"Am I a Healer?"

Introduction

It is my understanding that ALL people have at least some degree of healing ability.

The sort of healing that I am referring to here is what many would call spiritual healing, which includes many variants such as Reiki, Vortex Healing, shamanic healing and so forth. However, as I shall explain further below, there are very serious problems about all those variants, including what most people simply call 'spiritual healing', and I shall point to the one approach that is truly safe and effective.

Most people are unaware that they have such healing ability because either they've taken on the materialist-reductionist belief system, which dismisses such abilities as altogether fictional, or they've taken on one of the restrictive beliefs about healing that come from the religions. For example, many Christians have been led to believe that only revered teachers like Jesus can be healers, while many other Christians have been led to believe that although many people are able to give healing, to do so not in the name of 'Jesus Christ' is evil and the work of the devil. I'm not joking in saying the latter, for, as a great rarity among my many hitch-hiking encounters I've had such people lecture me about how I'm working for the forces of darkness in giving healing, just because I don't invoke Jesus.

There is a particular irony about the latter, because, as you would understand from The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks, to invoke 'Jesus', 'God' or 'the Holy Spirit' is actually invoking the dark force and not anything truly beneficial to us.

Another 'lunatic fringe' belief among a fair number of supposed Christians is that when you carry out healing that isn't in the name of Jesus you are "dabbling" with dark forces and are in great danger.

Actually, as I shall explain further below, they are almost right in a way - except I'd remove or replace that pejorative word 'dabbling' - but what they do no understand is that they themselves are being very seriously led astray by the dark force, as is EVERYONE who is doing healing in the name of Jesus or indeed in the name of or invoking any other personality, whether physical or non-physical.

In Buddhism there is a common though not universal belief that anyone doing Reiki healing outside Buddhism, and without permission from a Buddhist 'Master', is due for severe karmic consequences. Another common belief in Buddhism is that to use healing is best not done because it's a distraction from one's 'spiritual progress'.

What such beliefs have in common is that the religions are propagating them as part of their agenda of power and control over people, being themselves covertly controlled or manipulated by the dark force. They are teachings of fear and control, which is the antithesis of love. Fear seeks to hide the truth, while love is in the nature of truth.

Healing, awarely used upon yourself, can be part of a true self actualization / self realization path, but with a tremendously big caveat that I shall go into further below. Indeed, provided it is used in grounding ways and grounding contexts it is a healthier practice than what I see as the gross overuse of formal meditation that characterizes Buddhism and various other Eastern religions.

In fact awarely used healing can be a great self-empowerer and dissolver of beliefs*, so assisting you in opening up to your deepest truth - the truth and innermost nature of experience itself. THAT is particularly why the religions generally seek to restrict or constrain its use. Religions do not want people discovering that they're better off, and would find their deepest truth, without religion, as tends to happen when people are on true self healing / self actualization paths.

* As I point out further below, however, there is a very major problem through healers generally having taken up beliefs concerning healing and the nature of ourselves and of reality...

Healing - what is it?

Generally speaking, healing, in its usual, narrow sense, when done in the safe and effective way,  is the emanating of non-physical 'energies' from one's own core essence (which is fundamental consciousness or 'the Ultimate' itself, and thus unlimited in its healing capacity) to bring about healing of the whole being - that is, not just the physical body but all the non-physical aspects of a person, bringing about emotional healing and some degree of advancement in the person's self actualization. By the latter I mean letting go of limiting patterns and beliefs and getting in touch with and opening up one's deepest aspects, which are totally positive, loving, peaceful and and deeply knowing.

Healing therefore, when well used, goes hand in hand with positive life change. I and many healers see the prime purpose of healing as being for positive life change and supporting self actualization - physical improvements then coming about through the resultant dissolution of energy blocks and rebalancing of the whole energy system.

Healing can be transmitted by the laying on of hands, or through the hands positioned off the body (either within the person's energy system or at a greater distance), or by visualizations, breathing meditations, and in fact a vast range of possible ways. The healer's intent plays a crucial role in determining that a particular method transmits healing effects. It can be given directly to the person or remotely - even the other side of the world.

Healing is commonly called 'faith healing', but I avoid that term as it implies some connection with religion, which actually it does not have despite various religions claiming healing for their own (and indeed imposing seriously distorted and problematical versions of it). That term also implies the need for belief, and that is far from the truth. Healing works best without belief, though naturally the healer would generally have a trust in the process or (s)he wouldn't be doing it.

We improve our understanding of healing if we let go of the fictitious accounts of instant healing 'miracles' in the Bible and indeed the scriptures of other religions. Teachers of real integrity do not perform 'miracles'.

N.B. I am aware of a well-known spiritual teacher of the present time who does, allegedly, perform public 'miracles'. Any such figure can be recognised at once to be working 'on the dark side', because their agenda is very much to impress people and encourage them to revere and worship them - an agenda of the dark force and not at all for people's ultimate good. To set oneself up above other people like that is disempowering for those people and thus hindering their self actualization process, not helping it.

Putting healing in its context

This sort of healing is widely overrated in its importance, actually for a quite sinister reason. Our overall BIG need in our lives is not so much for 'healing' as normally understood, but for self actualization, which is actually the biggest and most comprehensive healing, but also goes beyond normal notions of 'healing'. Self actualization is the clearing out of all blocks, obstructions and distortions in our awareness and non-physical aspects to enable us to function as full, undistorted manifestations of our true nature, which is fundamental consciousness or 'the Ultimate'. Enlightenment is one stage in that process, and will occur naturally if people don't distort the process by striving for enlightenment as is done widely in Buddhism.

Healing on its own is not a very efficient means for self actualization, yet generally in healing traditions it is regarded as more or less all one needs in order to get 'there'. However, when you look at what they think is our ultimate aim or 'target', you find that they lack a clear focus or indeed any focus at all on true self actualization, which latter gets replaced by all manner of notions about entering higher realities and getting involved with higher beings, or general rather fuzzy notions of 'spiritual' advancement or 'spiritual' opening up, and evolution over very many sequential incarnations of the soul.

What those confused notions all have in common is that they have come into people's minds from extremely troublesome influences that affect them through the astral sub-reality, and which are all the time seeking to interfere with people (ALL of us) to steer them away from true self actualization and into taking up beliefs about higher realities and about reincarnation, which are designed to ensnare us in illusory realities when we die, so that then we are (unawarely) fully captives of the dark force. I explain about this troublesome situation in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks.

You can read about my own salutary experiences with healing and some of its problematical versions such as Reiki in My Own Self Actualization 'Path' - Part 1. I eventually learnt the hard way that I needed to de-emphasize 'healing' in my life and to use really powerful and effective means for self actualization instead - particularly those mentioned in Healing and Self Actualization - The Safest and Quickest Way. If I had all along been using decent self actualization methods like the latter, and had not tried to make various forms of 'spiritual' healing my main self actualization process I would almost certainly not have got into the horrendous and hair-raising pickle that I did with the dark force, as recounted in Troublesome Astral ('Dark') Beings - My Own Experience, and I'd have got fully clear of really significant interference from the dark force years ago instead of (by the look of things) in 2009.

I have not rejected hands-on healing, but simply now regard it as a bit peripheral to the most effective means for self actualization. Also, nowadays when I do use it, I do it as described in Healing From Our Core Essence - NEVER invoking supposedly higher beings nor any apparently external source of healing energy, and NEVER using symbols, crystals, wands nor sacred geometry of any kind. Where such healing comes into its own for me is in impromptu situations where I can quickly lay hands on a person who I encounter and has some health or emotional or entity problem. I don't kid myself that by doing that I've taken away their problem, but I do understand that in some way they will have benefited, whether or not they are aware of it.

