My Own Self Realization 'Path' - Part 2

Momentum for real change at last begins to gather!

Despite evident slow progress in getting stronger against the dark force interference and attacks, towards the end of 2006 I was still getting some degree of attack on pretty well all days, periodically rising to moderate or even quite strong intensity. Also, the arthritis in my right knee - apparently precipitated by the crisis event in August to September of that year - meant that it was still difficult and a bit painful walking around town just for my regular shopping excursions, and it was bold of me even just to make myself once a week have a four-mile walk (mostly on the level) from my flat in central Exeter, down by the Exeter Ship Canal to Double Locks and back - a bathotic total mileage of a princely four miles for my weekly walk (if I was lucky)!

Indeed, I assumed that my doctor's diagnosis of osteo-arthritis, and prognosis that this was something that, most unfortunately, I was going to have to live with, and that I'd have to adjust to the fact that my hiking days were over, was correct. This wasn't the average sort of doctor who'd shrug his shoulders and say in an off-hand manner "Well, that's just your age, and you'll have to live with it!". This doctor was a youngish, empathetic and very caring one (indeed he felt to be very much like a personal friend), and he well knew the part that my hikes and general use of vigorous walking had been playing in my life - so I could really feel his own concern and sorrow at this happening for me. Indeed, his was the greater sorrow, because at least I was adjusting as best I could to my situation, having an underlying confidence that I'd somehow find other ways to apply myself and improve my lot. He prescribed for me a sumptuous stock of Ibuprofen and paracetamol, assuming I'd need them just to get by.

Although I accepted that prescription and collected my stock of little medical nasties, my own view on this was one of a healthy pragmatism, on the basis that things might get difficult enough that I really had to use them a bit, say, to get a night's sleep. But overall I had no intention whatsoever to go taking such stuff. I think the doctor assumed that I'd use them to make my everyday moving around that bit less painful - but to me that would have been nonsense except perhaps occasionally, in extremis.

If I were routinely taking painkillers and anti-inflammatories just so that I could carry on my everyday life without too much restriction (well, apart from not going on hikes any more), I'd have actually been overdoing it for the gammy knee and so actually making it worse or at least helping to scupper any chance of healing. Unfortunately, that's one thing that the medical profession pretty well routinely gets people doing, so making their condition progressively worse - rather than consistently look for the best possible means of actually bringing about some degree of recovery, or at least managing the situation with a view to minimizing any further deterioration.

Thus I allowed the painful twingeings and 'catchings' of the knee to be my warning signals and didn't try to suppress them at all. I'm pleased to say that I never took anything at all for that knee once it had flared up really badly and I'd had the osteo-arthritis diagnosis. Fortunately that was easy for me, for the knee hurt only to walk on, and didn't hurt when I was sitting or lying.

Nonetheless, that and the continuing attacks, and with the lack of any clear sign of a future direction for me yet, did make that winter and whatever lay beyond it to have a certain superficial dark and gloomy prospect about it. The lack of hiking any more was not just a matter of letting go of an attachment of mine, but of my being without a key health-giving, grounding and balancing activity in my process of strengthening myself against the 'entities' (i.e. dark force) troubles. How the hell was I going to replace that in order not to fall back into unbalance, ungroundedness and increased vulnerability to all that nastiness again?

But then in late December 2006 an e-mail out of the blue from a certain Dalibor Zaviska* - a seemingly highly accomplished 'lightworker' and healer - brought the beginning of a new focus into the proceedings. In a weird and convoluted way his contact resulted in the setting in motion of a chain of events that eventually led to my getting to work in an altogether new and purposeful way in progressively clearing my 'astral beings' (i.e. dark force) interference / attacks problem. On the face of it, this particular contact was to prove to be one great big false dawn, indeed with a sinister aspect to it that I didn't know about at all till I'd already been clear of Dalibor for quite some time.

* I give this link for information / authenticity purposes only, and, as I'm sure you'll understand from what I write below, this does not imply any sort of recommendation.

Dalibor (in the USA) had been pointed to the inadvertently dark force distorted 'spirituality'-oriented precursor of this website by a client of his, in which website I'd already put a lot of details about major disruptions that I was getting from 'astral beings', and he was offering to me his services free of charge ("As a favour from one lightworker to another") to assist me in clearing my 'entities' problem.

Wow! And, looking at his website* and reading some information about his work that he sent me, it appeared that he must be one of the leading entity-removing healers / lightworkers on the planet! At last! What a combination of relief and measured excitement! I say 'measured', because by that time I'd had many false dawns with regard to clearance of my 'entity' troubles, and I could no longer be fully confident that anything would work. And in retrospect I suspect that I was also picking up from my own deepest aspects an intimation that these things couldn't really be 'sent off' in the way that such healers believed they could achieve.

* There was, however one very big bit of 'benefit of the doubt' that I gave him, in some desperation to become clear of my 'entities' issue. The portrait of him on his website was not at all what I'd expected to see. I had expected to see a kind, generous face that gave off warmth and 'healing vibes', with which I'd naturally resonate. What I saw was the disturbing penetrating eyes of a hypnotherapist. Over the years I'd seen just that sort of countenance in portraits of a number of individuals who practice some sort of hypnosis or hypnotherapy, and I always recoiled from those images and sought to put them out of my mind as soon as possible. If there were any particular describable 'vibes' being given off by all these people, they were of personal control and domination, not love nor true healing, let alone any sort of facilitation of self empowerment.

Having my entities taken away - Wow!

Anyway, my inner reservations were rather obliterated by my enthusiasm to get cracking, and Dalibor sent me some Declarations of Intent to use, and instructions for setting up my own 'Divine Support Team' - supposedly 100% pure, untainted guidance and healing assistance* - who could then assist me in clearing all the supposed entities and other untoward interferences and influences from my system. Additionally, Dalibor gave me periodic (I think about weekly) 'entity clearance' sessions over the telephone for about a couple of months.

* "'Ere we go again!" Pure, untainted...? -- Not on your furdlemucking nelly! I well understand now that they were just part of the dark force's deception to get us believing we were removing entities when we were doing nothing of the kind! So, instead of exactly 'Archangel Michael' or 'my higher consciousness', the dark force was now manifesting as 'Divine Support Team'! And Dalibor's own 'Divine Support Team' was just more of the same!

This was amazing! - or rather it seemed so until when, quite a bit later on, I came to understand what really had and hadn't been going on in those sessions! Dalibor 'saw', or rather, was shown by his 'Divine Support Team', all manner of entities and supposedly entity related problems in my 'aura', including a whole succession of 'demons', which he claimed to be actually transforming into angels and sending up to the supposed '9th dimension', also known as the Angelic dimension. He also supposedly removed various other sorts of supposed entities, including even what he was claiming to be the odd alien from a different universe, and additionally a whole range of 'energy devices' that were being used by the supposed demons - such as portals, cords, 'implants' and all sorts of other bits and pieces that hadn't got traditional names.

Indeed, on a few memorable occasions I was really excited and delighted when I myself had very stylistic images come to me, of what was supposedly successions of demons being transformed into angels and whisked away into that dratted '9th dimension' by my 'Divine Support Team'. Amusingly, that had rather a way of happening when I was sitting on the bog (okay, 'WC', to those who don't know that particular bit of slang, and 'shit bowl', to those who don't know what a WC is! ).

