that I'd been noticing. It then gave sensations to simulate an actual healing occurring, while the only positive thing that actually happened then was that the dark force eased off with its interference with my neck muscles, so that naturally the vertebrae were able to get back into better alignment and so the nasty scrunches and rubbings of bone on bone markedly reduced again.

I was also given a fiction about a 'template' healing for my whole being, which was allegedly going to be carried out in stages over the following months. That 'healing', supposedly using an energy template taken from the 'historical' king Gilgamesh at age 25, was allegedly going to transform my body so that it had a biological age of 25 and it was going to have nearly all the features of the alleged historical king Gilgamesh. Wow!

Needless to say, I've let go of that story. However, like so many of the dark force sourced fictions, it was no doubt based on elements of fact. In this case, particularly because of my having purchased an Energy Egg just back in July of that year, my deepest aspects were actually aware that I was bound to eventually follow that particular direction and take on methods by which I could reverse a good deal of what people normally regard as the natural ageing process, and so in many or even most respects become stronger and healthier than I'd ever been - even though a full resolution of all my physical problems would not be possible, and there would presumably be no 'magic' reduction of my biological age; I'd simply have exceptional vitality and strength for a person of my age, and at least potentially live a bit longer than I'd have done otherwise.

In 2007 I did indeed take on such methods, as detailed in My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 2, and additionally they have been powerfully enabling me to progressively reduce the dark force interference and attacks.

Further hiking and life experiences

After the hospitalization following the 9th September weird hike, I got back into hiking again, but soon ran into a severe flare-up of arthritis in my right knee, which put paid to my hiking outings for the whole winter season. Then very gradually this eased and I gradually extended the occasional very short, level walks till in March 2007 I broke through and started having hikes again, albeit short and with great care taken to minimize stress and jarring on that knee. Then once I'd taken up the Returning Life Sequence and other practices, and also energy testing, from Stephen and Lynda Kane in May 2007, my hikes became progressively longer and the knee aggro gradually diminished, so that by the time I officially became a State pensioner (age 65) in August that year, I'd just walked the 21 miles and over 1,100 metres of ascent from Exmouth to Beer once more. The arthritis continued to recede, and during the following year ceased to be an issue at all.

My clear understanding was that the arthritis was a result of a progressive weakening of parts of my non-physical aspects by the repeated interference and attacks from the dark force*, and indeed from the very presence of the parasitic lost souls attached to me (see further below), and actually a healing process for all that (albeit initially not nearly as fast as was occurring from May 2007 onwards) had already begun when I purchased my first Energy Egg in July 2006. If I had not bought that then, almost certainly the arthritis would have been more serious and would not have recovered significantly, and other major physical problems would have started manifesting.

* However, in late 2008 I gained a new understanding, and came to realize that there had to be far more to that than met the eye, and there were indications of a truly sinister aspect of the proceedings, of which I'd been unaware before.

So, although I'd had no further weird encounters my life experience was changing dramatically and I was feeling not just more happy and energetic but like an altogether new and more powerful person. One effect of the Energy Egg, which was eventually reinforced by the subsequent practices and measures that I'd been taking, was that soon after that September 2006 hospitalization I started getting up 1½ hours earlier - 5.20 instead of 6.50. That didn't reduce significantly my amount of sleep but did somewhat reduce my amount of time lying in bed awake and wanting to be asleep, and allowed me to have more productive days without putting any unhealthy pressure on myself. However, my actual day length was really only about half an hour longer, because part of the 'deal' was to go to bed an hour earlier than I had been doing. This felt very positive and exciting, as though entering into the identity of an altogether new and more powerful person (even without all the dark force sourced story about my becoming the new king Gilgamesh and all that!).