It can also be very beneficial when done occasionally in one-to-one exchanges of healing with appropriate people - provided that the other people are similarly working only from their core essence, so that there is no possibility of picking up 'astral nasties' and implants from their healings (as in fact I did from various highly regarded healers who were invoking supposedly higher beings, which are actually ALL of 'the dark side', never mind how 'high' or 'Divine' they appear to be). However, this would need to be in addition to and not a replacement for one's primary means for self healing / self actualization.

I have come to the conclusion that almost universally the running of formal healing practices is harmful rather than beneficial, for all involved. Healers who set up such practices are almost always not putting proper emphasis on their own self actualization process and so are not able to inspire their clients to get into active self actualization themselves - even though the clients often believe that they are benefiting. And all such one-way healing sessions, even if they are paid for, are disempowering for the clients, whose real need is ALWAYS to take on proper self healing and self actualization methods themselves.

Those who wish to gain some income through really helping people in a healing way would do far better to give deeply aware consultations and counselling, for example, training people to use The Work and the EFT and the Alexander Technique - or indeed more generally the methodology that I present in Healing and Self Actualization - The Safest and Quickest Way. It would still be essential that such counsellors / trainers be long-standing and deeply aware users of whatever methods they intend to facilitate or train others in. It can then be that during the course of a session there is cause for giving a brief hands-on healing session - but that would best not be done without energy testing to establish whether that would really be the most helpful and strengthening thing to do at that point - and it would be done as something of a 'bit on the side' and wouldn't be the main content of a session.

Basically, healing (in the limited sense) is best reserved for the odd impromptu situations in everyday life and for exchanging between close friends and partners.

Psychic surgery - not such a big deal!

Certain healers go further than what I have described above as 'healing' and directly focus healing 'energy' to bring about specific and often very detailed physical healings. They are commonly known as psychic surgeons. Because the ability to do this is uncommon it is often held in some awe, for its results can sometimes seem pretty well miraculous. However, such work on its own has less value than healing as I described it above, because overall positive life change and emotional and holistic healing of one's non-physical aspects is of prime importance, and indeed psychic surgery can distract people away from the broader healing and positive life change that is their true priority. It can also handsomely cultivate the healers' sense of and lust for personal status ("boost one's ego" in common parlance), and is disempowering for the recipients of such 'healings'.

You may well have the idea that a particular psychic surgeon is doing a much greater job than an 'ordinary' spiritual healer could, but it can often be the other way round. A psychic surgeon gets a lot of pressure from clients to heal pressing physical problems of theirs, and in many cases this results in the psychic surgeon effectively being only a psychic surgeon and not so much of a true holistic healer at all - though in fact not that many people who are regarded as any sort of spiritual healer are anything like as holistic in their approach as is really needed.

It certainly appears 'sexier' to be a psychic surgeon and held in awe by many, and always with a long waiting list of eager clients, but that is all too readily just a personal or social status thing and a sidetrack from one's self actualization process, and real healing power for the human race at large comes through much less 'sexy'-looking ways. The mere fact of having a waiting list of clients speaks volumes about patterns of personal powerlessness that are being fed by such healers and psychic surgeons.

I'm not aware of a single healing that I've done that I'd call 'psychic surgery', nor of a single instant 'miracle' cure that I've brought about (but of course there may have been some that I never got to know about). Yet I'm well aware that the amount of healing power for people in general that I've been wielding has been prodigious, and the same could be true for you and many other healers. For one thing I always perceived myself as being an infinite source of healing energy - my true nature, like yours, being fundamental consciousness ('the Ultimate'). Also, apart from a few brief impromptu sessions on my travels, when I give healing sessions I discuss with the 'clients' the positive life changes and self healing measures that they could institute to continue their self healing process and become effective healers for themselves and others.

To me, being a healer and being a teacher and empowerer are virtually synonymous. Even when I'm not actually giving hands-on healing sessions, when I encountered people who I sense are healers themselves I would normally remark on that special attribute of theirs and, where appropriate, give a suggestion or two as to how they might get into healing - but with emphasis upon self healing and self actualization, and with a caution against the all-too-common desire to concentrate on healing others without giving priority to one's own self actualization process.

Actually, nowadays I no longer usually point such people towards 'healing' as normally understood, and, rather, seek to draw their attention to the need for self actualization and clearance of one's dark force interferences. That is still healing in the broadest sense, but I recognise nowadays that most people who I'd previously got interested in 'healing' would have got involved in one of the problematical healing systems such as Reiki, and so I could have actually been unwittingly pointing them towards their own eventual downfall.

The point here is that with minimum effort on my part, instead of just making a relatively small number of people 'better' from particular problems, I'm acting as a catalyst for a large number of people's moving into self actualization and in some cases themselves becoming teachers of sorts and strong catalysts for the same thing. So, through my various encounters during my outings, I leave behind me a trail of life turning points or at least positive seeds that I've planted, which in many cases will in some manner sprout later on.

You yourself could operate in this way if you wished - it's nothing peculiar to me.

And now a Red Warning about psychic surgery...

In practice there are additional and very serious problems about psychic surgery and the people who choose to practise it. The dark force covertly directs particular people into psychic surgery, and exploits the situation to enable them to put implants and other 'astral nasties' in clients' non-physical aspects, while believing that they are doing only beneficial things. Because psychic surgeons are at least to a fair extent using their ordinary mind to direct healing energy, they are not able to know and take into account what is truly for a client's best interest*, and such a person will inevitably drain his / her own energy in doing such healing work, resulting in health problems**. Also, the way they operate to a considerable extent blocks the operation through them of the one really safe, healthy and effective healing source, which is their own core essence. They are thus particularly open to dark force interference and influence.

* Generally speaking, they believe that they do know this, on the basis of 'guidance' that they obtain from 'guides', angels, 'Divine Support Team' or other supposedly 'higher' presences or indeed their supposed 'higher consciousness'. But all of those, as I understand now, are just illusions that are created in their mindspace under hijack-control from the dark force. Thus whatever those presences indicate is worse than useless, and is specifically aimed to mislead.

** The psychic surgeon CT mentioned that periodically (every few weeks or months - I don't remember the exact details now) his psychic surgery work would cause him to become somewhat ill, so that he would then have to take a break from it. He regarded that effect as intrinsic to that sort of what he saw as 'real high-level' healing work - not understanding at all its real cause, nor understanding that in more fundamental terms his type of healing work was actually low-grade, because he was not working all that significantly from his own core essence, and indeed he didn't even seem to know of such a 'thing' as one's core essence.

In his view the healing 'energies' that were used in his psychic surgery were various 'life force energies' that were gathered from various very high 'dimensions' by the healer's 'higher self'. But that's all a dark force sourced distortion and minimalization of healing - pointing everyone right away from their own core essence - the source not only of the highest grade healing but also of one's own self actualization. The so-called higher self is just a fiction that's been given to many people by the dark force, to ensure that they keep looking outside themselves for what is really simply themselves.

In short, if you're a psychic surgeon you have a very serious problem of involvement with the dark force, whether or not you are aware of it, and likewise, if you've at any time been a client of a psychic surgeon, you have almost certainly picked up one or more serious problems from him / her (related to connections with the dark force), whether or not you are aware of it at the present time.