However, even then some aspects of those sessions were causing me more than a little pause for thought and wondering. The work in the sessions didn't actually last all that long, but Dalibor would spend an hour or more delivering what seemed to be enthusiastic lectures to me, in which he seemed to be almost frenetically showing me how much he supposedly knew, while giving me little opportunity to say anything myself - and in particular to point out that I already knew / understood the majority of things he was going on about and he could spare his time and breath and either get on with the session or close it if it was already finished. He gave me the strong impression that he was regarding me as a 'fresher' or novice student of his rather than any sort of equal. In other words, this looked like a personal status / power trip of his. Also, I ended each of those sessions feeling really tired and drained - because actually in all that 'lecturing' at me he had unawarely been sucking my 'energy'! That's not healing, of any kind, and indeed is an indicator of a very significant problem of his!

As I understand it in retrospect, the 'energy sucking' was not standard psychic energy sucking, but was primarily a defensive strategy, born in an intense insecurity issue of his. The gross, physically observable aspect of that strategy was for him to be buoyantly talking on and on at me - supposedly 'teaching me' - all the time to browbeat me into a state of submission and feeling exhausted and generally feeling that I was no match for him. A real personal status issue - undoubtedly manifesting particularly strongly towards me because of the threat that he was feeling from me to his own perceived status as a healer, 'lightworker' and supposedly enlightened person.

I did, I think at least a couple of times during the course of those regular sessions, tell Dalibor that I was pretty sure that he himself had 'entity' interference and that his 'guidance' and non-physical information source was at least adulterated by 'entities' - but he would have none of it. He didn't overtly get angry - but then I wasn't pushing that suggestion at him in a way to 'get his rag out', but he was clearly very much on the defensive. He assured me that he had trustworthy means to check that he had no such interference, and on one of those occasions he made out to be doing that test right there and then, and said something like "No, all clear. But let me assure you that I do keep an open mind about such possibilities, but every time I've checked this, there hasn't been anything."

If I'd been spoiling for a confrontation (which I wasn't at that stage) I'd have asked him "Yes? -- Well, then, how do you know that your means to test for entity interference is giving you correct information, and isn't actually giving you 'entity' [i.e. dark force] sourced results?".

You see? He was fully intelligent enough to know that he'd told me rubbish to cover up the fact that he had NO means to know that he wasn't being interfered with and indeed deceived, led and controlled by anything untoward - yet he still pushed that "I'm fully clear" nonsense at me. More about that further below.

One thing that forced me to recognise that something was really untoward was Dalibor's bizarre assertion to me, during one of those lectures among which bits of supposed clearance work were interspersed, "I'm at the Second Level of Enlightenment, and I'm sorry to have to tell you that you're not even enlightened yet!". He went on to explain that I still had a lot of emotional issues to clear before I could become enlightened. This showed me that he had no idea what true enlightenment was, and that made me rather doubtful as to whether he was enlightened at all as he was claiming, for it looked as though he had learnt some hopelessly incorrect definition of what enlightenment was, no doubt from some esoteric 'spiritual' tradition in which he'd previously had some sort of training.

Still, because I was at that time pretty desperate to get clear of these horrible interferences and attacks from the supposed entities (according to Dalibor, including actual demons), and was actually seeing demons being removed from me (so I thought!), I stuck with those sessions with Dalibor.

In those sessions he gave me a lot of convoluted 'story', which I nowadays recognise as being clearly from the dark force, relating to my so-called 'soul origin' and various things, including an alleged major 'soul trauma', that were supposed to have happened to me as a non-incarnated soul in the early stages of this Cosmos (I remind that I now understand that I'm a no-soul incarnation, so all of that had to be rubbish designed to cause me problems - albeit the harmful intention being that of the influences controlling Dalibor, rather than from him himself). He also gave me a copy of his 'Multidimensional Model of the Cosmos', which was an exceptionally detailed adaptation of a sort of New-Agey model of the supposed dimensions that 'reality', as we observe it, is claimed to be divided up into, with notes about the different types of beings and entities that were supposed to occupy those different levels.

My own 'guidance' - then my 'Divine Support Team', but really of course still just the dark force - gave a general okay to Dalibor's model, but gave me various amendments, presumably to convince me that I myself had got it all just about right, and no doubt also to put me into a sort of rivalry against Dalibor. At once my 'guidance' was starting to embroil me in more 'story' based on that model of the dimensions and an associated (and in a way rather convincing-sounding) explanation of how the 'dark side' (in this model, called the Dark Realm) supposedly formed.

Inevitably, then, through the deepening convolutions of all that 'story' involving me and a supposed higher purpose of mine to 'heal' the purported Dark Realm, I was led by the 'entities' (i.e. the dark force) into another crescendo of increasingly severe attacks, which culminated in a monumentally spectacular all-night ordeal on the night of Saturday 3rd February 2007.

Clearly I was in much better shape then than in previous crisis events, because that was potentially by far the most taxing and dangerous ordeal sequence I'd ever been taken through, and yet I was naturally unflappable throughout and remained peaceful observer of all that I was taken through, and at one point the attack with fear related emotion energy was at such intensity that it felt as though my body would break apart if the attack got any more intense. Also, I remain pretty impressed even in retrospect at the way I finally 'drew the line' ("Enough's enough, and now sod the lot of you!") and wrenched myself out of all that, disregarded all the further menacing 'story' that was being given me, forced myself to get breakfast and then called the Crisis Resolution Team so that I could get talking with some supportive people to get my awareness better grounded and balanced again, and so puncture the crisis 'bubble'. That was signs of exceptional emotional stability and 'togetherness' of mine, and not at all signs of a 'mentally ill' or 'mentally unstable' person, as various people (who one would have thought would know better) have come to regard me simply on the basis that I've had disruptions from the dark force and have had a few brief 'psychiatric' hospitalizations as a result.

* You can read more about this particular experience and how I handled the situation in the relevant section in My Little Brush With Psychiatry.

All this was increasingly making me wonder how much longer it was going to take to clear out all my 'entities', for it was evident that they still had considerable ability to interfere and attack, and although I did supposedly 'send off' what was supposed to be the primary 'entity' that took me through the abovementioned 'spectacular' (by means of asking my 'Divine Support Team' to 'see it off'!), I was feeling that something wasn't adding up in the descriptions of the supposed higher (non-physical) realities involved and the various beings and entities they supposedly contained - and I didn't see really how I could be sure that I wouldn't get more of those coming in. As I know now, nothing of significance had left me in the first place*, and the only difference now was that I was really beginning to get stronger and noticeably less vulnerable to the dark force - although I still had a very long way to go before getting anything close to immune to it.

* Actually, my understanding in retrospect is that in one sense there was a departure that one could see as coinciding with my supposedly 'sending off' the bullying 'entity' manifestation that seemed to be running that particular crisis - even though it's unlikely that I'd actually sent anything off at that point. More likely the only benefit of my going through the motions of 'sending off' in the way that I did helped ground my awareness just a tad through gaining a certain sense of self empowerment at that point. Part of that self confidence boosting came to me through my at that point bestowing the belittling name of Mr Pooh (or Little Poo) on that particular supposed powerful entity.

I had got the impression during not only that whole crisis event but also my previous most major ones, that it was as though at those times some more powerful and organized, and bullying 'being' or force was present, and that at other times it was leaving me alone, to be mucked around with by run-of-the-mill 'astral beings', which were much more disorganized and simply opportunistic in the ways they interfered and attacked. So, I saw this 'Mr Pooh' as having come in at each of those really major, disruptive events, with a big agenda for me that was beyond the ken of mere bog-standard 'astral beings'.