That dratted metrical rhythm

Oh yes, that! It was really something of a relief for me that I was able to confirm a little nagging thought that had been at the back of my mind - no doubt itself a communication from my deepest aspects. The story about the need to use that rhythm had not come at all from anywhere worthwhile but from the dark force, which on the face of it had been seeking to get that rhythm implanted into my mind well and truly so that, supposedly, it would manifest in my speech and writing, to make me a channel for its own controlling energies! To what extent exactly that could have happened I don't know, but it was clearly some sort of means of instilling dark force control into my mind, however much or little of that I would then subsequently pass on to other people.

Additionally, the use of that or indeed any other repetitive rhythm would have had a certain degree of ungrounding effect on my awareness - but when I abided by my deeper good sense and disrupted that rhythm I was actually very slightly improving the grounding of my awareness.

So, using my clear intent, I dumped that nonsense, and whenever that rhythm came up in my mind I disrupted it with a few strong rhythmic glitches, and soon it no longer came to me at all.

So, watch out everyone else! If you ever have 'guidance' directing you to think in this rhythmic form -  -and walking and walking and raiding the store - and walking and walking all over the Moor! - then you've got the dark force trying to gain control (or more control) over you and you'd do well to ignore or keep disrupting that rhythm, however important your 'guidance' tells you it is - and you would best ignore your 'guidance' (as any apparently external source) altogether.

Indeed, if you have 'guidance' instructing you to do anything, you've got the dark force seeking to control you and bring you firmly into its clutches. Your own deepest aspects do not instruct.

Attempts to protect me...

You may remember from the account above, how there appeared to be some conflict of 'guidance' that I was getting, with regard to running music through my mind during the hike, and with regard to what extent I (supposedly) needed to get that dratted metrical rhythm ensconced in my mind. My speculative understanding now (supported by energy testing) is that there was considerable protective guidance seeking to manifest, and it was NOT from any 'higher' power but from my own deepest aspects. It was the latter that was the source of the ideas to break up the rhythm, but the problem was that the dark force was trying to cover up the real message 'from within', which was that the rhythm was extremely harmful in the particular context, and so, in the way that the dark force generally does when a person's deepest aspects seek to get the person back 'on track' (i.e. out of the dark force's clutches), the dark force was relaying that message to me in distorted form, so that instead of my getting the message that dropping that rhythm like a hot brick would be greatly in my best interests, the advice that I received was simply to periodically break up the rhythm. This served the dark force's purpose in that I then thought I was doing what was necessary and so was not 'listening in' to the quieter and more subtle message, that I pressingly needed to let go of that rhythm altogether.

Similarly with the music. There were aspects of that particular music that, for me in that particular context, were only helping to compound my problem on that day, which, as noted in the final section further below, was much more threatening to my wellbeing and even survival than I was able to know about at that time.

Additionally, very likely the alleged importance of my consciously and awarely 'engaging' with the terrain all the time, rather than going into a steady plod and getting into a sort of 'autopilot', was at least partly sourced from my own deepest aspects, to strongly assist my real grounding and thus to help protect me to some extent from the worst excesses of what was going on. As becomes apparent when one reads the final section of this page, something really sinister appears to have been going on without my knowledge on that day, and in the light of that it looks extremely unlikely that the dark force, without intervention from some genuinely beneficial source, would have been doing other than seeking to get me ungrounding myself in every possible way on that day. The dark force seems to have quite a way of covering up when such self protection messages come from one's own deepest aspects, so that distorted versions of those basically highly beneficial messages get built into the troublesome 'story' that the dark force presents, and the quieter, more subtle genuine messages direct from one's deepest aspects go unheard.

Those past life connections of mine with certain people

Yes, you've guessed! Bullshit yet again!

-- Except that, like so many of the dark force sourced fictions, that story was most likely based on elements of fact. There was something that needed explaining, and had appeared to be explained by those actually fictitious 'energy cords' connecting me to certain people. The true explanation is given in My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 2.