I myself was a client of the abovementioned psychic surgeon CT for a few sessions, and he recounted to me how he came to have his apparent 'special' powers of being able to 'see' within people's bodies and create energy implants (he usually called them matrices) to carry out healing functions. He told me that he'd had a couple of "alien" beings visit him (I think he meant non-physically, or if they had seemed to be physical they would have been in an astral realm) and ask for his co-operation in some project, and when they'd finished with that project they gave him those special abilities, supposedly as a reward. What they had actually done was to put implants in CT's non-physical aspects, which enabled the dark force, which had been pretending to be those aliens, then to control and manipulate his non-physical perceptions, so that he was then operating unwittingly as a puppet of the dark force. People like myself, who the dark force particularly seeks to 'bring down' and either take over or wreck, are particular targets of people who are psychic surgeons (and indeed also those who are called lightworkers).

I'm not suggesting that CT had anything other than the best of intentions for me or anyone else, but he was being seriously manipulated by the dark force, and succeeded in leaving me with implants and other dark force connections that were a step towards the tremendous troubles from the dark force that commenced for me in 2003. Also, the mischief didn't end there, because I also received harmful implants from NB, a long-standing Reiki teacher (not a 'Master', as such people absurdly call themselves)*, who himself had learned from CT how to create energy implants in people (CT called them 'matrices'), supposedly for healing purposes. NB himself was being controlled by the dark force and almost certainly a partial walk-in, and, as far as I can tell from my own inner inquiry, the implants he was putting into people's non-physical aspects (including my own) were not the temporary healing implants that he believed they were, but were relatively permanent and decidedly harmful, so further compromising the intrinsic protection of my non-physical aspects against dark force interferences.

* For more about Reiki, see further below.

My points about CT's own serious predicament are underlined by his final communication to me - a somewhat desperate-toned e-mail in December 2006 in which he said he was under "massive" psychic attack, which had been going on for a few months then, and it looked as though that would be going on for some time yet. And I note now from 2009 onward that his website has apparently disappeared, so I seriously wonder whether those attacks have even brought about his demise.

Although I cannot know about this for sure, it looks quite possible that his severe attacks may have been a response of the dark force to his telling me of a method of his for removing energy implants, in an e-mail correspondence that must have come at or just before the time that his attacks started. Why might there be such a connection? -- Because as soon as I read his description of that method, my own deepest aspects recognised it as something that I would almost certainly later on adapt in order to get clearing myself of dark force interferences and attacks - and, because I'm who I am, I would undoubtedly go sharing the adapted method (which in the event became Grounding Post) with as many people as possible.

Thus, it looks very much as though, by passing to me (already targeted by the dark force for destruction because of my being a potential threat to it) a potent method for countering the dark force's interferences, CT could well have got himself recognised by the dark force as yet another threat to it, and so in that event could have been also targeted for destruction*. The difference was that I had the depth of awareness and clear-mindedness of a no-soul incarnation in a fairly advanced state of self actualization, whereas CT was limited by some soul programming and had been drawn deeply into the dark force's agenda, weakening himself all the time with his 'healing' activities. So, I was able to get myself clear of all that garbage, while, unfortunately, it looks at least possible that CT may have succumbed to the attacks.

* Note that I don't talk of the dark force retaliating or seeking revenge. That may be something that the dark force gets people to do, but, without an aware consciousness itself and with only programming to direct it, it simply responds to what might be a threat to its agenda and indeed its very existence. So, the issue wouldn't have been that CT had done something 'bad' that required punishment, but simply that he'd managed to identify himself as a potential threat to the dark force, and, because of his psychic surgery work and unwitting involvement with the dark force, would have been already particularly vulnerable to particular attack methods that the dark force could use upon him. - That's the theory, anyway; I've no means of knowing whether that was actually what was happening.

Religious / theistic baptism and miraculous healing cults or organizations - beware!

My observations so far point to at least the vast majority of these being not only not benign but actually downright sinister, because of their apparently being front organizations of the postulated cacoprotean network. They thus can be seen as real hardcore dark force organizations every bit as much as Satanist and black magic cults, but are more dangerous because they put on an appearance to ordinary people of their being benign and even 'good', and so much more readily recruit members, and none of those people have an inkling of what's really happened to them and that they've become seriously (or even more seriously) captive to the dark force. So, when you become baptised or otherwise initiated in such organizations, according to my best understanding so far you would most likely there and then become a part of the cacoprotean network yourself - in other words an actual part of the dark force. That appears to be the real underlying purpose of those initiations. Fancy a try? 

All those organizations seek to impress with stories of supposedly impressive 'miraculous' physical healings, but NONE of them has any inkling of the broader based and more important healing, which strengthens your non-physical aspects, clearing not just physical issues but bringing you progressively into self actualization. You let yourself get persuaded by members of such organizations at your own very great peril!

"What makes you think I'm a healer?"

To some extent in everyday life but primarily on my weekly hiking outings, when I hitch-hiked out to some wild place for a usually strenuous hike and then hitch-hiked back within the day, I would encounter people who I could sense were healers, and usually they were unaware of the fact. Often I would be moved to tell them what I'd noticed, to give them the opportunity to embark on an active self actualization process and thus have positive and healing effects upon others through a sort of catalytic effect.

As noted further above, usually nowadays I do not draw attention to these individuals' healing ability in that sort of way - instead pointing to their capacity and ability for genuine self actualization and clearance of dark force interferences.

As already noted, all people have some healing ability, but those who I describe as healers are those ones who have this sufficiently strongly for it to be worthwhile for them to actively use it in some way. Such people are invariably what mediums and psychics would call old souls (owing to extremely troublesome misinformation that they've received from 'the dark side') but are really direct incarnations of fundamental consciousness (what I call no-soul incarnations) or at least have soul-reincarnated no more than a few times. In short, they have little or sometimes no soul programming.

There are actually three main factors, any or all of which may catch my attention to alert me that the person is a healer (though nowadays I can always confirm such things and possibly find out more details if necessary, by means of inner inquiry supported by energy testing):

• A very subtle impression of there being a (non-physical) silvery or whitish light or radiance around the person. This isn't a direct indication that the person is a healer, for what it really tells me is that the person is poorly grounded. That, however, generally goes with no-soul incarnations or those who have soul-reincarnated no more than a few times, who are intrinsically the strongest healers.

• An 'energy' resonance between the person and myself that I feel as a beautiful love-filled 'buzz'. That indicates a relative compatibility with my own energy (I am a no-soul incarnation) and so again points to the other person as being in a similar if not identical state and thus being a strong healer. However, I have to be very circumspect about that, because the dark force readily gives me such impressions when there is a little bit of mutual 'resonance', in order to try to get me unhealthily involved with the particular person.
  

• A sort of 'liveness' of the 'energy' in the person's hands, which I can feel when we shake hands on introduction / parting. It feels very beautiful to me, and varies a lot in character from person to person. I used to interpret that as 'healing energy', as healers generally do, but I'm more circumspect nowadays about any such interpretation, because my understanding is that genuine healing 'energy' from the hands has a very subtle feel that the vast majority of people simply wouldn't notice, and what people are actually feeling is an amplified and distorted replica of such impressions, intruded by the dark force in order to mislead people about what is really going on for them, and to keep them tuned in to impressions given to them by the dark force rather than the much more subtle (but all important) impressions that come from their own deepest aspects.
  

Having written this far, however, I would point out again that nowadays actually I do not regard being a supposed healer as being the really important thing. Such people are at least potentially more open than other people to their own self actualization, and really that is what is important. Their 'healing' ability, although real, is a secondary issue, and can all too easily become a sidetrack if focused upon in lieu of getting on with a broadly based genuine self actualization process.

"How would I make a start into healing?"

People take many different routes into starting to practise healing, but I have to warn that virtually ALL of them bring serious problems with them, including ALL the well known versions such as Reiki. Here are a few of the problems about such methods.