This I now understand to have been a very significant observation, for, although there was not an actual conscious being corresponding with 'Mr Pooh', there was something else - direct interference from the cacoprotean network, of which more further below. So, at the end of each of the most major crisis events, so it appears at least, the cacoprotean network withdrew its direct attention, no doubt to stick its disgusting 'nose' elsewhere to wreck other individuals' lives, and so it had, in a sense, departed from me - though leaving in place the astral thought forms (posing as 'entities') to continue interfering with me according to their particular programming.

Thus, one thing of significance had left me, but not, as far as I can tell, as a result of Dalibor's work on me. A particular point here is that, as far as I can tell, that was the last occasion that that disgusting network has directly interfered with me (though it may have made a pathetic last-ditch attempt in a brief crisis in late May 2007). All subsequent attacks and even crises have been of the opportunistic sort that indicate just pre-programmed astral thought form complex as being the culprit. My energy testing consistently supports this hypothesis.

So, although I could not know this at the time, one particular phase of my 'troubles' had in fact ended then, even though Dalibor's work on me (and my extensions of that work, upon myself) would have had little or no bearing on that. Indeed, my much more recent energy testing suggests that the early February major crisis event marked the last of a sort of list of options for the cacoprotean network's attempting to take me over or destroy me, and that network had simply run out of major options to that end - not helped by my increasing resistance to what Dalibor was trying to do to me - about which, more further below...

My regular sessions on the telephone with Dalibor finished in early March that year, after which Dalibor claimed that my continuing 'entity' interference was no longer genuine entities at all but was 'self created' ones - 'self made demons'. I was very sceptical about that, and by that time I was feeling pretty doubtful about Dalibor's bona fide and integrity altogether.

During three of the sessions that I'd had with him, at some point he'd tried to get me to go into a hypnotic trance as part of the supposed clearance work, and each time strong warning signals had flashed within me and I'd been unable to get into any sort of hypnotic state. Particularly on the last occasion - I think the one in early March, Dalibor had been very insistent, keeping telling me "Trust me! You must trust me!". But that was much like the figurative red rag to a bull, because that came across as something scary and menacing. I sensed something untoward trying to browbeat me into submission to allow me to be controlled. Little did I know then how correct and important that impression of mine was!

Right after that session he e-mailed me, again telling me repetitively that I'd got to trust him in the sessions - again with that 'driven' controlling 'energy' coming across to me, as though he were seeking to take me over.

Universal Mind - or Universal Kak?

I continued some e-mail correspondence with Dalibor during March 2007, and he always made out almost as though there was something a bit wrong or perverse about me, being so "resistant" to him and his methods - again giving a strong sense that he was still seeking to persuade me that I should in some fundamental way submit to him, which every time just set off those warning signals from within me. There was definitely something 'not right' there. He said he had had the odd other clients who were "resistant" a bit like me, and they had all been very difficult for him to "help" (I think I'd say "harm"), but he suggested I try out a real super-duper method that, he said, had worked brilliantly for another client of his who had proved resistant to his "help" in a similar way to me.

That method was called Universal Mind - which very name gave me an immediate inner unease (i.e. warning signals coming to me from my deeper aspects). I can't remember all details of it now, but it was a sort of combination of a sort of prayer to one's supposed very highest aspects (as though it was some separate 'higher being' - which I'd nowadays recognise straight off as being really the dark force) to bring about the successive joining up of the different levels of one's consciousness, combined with a very concentrated visualization through the series of actions.

It was based on the belief that one's consciousness consisted of a number of named discrete levels, which included a Higher Self and a (still higher) Divine Self (I don't remember now all the different levels, and, frankly, I'm not in the slightest interested now, as they were all fictitious), and by means of this Universal Mind method you could actually bring about the coalescence of all these supposed different levels or sectors of your mind, so that you would then be implicitly an enlightened and at least highly realized person, and free from entity interferences of any kind.

Even at the time this didn't really make sense to me, because, being actually enlightened, I saw this as having nothing to do with genuine enlightenment. Anyway, Dalibor was insisting that this other client of his, whose 'entity' problems had been persisting despite his (Dalibor's) best efforts, had used the Universal Mind method and that had resulted in complete cessation of her 'entity' troubles. So, pretty dubiously, I have to say, I accepted Dalibor's offer of a further telephone session for him to guide me through using this gee-whizz method.

That telephone session was at the end of March 2007. Dalibor took a long time during that session, sort-of patiently guiding me through a few attempts at this procedure, but I felt a deep unease at these attempts to get each of the supposed levels of my consciousness 'connected' (really coalesced), starting with the lowest levels and working up, and my visualization kept foundering. Once more, Dalibor was repeatedly emphasizing to me that I needed to trust him and the method, and that just flashed up more inner warning signals, and I was sure that what he was calling trust (i.e. being unquestioning, non-discerning, and letting him walk all over me) was one of the last things that I needed, not only just then but with Dalibor altogether.

However, although the method didn't look to me as though it was working in that session, I still tried it a few times on my own, thinking the method just might be all right, and my problem was most likely with Dalibor rather than the method, but still my visualizations foundered, and so I gave up on it.

My eventual reporting back on that elicited another e-mail from Dalibor in which he was emphasizing my need to trust, and in particular to trust him - though at least I do give it to him that he did add (did I hear a note of patronization somewhere?) that my very questioning and suspicious approach to my life experience wasn't in itself bad and indeed in various respects could be seen as a very positive thing.

Well, at least that latter point of his was true, but just grossly understated, because without that natural questioning and suspicious aspect I'd have been sunk! Indeed, if I'd lacked that, Dalibor would have (presumably unawarely) made me a part of the dark force - what I'm now rather enjoying calling the Universal Kak - as indeed he himself, in an important sense, already was.

Much later on, when I was using energy testing, I was able to establish that Dalibor had a partial walk-in, which was controlling him into misusing hypnosis (as actually happens with just about any therapist who uses hypnosis) in the 'healing' and 'therapy' sessions that he gave, in order to put various problematical energies and entities into people's non-physical aspects. Still more recently I found that Dalibor, like very many active healers and 'lightworkers' (and very likely any others who are hypnotherapists), was unawarely a member of the cacoprotean network, and thus was actually a part of the dark force itself! And, what's more, in the course of one or more of those sessions he did actually attempt (unawarely, I assume...?) to connect me into that network to make me a part of it. But because I was so resistant to attempts to get me into hypnotic trance (and thus sufficiently out of body), he couldn't complete that task, but left in my system some 'energy debris' that, although not actually doing anything specific, was somewhat hindering my gradual clearance process.

Also, very significantly, on different occasions and quite independently, two of Dalibor's one-time clients found on this site some references to the problematical aspects of Dalibor's healing and therapy work, and wrote to me describing frightening and upsetting experiences they themselves had had in sessions with him, and in both cases they'd at the time got the distinct impression that he was possessed and being controlled by some sort of harmful 'spirit', and each had had problematical or downright harmful energies or entities put in their respective energy systems.

When confronted by one of these ex-clients of his about her experiences and continuing problems that seemed to have resulted from her session(s) with him, he was at once on the defensive, claiming that his methods were absolutely 'clear', and that the problems she was experiencing were just part of her own healing process.