So, the masses of emotional trauma material that I'd been carrying throughout my life, and with which the dark force had been attacking me, were apparently not my own but instead belonging to an exceptional load of parasitic 'lost' souls attached to me. There would thus have been plenty enough emotional trauma material attached to me, even though not my own, to enable the dark force to attack me in a sustained and severe manner on that weird hike without anyone trying to explain it as material from the 'collective human consciousness' or from 'a template of the human emotional make-up' - or indeed as just something 'wrong' about me (which of course would explain nothing at all but would have satisfied some 'ego' through having put a pejorative label on me).

On this basis I think it's extremely unlikely that any healing at all for the human race was occurring in the way that the dark force, posing as my higher consciousness, was making out. However, as I've already noted, the mere fact of going through such massive and taxing experiences while remaining the (relatively) well grounded peaceful observer of all that I was experiencing - all with a clear intent of healing for Humanity - would have had some positive effect, however small.

That powerful musical experience after the hike

My understanding now is that the ecstatic experience was actually nothing other than an attack from the dark force. It is extremely little known that the intense ecstatic experiences that people have, whether it be erotic, sexual, aesthetic or 'spiritual', are pretty well all greatly magnified by, if not almost completely caused by, such attacks from the dark force with particular painful - yes, painful! - emotions, which until we're very advanced indeed in our emotional clearance and self actualization process, we misinterpret as intensely pleasurable and ecstatic. It's thus really no surprise that that particular ecstatic experience had me crying my guts out.

I have little doubt that I was given that particular ecstatic experience associated with the particular music specifically for the purpose of the dark force then leading me on to all the story about the so-called Music of the Elohim as part of the whole illusory reality that it was seeking to get me to create for myself (including the fiction that I was the sole incarnation of the very first of the Elohim) so that I'd get more deeply ensnared by the dark force. Fortunately I had the clarity to eventually see through all that and get clear of it.

My current inner inquiry is suggestive that there were quite a few grains of truth in the story that I was given about 'the Music of the Elohim', but they didn't all belong together, and had been put together in a way that was designed to seriously mislead and help to cause me major problems.

In a nutshell, then...

So, I do not actually dismiss the possibility of positive things for the human race having happened as a result of my 9th September hiking experience despite the fictitious nature of the stories that I was being given, but I just keep clear of that notion and get on with life in the present. Whatever is, is, and whatever was, was, whatever that was - if you see what I mean!

Let my experiences serve as a warning to others about the grand designs and schemes affecting us that purport to be from 'higher' sources but actually are ALL from the dark force.

We need to bear in mind, too, that it is ONLY the dark force that sets purported specific time-scales or chronology for supposed future events. That is in the nature of the force of power and control, but is not in our own deepest nature, which is everything to do with aware and responsible free choice. If there is any sort of true 'higher plan' for the human race from 'the Ultimate', it would be very different from the fixed plans that come to us from the dark force through the astral sub-reality of illusion and delusion, and it would be based on an unfolding of events on the basis of an immense matrix of possibilities and probabilities with no imposed describable plan or schedule.

Postscript

It had continued to bug and puzzle me - just how the dark force, which for most of my time seemed to be pretty stupid, volatile and opportunistic in its attempts to 'bring me down', seemed to become much more purposeful, intrusive, intelligent (albeit in a distorted sort of way), and even apparently creative, during the crescendo of interferences and attacks that led up to each of my really major crises. It was at those times as though an almost human-like intelligence was involved, and yet it just didn't make sense to assume, as, I think quite a lot of people did, that the problems were all nothing more than manifestations of my own (implicitly 'ill') mind. Even taking on board my relatively recent understanding that the dark force is nothing more than virus-like 'malignant' masses of thought forms that hijack aspects of people's minds in order to function as though they were true conscious entities, it seemed a pretty far fling, that the dark force would create all those complex and convoluted crisis sequences, with their deeply involved and yet sort-of purposeful 'story', just out of some perversity of my own mind, with no externally intruded agenda being involved.