• Invoking guides and other so-called higher beings including ascended masters, goddesses, angels or archangels. None of these are what the particular healers think they are, for the dark force simply invents such supposedly beneficial beings and poses as them, to lure the healer into involvement with it and taking on its usually fairly well disguised agenda for taking control over people. I explain about this in Better Without Channelling and The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks. The apparent lovingness and wisdom of those supposedly higher beings is nothing other than that of your own deepest aspects, which is being relayed to you, actually in distorted form, by the dark force.

• Not connecting with the 'highest' / purest healing energies. Unless you simply allow your own deepest nature as an incarnated part of fundamental consciousness to work through you, any healing energies that you are channelling are not the purest and 'highest' and involve dark force connections that may lead to your completely unawarely placing harmful implants or other harmful 'foreign' energies in other people's non-physical aspects. Your own core essence is fundamental consciousness itself and thus 'the Ultimate', and thus any apparently external energy, never mind how 'high' or 'Divine' it may appear to be, must inevitably be lesser than what you automatically get from your own core essence.  It's ironic that in pretty well all healing systems and traditions a certain superiority is incorrectly assumed through the practitioners' use of invoking 'guides' or specific higher beings (or types of higher being) or using symbols, crystals, wands or elaborate procedures. All these are distractions from using that very purest and most effective healing source - which is, as I say, your own deepest level of being.

• Being motivated to ask supposedly external non-physical sources for guidance or other information (dowsing or channelling). As already noted, when you invoke or receive communications from a non-physical source (even just a supposed guide of yours) you are actually getting 'information' given to you by the dark force posing as whatever higher or beneficial being who you think you're getting. Channelling or dowsing is one of the commonest ways that people pick up major problems of interference and attacks from the dark force, and indeed it precipitated my own very severe issue with it - see The Dark Force ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough Experiences.

• Hazards of picking up problems with 'entities'. Actually usually it is not so much entities themselves that are picked up (though in some cases this does occur, sometimes with disastrous results), but elementals and / or problems or increased problems with the dark force. This can occur through the healing work weakening your grounding and also through its giving the dark force opportunities to place thought forms and devices such as implants in your non-physical aspects, so rendering you much more 'open' and vulnerable to the dark force and indeed entities. 

• Use of symbols in some traditions such as Reiki. These do not connect you to or channel the 'highest' and purest healing energies, and indeed they deliver distorted, unbalanced energies that have a disruptive and weakening effect in one's energy system. All 'sacred' and healing symbols have been given to us by the dark force to get us weakening our non-physical aspects and increasing their hold upon us.

• Use of crystals, stones, healing wands or sacred geometry structures. To my understanding, a similar consideration applies. Each such object or device can channel only particular 'frequencies' of healing energy, and that energy is liable to arrive to some extent distorted or unbalanced by the construction or configuration of the 'hardware'. I myself had been using some very powerful sacred geometry healing wands, but eventually understood that they were each distinctly limited as to what range of energies could be channelled through them in healings, and the sacred geometry constructions on those wands (mostly the merkaba configuration of two interlocking pyramids) ensured that the energy received had a 'jagged' quality about it that was significantly disruptive in my non-physical aspects and had been a particularly major factor in opening me to the tremendous troubles that I fell into with the dark forces from late 2003 onwards.

• Use of attunements. Attunements are given in Reiki and its many variants, and also in Vortex Healing. Such attunements ALWAYS are covertly attunements to the dark force, regardless of what anyone believes about their benefits and supposedly 'high' connections. In any case the Reiki attunements involve putting symbols into a person's non-physical aspects, and those symbols, as already intimated, themselves increase a person's connections with the dark force. If you seriously want to open yourself more to the 'highest' and purest healing source, then no attunement carried out by another person will do that, and the way to go about it is simply to embark on an active self actualization process - for that is what progressively opens up for you that 'ultimate' healing source, which is your own deepest or core essence. That is in effect the ultimate healing attunement.

  One type of attunement that is particularly virulent in its damaging your non-physical aspects and opening you more to the dark force is the  Merkaba Activation attunement, which I learnt from the 'lightworker' who made my sacred geometry wands. In no way is that a true healing procedure, and it did me particularly serious harm in opening me to the dark force.

• Taking on of beliefs in particular 'spiritual realities' involving some sort of hierarchy of dimensions and higher beings, and in soul reincarnation as being a fact of life for us all. This is one of the areas where I myself got led astray as a result of my involvement in healing. It is the 'dark side' that seeks to get us attached to and believing in such scenarios, because the dark force seeks to stop us reaching optimal self actualization and thus total freedom from dark force interference and control. Taking on such beliefs puts a great big spanner in the works of our reaching full self actualization. I don't mean at all that we should disbelieve in anything, but rather, that the healthy way forward involves our keeping an open mind about such things, with the understanding that we cannot really know what is true beyond our present-time observations of 'What Is'. You can read more about the problems arising from taking on beliefs in supposedly higher realities and in sequential, evolutionary reincarnation of the soul (and indeed the notion that our true identity is the soul), in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks.

This all looks pretty scary, doesn't it! How, then, could anyone safely get into using their healing ability? -- NOT by taking up Reiki, for a start (as I used to recommend)!

The answer is actually reassuring and simple, and this site puts you strongly in touch with it. The first thing is to take up active self actualization methods, including energy testing, as I indicate in Healing and Self Actualization - The Safest and Quickest Way, so that you can establish for yourself to what extent doing any hands-on healing would be beneficial for you to do, and, regardless of that consideration, you would be turning your life around to an extent that you almost certainly wouldn't have thought possible. And then, to take up safe hands-on healing, your best guide (that I know of) is Healing From One's Core Essence.

On the other hand, if you go to a healing group or workshop, although you may well enjoy the experience you would almost certainly pick up some highly problematical and indeed harmful 'baggage' of one kind or another, and would have got more connected with the dark force - so primarily self teaching is the only safe and sensible way that I know of to go about it.

See yourself not as a healer but as a catalyst for healing...

'Trying to heal' particular issues is generally problematical, and can readily lead to your using some of your own energy and so depleting yourself and in the long term causing yourself health problems. It also cultivates personal status issues in the healer and is disempowering or at least non-empowering for the recipient. There is also the likelihood, this way, of carrying out a healing that is not for the recipient's ultimate good, and a near-certainty of passing on problems with 'entities' and the dark force, whether or not they get recognised.

The most effective way to be a healer is to think of yourself at all times as a catalyst for healing from the ultimate and purest source (which is actually your deepest essence - not something 'above' you), and to always have the intent that fundamental consciousness or 'What Is', and not the will of your ordinary mind, determines the outcome of a healing. So, for example, if you are giving healing to a person with cancer, it's best that you have the intent that the healing brings or facilitates the outcome that is for the person's ultimate good - not specifically that the cancer should be cured, even though the cancer was the initial reason for your giving that healing. You cannot know what is for that person's ultimate good. It is the dark force that seeks to get us fixated on specific outcomes, and thus the more fixated we are on specific outcomes, the more we are aligned with the dark force.

Actually, having said that, I must qualify it, because any notion that a person is actually meant by some 'Highest Will' to die prematurely of, say, cancer, or such a premature death may be for a person's ultimate good, is a lie that's come to us from the dark force. The real reason for it being unhelpful to focus on trying to clear the particular cancer is that there is a need to clear the cancer's underlying cause(s), and focusing on the cancer itself (actually a mere symptom) would weaken the focus on what really needs to be done to clear that cancer. Because the ordinary mind would not know what work really needs to be done, it therefore makes perfect sense to allow fundamental consciousness itself to work on the person's entire being, without being constrained by preconceptions held in the ordinary mind.