Now, just where have I heard that one before? -- For starters, ZM, who is also a member of the cacoprotean network, claiming to me that what were really the massive attacks from the dark force, to a large extent precipitated and facilitated by the sacred geometry 'healing' wands that I'd had from him, were just part of my "accelerated healing process"!

And of course, Dalibor's claim that my continuing 'entities' problem was just 'self created' entities was part of the same rubbish, which presumably he must dish out to most of his clients. He hadn't really removed anything of significance, yet still took his sessions with me to be another success story of his.

It's through that sort of defensive covering up that therapists and 'healers' like Dalibor persist in claiming (and presumably actually believing) that they have a very high success rate and no serious problems in their client work. Whatever problems a client experiences during or following on from a session are just something to do with the client, and the session is still added to the therapist's track record of purported successes. -- Caveat emptor, as they say!

Also, I can report, as a result of retrospective energy testing, that the 'rose' technique for emotional clearance, which Dalibor gave me and I was using quite a bit for a time, is actually largely bogus - though I'm pretty sure he didn't realize that. What happened for me when I used that method was that the dark force would rapidly reduce or cease a particular attack to make it appear that the 'rose' technique was working brilliantly. Such is the troublesome deceit of the dark force in order to get people wasting their time and energy on ineffective healing methods.

As for the Universal Mind method, which indeed I'm inclined to rename to 'Universal Kak', (a) it couldn't achieve (for anyone) what he claimed (and presumably believed) that it did, because there are no such discrete levels or sectors of consciousness to join up or coalesce in the first place, and (b) if one were able to carry out the method fully (as my own deepest aspects actively prevented me from doing), I would have had certain pathways (a sort of energy implant) established within my non-physical aspects, which would have made it a much easier matter for Dalibor or any other member of the cacoprotean network to connect me into that network, so making me too in an important sense a part of that disgusting network, and also in various ways being controlled by it.

I hate to think what had really happened for that other client of his who he mentioned to me as having so greatly benefited from that method. Yes, her gross interferences may well have ceased, at least for a time, but that may well have been just to convince her that the method had 'worked' for her and throw her off the scent so that she'd never find out about the new level of interference - actual control from the cacoprotean network - that she'd very likely gained, either then or at some later time when some member of the network (and there are lots of them around) had the opportunity to take the final step to covertly make her a member too.

Phew - the number of close shaves that I've survived! -- Scary, hey!

Now the positive side of this 'false dawn'

Yes, would you believe it, it was a complete 'false dawn' for me only on the surface - in other words, if one looked just at what Dalibor was supposedly and actually doing in those sessions he gave me, and in all the false information and 'baggage' that he gave me. In reality, although I wouldn't describe Dalibor's coming on my scene as being a full dawn, it was at least a real and important 'pre-dawn', in which, despite all the obfuscations and indeed actual closeness to potential disaster, I was getting myself into more powerful momentum in the clearance and self realization process that had actually kicked off when I bought my first Energy Egg in July 2006 (though even my taking up The Work and the EFT could be seen as the real beginning of all this, to a point). But in this phase I had actually gained direction as well as a modest but significant augmentation of the 'process'. So, there was a really positive side of it all for me, and in two broad ways:

• Getting into the way of using declarations of intent (DOIs) as part of my clearance and self healing process;
• Use of the Light-Sphere and Energy Stone, which Dalibor had sent me at an early stage as part of his completely free offer of assistance.

Despite all his problems, Dalibor was and is fundamentally a good person with a lot of positive intent. He's not quite a no-soul incarnation, and isn't enlightened quite in the way or to the extent that he believes, but he's near enough to that state to have quite a strong connection between his ordinary mind and his deepest aspects (though it would have been stronger still if he'd been an actual no-soul incarnation). So, particularly with his partial walk-in, his whole approach to assisting people (including myself) was full of a contradiction - on the one hand seeking control over his 'clients' and always seeking to show that he was the superior person, and, on the other hand, seeking to provide people with the means for self empowerment and self healing (including self clearance of entities and all other untoward non-physical influences).

His attempts towards people's self empowerment were all in their different ways 'not fully there', because of the dark force interference that he was getting, but, as long as one kept clear of his various 'therapies' and 'healings', and all his well meant but false information and illusory realities, certain of his methods (NOT all!) could still be helpful - particularly his Light-Sphere and Energy Stone.

So, let's briefly look at how these helpful elements worked out.

The declarations of intent (DOIs)

Ironically, these were something of a disaster area because they were so distorted by Dalibor's dark force interference, which is actually what his Divine Support Team were, even though, as with all 'higher being' manifestations, they were distorted projections of aspects of his own (completely positive and beneficial) deepest aspects. He supplied me with a set of his DOIs for clearance of entities and a very wide range of related issues, and indeed, in consultation with him I added some details to them. Their problem was the whole format, which was basically one of a sort of ritualized prayer and supplication, with lots of 'grovelling' to and thanking of the Divine beings and presences that were supposedly being asked to assist.

As I'd never come across DOIs before, I actually used them as they were with enthusiasm and some excitement, but did feel that all this ritualized deference, grovelling and thanking (as though any truly beneficial force would need to be grovelled to and thanked in order for it to lift a finger to help!) didn't make real sense, and I suspected that it was all probably unnecessary. In particular, it seemed to go very much against the 'spirit' of true self empowerment, which was, after all, what using these DOIs was supposed to be about.

Anyway, I had my regular sessions doing a formal reading out aloud of that set of DOIs, feeling a bit sheepish because immediate neighbours might well hear me reciting out loud such a lot of grovelling tripe!

In the event, despite the fact that their format was such a fabric of dark force control agenda, and they were without exception being directed away from the real source of healing and assistance (i.e. one's own deepest aspects or essence), my regular using of them assisted me greatly in gaining for the first time a sense of self empowerment in a real process of clearance of my troublesome interferences, and indeed for the furthering of my whole self healing process. It's unlikely that my use of those DOIs was having the direct sort of positive effects that use of correctly framed and directed DOIs would, but my use of them had focused my intent, and I'm sure assisted me a lot into a more positive outlook that itself would lead me where I really wanted to be.

If you want to see what I reckon to be the best format and wording for DOIs, have a look at my own set of DOIs / affirmations and the example DOIs that I give in the Clarity-Sphere User Guide.

Not only that, but eventually, a bit later in 2007, after having found a set of 'affirmations' by Steve Gamble, which had a similar, though less pronounced problem, I took the bull by the horns, so to speak, and used both those sets as a basis for producing my own set of DOIs / affirmations, at last fully free of dark force sourced distortions (particularly the prayer or supplication element) and directed straight to one's own deepest essence. So, Dalibor's deeply flawed set of DOIs did nonetheless present me with the basis from which to make DOIs / affirmations a really powerful part of my or anyone's self healing, self realization and entity / dark force interference clearance process.

The Light-Sphere and Energy Stone

However, it isn't really possible to say how much of my positive momentum came from the DOIs - though I'm sure that on the most superficial level at least some of it did - because there was another extremely positive factor. Whatever his own problems with dark force and entity interference, Dalibor clearly had some pretty good openness to his deepest aspects, at least in some respects, and had produced two energy devices that actually were in the same category as the Energy Egg family of devices - the Light-Sphere and Energy Stone - although they also had very significant differences. At an early stage he sent me one of each, free of charge, as part of his offer of completely free assistance "from one lightworker to another". "The Universe will pay me", he'd added.