In late 2008 I carried out a piece of careful and methodical detective work, centred around my detailed chronological journal of the increasingly strange and disturbing behaviours towards me of a certain 'lightworker', who will remain nameless here, together with the chronologically related sequence of dark force 'troubles' that I was having. Many details and patterns in this sequence were disturbingly odd, and were crying out for some sort of explanation, for clearly there had to be something very major going on here 'under the bonnet', to which in some way this particular individual was party to a major degree. He was consistently evasive over certain things and withholding from me what was clearly important information that he believed that he had, which was in some way relevant to my 'astral beings' troubles and indeed my situation in general.

The only overall hypothesis that I was ever able to come up with, which explained every one of those details and strange anomalies and coincidences and synchronies, was one that, unfortunately, would get me labelled as mentally disordered by the vast majority of 'ordinary' people (and of course anyone 'psychiatric'!). For that reason I nowadays consider my previous publication on this site of that detailed information and my full conclusions to have been ill-considered, in that it was giving away potent ammunition that any old character assassin coming to this site could then use out of context to publicly discredit me and my writings on this site - and indeed I found the odd case where this sort of thing had been happening.

Nonetheless it is necessary for me, however reluctantly, to give just some indication of what I found, so I now give just a surface-scratching précis, without proper emphasis on what were really the major features of what I appeared to have unearthed. The pointers, then, were to the following, which is still necessarily to be treated as speculative because very little can be verified to anyone but myself, for the simple and practical reason that there were no independent witnesses of most that went on. I do have a few e-mails from the person concerned, which are concrete evidence of something pretty weird going on for him relating to me, but those can't make sense to anyone outside the context of my observations, which, as I say, have no corroborating witnesses.

N.B. This is the start of a 'sandbox' or 'quarantine' area.
All conclusions contained herein are speculative, and do not represent any opinion or belief on my part, because there is no means for any of us to know really for sure what was happening.

The 'lightworker' concerned revealed to me at an early point in the saga, that he was (supposedly) a member of the Galactic Brotherhood of Light. This was an organization that, as I understand, various 'lightworkers' throughout the world belong to, and it is supposedly run by some sort of non-physical beings or 'extra-terrestrials' (which manifest to its human members in their 'inner vision', to guide them), supposedly for the advancement of 'Humanity' in some very specific, and, as I now recognise, extremely harmful ways that are all to do with greatly extending dark force interference and control among people generally.* The particular 'lightworker' told me about and even introduced me to certain aspects of the work he was doing for that supposed organization, which was guiding him. As I now recognise it, that work was not at all for anyone's benefit, never mind what that 'lightworker' consciously believed, for much of it was 'Earth energy' work, which had tremendous potential for getting people very seriously ungrounded and for destroying their own 'energy systems' through concentrated directional channelling of those 'Earth energies', wherever any organization or network of people who were in on this wanted to get rid of particular people.

* There are also many other similar supposed organizations just like that one, of supposedly 'higher' non-physical beings or ETs, of which various people scattered throughout the world are members. These include ones like the Crimson Circle of Masters, and any organization associated with the so-called Network of Light around the Earth. I have more to say about these and their possible true significance in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks.

My understanding is that those so-called Earth energies are actually illusory, and do not exist in the 'real world', but they do exist and are harnessable within the illusory realities that these 'lightworkers' create in their own and other people's minds, and which for particular reasons are resident, even if completely covertly, in the majority of the more aware people's minds. All people carrying such illusory realities in which 'Earth energies' are 'real' and harnessable can potentially be weakened or even killed by psychic attacks using these illusory 'Earth energies', usually with focused 'beams' combined from a group or network of sources, which may be actual people.