In fact a small but significant minority of healers, and people in some religious factions, hold the belief that to do healing at all is dangerous for the healer, because the healer must always ask their higher guidance whether the healing they are intending to give is permitted, and to forget to do so and to give a healing that was supposedly not permitted would have severe karmic consequences for the healer. I write in some detail about this harmful, dark force sourced myth in Healing - Some Myths Exposed.

You are a catalyst for healing - now!

It is greatly helpful to your self actualization process as well as enhancing and expanding your healing abilities / qualities if you build a very basic and generalized visualization into your everyday self perception, and you regularly use the set of affirmations that I give in The Guide to Complete Self Actualization. The visualization is based on the core point (aka core star) visualization that I give in Healing From Our Core Essence. It's very helpful to use that visualization anyway, 'as is', but there is a simple adaptation to use in everyday life - and that is, to actually perceive yourself and your core point as being one and the same. So, you perceive yourself as the core point, radiating out healing and purifying energy from an infinitely small but infinitely energetic point source, and naturally catalyzing the opening out and expanding of the radiation from the core points of people around you.

I recommend that this visualization is not made into a clear and maybe brilliant 'vision' but is more felt or 'understood' rather than being clearly 'seen'. The more you assimilate that into your everyday self perception, the more effective you will become as a catalyst for other people's healing and self actualization without your ever having to do anything specific to 'give them healing'. It also greatly assists your own process of clearing yourself from dark force interferences and influences.

I caution, however, against seeing yourself as a 'being of Light' as I used to recommend. Although that is to a certain extent taking you in the right direction, it is also diverting you into a seriously harmful confusion that has come to us from the dark force, which equates us or our deepest nature with 'light' or 'Light'.

We are actually not light at all but consciousness or awareness and clarity, and so, although you can't help but allow the core point radiation in your visualization to have some visibility for practical purposes, basically it's best not to think of that visibility as representing light at all but simply being a schematic representation of something that is invisible and could best be described as an emanation of clarity. So, instead of thinking of yourself as a being of Light (highly problematical), think of yourself as a being of fundamental clarity and you will be both safe and pointing in the most healthy direction that is possible. You are thus catalyzing the opening up in others of their fundamental clarity.

Give priority to healing yourself!

I have really said this already further above, but it's so important that I'm saying it again, and will no doubt do so yet again!

Many people who see themselves as healers concentrate on 'healing' others and pay scant regard to their own self healing and self actualization process. This is problematical for healer and recipients alike. For one thing it is at best unhelpful for the healer's own self actualization process and in virtually all cases it results, long-term, in energy depletion and health issues for the healer. For another, the healer's outlook, transmitted to the recipients from the healer's 'energy system' even if not stated out loud, encourages neediness and powerlessness in recipients, regardless of the apparent strength or quality of any healing 'energy' that is being transmitted.

The most effective healers give ongoing priority to their own self healing and self actualization, so that they are good role models and thus are teachers - the latter not so much by actively 'teaching' as by example and through interpersonal 'induction' and resonance effects. This way healers can encourage and inspire other people to become their own healers and take up true self actualization methods. That is real healing!

Let go of the notion of running a formal healing practice!

If you want to run a formal healing practice, presumably with paying clients, you're straightaway in trouble, because you've lost the plot of your own self actualization process. If you want to really help other people and yourself, the great thing to do is to run workshops for people to learn real self healing and self actualization methods, such as I present on this site. That, if approached in the right way, is intrinsically empowering for all involved, whereas running a standard sort of formal healing practice constantly disempowers people and encourages them to put far too much emphasis on energy work healing rather than the full gamut of genuine self actualization methods - and of course feeds their patterns of wanting to pass the responsibility for positive change in their lives to be in the hands of anyone but themselves.

Naturally you would need first to have become highly proficient and 'connected' in your use of the methods, otherwise you'd be little less of a charlatan and impostor than any common or garden Reiki 'Master'. So, if you're 'raring to go' to run such workshops without first having been achieving dramatic positive personal change through use of the methods over a number of years, you'd really need to subject yourself and your motivations to careful and deep scrutiny.

About smoking and using other harmful substances

I am at odds with a large minority of healers in that I say openly and publicly that every healer who smokes, or uses other harmful substances such as cannabis or other so-called recreational drugs, or alcohol, is only a partial healer and cannot be fully effective without stopping using such substances. These substances in various ways have disruptive and weakening effects in people's non-physical aspects, making them more open and vulnerable to the dark force and more prone to attracting problematical 'energies' and entities, and they hamper their users' own self healing / self actualization process, quite apart from the direct physical harm that they do. Also, taking any such substance regularly is a habit that is helping to keep in place one or more of its users' emotional issues, and it encourages other people's retention of such habits. 

I know some healers who appear to be very powerful in transmitting healing energy and yet who smoke. I have to point out that if they did not smoke:

• Their healings would be still more powerful and of higher quality;
• They would be good role models who could inspire their clients to give up their own harmful and negative habits - which is an essential part of true, holistic healing;
• They would have less risk of passing on problematical 'energies' or entities to recipients of their healings or indeed picking up such undesirables from them.

And yet various healers have criticized me, at least by implication, for not having an 'each to his own', laissez-faire attitude with regard to healers who smoke. They accuse me of being judgemental, because they confuse my clear-mindedness and use of aware discernment with being judgemental.

In fact I'm not saying that smoking healers are bad, but I'm simply pointing to cause and effect. How on earth can a healer who is holding onto harmful habits himself be an inspiration and motivator to others to let go of their negative and harmful habits? Such healers are in denial of issues of their own and so are great teachers of keeping in denial, not of facing and resolving issues. Is that really what you'd accept of a supposedly holistic healer?

I thus encourage anyone who seriously wants to practise as a healer to commit themselves to letting go of smoking or any other substance misuse habits at the very earliest opportunity. I give some useful pointers for anyone wanting to get clear of addictions, habits and compulsive behaviours in Letting Go of Addictions and Compulsive Behaviours.

However, for most people who've been using cannabis regularly for a significant period the chances are that the cannabis will have damaged their motivation for positive change in their lives, and in cases where that has happened they will not use (at least properly) the truly effective methods that I give on this site for addressing their addiction, and will hold onto the latter, very likely justifying it and possibly being angry with me for having spoken out about this matter. Such people cannot be effective holistic healers, never mind how strongly they may transmit what seems to be healing energy.

'Entities' and dark force interferences ARE an issue for healers

This issue is so important that, although I have really already covered it pretty well above, I return to it here.

People starting into healing are commonly taught that "The Highest Will ensures that a healer is never presented with healing issues that (s)he is not ready yet to handle.".

Following what I've already said further above about the dark force's almost universal involvement with healers and their healing activities, it must be pretty obvious that the abovementioned belief, rife in healing traditions, is founded on nothing better than ignorance based in denial. Indeed, the notion of any external 'Highest Will' itself is sourced from the dark force to divert us away from the true 'ultimate' reality of fundamental consciousness, which is the base level of our own deepest aspects and of 'What Is'.

As I've already made pretty clear, the human race is replete with problematical and indeed seriously troublesome non-physical entities and influences! The dark force and attached 'lost' souls are involved in the vast majority of mental health issues that are presented to doctors or psychiatric units. Indeed, it's extremely unlikely that you yourself don't have any interference from those, albeit in most cases more or less covert.