Now, I've said a lot about the problems surrounding Dalibor, but here were two tremendous tiny devices. They did have some limitations that I'm sure they wouldn't have had if Dalibor hadn't been 'guided' by dark force sourced distortions of what his own deepest aspects were seeking to get across to his conscious mind, but they were still 'pure' like the Energy Egg family of devices - AND they had a much fuller range of functionality, covering pretty broad spectrum healing, a certain level of entity clearance and dark-force-effects-weakening, and, interestingly, the ability to assist in the manifestation of positive and truly beneficial intents when used in conjunction with specific DOIs for the purpose  - though actually one of their skimpy areas was countering environmental stresses, so these were actually nicely complemented by my Guardian Angel and Energy Egg. I give a pretty full appraisal of their features and their pros and cons in my comparative review in my Clarity-Sphere page.

Indeed the Light-Sphere and Energy Stone are so good overall - being quite a step towards the functionality of the still more comprehensively functional and powerful Clarity-Sphere - that I would recommend them as a pretty reasonable 'second best' alternative for anyone who for any reason was not willing or able to get or create a Clarity-Sphere for themselves.

My only reason for not making that recommendation is because it's so far appeared that Dalibor was producing these for sale (at a quite high price) only to clients of his and not to the general public, and, on the basis of what I've written here about his very major problems, would it make sense for me to recommend your becoming one of his clients...?

Anyway, I wore my Light-Sphere daily (it's most effectively used as a pendant), also having it on my bedside table at night, so it was working on me all the time. When (and even a few days before) I received it I got very distinct visual 'energy impressions' resulting from it*, which suggested that it was something (for me) unprecedented and important, and my retrospective energy testing indicates that those impressions, although distorted by the dark force, were still basically genuine communications from my deepest aspects to inform me that these were something really special for me.

* During the few days before I received it - i.e. while it was in the post - I got a distinct inner visual impression that had a certain similarity to the sort of fuzzy column of whitish light that I'd experienced during my first week with the Energy Egg in 2006. This time it was an increasingly strong impression of a fuzzy and slightly shimmery, strongly luminous energy body surrounding and interpenetrating my physical body as though it were an auric body of mine (which it actually couldn't have been, because those don't really exist).

When I received it I 'saw' a distinct impression of it having a 'core star' (what I would now call a core point), with numerous minutely fine laser-beam-like rays all radiating out from it. I got the same impression from the Energy Stone, but less strongly. I then went around looking in the same way at other stones of mine, and I found that there was a similar but fainter 'core star' effect in both my Energy Egg and Guardian Angel.

That caused me to understand at once that most likely there was an underlying similarity and modus operandi of Dalibor's' and the Kane partnership's devices, even though Dalibor was a bit dismissive about the Energy Egg and Guardian Angel, describing their programming as being "just 5th dimension technology, while mine is 9th dimension technology and connects only with Divine beings and even the Creator Consciousness". As I now understand it, that latter claim was just another bit of old bairy hollocks that Dalibor had picked up from the dark force, for the functional programming in each case was actually from the programmer's own deepest aspects, although in both cases it was somewhat limited and constrained by the agendas of their ordinary minds, brought about by their respective dark force interferences.

I'm pretty sure - and my energy testing supports this - that, although these two devices were not producing obviously dramatic changes for me, it was these rather than either the DOIs or anything that Dalibor did for me, that were bringing about a gentle but progressive strengthening of my whole system in ways that were making me gradually less vulnerable, at least to the worst that the dark force interferences could do to me, and were assisting in (albeit apparently gradually) manifesting the long awaited road to a much faster clearance and self realization process. I had set such an intent by use of the appropriate DOIs - though it would have been so much more effective if only Dalibor's format for DOIs, which I'd been using, hadn't been so incredibly naff - so supplicational, grovelling and asking actually fictitious external sources for assistance instead of expressing one's clear intent both from and to deep within oneself.

If it was "just coincidence", it was at least a pretty freaky coincidence that, about three months after my getting the Light-Sphere and starting to use the DOIs, I had somebody e-mail me to put me in touch with some writings that caused me to drop all the channelling and Divine Support Team rubbish on the spot, and simultaneously to be pointing myself towards one of Stephen and Lynda Kane's Energy Awareness Training workshops, which was to come little more than a month later and turn out to be the biggest breakthrough point of all in my clearance process. - Of which more further below.

It may have struck you as a bit odd, to put it mildly, that such a dark force led and controlled person ('possessed' is not too strong a word, provided that it's understood that pretty well everyone who does his sort of work is similarly 'possessed') had turned out such an apparently 'pure' and truly beneficial device, which was almost certainly genuinely assisting me towards proper clearance of my dark force and entities problem. How could the two be reconciled?

As I've already intimated, I see Dalibor as a good person with the highest of ideals, imprisoned by the dark force in such a way that he still had a fair amount of communication coming through from his deepest aspects - albeit pretty well all of it with distortions. As is so often the case with the dark force agenda, he wasn't altogether prevented from coming out with genuine healing devices, because this sort of thing helped convince everyone that he was a genuine healer / therapist / remover of entities, so that he could bring dark force control and disruption to as many people as possible. That wasn't at all his own intention, but was that of the dark force manipulating him.

It was undoubtedly his dark force interference that caused the Light-Sphere and Energy Stone to have limited functionality, and also ensured that he himself didn't know of all the functionality potential that they did have. Indeed, as was pretty obvious to me (this also supported by my energy testing), he actually didn't know how those devices worked, nor indeed properly what their functionality was, nor all that much about how to use them. He believed he knew, but what he did tell me about the nature of their programming I know in retrospect to have been rubbish, because he believed that the programming was coming from 'Divine beings', whereas in reality it was coming from his own deepest aspects, but was to a fair extent stunted by dark force interference in his mind, causing him to try to use some degree of willpower to specify what programming went into the devices.

In fact it looked to me as though he knew almost nothing at all about the Energy Stone, except that it was supposed to protect people from entities (i.e. new entity attachments rather than what they'd already got) and 'negative energies' within a certain quite respectable radius of it. By means of energy testing more recently, I established that it actually had a quite presentable range of healing function in its programming, BUT, of all crazy things, it was supplied 'locked' (i.e. inactivated) and actually had to be unlocked by use of a DOI, but he actually unlocked mine remotely and never gave me any DOIs to use with it nor other instructions for it. And that unlocking activated ONLY the function that he knew about - the entity / 'negative energies' protection function. Indeed, it wasn't till I found out about this by means of energy testing in late 2007 that I finally used a DOI of my own to finally unlock it fully.

Thus the people who had those devices from him almost certainly would have had no really worthwhile instructions for their use, so that they got only the most basic functioning from them. Beneficial, certainly, but not themselves that much threat to the dark force agenda for any of those people using them. I was highly exceptional in the degree of self motivation AND mental clarity I applied to developing Dalibor's really naff DOIs to get some more helpful function from the Light-Sphere, and long belatedly, the Energy Stone.

Signs of a physical improvement!