Now, it just happens that the particular 'lightworker' had, bit by bit, got me more and more connected (and even connecting myself) to particular 'Earth energy' channels* that he himself had openly set up, claiming that this was all to increase the grounding of my 'energy system' to enhance my self healing process and thus help get me clear of all the troublesome 'astral beings' (i.e. dark force) troubles. However, even then I had deep misgivings about anything to do with 'Earth energies' and felt that there was potential for such 'Earth energy' connections to be used to bring me great harm if anyone was so inclined. I also never understood how being connected to these supposed 'Earth energies' would really ground a person in any meaningful and helpful way.

* I emphasize here again that these 'channels' and 'connections' were actually illusory, but would exist in any relevant illusory reality that is in anyone's mind (commonly hidden). At the time I didn't know that they were illusory, and therefore I was potentially at great risk from them, except that my saving grace was that, unlike most very aware people, I had no really deeply seated illusory realities of any kind in my mind, so, although I didn't know it at the time, I was likely to be exceptionally immune to any attempts at harmful 'hanky panky' with those illusory 'Earth energies'.

That 'lightworker' had indeed got me to make certain of those (actually illusory) 'Earth energy' connections with certain crystals and sacred geometry wands that I was innocently using in my daily self healing sessions - I having no idea then that even without those connections the crystals and wands were seriously harming my 'energy system', ungrounding me and all the time further increasing my openness and vulnerability to the dark force and its attacks.

That, then, is one particular major element in the backdrop of this little saga.

The summary postulation that exactly matches all those otherwise unexplainable details and patterns in the data is as follows, and I make no claim as to whether it actually represents objective fact or 'truth'.

The so-called Galactic Brotherhood of Light, which was in reality one of the bogus, illusory manifestations of the dark force* to particular people, which lure them into working for the dark force while believing that they're working for 'higher' and supposedly noble purposes, was manipulating that 'lightworker' in particular ways, including cultivating in him a particular personal jealousy against me, to get him setting up particular psychic attack strategies that were supposed to 'eliminate' me for a supposedly 'higher' purpose - and each of my most major crisis events since 2003 represented a different attempt by the dark force (manifesting to the particular 'lightworker' as the Galactic Brotherhood of Light) to destroy me via a whole range of acts of this particular individual.

* Actually, if the working model I've derived from all my observations is anything like correct, the Galactic Brotherhood of Light and similar organizations are all just different 'faces' of the postulated cacoprotean network, which I also describe as the primary aspect of the dark force. So actually, according to that working model, the particular 'lightworker', like many other 'lightworkers', himself was a member of the cacoprotean network (and thus unawarely a part of the dark force) in much the same way that a hacked computer may be a member of a troublesome botnet without the computer's owner being aware at all of the fact.

The weird Dartmoor hike experience recounted on this page represented one of those attempts on my life, and thanks to my relative immunity to the actually illusory 'Earth energy' type of attack, the only major observable adverse effect of that attack upon me was the arthritis that developed in my right knee at the end of that month and into the next month, and which I healed the following year.

However, although that attack had failed in its primary objective, it was a major part of what ungrounded my awareness to such an extent that I went through the series of astral realm experiences - themselves some of them of potentially very dangerous character (one of them potentially horrifically lethal) that were the cause of my hospitalization following the 'weirdo' Dartmoor hike event.

N.B. This is the end of the 'sandbox' or 'quarantine' area.
I remind that all conclusions contained therein are speculative, and do not represent any opinion or belief on my part, because there is no means for any of us to know really for sure what was happening.

As I say, the above is speculative in nature, but at least the actual events that I've recorded on this page give you a pretty good idea of how the dark force can lead a person into convoluted scenarios, complete with all sorts of attacks and wrecking tactics, which then result in the unfortunate person being typically 'diagnosed' as mentally ill and drugged and even given ECT to try to hide the problem of such interferences. On this site I present a much more viable approach to ALL such problems - that of seeking to understand what is really going on and then proceeding to actually get resolving the underlying cause, which, generally speaking, is primarily various sorts of interference and attack from the dark force.