The main types of troublesome entities and influences that I'm aware of are:

• Spirit attachments (earthbound spirits). These are the consciousnesses of people who have died but for some reason felt too afraid to undergo their proper transition, or who attached to the person because of a grudge arising from a karmic connection (such as having in a previous lifetime harmed or killed that person). Such attached spirits can cause massive problems for the affected person, depleting the person's energy and giving them greatly troublesome emotional feelings. They very often drive such people into addictions or even to suicide, and can seriously affect the person's physical health. Indeed it's said that the affected person stands a good chance of dying in the same manner as happened for the attached spirit.

  However, where such earthbound spirits behave in ill-willed and otherwise problematical ways in addition to energy depletion, they are generally being themselves manipulated by the dark force (see below).

• Elementals. Actually it's possible that most if not all of the overtly seriously troublesome 'spirit attachments' are nothing of the kind but are elementals, which are programmed complexes of thought forms. I write about these in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks. To the best of my understanding, the most troublesome type of all tends to be the 'combo entity', which is a combination of an entity-like elemental with a soul fragment (see below).

• Soul fragment attachments. Much less often recognised, but apparently also pretty common. When a person suffers trauma, commonly or maybe always a part of that person's consciousness becomes apparently separated off, still connected by an 'energy' cord. It may float around close to the person or it may attach to an object or a place or another person, in the latter case causing rather similar problems to a spirit attachment. Emotional healing and the resultant soul retrieval process (NOT a soul retrieval healing!) for the owner of the soul fragment is the most fundamental need.

• Parasitic 'lost' souls. These are not at all the same as earthbound spirits, and almost all people who are no-soul incarnations or soul incarnations that have incarnated only a few times have some of these attached to them. They are attached at quite a deep level of consciousness, which could loosely be described as 'soul level'. I write about them in some detail in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks.

• Partial walk-ins. These are human souls degraded and specially programmed by the dark force to take over and control to various extents the individuals to whom they are attached. They are a particular feature of people who are spiritual teachers and so-called lightworkers and indeed many healers - especially those who have set themselves up as teachers of healing. I write about them in some detail in Partial Walk-ins - How the dark force nearly nobbled me.

• Spirit attachments (failed partial walk-ins). These can have similar effects to earthbound spirits, but quite commonly, because of their very strongly control-oriented dark force sourced programming, have a similar effect to a partial walk-in - though the affected person has a better chance of recognising that something is amiss, and even, if very clear-minded and strong-willed, doing something about it.

• The dark force (often called astral entities, astral beings, demons, etc). This, contrary to popular belief among healers, is the most widespread and indeed ubiquitous type of non-physical influence, and often manifests as apparent entities or 'voices', and to some extent and in various ways it interferes with just about everyone on the planet - usually covertly. It is the primary problem in ALL healing work that is not done purely from one's own core essence, and it has an unremitting agenda of seeking control and domination over people individually and the human race altogether. I give a lot of information about it in The True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks, The Dark Force ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough Experiences and Night Hells (Night Terrors) and Hearing Voices.

N.B. As I've emphasized in many parts of this site, I cannot honestly claim to absolutedly know about the objective existence of any of the above (just as really nobody could). They are simply postulations that best explain a range of observed phenomena.

I myself am aware of having received harmful implants or other energy 'devices' linking me to the dark force, from at least four healers independently. I write more about that in The Dark Force ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough Experiences.

Unfortunately most teachers of healing encourage their students to open to some sort of external-seeming 'guidance', whether by pendulum dowsing or by 'listening within', without a mention that people who do this would be opening themselves to the dark force even if they are supposedly protecting themselves, or that all apparent non-physical sources of 'guidance' and channelled information are all highly problematical because of dark force involvement. I therefore recommend that, however safe any teacher of yours makes opening to 'guidance' sound, you don't get involved in it at all, and indeed get right away from that teacher, who is a menace. But ultimately it's your own choice...

Protection? -- Forget it!!

As for the notion of 'protection', for an extremely important reason I'd say, "Forget it!". The point is that, throughout the planet, healers, 'lightworkers' and psychics are using all manner of methods to supposedly protect themselves from entities or indeed from 'dark forces'. For the most part those supposed protection methods simply do not work, and it is those people's own dark force interferences that give them the impression that their 'protection' methods do work, so that they continue to deceive themselves.

It is far better that you remain aware of your real vulnerability without kidding yourself at any point that you are protected, and also to be using proper self actualization methods that are progressively 'cleaning' and strengthening all aspects of yourself, both physical and non-physical, so that you are cultivating and building up your natural invulnerability to entities and the dark force (and also increasingly living a happier life, with tremendous inner clarity and freedom). That is the real protection - cultivating your intrinsic invulnerability to entities and problematical influences. The sort of methodology that achieves this is pointed to in Healing and Self Actualization - The Safest and Quickest Way.

Reiki and 'spiritual healing' - my own volte face

Yes, not only did I get certificated as a so-called 'Reiki Master', but on this very page at one time I was recommending Reiki as the best 'way in' to doing any sort of 'spiritual' or energy-work healing. At that time I had no idea of the reason why I was having serious troubles from the dark force (what I took then to be interfering 'astral beings'), and I now understand that, although the strongest single cause was a combination of the sacred geometry wands that I was using, plus my channelling, my prior involvement in Reiki had been a part of the picture - helping to unground my awareness, and to weaken my energy system with the symbols I was using. Indeed I used not only the standard Reiki symbols but the odd ones from Karuna Reiki and other sources, including the OM, then the merkaba too, and a particularly harmful one called something like the Mer-Ka-Fa-Ka-Lish-Ma, and then really got into my own, channelled, version of Reiki, using the harmful 'Am Re' symbol that I'd channelled (initially I was told that it was the 'new OM').

N.B. I have removed from here an illustration of that 'Am Re' symbol, because I've realised that there is a particular way malicious people could use it to do harm to others.

Just for a laugh, here's my own Reiki 'Master' certificate - not worth the paper it was printed on! I see that the teacher (NOT 'Master') even omitted the year in the date - it was actually 2001. How in the name of Beelzebub can a maximum of three undemanding workshops, with at best only the most cursory discernment as to who receives a certificate (virtually all workshop members get one), create or define a worthwhile teacher or indeed healer - let alone a 'Master'?!

If you want to keep clear of the dark force, 
 you don't collect status symbols / 
 self deception aids like this one! 
 N.B. Packs of these ornamental certificates, 
 complete with cheap stick-on gilt (or do I 
 mean 'guilt'?) seal but without printing 
 within the main rectangle, could be 
 bought cheaply at W.H.Smith's just 
 a few minutes' walk from where I live.

As well as my Reiki involvement, I went on some training workshops of the Westcountry Natural Healing Fellowship and also of the National Federation of Spiritual Healers (NFSH) - both here in the UK. I'm actually glad I went on those, because even then, although I knew nothing of the dark force involvement in all such healing traditions, I found those organizations' approach to healing to be frustratingly limited and superficial, and based in a pretty low degree of awareness, and so I was already beginning to find out the shortcomings of what are supposed to be our most high-grade and prestigious healing traditions and organizations. There was nothing in those two traditions or methodologies that was really pointing to or seriously helping people towards genuine self actualization - and, as I now recognise, that also meant that there was no means within such traditions / methodologies for anyone to seriously clear themselves of entities and dark force interferences / influences.

In the workshops of both those organizations the participants were told that when they'd finished a healing session they needed to 'close down' (i.e. close their chakras down) in order to protect themselves. That was an absolutely breathtakingly stupid and harmful thing for anyone to be doing - let alone teaching anyone else to do, and it was amazing that that harmful practice was part of standard 'healing' practice in both those organizations (though my impression was that many individual members had a bit more sense and never felt motivated to do that).