Despite the gloomy prognosis for my hiking or indeed walking much at all, and my assuming that that was correct and I'd just have to adjust to a more restricted and less healthy mode of living, a gentle inner motivation was constantly nudging me into more of a try-and-see sort of approach. I started actually sometimes having a second of those 4-mile easy walks in a week, and then tentatively on the odd occasion extended that to the Countess Wear Swing Bridge over the canal (and back), so making it 5 miles. I was starting to get a definite inner feeling of inevitability that soon I'd actually walk the whole 8 miles down that way to Starcross - and, in early March it actually happened! Wow! Uncomfortable by the end, yes, but not that much, and clearly some degree of recovery was occurring, even if only temporary. Then at the next opportunity I ventured on a real hiking outing again - albeit with considerable trepidation despite this being a very short hike on the rugged coastline from Boscastle to Tintagel (only some 5 miles or so but having some steep and rough ground), hitch-hiking out and back (thus incurring a few more miles in road walking). Again, some discomfort developed, but no great problem.

And so the limit was steadily pushed back till it appeared that a hiking day total of about 10 to 12 miles (including road walking in hitch-hikes) was most likely my safe limit, regardless of the roughness and indeed strenuousness of the terrain (provided I took it a bit gently). Not fully back to the 'good old days', but at least pretty healthy and immeasurably better than having no such outings at all.

I can't say how much the Light-Sphere was involved in that improvement, for there was also the Energy Egg and Guardian Angel, progressively retrospectively clearing harmful effects from the 'entities' and other environmental stresses, and I was mindful that that particular arthritis seemed to have been precipitated by the very major attack crisis back in August to September the previous year - so it was quite conceivable that these devices were all assisting the arthritic knee through very gradually healing the damage in my energy system caused by that crisis event. As I was to find out much later, that was very much what was happening, BUT there was another major element of that situation, which I was to have no inkling of till late 2008.

One facilitating factor in that recovery could very well have been the enhanced DOI for physical healing that I periodically used. It was based on Dalibor's highly flawed venture at that, and still contained the absolutely crazy and unhelpful (to put it politely) supplication and grovelling to higher presences, but apart from that, it was a pretty strong declaration of intent for an extremely comprehensive physical healing, even though I didn't include in it any specifics about healing that arthritis or that particular knee. That would undoubtedly have helped focus the Light-Sphere's functioning to facilitate particular physical recoveries that could occur at that time - particularly as, although the DOI itself didn't mention the arthritis or the knee, that was still very much in my mind as being a quite pressing healing need.

The final confrontation with Dalibor

As you're about to read, things really started taking off for me from April and especially May 2007, and my correspondence with Dalibor gradually almost petered out over the spring and summer. He was seeking to sound accepting of and interested in the new outlook and new methods that I'd taken up, yet I could sense a certain patronization and a grudgingness about that too - a certain feel of "Oh well, if you really think that is helping you - but you really are turning away from the best way to go about it...". Anyway, he was on the surface pretty positive about my really great developments, but clearly seeing it as a progressive parting of the ways rather than pointing to any better way for him himself to be pointing.

In December 2007, Dalibor sent me a friendly and actually surprisingly positive sounding e-mail in response to my website updates newsletter e-mail, telling me he'd read a fair bit on my website recently then (i.e. with my much revised outlook on the part the dark force is playing in all the manifestations of supposed higher beings and higher realities and all that), and was finding a lot to give him food for constructive thought. All sounding very positive - though I couldn't help pick up a certain tone of patronization in that. He went on to assure me that he was still sure that he was clear of entity or other untoward interferences, and so he had no problems of that sort.

I took this as my cue, for I saw this as a cry for assistance, from none other than his own deepest aspects. I thus wrote to him a carefully expressed and reasoned explanation of the masses of evidence that I'd accumulated that all pointed to his having significant interference, deception and control by the dark force. It was a pity that that was before I'd come up with the Clarity-Sphere, but anyway I did make a few suggestions as to methods he could use to start addressing his actually pretty dire situation.

His response was a longish and patronizing, 'courteously abusive' e-mail replete with sarcastic jibes, inconsistencies and a total unwillingness to examine his own situation more deeply. He twisted around various things in my e-mail to use them as debating points against me - the sort of thing only a person in defence of the indefensible would do. Indeed, the whole message was one of seeking to score debating points rather than speak from any real truth of his. Additionally he indicated that he wanted nothing further to do with me (that was fine by me) and even - playing 'little dictator' - asked me to remove from this site all links of mine to his site (something I most certainly would not do on the basis of his request, as it is my decision and not his as to what links I have on this site). Dalibor even suggested I quite likely had energy implants that were causing me to see 'astral' influence in everyone. All just clutching at straws, so that he could feel that I was somehow 'broken' and not worth paying any attention to.

And that is the last I've heard from him.

Letting go of all channelled information

In early April 2007 somebody e-mailed me out of the blue asking me how he might reconcile the writings of Steve Gamble* with my own on this website** - both of which he much respected. I read some of Steve's writings and was brought up with a jolt, for, although they were problematical and showing that Steve himself had a quite serious issue with the dark force interfering with him and distorting his outlook, those writings had faced me with a number of matters that had been niggling at the back of my mind. The resultant change of outlook of mine is described in Better Without Channelling.

* This link is here for information and authenticity only, and does not indicate any recommendation.

** At that time this site was entitled Self Realization & Spirituality, and presented a hopelessly dark force led souped up 'New Agey' view of the nature of non-physical 'reality', carrying masses of the convoluted 'story' that I'd been channelling, although of course that was all mixed up with lots of genuine and valuable insight too.

So, without concerning myself about whether anything in particular in Steve's writings was correct, I chose at once to let go of all channelled information, and then set about removing from this site all channelled or channelling-based information except where I wanted to use bits of it to show what confusions the dark force had caused me through all the channelling. That also meant that I let go of all 'spiritual realities', including alleged past lives of mine or anyone else's, and even the 'fact' of reincarnation, because these could never be verified and alternative explanations couldn't be ruled out, and all such information was liable to be distorted or even fully invented by the dark force, and would encourage us to believe in illusory scenarios that would actually obstruct our progress to full self realization and full freedom from 'dark' interference and influences.

My aim was not actually to dismiss reincarnation and past lives of my own, for I had no means of knowing that I hadn't had previous lifetimes. I was just letting go of all views on the subject and concentrating on living life in the present.

As for the matter of recognising ALL supposed higher beings as creations of the dark force (since then I've sharpened up my understanding of how best to describe them), this marked one of my key turnaround points in getting clear of dark force interference. Previously, whenever I'd resolved not to channel, I'd assumed that there was a genuine 'higher source' that I'd been attempting to channel from, and I was just getting interference from 'lower' beings, and all I'd got to do was to get rid of those interfering entities and I'd be able to channel properly. So, I'd kept reverting to channelling again, because I was hoping that I'd be getting less and less interference and thus better and better channelling.

What I'd now come to understand at last was that channelling was intrinsically 'of the dark side', and so the name of the game was to keep completely out of that and not to work from or with anything non-physical apart from my own deepest aspects - and never to treat any part of my consciousness at all ever as though it were an external being. So, no 'higher consciousness' nor 'higher self'. Also, no 'inner child', though fortunately I always recognised that notion as being rubbish - not that people actually channel from the purported 'inner child' anyway.

That was a great liberation for me, for I now realized I didn't have to worry about when I'd be able to channel without interference, and could apply my time and awareness to other, much healthier things. Also, I realized that, because I was from then on not heeding any of the intruded answers to my thoughts, this would be greatly disempowering to the 'entity' interferers (i.e. the dark force), and, over time such interferences would be bound to become progressively weaker. It would also make impossible any more of the most major type of 'entity' (i.e. dark force) sourced crisis event to happen for me, for one central aspect of the mechanism of such crises had been to get me increasingly embroiled in some big and convoluted story that I was being given - and now I couldn't be given any 'story' any more.