Another woeful wrong that they were all teaching was that in order to carry out a healing, the healer needs to 'draw in the Light' through their supposed 'crown chakra'. In hindsight I nowadays recognise that straight off as invoking the dark force and ensuring that one transmits distorted, relatively low-grade healing 'energies'.

Those were just two of the things that showed me that the leading people in those organizations / traditions had very little genuine understanding of what they were doing in what they were calling 'healing', and they were mostly operating on the basis of doing what they'd been taught, though amended individually by what their 'guidance' suggested to them. And, as I've already indicated, for 'their guidance', you really need to read 'the dark force pretending to be some beneficial source of guidance'. Not a single one of those people, at least of whom I was aware, was doing proper energy testing and so getting genuine reliable guidance from his/her own deepest aspects.

In a nutshell, then, although I'm sorry to have to say it, if you want to get into genuine healing, free from troublesome influences, all the healing traditions and organizations - regardless of their reputation and any claims made by them to be 'squeaky clean' - are 'out'. -- Still not convinced? - Well, what about the following?...

A cautionary personal experience...

N.B. Some people might find the following a bit scary!

I started off learning and practising hands-on healing in late 1998 at a small healing group that met on Thursday lunchtimes in a room above the Evolution shop* in Fore Street, Exeter. This group gave healing sessions to members of the public for a nominal donation that simply paid for our use of the room, and we worked on each other when not occupied with members of the public. We all had many seemingly good experiences there, but one particular individual - MR - who came for a few sessions was to prove to be more challengingly educational for me than either I or the group leader had bargained for (though the latter never came to know about that).

It is often claimed by teachers of healing, that people who are learning healing never have clients come to them with problems that are beyond their capability to handle. That, as I now understand, is for the vast majority of healers a complete and total myth, sourced from the dark force in order to cultivate a sense of false security and non-discrimination about who one works with in healing work, and thus to maximize the havoc that the dark force can cause in various people's lives (both healers and clients).

However, that claim would be sort-of true for really well functioning healers (i.e. ones who are no-soul incarnations and are advanced in their self actualization), who could use their exceptional clear-mindedness to learn from difficult and sometimes seemingly threatening situations that come their way, and thus could work out (independently of any tradition or passed-on 'teachings') effective ways of resolving those situations. I appear to have been one such individual, as is evidenced by the fact that not only am I still here, but I've got clear of all the major 'problems' with flying colours, having come out much stronger and more aware, to a considerable extent invulnerable to the dark force, and much better able to assist others to the same end.

* Evolution sells crystals, books, CDs and various paraphernalia for supposed healing and various 'New Age', 'spiritual' (including Buddhist), mystical and paganistic (including Wiccan) traditions, but not, as far as I'm aware, of the major theistic religions. Until mid 2007 I thought that basically what it was selling and the various traditions and practices that it was supporting were mostly beneficial, for I thought that 'spiritual' or 'mystical' was actually 'good' and beneficial. How wrong can one be!!

Not only I, but also a fair number of other occasional visitors to that shop, who I spoke with, experienced about it a dark and mucky energy and didn't feel comfortable lingering there. That is hardly surprising, considering all the ungrounded people frequenting that shop and being further ungrounded by the masses of crystals and other dark force connected paraphernalia there and all the thought forms, elementals and entities that people were unawarely creating and 'dropping' there.

The rooms above it tended to accumulate problematical energies and elementals and 'entities' from the various therapists, clients and workshops that used those rooms.

I would emphasize here that I do not mean to single out Evolution for having such problems. That is the general state of affairs in any shop of that sort anywhere in the world, and normally, as in Evolution, the proprietors would have only the very best of intentions.

I should think the young fellow MR was about 21, and much of the time he had a withdrawn and somewhat troubled look about him. However, he and I seemed to be drawn to each other, so that it usually fell upon me rather than any of the other healers there to give him the sessions that he came for. He told me that he was experiencing a lot of very troubling inner confusion, but, without the sort of experience and knowledge that I have now, I wasn't able to get him to be more precise about what he was experiencing - and in any case at that time I wouldn't have known really what to make of any details that he did come out with. Anyway, he usually seemed to light up during the sessions, and it was obvious to me that he was basically a deeply aware person and a strong healer himself, with a lot of potential unusually close to the surface - and I really liked him, and he seemed to like me.

Then the healing group was closed down, because the leader realized that she had other priorities (actually running that group and teaching Reiki had been an unhealthy thing for her to be doing in the first place), and that was that. ...Or so I thought.

Some time later, at the beginning of 2001, out of the blue I had a contact from MR, who had been to C, a local clairvoyant who I myself had visited for a 'reading' the previous year, not knowing then of the dark force involvement in all clairvoyance / channelling. C had recommended to him that he come to me for healing / guidance. What didn't occur to me at all then was that most likely the dark force had given that idea to C, for the specific purpose of causing me a major problem.

So, I started having weekly sessions with MR in my flat. These were healing exchanges, giving him training in hands-on healing - effectively Reiki, because that was what I was into at that time. I also included for him each time an Alexander Technique lesson, and his physical alignment was consequently rapidly improving. When he was laying hands on me in his turn as 'healer', I had exceptionally intense (and immensely pleasurable) sensations from what I interpreted as an extremely intense flow of healing energy, and in turn I interpreted that as marking him out as an especially powerful healer.

I did, however, feel a bit disturbed at a sort of contradiction about him, for at times I still witnessed that withdrawn and deeply troubled countenance of his, while at other times he seemed radiant and positive - and he still spoke in rather vague terms about very troubling and confusing inner experiences. I also got the impression of an entity around him - I assumed it was some sort of guide - and it seemed very big, almost the height of the room. It seemed to be sort-of 'loving' but in a creepy, twisted way, and had about it a slight sense of menace. Indeed, I also sensed a certain dark 'stickiness' in MR's energy field, which added to the slightly disturbing quality of MR and whatever was around him.

After early February 2001, I heard no more from MR (the silence starting with his failing to appear for a loosely pre-arranged session) - which immediately troubled me, for I sensed that something was wrong about all this. It didn't seem appropriate for me to go chasing him, for if he didn't want to come any more, that was his own choice. However, just a little later that month his mother, SR, contacted me because she herself wanted to learn hands-on healing. So, she started coming to me for weekly healing exchanges in which she could learn hands-on healing. Apparently she didn't know anything about MR's stopping coming to me, for she sought to avoid prying in his affairs, and recognised that he had issues that really only he could figure out how to handle.

A few days after her first session with me I attended the third of four of the healer training workshops of the National Federation of Spiritual Healers (NFSH) that I'd been attending. This was with PE and RE, who were highly regarded local healers with much experience in healer training (i.e. for the sort of spiritual healing that the NFSH concerns itself with). Nonetheless, I felt that a lot was lacking about them and what they were 'teaching', and that neither of them had anything like the sort of depth of awareness and ability to understand healing in a way that would come naturally to an enlightened person such as myself - though evidently RE in particular abounded in psychic 'awareness', which I well understood even then to be something very different from genuine enlightened awareness.

Indeed, my heart rather sank when they took time to introduce the workshop participants to such practices as astrology and numerology as supposedly being part of people's training for spiritual healing, for, even though I didn't know about the dark force involvement in all that then, it seemed to indicate a hopelessly confused outlook, and one that was pointing well away from any true direction for enlightenment. They also taught the myths that healers need to 'close down' (i.e. close down their chakras) at the end of any session, and that at the beginning of a session the healer needed to 'draw in the Light' from above himself, through his supposed 'crown chakra' - again showing me that in their healing work they were working more on the basis of rules and tradition rather than from any sort of deep awareness or genuine understanding of the healing process and healing methods.