Initially I felt a little unsure of myself with regard to abandoning contacts with my supposed Divine Support Team, for I found it a little harder to let go of the notion that they were a genuine group of beneficial and well intentioned higher beings, there to assist me, and there was a niggling feeling that they might in some way be hurt or offended at my spurning their availability to assist. It's pretty obvious to me in retrospect that that was the dark force giving me covert pseudo-thoughts, with feelings to match, to try to get me continuing to involve myself with the 'Divine Support Team' and thus the dark force. Anyway, I was determined to be consistent, and so I rather self consciously turned my nose up at them too. Unsurprisingly really, I observed no hint of reaction from them, and over a few weeks they simply faded out of my life experience - though unfortunately the intruded 'no' flashes in response to thoughts of mine continued, though now being easier to ignore, now that I had a clear policy of not responding to any communications from non-physical sources.

There was, however, one thing that I'd been able to sort-of obtain through channelling (albeit with troublesome unreliability), which would have been really handy to retain, if only it could be done without interference. That was, to be able to establish what choices of mine at any particular time were or would be helpful or hindering for me, including food choices and means to address health and environmental stress issues and so forth, means to further my self realization and entity clearance process, and to test people out for compatibility / potential problems relating to me.

And this is where my interest revived in a procedure that Stephen and Lynda Kane called energy testing... And thus, so it was that, admittedly pushing through some feelings of resistance that no doubt were coming from the dark force, I got myself booked on one of their Energy Awareness Training workshops, primarily to see if I could learn to do energy testing sufficiently well to avoid 'entity' (i.e. dark force) interference and actually get relatively reliable results...

My real forward direction opens up, at last!

So, in mid-May 2007 I attended a two-day Energy Awareness Training workshop with Stephen and Lynda Kane*.

* For more about these, please see Healing and Self Realization - The Safest and Quickest Way.

The effect of this workshop was dramatic for me - even more so because I booked a personal Energy Solutions consultation with Stephen and Lynda following the workshop, to add further benefits. Through both means I was given tremendously effective tools for improving my life, which hadn't been available to me from other sources of which I was aware. Among other things, I brought back from that workshop and consultation:

• Energy testing - the ability to test (without a pendulum*, and just managing to keep clear of my interference from the dark force) any element in my living environment, and indeed any current or prospective choice of mine, as to whether or not it is or would be beneficial to me, and, in the case of objects, what their optimum placing would be for harmonious energetic relationship with me (i.e. without reference to arcane and often barmy Feng Shui rules, which completely fail to take into account individual people's resonances and sensitivities). Within a day of the consultation I'd already made some details in my flat (something of a Feng Shui disaster area) more healthy, with various other enhancements getting nicely lined up for bringing into effect over the following days, weeks and months.

  * I should point out, though, that people who attend the basic Energy Awareness Training workshop would not necessarily immediately become able to use non-pendulum means of testing (apart from the strong-arm test, which, as given, requires a second person to participate), though ongoing use of the various practices progressively opens one's grounded energy awareness so that quite rapidly almost anyone could progress to non-pendulum testing and, theoretically, ultimately direct sensing.
  

  This testing procedure, if used carefully and with awareness also works for one's possible future choices or actions, so that one can make one's life much more advancing for one's health and self realization without following anyone's rules or teachings (which are generally not 100% right for any one person, and would generally contain dark force sourced distortions) and instead just testing and eventually simply being able to sense directly what is or would be truly for your benefit (i.e. your 'ultimate good') - so, with care you can get pretty well everything right for yourself in the healthiest sense.

  This way, you could, for example, avoid buying a house that would be energetically harmful to you, and indeed could identify one that looks to be an excellent match for you, and you could also test things like the appropriateness for you of the timing of a possible future action or move.

  One of my great benefits from this testing procedure was that I was straightaway starting to make choices of food and meals that were not just directly physically healthy but were also healthy for me in energy terms (and thus much healthier physically in the longer run).

• a set of invigorating yogic practices ('weaves' - not ordinary 'Yoga') to progressively strengthen one's energy system and return much of the life force energy that is generally progressively lost with age (causing an accumulation of physical problems normally thought of as natural ageing) - that process actually being reversible even if not all the physical issues are fully reversible. So, you can gain increasing vitality and health as you progressively rejuvenate your energy system with the daily practices. This was very much a matter of progressive improvement and NOT simply a daily 'recharge'.

• More precise instructions for actively using the Energy Egg and Guardian Angel for various purposes. Although actually not that much information was given, it was enough to point me towards starting to use both those devices in a much more active and versatile way than previously, and indeed not that much later on, to try out altogether new things with them.

  
  The Energy Egg and Guardian Angel, each sitting on its respective transmitter base

• (from the consultation, based on direct 'reading' by Stephen Kane and not any pre-existing theories, opinions or teachings):

  • Recommendations of specific diet supplements and a semi-homoeopathic remedy* to address particular energy weaknesses of mine and thus to assist against certain long-standing physical issues of mine as well as strengthening my energy system against entities and other 'foreign' energies.
    

    * Actually my more recent energy testing indicates that that particular 'remedy', like anything homoeopathic, couldn't have much effect for me because of my being a no-soul incarnation - because of the way homoeopathy works (when, indeed, it works at all!).

  • Recommendations of particular foods to avoid and also to emphasize in my diet, to meet my specific healing needs (e.g. not what is good or bad for osteo-arthritis generally, but what would be good or bad for my osteoarthritis).
  • Additional 'weave' practices that are for meeting specific healing needs of mine.
  • A particular means to tune my Energy Egg so that it addresses specific healing / strengthening needs in my energy system - particularly relating to making me progressively more resistant to entities and other 'foreign' energies.

• A real sense of starting to live with awareness, positive intent and self mastery and beginning to leave behind the sense of being stuck in an inappropriate abode and a troublesomely repetitive routine and in many respects unfulfilling lifestyle (and of course stuck with interferences from the 'entities').

As part of my new 'living with intent' based on my new cultivation of energy awareness and making only 'strengthening' choices and actions, within a couple of weeks of the workshop I'd bought a new and better camera, and then got the idea - supported by my energy testing to see if this would be for my ultimate good at this time - to set up a new website to present and offer for sale the high-grade photos of nature and wild scenery subjects that I'd be taking on my hikes with the new camera. The project was to be named Clear Mind Photos, and duly got under way.

My daily use of the new practices was powerfully and consistently increasing a deep and very grounded and 'present' happiness and security about me. This was not going up and down, but was incrementing every day as I continued to use the practices. This was progressively shifting the centre of my awareness more and more strongly away from the intrusions from the dark force, so that although it did still intrude and interfere, it was increasingly easy to disregard, even while I kept fully vigilant and aware of all its little (attempted) tricks that still continued.

In late May, about a week after the workshop, the 'entities' (i.e. dark force) did try a last-ditch attempt to unseat me and make me flee in terror from the new methods - for 'they' put upon me a sustained crisis-level attack full of little messages pretending to be my own thoughts to the effect that the new practices had fully opened me to the 'entities' so that now they were taking me over. The manner in which the dark force did this would have really freaked most people if they'd experienced anything like that.

Fortunately by then I well knew the sort of tricks the 'entities' played (deceit being their middle name and every other name of theirs too!). I contacted the Crisis Resolution Team and had a couple of those lovely people visit me for a chat, explaining to them articulately what was happening and that there was nothing to be worried about at all, and that they were serving their purpose for me admirably simply by enabling me to get my awareness more grounded again. That was enough for me to defuse that attack, quickly restoring my balance of awareness. I very much doubted whether the 'entities' could put on another such strong attack after that (though of course ultimately only time would tell).

Although I count such events as crises, where the attacks get disruptive and I have to enlist a bit of assistance from the Crisis Team or anyone else in the caring professions, these haven't been really in the same league as when that 'Mr Pooh' (i.e. really the cacoprotean network) had focused very intrusive attention on me and got me embroiling myself with lots of convoluted (and downright crazy) 'story' that it was giving to me, ungrounding my awareness and 'softening me up' with a succession of ordeal-laden nights with no sleep.

The dark force did still attack at times with sexual arousal, seeking to get me inappropriately lustful after certain young(ish) men who I'd seen or encountered on my travels, but its main ongoing nuisance-making was the continuing interference with my anus and pee sphincter - the resultant anal clenching quite often being very painful as it aggravated the otherwise mild haemorrhoids there. This actually led to formation of a chronic abscess in my anus (which two successive doctors failed to diagnose correctly, claiming it was just aggravated haemorrhoids).

My concentration on the new practices, which didn't involve any theory or model of higher realities or higher beings, reinforced my complete relinquishment of all 'story' to my life, so that I was at last able to live in a distinctly more grounded way, joyfully accepting the here-and-now.

As part of my clearing out the earlier dark force influences, at an early stage I actually consigned to landfill all those seemingly precious sacred geometry healing wands, which I'd been using so extensively on myself. Whatever good intentions ZM  had presumably had when making and supplying them, he simply didn't realize that he himself was being seriously led astray and indeed to a significant extent controlled by the dark force and was unwittingly working as one of their helpers, as are ALL healers / 'lightworkers' within the New Age mindset and virtually all other healers / 'lightworkers' too - all because they are failing to consistently work ONLY from their core essence in their healing work and for the gaining of necessary information for healing and positive life change purposes. Indeed, ZM had been displaying some bizarre behaviour* towards me (as recounted in The Dark Force ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough Experiences) that underlined his invalidity as a true healer / spiritual teacher.

* You can read the actually extremely sinister story of what was really going on between ZM and myself in The Dark Force ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough Experiences.

Because of the completely 'non-story' way that I'd then come to be living and working on myself, I discarded any view as to whether the 'entities' still interfering with me were 'real' or were self-created as Dalibor Zaviska had claimed. Fortunately from my new perspective I well understood that I didn't need to know whether the interferences were from one type of source or another. I simply carried out my practices every day and kept my attention on my then very much improving everyday life experience. Within my mind, for some purposes I regarded the 'entities' as 'real' (i.e. external and separate from myself), while for other purposes I regarded them as just a wayward part of my mind. I saw neither view as true or false, but I simply used what assumption helped at any particular moment.

...And, as you can see from the relevant part of 'Astral Entities' - Interference and Attacks from 'The Dark Side', although I was then not completely 'there' with regard to the best way to regard the 'entity' manifestations, at least I was moving in that direction.

Further progress with the walking / hiking

Meanwhile, what happened then about my arthritic right knee? -- In fact its recovery accelerated since the May workshop. I realized that if my new self realization methods - especially the Returning Life Sequence - were any good, there was bound to be further improvement. The first intimation that this might actually be happening came through my early energy testing. I rather ruefully pictured myself hiking the 21 miles plus over 1100 metres of ascent on the coast path from Exmouth to Beer sometime in the future, and energy tested on it - and got a clear 'strengthening' response to that. "Pull the other one!", I thought, assuming that this must be another bit of 'entity' interference, giving yet another promise of something great that could never happen. But no matter how much I sought to falsify my testing on that mental image, I still got a consistent 'strengthening' to it.

Not only that, but, still taking that to be a sort of 'pie in the sky' for just maybe a few years' time if I were very lucky, when I tested on that notion I got a 'weakening' response, and then consistent 'strengthening' responses to my testing on the notion of doing that whole walk again actually later in the year! "Well, maybe...", I thought to myself very dubiously - but I saw that the real practical point of this was not prediction of the future, which one couldn't do via true energy testing (and which is extremely problematical when it's done through dowsing or channelling, because of the dark force involvement), but rather, giving me a focus and particularly an indication that it was not 'strengthening' for me to be sitting on my meagre laurels and continuing to restrict my hiking mileage to that maximum of 10-12 miles in a day, and for my best health I needed to progressively increase my mileage. That was the only way I could actually find out my true limits.

So, using energy testing to assist me in the choice of location and route for each hike, I successively upped the length and strenuousness of hikes, till on 30th July I had a real epic day out, walking the 18 miles and over 1500 metres of ascent from Polzeath to Tintagel. Admittedly the knee was hurting a fair amount by the end, but my energy testing still indicated that this was not a real problem - though it made sense to try to minimize further walking that day in the return hitch-hike. Amusingly, my not walking the extra mile at the end to my usual return hitch-hiking spot in Bossiney resulted in a particular delay in getting away from Tintagel, and my getting stuck at the main junction at Launceston, where I stood by the slip road all night (this being my first ever all-night hitch-hike), having to keep shivering strongly for nearly all the time, for it was an exceptionally cool night for July. I was concerned about all the extra work for that knee, and of course I was already feeling pretty 'knackered' from the hike, but my energy testing enabled me to keep monitoring my system and making the most 'strengthening' choice as to whether to stay there or to walk into the town and try to get a bit of assistance from a passing police patrol - the latter option getting avoided by probably a gnat's whisker.

Despite all that, there were no repercussions for the knee - and indeed, on 11th August, just two days before I started receiving my State pension (age 65), I really did walk the 21 miles and over 1100 metres of ascent from Exmouth to Beer once more - actually not quite such a hard walk overall as Polzeath to Tintagel. Naturally the knee hurt a bit again towards the end, but again my energy testing indicated that this didn't represent any cause for concern. Indeed, my further investigation via energy testing indicated that the particular nagging pain that did still come up like that in my hikes was not the arthritis at all, which itself was no longer causing any pain at all, and was a very rapidly receding issue. This remaining issue was something non-arthritic and much less serious, relating to a particular stress on a ligament of that knee, resulting from a slight malalignment, and, in addition, this itself was on the way out, though it would recede only gradually over months or indeed years.

The latter prognosis, which I got through careful energy testing on a carefully chosen set of hypotheses - effectively interrogating my own deeper aspects - has proved to be quite correct, and, naturally with ups and downs, that nagging pain manifested progressively less in my hikes, so that during 2008 the norm was increasingly to be without it. Also, when it did appear, it usually appeared NOT so much (or at all) towards the end of a hike, but temporarily when I was approaching places where I would terminate the walk if there were some sort of problem for me.

Basically, what was happening (and still does) is that the dark force detects 'micro-discomforts' that are too small by far for one to actually consciously feel, and enormously magnifies particular ones if that would in any way serve its disruptive and harmful agenda. And so, the dark force would cause me to feel that pain (and indeed certain other pains too) towards particular 'escape route' points on a hike in order to try to discourage me from continuing on the hike. Thanks to energy testing, in every case I could find out what was really happening, and so would continue beyond each particular 'escape route', the pain(s) then rapidly fading away.

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