Sometime during the second (and final) day of that workshop we had a group distant healing session. The way we were instructed to do it was as follows. First, we would sit in an inwardly facing circle and all together concentrate and visualize a column of white light being created by our intent in the middle of the circle. Then we'd have a period of about 10 minutes during which simultaneously each of us would silently give distant healing successively to two particular people who (s)he felt needed it at that time, as follows:

Focus on the person from memory, then silently invite the person's 'higher self' into the room to take whatever it needed from the healing energy of that column of white light.

So, I followed that procedure for two people, one of whom was MR, who I assumed was in some sort of trouble and therefore would benefit from some distant healing. Although it didn't strike me as significant at that time, simultaneously with my focusing on MR, RE coughed a little and left the room.

At the end of that session, RE appeared in the doorway of the room and fired at me the question, "Philip, did somebody you brought in here in the session have a serious problem?" - to which I said that I didn't know about that exactly, but there was this guy, MR, who'd stopped coming to me for healing exchanges. RE immediately barked at me, "Philip, don't you ever see that fellow again! He's in serious trouble, and you mustn't have anything more to do with him!".

I'm afraid typical of RE, he fancied himself as the cognoscentus, and regarded me as being just another healing novice who wouldn't be able to cope with such issues, so he volunteered no further information.

When I asked him if MR had a spirit attachment he gave a non-committal sort of 'yes' with the implied subtext that he didn't think I was ready to be told about such things (which of course was bullshit). He did at least explain that when he'd coughed and left the room he'd felt some 'presence' carrying an immense amount of 'negativity', which is something that he said he's very sensitive to, it giving him an intense feeling of having to get well away, and causing a constriction in his throat (hence the coughing). He explained that while out of the room he'd been remotely 'looking at'* the energy systems of the workshop participants to see where the problem lay, and the problem appeared to be connected to me.

* I.e., as I nowadays understand, not really looking at anything real but being shown images by the dark force, which has its own agenda to mislead.

At the end of the workshop I asked RE if he would be able to help MR by removing his spirit attachment - just in case MR got in touch with me again so that I then had the opportunity to refer MR to him, and, a little reluctantly, he said 'yes' - quite categorically, but there was a sort of negative energy about that 'yes', which I could only assume meant something like "-But don't you bloody well dare to refer him to me, because I've told you to keep away from him and have nothing to do with him!" - as though it was his business to give me orders as to what I should or shouldn't do in my own life! Ordering people about like that is all about personal control agenda, not genuine healing - dark force stuff, through and through.

A few days after that workshop, on the last day of February, SR (i.e. MR's mother) came to me for another session. I broke the news to her about what had happened at the workshop, and that apparently MR had some sort of powerful spirit attachment that was carrying a lot of 'negativity', which, apparently, RE could help him with (though no doubt at a pretty stiff price financially). I also gave her a sealed letter with the same information, to pass to MR, so that at least he had the best available information to assist him towards taking any necessary action.

The following week, instead of SR turning up for her next session, a letter from her turned up in the post, and in it she was bitterly complaining that I'd brought disharmony and problems into their family life, and she now felt that she couldn't have anything further to do with me. The old game of "Shoot the messenger and ignore the problem".  So, that was that. ...Or so I thought.

About the same time I was going to weekly 'Sounds and Silence' sessions of a very small group of supposedly Dzogchen practitioners (Dzogchen being the 'highest' of the traditions within Tibetan Buddhism), and I learnt from the group leaders ('facilitators') that the name of PE and RE had just become mud in the eyes of them and many others whose activities revolved around the Evolution shop, because a meditation workshop the weekend after PE and RE's workshop, held in the same room (above the Evolution shop), had had to waste an initial half hour trying to clear out an 'entity' that appeared to be in that room. I explained about what had passed during that workshop I'd been on, and there were rolling eyes and tut-tuts, with mutterings about PE and RE having been seriously negligent in not clearing the room of entities and problematical energies before leaving after the workshop.

Actually, my understanding in hindsight is that the sort of methodology that PE and RE or just about any other healer or 'lightworker' would have used would in truth not have done much to clear out any such problems, and any apparent clearance would have simply been the dark force simulating a clearance in order to mislead the particular people for its own purposes.

It thus looked as though MR's serious problem was more than just having a spirit attachment, and involved his somehow unawarely 'dropping' troublesome entities here and there. This appeared to be underlined when, about a month later, the enthusiastic but in his own ways problematical local healer MC, who I mention elsewhere on this site, visited me for some purpose and at once started using a pendulum to dowse and see if there was an entity in my flat (the tacit assumption of us both being that any such entity then would most likely be something left over from MR's sessions with me). MC got a 'yes' to that, and then guided me through 'smudging' my flat - lightly fumigating it with smoke from burning sage*, supposedly to clear out the 'entity'. Once we'd done that he dowsed again, and got an 'all clear' indication, so assumed that the 'entity' had been cleared off.

* Ha-ha-ha! A bit of nice-smelling smoke to clear out an entity? Not on your furdlemucking nelly! Perhaps these so-called 'lightworkers' don't know the difference between entities and flies! The smoke just might chase out a few flies!

Basically, 'smudging' is one of the myriad of completely useless methods that healers, psychics, 'lightworkers' and so on use for supposedly clearing out entities. And where are all these methods sourced from? - Our old 'friend' the dark force, of course. Get people spending their time using bogus methods, and then they're unlikely ever to get using the methods that really work (and help free people from dark force interferences).

Within an hour of his departure he phoned me from home, sounding really fraught, telling me that the 'entity' that had been in my flat had attached to him and his young daughter, and was making him feel extremely tired, with a thick head. He got some 'specialist' entity removal instructions eventually from the guy who was one of the leaders of the previously mentioned 'Dzogchen' group, and MC reckoned that he did eventually get that to work, and he and his daughter were okay again.

Over the next few years, very occasionally I'd see MR in the busy High Street, and indeed on a few occasions I actually came right face-to-face with him in the local Sainsbury's supermarket. But every time he clammed up and pretended not to have noticed or at least recognised me - though the first time that happened, he very purposefully changed his direction of walking to get right away from me once he'd spotted me, and on that occasion there was about him a distinct sense of his being in a very angry and disturbed state. I made no attempt to make any connection with him as he clearly didn't want it, and indeed on those various occasions I really didn't have anything further helpful to offer him (as I have now) to enable him to get out of his troublesome hole.

...And that's the last of that story, of which I'm aware. That is, except for what is revealed now through my using inner inquiry supported by energy testing to do a post mortem on it. My understanding now (which still has to remain somewhat speculative, but at least effectively and usefully explains everything) is as follows...

In summary...

Because of my own hard experience and observations of what is going on for others, it has been necessary for me to point out the serious pitfalls and dangers in healing as almost always carried out - much as I don't want to put anyone off from cultivating and using their healing abilities.

However, as I have shown, you don't have to operate in any of the normal highly problematical ways, and provided you keep to the fully open-minded, belief-free, 'from my own core essence only' approach to healing, and put priority emphasis on your own self healing and self actualization process, then it is safe (as much as anything in life is safe!) and well worthwhile to cultivate and awarely and wisely use your healing abilities, albeit almost certainly not in a formal healing practice with paying clients. I now point once again to what is probably the best place for you to embark on what is bound to be a joyful and life-enhancing exploration: Healing and Self Actualization - The Safest and Quickest Way.